prod. me 

mastered by @cmten

keep it to yourself
before it all go wrong i know
never ask for help
before you turn it all on me 
keep it to yourself
feel like dying all i know 
never ask for help 
is this what life's supposed to be?

keep it to yourself 
its all on purpose
again, i couldn't help myself
i'm taking much more time than i give

how'd we end up in this place?
can't even look at my face
waking up is a waste
said i'm in pain every day

i'm stuck
never whole
why can't you come make me whole?
wings cut
so i fold
i can't get away i fucking--
chemicals
i can't pay attention i can't focus 
i need time to cope with 
i'm hopeless

keep it to yourself
before it all go wrong i know
never ask for help
before you turn it all on me 
keep it to yourself
feel like dying all i know 
never ask for help 
is this what life's supposed to be?

don't mean to scare you off
i waste away
and you don't even care at all
but maybe i'm in the wrong
i hate myself 
feel like dying? 
put that shit in a song

keep it to yourself
before it all go wrong i know
never ask for help
before you turn it all on me 
keep it to yourself
feel like dying all i know 
never ask for help 
is this what life's supposed to be?

insideoutsidevoice(prod. hxstage)

co-prod & mixed by: @cmten
art by: @c3of

i don't want this time to end up like the last one
why we coming back to something that we passed once?
why'd i let you go?
i made you feel like you're the bad one
better off alone
can't get this shit up off my back

trying to unpack
i need to relax
feelings start to last
something might go bad

something might go bad
i'm about to crack
i can't take it back
leave it in the past

leave it in the past
ion fw that
i made too much headway i ain't never going back
i want out this shit by the ending of this song
(already used that)

why don't you just leave me alone?
i don't have a care in the world
i'm pushing everything away until i'm all by myself

ion talk
keep it to myself before my shit get rocked
he gon plot?
i got something waiting when the cameras off

stop
this shit is fucking toxic
ion like to box shit
waiting for a call, but it never comes
ion wanna talk only know how to run
you don't know and i don't care
i said i'm already done

you wanna know what i'd die for?
everything to go back how it started off
i got no one to call
so when it falls apart
i just scream at the wall
til i can play the part

i don't want this time to end up like the last one
why we coming back to something that we passed once?
why'd i let you go?
i made you feel like you're the bad one
better off alone
can't get this shit up off my back

trying to unpack
i need to relax
feelings start to last
something might go bad

something might go bad
i'm about to crack
i can't take it back
leave it in the past

salem(leave it in the past)(prod. hxstage x cmten)

prod. me and @cmten
mixed by @cmten

🖤🦦

i don't wanna go outside today 
get away i am not okay 
don't need feelings they just get in the way

don't need feelings they just get in the way
i don't talk i don't got nothing to say
i'm in pain i wanna take it away

how i'm living in pain every day?
i wanna talk ab how i get paid
every day i wake up it's the same 
i'm not fucking ok

chemical for the pain
reticle for the brain
every day the fucking same
nothing left for me to gain
what the fuck im supposed to say?

lost it 
how'd i get so exhausted?
always thinking that i got this
someone come and put a stop to my--

cause you know and you're right that you're in my head

i don't wanna go outside today 
get away i am not okay 
don't need feelings they just get in the way

don't need feelings they just get in the way
i don't talk i don't got nothing to say
i'm in pain i wanna take it away

deserve (prod. hxstage x cmten)

prod. @daisynuke
mastered by @cmten

you ever come across cold
for the sake of a loved one
trying to find yourself
enveloped in chemicals

i'm off the wire again 
head feels like fire again 
i wanna die but i can't 
it'd make them cry if i went

collapsing on the floor 
i don't even know what to do anymore
this shit wasn't something i was doing before
step back
what the fuck i'm even doing this for?

i don't even wanna fight back
imma get my face kicked in til the world turns back
feels like when it rains it pours
i can't do this anymore

i don't know why i'm trying so hard
spent all day crying so far 

i try to scream and no one hears at all

you ever come across cold
for the sake of a loved one
trying to find yourself
enveloped in chemicals

it lives inside my head
it's deaf and it's well fed
i couldn't leave my bed
left my clawing out for something

it was the end of him
can't let this shit take me

you ever come across cold
for the sake of a loved one
trying to find yourself
enveloped in chemicals

chemicals

chemicals (prod. daisynuke)

HXSTAGE MERCH: https://fuckthismerch.com

prod. @daisynuke

mastered by @cmten

art by @poppygavin on instagram

you’ve been starting to lock yourself away
you live inside the same house but you don’t see them for days
and you try to purge it but it stays

right there Inside of you
you stay inside because you

lost yourself
but did you get what you want?
and every day just feels the same
since the day you heard her name

you can’t stand when they’re around
you never speak you’d just lose ground
an outcast in your home;
it’s there

right there inside of you
you try to hide it but you

lost yourself
but did you get what you want?
and every day just feels the same
since the day you heard her name

HXSTAGE MERCH

did you get what you want? (prod. daisynuke)

co prod. @cmten

Wide awake empty space
Contemplate how much more I can take

Color runs from your face
I recount how I plan to leave this place

Throw it all up
Onto the floor
It makes you sick but you’ll come back you’ll ask for more

