ICYMI

she said what you doing can you come through?
certain things i wish i could undo
dont want to feel a way, so let it pass through
waist pressed on you in a past life
she said undress her in the bathroom
give me head i love a good attitude
falling for you in a vacuum
slipping past 100 on the dash soon
when i call it, can you zoom?
comms check, one, two
i thought about you all of my night
 
found you outside
we had fun crimes
collapsed some time
ill cross your mind
call me next time
dilated eyes
quick death, brief life
 
crashing
crushing
 
i lost all focus
blurring thru these motions
you dont give a fuck since
distance turned to oceans
weaponise the timeline
ive been here in real life
dodging all these airstrikes
anxious but its alright
martyrdom weather
 
breaking in with your new friend
think of me when you shut it down
 
i read your message through the lines
i just want to cool it off
she just loves crossing all these wires
hands getting tied up in them
but dont you hate those cliches now
almost killed to not get stronger
the photos lasted longer
and after all this time were not much taller
i know
 
i lost all focus
blurring thru these motions
you dont give a fuck since
distance turned to oceans
weaponise the timeline
ive been here in real life
dodging all these airstrikes
anxious but its alright
martyrdom weather
 
breaking in with your new friend
think of me when you shut it down
fucking me out of your head
heart breaking were solo, ah

Modern Warfare

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19 (baby!)
inverted baby
bright blue sky scenes
obscura in my bedroom
lying on the floor we had some times
bad ideas
soft spoken music to my ears
spending my money 
like i wish i had spent time

but no our legacy sheets
can bring me sweet dreams
how strange is it when ours is lost in them
i said whenever you called id be there
i hope you never take advice from your friends
crammed in to the back seat of my first car
that i drove too fast
running from the thought i
know you dont get it when i say i been balling

its all bless
you couldnt stop crying i couldnt cry at all
how can i dance myself clean?
these rooms just dirty my soles
slowly my friends turned to places
i cant be everywhere at once
i watched some friends turn to places
now its just a one way convo

and til youre not afraid of going
ill be right here on your arm
and when its not my choice in staying
ill go

i know our legacy sheets
cant bring me sweet dreams
how strange is it when ours is lost in them
i said whenever you called id be there
i hope you never take advice from your friends
crammed in to the back seat of my first car
that i drove too fast
running from the thought i
know you dont get it when i tell you im balling

balling

we were just kids
you couldnt stop crying i couldnt cry at all
how can i dance myself clean?
these rooms just dirty my soles
slowly my friends turned to places
and i cant be everywhere at once
i watched some friends turn to places
now its just a one way convo

Balling

i was looking for your face in the prequels
that keep running through my mind when its idle
i know you never had the time for my sci-fis
but you loved shape shifting
i know we were high but i meant it
im not trying to fuck about, if it looks it
i told her now is not the time im just dancing
and ghost erasing

but i remember
that sunset like it was last night
fireworks blowing holes in the night sky
she told me baby now or never
didnt know what it was for a long time
but it was you for so long on my mind
i know were breaking but

i just want to hear your voice in the morning
cos i been up waiting for something thats hopeless
i dont really want to break your heart when its open
like finding out loves not a feeling
its a choice

you want me to tell you
ive always hated dancing
but i would dance with you
but i can see right through you babe
know youd love me if i told you
that im in love with you

but i remember
that sunset like it was last night
fireworks blowing holes in the night sky
she told me baby now or never
didnt know how to feel for a long time
but it was you for so long on my mind
i know its breaking but

i just want to hear your voice in the morning
cos i been up waiting for something thats hopeless
i dont really want to break your heart when its open
like finding out loves not a feeling
its a choice

