This song is such a beautifully written song its such a beautiful was to relate and interpret. I will forever love this song.

songs genuinely too sad for me to listen to!

do not play

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lyrics:
coming to terms with dying alone
mindless lobotomy staring at phone
after having a life that is empty at most
brain damaged parasite seeking a host
i have 22 years worth of baggage you see
and nobody can carry such deadweight for me
im expendable   surely im great for the good
but the bad is so bad that it ruins the mood
exploding head syndrome is always a blast
and i bend over backwards and land on my ass
which is always the issue thats holding me back
making excuses for people who treat me like crap
so id stay home from school but now school is at home
so i lay in my bed all day browsing my phone
neurodivergency eating my time
wasting my life being online

down at rock bottom , midlife crisis coming soon
throwing me out from a plane with no parachute
i have no plans for my life and nothing to do
nothing to do
down in the gutter, surrounded by sewage drains
stinking up everything till i relapse again
rock bottom doesn’t feel so different from my bed
so i guess

coming to terms with my spinstery self
is less of a shame spiral more like accept
so i’ll just live as a vampire suck out the fun
of every person who thinks im the one
i dont like to imagine the future at all
but maybe without all the trouble of love
i’d be fine on my own drinking blood from a bag
500 years old and still just as sad
so the futures abhorrent , and the past is a pain
and the present is empty and boring and lame
homemade brain tumor eating my skull
gnawing and gnashing head empty no thoughts
and livings repetitive  lifes just a bust
everythings relative  i am just dust
just the bug you brush of your ear
singing my songs that nobody hears
down at rock bottom , midlife crisis come again
throwing me out from a roof with no working brain
i have no goals for my life and nothing to say 
nothing to say
down in the gutter, surrounded by rusty pipes
falling asleep in the shitwater overnight
from shit i have come and to shit i’ll return thats  fine
thats fine

Rock Bottom

five seconds flat

doomsday

The Runaway Bunny (HBO Max: Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)

You Are My Baby (from The Runaway Bunny)

You Are My Baby (from The Runaway Bunny)

Newgrounds Death Rugby - Hinamizawa

lyrics:

im becoming consistently worse everyday
and i am turning into someone i really hate
and time just ticks on the final day will never come
i can’t give up so i am forced to keep on
all ive wanted is suddenly so grey and dull
aspirations have turned into a muddy blob
nothing spikes me and nothing ever really stays
only person i trusted to suddenly went away

sleeping till the day is new 
sleeping till i feel confused  
doing all the things i shouldn’t 
picking fights and acting stupid 
no one really sees me do they?
if they did why are they here then?
all i do is make them sad
all i do is always bad


how i wish i never mattered to anyone
dissapointing is worse when its someone you love
and thats what i do, consistently ill let you down
i promise you, its better if you get out now
all I’ve wanted is suddenly so out of reach
how i miss it, the hopeful naitivity 
back when i dreamed, so convinced it’d work out soon
only 15, now im 23 in june

sleeping till the time is stuck
sleeping till i can’t wake up
doing everything to get by
is that why im still alive now?
why have i not cracked the code yet?
am i looking in the wrong place?
all i do is push my luck
all i do is always wrong

Always Wrong

My Love is Sick

Anthems For A Seventeen Year-Old Girl

Anthems For A Seventeen Year-Old Girl (From "I Saw the TV Glow")

It's Like Our Little Machine

I Am

From the album "Pink Hearts Yellow Moons" Kindercore Records (USA), Track & Field (UK). Released September 7, 1999.


If You Should Try To Kiss Her

These are my songs I wrote and produced. Very raw versions tho.

721  I love you is just a word

Kinoko Teikoku - Yoru Ga Aketara

Cherry Peel

Tim I Wish You Were Born a Girl

This isn't even the best song on the album wtf

divorce lawyers i shaved my head

racehorse: get married!

lyrics:

guess who broke their streak after 9 pathetic weeks
guess im not as ok as i thought that i could be
i didn’t choose this life but it chose me
then tell me why is it my responsibility

i still do things im not allowed to do
like hit myself and take it out on you
i still cut my thighs now and then and forget to take my medicine
lately i can’t convince myself that i am good deep down


nothing surprises me anymore in my behaviour as a monster
nothing hurts me like the way that i hurt you
and if i killed myself would i hurt you more or would you rather i was here this fucked up
always messing up you
always messing up me too


i didnt want this i hope you know that i do not
do you know that i am sadder right now than i ever ever thought that i could be
who knew me before this shit   or has it always been like this
either way i cut myself today  and i fucked up

cause i like you but thats the whole fucking problem
cause i dont know how to treat people i love so
i dont want to keep on loving you cause is hurting me and also hurting you too
cause i can feel you slipping away
i can feel you slipping away
whys it like this?
it is hurting me which is hurting you which is what i what i always do
always fucking up somehow
i just wish that loving was not so fucking tough  but nothing is and thats why its unfair cause i love you so much so much so much

i am sorry that i love you

i am
i am
i am sorry that i can’t make you understand

you can’t read my mind and i can’t read yours which should be alright but its hard of course
nothing ever is easy with me
but im sorry either way

But Thats The Whole Fucking Problem

lyrics:

just because i survived 
doesnt make me stronger
i dont feel like a survivor
i feel like frankensteins monster
artificially alive
with shackles stapled to my ankles
carrying weights that aren’t mine
with a body torn and tangled

i am still alive just like a cockroach
hiding underneath your sink
i survived but not on purpose
and what do i have to show for it?
a repertoire of sorry songs
and calloused fingers playing chords
i write and write with no prevail

i have a backpack full of rocks but all the rocks build up in time
and whilst i know their mine to carry , they were never really mine
i have to bear your heavy burden, have to bear it and survive
but god i can’t keep pushing rocks up hills when they keep rolling down

so im staying in my dirt hole
like an ostrich saving face
leave my tossed out dirty clothes around
like a makeshift bed
and if i curl up in the corner
to cry until i sleep
that’ll be another question
i’ll avoid and then repeat

not saving myself for anyone
im saving you from me
cus im as toxic as a wasteland
and as awful as can be
im like candy good in portions
but ill carve holes in your teeth
and ill smother all your organs
till you grow tired of me

i have a chain that jinge jangles all the way home to my bed
and if my bodys scarred and mangled that means im making progress
i know moving on will hurt and holy fuck it hurts like hell
but god i can’t push rocks up hills without hurting myself

Hurting Myself

Hello. I am Blood Girl! 
I am a 26 year old creature that sings about sadness and bettering

Always Wrong

Blood Girl

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