BLOOD GIRL your songs saved my life thank you  forever

I'm so glad you expanded on this song, it's turned out so great! The Great Big Plan was always one of my favourite tracks on Unemployment Blues so this was a lovely surprise!

lyrics:
got a borderline brain   just a chronic concussion!
so whats your problem dear?  my problem? pfft nothing!
how bout with life in itself can ya fix that? hey listen
dya have something along the lines of personality fixing?
hows your head ? well I’ve only had complaints!
i went home from the doctor with a note on my brain
saying: here lies the problem you were trying to find
should’ve known the source was in me when my mouth always tastes like bile
got shitfuck immune system  sick as a dog
im bored outta my mind coughing yellow snot up
the psychiatrist talked to me like i was dumb
it was hard not to get up and scream  from the top of my lungs

yeah my brains not the best  it has several pests
sewer rats scour thru it tryna find trash to ingest
yet im doing what i can with it    I’ve always done that
i dont need pity  i am fine i am

ok with everything being fucked up  with me having shit luck
already knew that much but hey why not just pile it on
im like hardwood im infested  with my childhood home
im like broken bottles bestest when thrown out of control
im like home before the sundown   but sundown never stops
especially when you’re abused at home while growing up
im like just sneak out in the morning and hope they dont wake up
im like why are you so thirsty? why are you so rough?

even in the nights where i was sure i would die i never prayed 
instead i clasped my fingers tight and told god if he ever showed his face       i would show him
the true meaning behind the sin of wrath  i got borderline anger i am barely holding back
and god its been festering for years and i am still pissed at you
i already got a shitty dad i dont need two

i got a borderline brain with some extra spicy spices
with depression and avoidant sprinkled over it like lice 
i have ocd that follows me around at every turn
i got a list that is too long for them to print it on my urn

like here lies blood girl: cause of death unknown
but even when im dead someone will try to have my cover blown
and share my lifestory that was never meant for them
share my saddest secrets with their friends colleagues friend

cause im just a wet specimen  sitting on the shelf
gods favourite part time play is making people mentally ill
thats why i just dance around the saddest clown he got
he snaps his fingers    suddenly ill cry and wanna cut
borderline is scary i got mood swings for days
anger that i hate  feelings that feel fake
i am worried im lying to myself  even when
i am clearly so sick that i couldn’t even tell

and even in the nights where i was sure id commit suicide i never prayed
instead i clasped my fingers tight and told myself to never go that way   and to show them
the true meaning behind changing ways   i got years of being my own therapist i should get payed
and i will keep bettering myself until im better than the rest!
and i can do that even with my brain full of pests!

Borderline Brain

no rhyme end song

forgive me father i have sinned
its been 2 years since my last album
every song I’ve written since
have been about not writing   i won’t
bore you with the details
i will spare you all the gore
please dont pick my brain for reasons 
why i haven’t written more

i was once a young musician   only 16  full of spark
with promising ambition  i  made  a lot of art
i wore my guitar on my back  no matter where i’d go i took it with
i wrote so many songs and didn’t care that they were mostly shit
in the years since i have wondered , what exactly caused the change
cus at some point in adulthood    writing turned into a pain
now i pick my words with caution ,  i am scared of every verse
perfectionism haunts me with its unproductive curse

i was once a  smaller being  truly hopeful to a fault
i was freshly turned adult yet  still a child inside my heart
the way i felt like i was owed something, a life devoid of pain
the same way everything  turns out alright    before the movie ends
i’ve learned that life  is merely life   just random acts of consequence
i hate to be so cynical  but  thats how i protect myself
from thinking i am owed a good life   just because i was abused
not that i am not, but it is work,   not a decided truth

forgive me father i have sinned
its been 2 years since my last album
every song I’ve written since
have been about not writing   i won’t
bore you with the details
i will spare you all the gore
please dont pick my brain for reasons 
why i haven’t written more

Life Is Merely Life

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Trust In The Process

unfinished, forgotten & scrapped songs, demos & ideas i've decided needed more love than they got when i made them . these are from 2019-2024, & i hope you like them <3

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Aunt Tilley is a scientist who creates novel plants through genetic tweaking.

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Hello. I am Blood Girl! 
I am a 26 year old creature that sings about sadness and bettering

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