Sci-Fi

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lord knows were wrong
ceilings were floors

that we clipped our lives through
but im closer to hope

now downs become up
i can see the light skew


but its alright, i wont be long
drilla come thru and try snatch my phone

inside out, comme des garcons
no bad blood, i dont hold a grudge
girls still try but i let it go
proud of my tears, proud to be alone

proud of my highs

proud of my lows
and though some of these things

just out of our control i



i know you think about me sometimes

i hope he treats you like you always wanted

in time these rushes we feel wont fly by

how can i think ahead youre always on my mind?
how can i think ahead youre always



hate feeling like this

thinking in crises

feeling so cliche

ooh
tried to run from it
she said im not above it

im from it
ooh



cos you were looking at me back like that
rushing thru the years trying to turn the clock back

i cant always be there

but i you know i come back
i been racing
and been in last for so long

but its alright, i wont be long
drilla come thru and try snatch my phone

inside out, comme des garcons
no bad blood, i dont hold a grudge
girls still try but i let it go
proud of my tears and proud to be alone

proud of my highs

and proud of my lows
and though some of these things

just out of our control ive



i know you think about me sometimes

i hope he treats you like you always wanted

in time these rushes we feel wont fly by

how can i think ahead youre always on my mind?



how can i think ahead youre all thats on my mind?
every sight

Closer 2

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oh, i could stay here for some time
open pandoras box and scroll a while
flash cuts through rave like lightning strike
hate losing my cool, love losing my mind

tears in the booth, if it was pyrrhic i could never tell
when i dream of you do you see me as well?

(if they dont really care, i dont really want to know)
carry versions of you every single where i go
waiting on a world that was never gonna show
but i dont want to get stuck in my ways
i havent seen the stars in so long

i dont want to get stuck in my ways

havent seen the stars in so long

Waiting Room

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i was looking for you in the garden
the shadows under the trees perforated night skies 
i found it hard to see in the glare
the only response to a call was the rustle of leaves, birdsong
your name diffusing through the undulations in the air
the kitchen doors were open
checked the fridge before continuing
skipping stairs was a stretch but still a habit

years later a couple lanes away from where we lived
i watched an asteroid break up on entry
bright limbs streaking across a black sky
what were the chances?
miracles unfolding overhead
drinking in the park

i could never explain the pit in my stomach 
frantic, nervous pacing through the house
(if we act like things are not spiralling out of hand
does that make them so?
if a thought goes unspoken does that erase it?
the unbroached belief when my friend died decades later
that subconscious echoes carried him through me)
but it never rears its head when it can be reasoned with
the world ends on a quiet weekend
not through diagnoses, emergencies, collapses -
although i hate thinking that memories bend

cars were still parked outside
if the rapture had happened, why was it unrecognisable?
why was the sky blue?
why did no one tell me?
did these things not announce themselves?
and when i found you, you told me to wash my hands
i had been playing outside
and spoke nothing of the end of the world
does that mean it never happened?

A Call

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pause in timing

caught capsising

run it backward
one hand through the other

if you wouldnt pull me out
how can i come down?
carried by the wind
so far from hope now

is the past always before us?

Duvidha

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second hand smoke, fucking up my chest

like you as you are, can you air my text?

i feel out of time, closing in on space

you been in my head and not paying any rent
i got two more lives, i got seven spent
i found missing time, spending it
but it wont talk to me

how can i bridge the lie to who you are?

if its how you are, its true
id follow you down -
always down when you are

i love when you push it back

i miss how you used to talk back

and talk shit with me
 

so i keep staying up all night
killing back some time

i keep thoughts of you

thought loops

whatever i want

am i still what it is you like?

ill see you round some time

blue ticks, im a red light

confused how to get right
only come through
when im better off without it

i dont want to be in love

i dont want to be in love no more
 

dipping ps1 just to catch up on you

you been m.i.a., but you text no different

i feel levels up and you dont know, dont care

for old times sake, its human nature

feel it deep but shallow embraces 
dual sim
said she phoning it in

im not convinced

know some day some under paid
karma gon come collect
come out with it dont hold back
things tend to balance through the madness

fact is i heard that you been
 


staying up all night

revenge killing some time
still i keep thoughts of you

thoughts can do
whatever i want
am i still what it is you like?
see you all the time

