This is a song about how I didn't realize I'm sensitive to light because I've been dissociating too heavilly and too long

bright
to be bright
to be bright to be bright to be // for the bright to feel right,
bright  x4232829

how can you breathe through this?

All of the people like me I didn’t wanna
punch in the face
were setting off before their play
were burning up before they even held my flame

I started seeing things blurry when I was just 15
I’m not used to wearing hats, see.
I’m not used to having a say on who touches me, now the

curtain is up, and the laptop’s too loud and the
angel numbers say my twin’s coming back, and I
feel something rumbling deep within me, think
I’m ending my life or I’m learning to live in the
 
bright
to be bright
to be bright to be bright to be // for the right to be bright, to be
bright  x4232829
how can you breathe through this?

maybe I’m disappearing
maybe my gp’s worried
maybe there’s someone else beside him I’d
let touch me
maybe it’s harrowing
maybe it’s cornered me
maybe it's been in my eyes, the bright
the light, the bright light
 
maybe I’m disappearing
maybe the ward has no beds
maybe I grasp a love an addict wouldn't -
maybe he's not bread
maybe the gods weren't real
that's why I pray to him, but we sneeze at the
light the bright
the light the bright light

Phone demo about lightsensitivity and trauma

4 Minute Warning (Radiohead)

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There was a time in history 
Your next meal was a mystery 
If you were lucky you might catch a fish 
But we have Amazon now 
No need for brains or brawn now 
Your wish list to your door in just one click

Pointless productivity 
I sit behind a screen 
My fingers span the inches 
In a blaze of inactivity 
Captivity 
For hours every day 
I dare to call it work

Relentless innovation 
Requires concentration 
To thrive in this knowledge economy 
My digital creations 
Have no physical manifestation 
I deal in intellectual property

Our avatars 
In silhouette 
Addicted to 
The internet 
We type and type 
But never sweat

Our bellies stuffed 
Perpetually 
Defining sloth 
And gluttony 
We die too soon 
But live like kings

For now let's just enjoy it 
No reason to avoid it 
Who needs an extra gear to coast downhill? 
Succumb, my couch potato 
Adopt my humble credo 
And watch the world revolve while we sit still

Pointless productivity 
I sit behind a screen 
My fingers span the inches 
In a blaze of inactivity 
Creativity 
I exercise my mind 
And laugh to call it work.

Productivity

Reading of a poem by Emilija Ducks. Done without permission. Background music is 'Signal Nonlocality Paradox' by Yithian Prophecy, used without permission.

Thinking About Quantum Jumping

A poem to celebrate the return of The Clangers to British TV. Read first in the original Clang with an English translation.

Tiny Clanger Triolet

Background and poem text: https://www.brainpickings.org/2016/04/27/sylvia-plath-reads-spinster/

CONTEXT / POEM TEXT

Sylvia Plath reads "Spinster"

Me reading my poem "Late onset fallibility".

Read more here: http://www.ianbadcoe.uk/2016/10/late-onset-fallibility.html

Misc. Recordings

Late onset fallibility

Time Warp

Warning - Swearing and offensive language a plenty!!
Whilst I realize its not big or cleaver to swear, Ive left it in
for authenticity! Plus, when I wrote this back in '91, swearing was
a large part of my vocabulary...

To Punch a Monkey

House of Madmen (1991)

Black dog shelter - free format poem #spokenword

Black Dog Shelter

Clitherbeck is a small stream in the Esk valley of the North York Moors, named for the sound made as the water moves over and around its bed of jutting rocks.

Recording taken 2:42pm, 10 April 2019
Location google.com/maps/@54.4687487,-0.893637,16z

Late onset fallibility

Ian Badcoe

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