Blowing off dust
To restore
The way things were 
I hate this
Not fun anymore

I had it all wrong
It’s all on me
I keep my foot on my neck until I run out of breath
Don’t know how I couldn’t see

Throw it all up
Onto the floor
It makes you sick but you’ll come back you’ll ask for more

Blowing off dust
To restore
The way things were 
I hate this
Not fun anymore

throw up (hxstage x cmten)

art by @cmten

how long til you're called away?
hit him til he get it then he crawl away
get the cash in play
i don't wanna talk get the cash in play

i play with a red ray no mysterio
melt face when i play through the stereo
any case imma just stay leaving scary oh

i just wanna die here
i just wanna watch it fucking kill them all like it killed me
i'd cut myself and watch it fall but i can't bleed
all alone until i fall. i concede.

i'd admit defeat it that would make it stop

how long til you're called away?
hit him til he get it then he crawl away
get the cash in play
i don't wanna talk get the cash in play

calledawayx86(prod. hxstage)

prod. @daisynuke

mastered by @cmten

it takes away
everything is gray
 
monochrome it stayed 
for many days 
it eats away

please just put your time inside the bag and nobody gets hurt
your fighting only makes it worse

i keep wasting time on all my floundering attempts 
at meaningful escape

all my own mistakes 
the mess i made 
to start the day

please just put your time inside the bag and nobody gets hurt
your fighting only makes it worse

i keep wasting time on all my floundering attempts

floundering(prod. daisynuke)

ion kno what's up
i can't see straight
what was in that blunt?
i said i need blood
if he talking then it's up
no camel he get crushed
different when i'm up
actin different when i'm up

static it come out to play
i try to keep it away
i do it one of two ways
i gotta smoke or gotta get paid

you can see it in my eyes
i'm gone tell you that i'm fine
but im dying every night

oh no
how'd i get so low?
where did everyone go?
now i feel so alone
i get so cold
i don't know where i go
crash this shit it's time to go
nothing ever made me whole
in my chest i got a hole

ion kno what's up
i can't see straight
what was in that blunt?
i said i need blood
if he talking then it's up
no camel he get crushed
different when i'n up
actin different when i'm up

--------------------------------------

wanna know what? i'm done(x8)

i do not fuck with that shit 
i told you i'm not the one
i like the cut of that bitch 
i think i might put it on
he keep on touching my shit 
i make this shit viet nam 
i'm in this suffering shit
and it just keep going on 

he got hit? 
he must've been downrange
all i do complain 
all i feel is pain 
drowning out my thoughts with the smoke
different strains 
anti every day 
anti social every day
he anti on social so we put him in a crate 

throw his ass away
dont participate
all i speak is hate 
put you in your place
there ain't no escape
yeah there ain't no damn escape

see myself i'm flawed as a bitch
odd as a bitch
i don't feel myself i'm feeling wrong in this bitch 
i've been kicking shit for way too long in this bitch 
way too long in this bitch

CAN'T SEE STR8//DOWNRANGE

why the fuck do i keep feeling like this?
I'll let you treat me bad i don't give a shit
cause i'm so tired of always being alone 
and ain't nobody ever hit up my phone

stop it
i don't really wanna talk today
bitch you better watch where you walk today
touch one my family you gone today
felt like shit so made a song today
why every hour feel long today?
fucked up yeah the way that i feel
everything is going wrong today

i'm so tired i'm so fucking done with fighting 
spending every waking moment sat here crying
try to fix it but the feeling's amplifying 
i can't get away and don't think it's worth trying 

imma fucking get it started 
talkin' shit then i'm begging your pardon
you on some shit that i don't want no part in 
if you and your friend want a feat then i'm charging
i walk in then right back out the party
we got kicked out for going too retarded
me and my bros like an army
he said "it's typo" we hit him regardless 
we gonna hit him regardless 
i find the door to that shit and i barge in 
all of my feelings stay guarded 
let it all out and pass out on the carpet

why the fuck do i keep feeling like this?
I'll let you treat me bad i don't give a shit
cause i'm so tired of always being alone 
and ain't nobody ever hit up my phone

treat me bad ;c(self preservation)

I’ve found it’s best if I just stay right here all by myself 
Can’t talk to people because they’re where disappointment dwells 
I don’t do anything but shut out all my fucking friends 
I ask myself "was this all worth it in the fucking end?" 

It never goes away 

In all this self brought pain 
It fucking plagues my brain 
This happens every day 
wake up it stays the same 
Don’t think I’ll ever break away 


Lay on the floor where I can daydream my whole life away 
It seems that fading out for hours is my only escape 
I don’t get how I ever made myself to be this way 
And I can’t sleep I think this sickness took my happy place 

It took my happy place 
Burning every bridge away 
Like nothing ever changed 
No ones round to feel my pain 

It never goes away

In all this self brought pain 
It fucking plagues my brain 
This happens every day 
wake up it stays the same 
Don’t think I’ll ever break away 

Tired of looking for ways out 
I want it all out my face now 
I think I’m starting to phase out 
It’s getting worse every day now 
Please get me out of this place 
Can’t keep my head fucking straight
I don’t like being this way 
I don’t like being this way

I wanna break 
I wanna go 
Fuck I dont even feel safe in my home 
Paranoid somethings gon break out the fold 
If it keeps building up I’m gonna blow

salem(leave it in the past)(prod. hxstage x cmten)

HXSTAGE

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