blue tick, youre a red light

confused how to get right
only come through when im better off without it

i dont want to be in love

i dont want to be in love no more

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running on empty
i waited years in a past life
running out of rope and the waters high
i drowned for you and i didnt regret it
dont text me back in the afterlife
needed the time i didnt realise
i had it along, cant take my own advice
conflated filling the gaps for love

and its obvious
that im caved in and breaking up
but i know its good
i know its good
though its over now
in my dreams you call me back
but i hope you dont
i hope you dont

i hope youre gone and lost in better days
i been watching the time, how it erodes away
thinking bout how the last years feel like yesterdays
how did i lose grip on it?
honest
been falling through nightmares lightyears away
doing my best to keep those thoughts at bay
finding my highlights in the loudest places
and strangers faces 
getting caught up in the race of it

walking through the clearing crowd
if we took our chances
but we exchanged glances
call it in the moment
walking down the roads that i grew up on
falling out of habits
stopped bleeding for empathy’s sake

and its obvious
that im caved in and breaking up
but i know its good
i know its good
though its over now
in my dreams you call me back
but i hope you dont
i hope you dont

cos i dont need you to tell me

that its ok im going
im searching
for what i am now
ill find you if its urgent
or if im hurting
more than i am now
and well come back here some day
and laugh about it
memories that dont know
how it felt like i was burning
while you werent watching
took everything i loved
now nowhere feels like home
nowhere feels like home

been a long life
still got mad time
took a wrong right
on it last time
through the long night
made it out alright
told my brother hold tight
sometimes i can feel it
sometimes i still
sometimes i feel
some times

Call Me Back

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i saw the northern lights at 19
pathfinding in the sky and staying up like that shit easy
feeling i might call and make a mill just like its easy
why should i save a world that would never save me?
and ive been burning both ends
like im trying to see the end of time
fucking like we fell in love with wasted life
what you waiting for?
we wont always feel this good

waiting for?
yeah
how would the right time grant what you want?
dont you want to feel right standing on your ones?
on your ones

its just how i feel some times
i told you its gon be alright
but i only hear about you thru friends now
i didnt feel the time slip by
i didnt know that was a last goodbye
i guess we are who we are til were not

and with my arms round my friends
til the bitter end
i dont really care
what you really said
i can break my heart by myself 
guess we are who we are til were not
if it keeps going how its been then were gone
and if its all in my head
i made peace with it
im still myself in the morning
i been waking up with a new friend
and they boyfriend and his new friends
 
so what you waiting for?
build me up, i cant feel this enough
called your bluff, i dont care if you walk this time

but its just how i feel some times
i told you its gon be alright
i only hear about you thru friends now

i didnt feel the time slip by
i didnt know that was a last goodbye
i guess we are who are til were not

its just how i feel some times
i told you we gon be alright
but i only hear about you thru friends now

i didnt feel the time slip by
didnt know that was a last goodbye
guess we are who are til were not
and i dont wanna feel like im reaching
i dont want it

Reaching 2

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waves crashing over me
as light disappeared
touch myself for some dopamine
what a fucking loser
i missed it bad but i hate it here
im out cried
started to phoenix in ashland
facetimed a blaze in slow motion



i watched it collapse in my palms
i been feeling the love i had fall
through open arms
and bleeding out
i wish i made it back you know
we shouldve lasted years
call it fate if it helps you

to let this go
i dont want the things i loved no more
its cutting me up
old friend dont go
i dont want to feel alone no more
it comes and it goes

I saw your eyes in a dream last night
so used to not getting to say goodbye
melting away with the changing light
you know you dont have to stay
ill afterglow in the dark
of course the past can be changed
i watched it bend while i talked
the feelings all interchange
i feel you here when youre gone
and through it all
let it fade if it helps you

to let this go
i dont want the things i loved no more
its cutting me up
old friend dont go
i dont want to feel alone no more
it comes and it goes

howd you like to see the world?
how to hold you when it hurts?
your eyes they drift through hazey light
the cruelty of circumstance and time
i dont want to wake you up
its clear youd rather be elsewhere
id rather be in love

ICYMI

EDEN