ill release real music sometime i promise

stop ! let me grab my backpack

i don’t wanna be late to my class again

honors been waiting since last november 

when we had to quarantine for a term 

had to keep the doors clean. in return

we would spend 14 days alone

only seeing four teens if were 

lucky enough to see a friend 

up in morning we would spend 

our time right online 

doing assignments 

RUN IT BACK !!!!!11

let me digress 

to when we were young, not scared of anyone 

don’t know where the time went

took a nap now it’s 2021

one more day

one more day

until i gotta say

“ooh, moma OOOOOH ! 

do you like my cap and gown?

ooh mama, OOOOOOH

are you proud???” x2

he said with a mask on

he can’t believe he’s already at the finish line

but before he packs up

he’s gotta pass one more class

i don’t wanna go

i don’t wanna go act like i’m happy 

about a cap thrown in the air 

don’t know if i’ll last long in the

real i world

fear the world x2

practice my penmanship 

while my pity’s pending in a

pretty small penny sized penitentiary 

that i call my brain. i don’t plan to plead 

for a plodding pace in life 

i just wanna say

i just wanna say 

one more day

one more day

until i gotta say

“ooh, moma OOOOOH ! 

do you like my cap and gown?

ooh mama, OOOOOOH

are you proud???” x2

class of 2021

grace

safe with me

6/8 + 217.5
4/4 + 140

hbd mum thanks for everything <3

you know i'm just not about it
you tell me i'm not around it
i couldn't be 
i couldn't be
i couldn't be 

but you're safe with me
while the sea turns a royal
hoping we fall asleep 
just hoping we fall asleep

you're safe with me
keep holding my hand for a while
it's starting to rain
what's our luck?
oh these pieces are playing our part
don't you see that it's not gonna stop
maybe it's just a part of the way
a part of the way

don't you know
how hard i tried
to fall in line
and stay inside
this empty place 
why'd you follow me?
why'd you follow me?
was it all for me?


you're safe with me
keep holding my hand for a while
it's starting to rain
what's our luck?
oh these pieces are playing our part
don't you hear that it's not gonna stop
maybe it's just a part of the way
a part of the way

you're safe with me
keep holding my hand for a while
it's starting to rain
what's our luck?
oh these pieces are playing our part
don't you hear that it's not gonna stop
maybe it's just a part of the way
a part of the way

safe with me

song from 2021

never finished
kinda cool

alina (2021)

hyacinth --- artwork by @reksi420 --- additional guitars by @buzit0

you're my hyacinth  
that got away
from our promises
our promises

you're my hyacinth
growing out of place
I hope to god you'll stay

and i remember
wishing you were down by the lake
oh no
couldn't keep you up from drowning away
at all
finally gave up on your life
so don't wait
it's all good

now it's november 
and we're sitting outside in the rain
our voices tremble
you're whispering
!that's not what you said!
and i remember 
hoping that it'll come to an end
as we sway in the wind
close our eyes
as we sing 
about

and i can't believe 
your safe in my arms
time stops
to breathe
so just sway in the wind 
and don't worry
cause you've become so sweet
close your eyes 
fall asleep
have i found what i need?
as it rains down
i'm feeling all the pressure in my veins
now
i'm holding every moment to my chest
hearts beating with no rest
i've finally found my end

you're my hyacinth  
that got away
from our promises
i'll promise it

you're my hyacinth
growing out of place
I hope to god you'll stay

<3

hyacinth

with https://soundcloud.com/hanirl :)

then I sit down

put away my cellphone

do it for my health

then I'm gonna tell nobody 

the way I've felt

tell tales

tell everybody that I'm doing well

I'm not

okay, still sitting down

open up my laptop

can't talk now

is what I tell my friends 

because I'm writing about 

everything, every thought,

every scene, every now

and then

I write about how

my thoughts pull me down

why are they so loud?

Why are they so mean?

Fierce and hostile, I fear I've lost sight 

Cause years of my life

I'd feel the gaslights

Kept wasting my time,

my friends would ask why

my tears won't pass now

I block it all out

just shut myself down

It's so much more than what I wrote

what I wrote isn't all empirical at all

I'm gonna get out of my head

soak up the sunlight

and fall in love with life again

it's so much more than what I wrote

So you read what I wrote from

most of the week where I hoped for

nobody to pose if I'm honest about

what's on my mental

I won't pretend to

act like I don't dread 

the palpable potential

that I will only end up

like what I've tried to end but

if I tried and I failed

would you probably feel

like I've fallen to my own virtues

this isn't a goodbye, it's far from that

I don't want you to worry, time won't hurt you

it's so much more than what I wrote

what I wrote isn't all empirical at all

I'm gonna get out of my head

soak up the sunlight

and fall in love with life again

fall in love

and fall in love with life again

fall in love

it's so much more than what I wrote

playwright w/ han.irl<3

sorry for the lack of releases i don't get inspired when i'm not suffering
*(edit: turns out not suffering was not the reason)

stream on here i need numbers :(
https://open.spotify.com/track/0z2sVaLkghAhkcqZQ0PoSt?si=3c8861534cc549a2

support me
https://twitter.com/whosoru
https://discord.gg/QWJbFsNfBb

+Entropy+

And you wanted it to stop
I couldn't give you up
I wanna run off out
But I couldn't even walk
At all

And you ask why-
And you ask me-

And you ask why-
And you ask me why-
And you ask why-
And you ask me why-
And you ask why-
And you ask me why-

And you wanted it to stop
I couldn't give you up
I wanna run off out
But I couldn't even walk

And you ask why-
And you ask me why-

Think you should feel fine
I can tell when you lie
Cause you just can't find
Maybe it's in your blood?

It's in your blood
Yearning for the other side
Of a fence that you built up
Up with all your might

And you wanted it to stop
I couldn't give you up
I wanna run off out
But I couldn't even walk

And you ask why-
And you ask me why-

Entropy

Download

https://fanlink.tv/ifyourewithme

originally made for FORM's 'All Nighter 9'


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I hide the words again from myself
Knowing no one else is there, to tell
And always fighting, to understand you

And I get dizzy
Just staring out there
So if you're with me
Could you just give me a sign
Cause it's been ages and I
(I'm still alive)
Haven't really been fine

Wait
Feeling lost, can you say we're bound to fate?
Scared of losing everything along the way
I can't change
Chasing a ghost that won't show face
Pile up these dirty leaves
Pointless things ah yeah
Convenient that
There's things I have to tell you

And I get dizzy
Just staring out there
So if you're with me
Could you just give me a sign
Cause it's been ages and I
Haven't really been fine
You took all the time from me
Just passing me by
Show me some life

I keep us tied to each other
Your face in all the places I've been
Still stuck around all the corners
Staring out there

Hide your words
Obscure my face
An empty place
It doesn't even matter
I throw it all away
To escape your face
It fills me with dread
Cause it doesn't even matter

Tell me now
What if we couldn't take —
Call it out
Feeling of echoes
No one knows

listen to me
How did it go
when it fell
out of my reach
Reach out to me
Hopelessly waiting
Wandering out sight

Didn't waste my time
Watering all these dead flowers

Don't go chasing this
Don't go chasing this
Cause I wanted you to know
There's a fire outside your door
Engulfing everything

Just for now
Just for now
It wouldn't matter anymore
Until the dust settles clear

Just for now
Just for a moment

So fingers crossed
Left behind

alina (2021)

hyacinth

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