Bipolar Paradise Pt. I

I think i lost my mind a while ago
cos ive been seeing some ghosts
and id be lying if i told you im fine
but i lie
yeah, these thoughts i would never speak out loud
Ive seen you cry but ive never seen you shout
like a hurricane, these shots dont ricochet
sight blurred im walkin dazed, girl im fucking faded
or maybe wasted, i cant remember how it happened
oh i dont know my limits at all
im sinking down into my thoughts
oh my god

but so what if i drank too much
this aint love, its just a firefight
and even if its not enough
ill say it once i swear i never lied
but this is the last time
but this is the last time
but this is the last time
but this is the last time
youll ever bring me down
girl you know im drownin
and i keep goin down
but ill swear that im not , im not, im not 

its friendly fire and sunlight 
the aftermath of one too many
words i said, when i should of said nothing at all
at all
i gotta stop overthinking
and missing
what could have been
you were never even really here
and still were are spinning
just liars and cheaters
right back where we started
but it dont get easier 
i am drowning
in liquor and apathy
will be the death of me

but so what if i drank too much
this aint love, its just a firefight
and even if its not enough
ill say it once i swear i never lied
but this is the last time
but this is the last time
but this is the last time
but this is the last time
youll ever bring me down

The Eden Project - drowning.



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shes in love with the concept
as if were all just how she imagined
cos were in love i just dont know it yet
well tell me how am i supposed to see the magic
cos i dont believe in it no more
but i wont tell her
cos i always imagined
its easier if she thinks she won
so imma let her

and she said
i dont think i love you no more
you never seem to call me lately
girl i dont think you know me at all
cos i never thought id have to say this
but i dont love you
and i never did look at us
burning down in flames for kicks
but just know
im not singing for your xo
im just singing cos its over

came and went like the summertime
was that a sunset or sunrise
looking back like whered the time go
so much for trying to keep this moving slow
cos i dont believe in her no more
but i remember

how we talked shit like we knew what we wanted
and i still remember what she said

i dont think i love you no more
you never seem to call me lately
but i dont think she knew me at all
cos i never thought id have to say this
but im no liar and i never hid anything
you shouldve seen it coming to this
just know
im not singing for an ex tho
im just singing cos its over

i think you think too much of me

purchase

cos weve been driving so long
I cant remember how we got here
or how we survived
so long out trying to run from our pride
till you set fire to my atmosphere
and i remember how i spent the 23rd
feeling six feet under when im 30,000ft in the air
chasing that sun down
so far east im west bound
feeling like the edge of the world is near

but youll feel better when you wake up
swear to god ill make up
everything and more when i get back someday
this is more than just a phase love
shooting stars all break up
and even though it seems like half the world away
things will be better in america
heard the streets are gold there
maybe i can fly you out this place someday
chasing dreams like im on novocaine
screaming through your airwaves
looking back i almost thought i heard you say

stay youre not gonna leave me
this place is right where you need to be
and why your words gotta mean so much to them
and they mean nothing to me
so stay youre not what youre hearing
cos ive been watching you changing
and who said youre one in a million anyway?

cos you see only what you want to
your tunnel vision owns your
and you cant see whats wrong
when you keep sleeping through the p.m
eyes wide open when youre dreaming
youre sleepwalking
just keep talking
maybe you can talk your way out of this deep end
no b plan in your system
just tell me what your thinking
im scared that you might fall
but youre not
but youre not

and youll feel better when you wake up
taking off your make up
sun always seems to wash our fears away
and its always shining somewhere
i just gotta get there
and even though it seems like half the world away
things are better in america
heard the streets are gold there
maybe i can fly you out this place some day
chasing dreams like im on novocaine
screaming through your airwaves
looking back i almost thought i heard you say

stay your not gonna leave me
this place is right where you need to be
and why your words gotta mean so much to them
when they mean nothing to me
so stay youre not what youre hearing
cos ive been watching you changing
and who said youre one in a million?

youre so much better than that

stay youre not what youre hearing
cos ive been watching you changing
and who said youre one in a million
anyway?

and youll feel better when you wake up
swear to god ill make up everything and more when i get back some day
chasing dreams like im on novocaine
screaming through your airwaves looking back i almost thought i heard you say

youre so much better than that x

End Credits

Wake Up

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cos i had the best of the worst sides
and i had these lungs
and i had too many flash fires
that i just let them burn

till my chest is on fire
and my head just wont die
i guess im lying cos i wanna
i guess im lying cos i dont
cos i just feel so tired
like its move or slowly die
you aint you when youre like this
this aint you and you know it
but aint that just the point

you dont know
how to let go
who said this must be all or nothing
but im
still caught below
and ill never let you know
no i cant tell you nothing

cos im a fucking mess sometimes
but still i could always be
whatever you wanted
but not what you needed
especially when you been needing me
cos im a fucking mess sometimes
and ill say what i dont mean
just cos i wanted
or maybe i need it
swear lyings the only rush i need

cos all i needed was some words to say
that all these feelings dont mean shit to me
cos its all just chemicals anyway
anyway
and i got way to many routes to take
to make this all just go away
and find another heart to break
so heartless with the words i say
just saying what im supposed to say
cos i had nothing for you
i cant love when i cant even love myself
things i would rather be thoughts at the back of my head but im addicted to hurting
and i got these lungs
and I spent too many late nights
thinking a hole in the earth

till the sky is on fire
and my head still wont die
i guess im lying cos i want to
i guess im lying cos i dont
cos i just feel so tired
like i need something to come alive
she said you aint you when youre like this
this aint you what you done?
and i said thats the point

you dont know how to let go
who said this must be all or nothing
but im still caught bellow
and ill never let you know
no i cant tell you nothing

cos im a fucking mess sometimes
but still i could always be
whatever you wanted
but not what you needed
especially when you been needing me
cos im a fucking mess inside
and ill say what i dont mean
just cos i wanted
or maybe i need it
swear lyings the only rush i need

/numb

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so tell me this is who you are
they tell me ive got something more
and oh you could be loved
but i dont want the lights to find me when im dark and lost
but never on my own

cos i just wanna swing like sinatra
singing like i cant stop
cos i could never rock like a rolling stone
i just wanna live like the ones before
and maybe i could play guitar like hendrix
or save the world or end it
and then maybe youll remember me when im gone
thats all i could ever want
thats all i want

so i got ten minutes to be all or nothing to
whoever wants to hear
and i got ten weeks of talking bullshit on repeat till im burnt out and disappear
but i owe you nothing
and i own my luck
oh they said youll never be alone again
but i dont think you understand me or what i fear
but you could be loved
but i dont want to lie to tell myself
im more than all the mistakes ive out run

cos im only here for a minute
and i dont care what you say cos i know
youre only here cos im winning
but i can be my own kind of rock and roll like
i dont really care if you say you dont fuck with me
and i can say what the fuck i want cos its down to me
and i got love for you even if you are doubting me
like oh my god i just cant stop

cos i just wanna sing like sinatra
with ethanol my soundtrack
cos i could never rock like a rolling stone
i wonder how it feels to burn out young
cos i just wanna die before my heart fails
from heartbreak or cocktails and
then maybe youll cry once you know im gone
thats all i could ever want
oh thats all i want

cos i aint scared of living
i aint scared of living
no i aint scared of living
cos its all weve got
what are we breathing for if we aint living
and i dont want your love
i just want to feel like im still living
and if there is no god
ill know the day i die i lived through heaven
and that i gave it hell
and if it hurt oh well at least thats living

thats all i want

sex drugs and rock and roll thats all i want
whats under the words you know thats all i want
something more than superficial is all i want
sex drugs and rock and roll thats all i want

/i aint scared of living.

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and if i told you how this story ends
would you change a step you take?
and if i could relive all of my days
id live them all the same

cos im scared
of all that i dont know
cos i want it all but all of it aint gold
and im scared
but i know its not for long
cos im learning what i shouldve long before

that all we are
is a light into the darkness
and all we are
is time thats counting down
and all we are
is falling through the spaces in between
endless flight

a lifetime in repeat

but i still find solace
when you say that you know how i feel
when its wrong
and we aint been right for years

let go
give these ghosts a new home
lets bury our pasts and our fears
and all these bones
and lets go
i shouldve seen it long before

cos this is my life
i will not run in circles
ending where i start

so hold on to me
well burn out slowly
and feel our hearts leap
to words we dont mean

love

means nothing to me
cos i dont know what it is
im just dying to be
all that ive been dreaming of
and words betray me
contradict all i stand for
but im still learning
yeah im still learning

that all we are
is a light into the darkness
and oh we are
just time thats counting down
and all we are
is falling through the spaces in between
endless flight

were falling to our knees

Circles

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its been a few years since you been gone
theres been a few tears but that was years and years ago
yeah i grew up to be exactly what you wanted
yeah i been living out the dream that you dreamt up

its been a few years with more to come
its been a few years since ive felt sure of what i want
and i woke up today and found that you were waiting here for me and i thought
woah, old friend its bittersweet

but how could you do this to me?
how could you do this to me?

cos you are not who you think you are
theres no grain on these brown eyes
but they can be green if they really want
and i can bend your words
so they say exactly what hurts the most
but silence is better than fake laughs
or faking were always up
loose grip
the world bends around you
and living through cracked screens
we fold down to what we want
out of love
we talk through lines
were made of smoke
and just in time
we drift away
diffusing light
confusing times
growing up
or cascading down?
cascading down
im hurting now

but change comes slow
if you hate whats in your head
the fuck would you speak your mind
in search of lost time
just 21 so im young and im stupid
only 16 yeah i think you shouldve known

i think you fucked me up

i think
i think you fucked me up
and ive got nothing to say to you

its been a few years and i moved on
couldnt make it disappear oh i tried so hard to be strong
but i grew up today and faced that im not just lonely
dont feel much better but i guess that its a start

drugs

EDEN

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