t h o u g h t s

parking lot

you were young (n,n. x ʎpoqou)

lake house ft. Mikey The Magician

i'm sorry that i can't get out of bed 
i'm sorry that my heads always a mess 
i'm sorry that i missed your call 
for the third time in a row
i promise that i care much more than i show

music video

i'm sorry, i'm trying.

stranger (prod. oilcolor)

new visuals very soon, along with the rest of this project. thank you.

lɐɹǝunɟ ʎɯ sᴉɥʇ sᴉ

produced by marilyn mansion
recorded and mixed by frvr

SO STRONG (prod. by marilyn mansion)

thanks for 400 followers and thank you to barren for being our first feature.

Follow barren: 
@barrenwaste
https://twitter.com/BARR3N
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[the outset]
take me down to your level babe
take me out tonight 
we’ve been up since sunrise 
won’t stop 'til sunlight
and if i lie to you ima take the fall for that
and if i die tonight ima take it to the grave 
take your heart in a song
i know i did you wrong..
but i won’t let it get to that
no i won’t let it get to that 

[barren]
tie me up in my prison cell
four by four
the walls come in
and slowly close
around my open wounds
i hang the noose 
and kick the wood
im hanging loose 
is that how you pictured things would be
the end of everything
as we once knew 
i no longer smile when i think of me and you

i won't let it get to that w/barren (prod. the outset)

MISS U SPENCE <3
FT https://soundcloud.com/barrenwaste
PROD @GREAF
mixed by @prohibeo

gizmo

Shitt, I still miss my fam and my friends but I swear that most of all I miss my bro lil spence, whip tha Acura out Tha pad smokin Newport cigarettes, I still think think about those times, little stress it was the best, but,

Now I gotta grow up, but I'm still wastin my money on green stuff ta roll up, you can eat my dick, if, ya don't know us, and I still ain't shit but I ain't gunna slow up now


Codiene, high - c, back woods fulla terps, Im without a place to be,

Feels like I'm living in a deam, but I'm missin the feelin of when I had you next to me girl

Naw wait, fuck every stupid bitch that twisted ripped my life ta shits,

that's a pain that Ill never forget,

I'm great, I could lie until I'm rich, if you granted me wish, I wouldn't take that shit cuz

I never fucked with my life, and there aiint a single thing, that could make it all right,

Everyday I'm up all night, with the music in my head, it's the only thing I like,

It's so hard to love me you don't wanna look at me I'm fuckin ugly

Fuck me let me disintegrate,

deep into the soil and deteriorate

barren

before i say a word
please listen close this time
i said this all before 
but Ive really lost my mind
i know you're always worried
my fingers looks so blurry
crossing over to a new world
i love the way you look so lovely 
my self worth is so ugly
i am absolutely nothing

contradicting thoughts
read back on the screen
makes no sense to me
its all a dream
i can’t be thinking these
dreadful thoughts about
you and me

I’m living in a void now
just testing all my patience 
with no one to try and say shit
its just a statement
that I’m making
please no mistaking

deteriorating ft barren (prod. GREAF)

@barrenwaste
i made this album during one of the hardest times in my life, which i still haven't fully recovered from. i had little to no motivation to continue this project, but almost 3 months after i started it, here we are. finishing the album helped in part with my process of moving on, which i am still in the midst of.

this didn't bring joy to me as i made it, but it was the album i had to make, for myself, and for anyone else out there who is going through a rough time. i hope this album - even in the slightest of ways - can help you get through whatever it is you're going through.

i want to thank you all for listening and sticking with me for so
long, and i hope you'll continue to enjoy my music, as i'm hoping to try new and cool things in the coming year.

- combination lock

download: http://bit.ly/2jDeSX9
alt download: http://bit.ly/2iKMyNX

thank you to all of my friends who helped make this project possible. links to their pages can be found in the song descriptions.

download

where do we go from here (feat. barren)

@yung-hy
@nothingnowheremusic

vocals by shy
instrumental by jay vee & nothing, nowhere.
mix & master by jay vee
artwork by tommy lam

viewfinder w/ shy & nothing,nowhere.

not on my album just a song to delay it a bit more 

lyrics:
i don't believe that you can love me
i believe that i'm ugly
i believe that everything i love leaves me in the end
cause i tried to steal, i tried to keep you
you ran away cause i got scared and oh..
i don't know how to talk to you
i don't know how to follow through
cause i just doubt myself in everything i do 
i don't know how to love

i don't know how to love w/ convolk (prod. imdepression)

leave me on the floor, it's fine [prod fats'e]

Gustav Ahr's Album

Horse Head, Lil Peep, & Lil Tracy - Last Fall (prod. Nedarb)

prod. @branwenmusic

lyrics:
full moon creeping through the window
let a little light show so we can start to grow out 
i know that time moves fast and i know that i move to slow for your world 

i tried to change to be a better person than the person i was 
i looked in the mirror didn't know who i was 
don't know where i am, don't know where to go 
you know that i 'm lost so don't be alone
tell me where you want me to go, tell me what you wanna see so i can be the opposite
i don't wanna be like you cause you are just so basic and you put yourself in a box that they want you to be in
cause you don't know how to use your own god damn fucking head
let me see what they wanna see so i can be a faker me 
cause being real just isn't enough
you gotta be someone you're not 

(chorus again)

be something you're not (prod. branwen)

sorry it sounds so rough, used the first take
https://soundcloud.com/killedmyself
vocals mixed/mastered https://soundcloud.com/prohibeo


lyrics:
let me try and tell you
in the best way i can
my hands are frozen over
i can’t move them to stand
I’m always up for fighting
I’m always holding tightly
beat me senseless till I’m senseless
no more breathing
no more tension 
i want nothing to do
with what 
im doing now
i want it all 
to be dead and gone
i want this all to 
just be done
everything
and everyone
if i told you the truth
and nothing but of it
i think you’d 
not want to hear
another second

dont worry (prod killedmyself)

limited edition hoodies - bit.ly/2CIKS2v

Stop caring bout my health
Quit faking all you've felt
We're not special I've been dealt
Too many cards to hold as well

Fuck off and burn in hell
Beat my face into the ground
I'm still waiting for the sound
Of bullets exiting your mouth

Bite the curb and sleep well
Fight hard like you've felt
All the pain on her shelf
I don't fucking know half

bite the curb and sleep well

THIS IS PROBABLY ONE OF MY FAVORITE SONGS BY SYRINGE AND I DID IT NO JUSTICE BUT REALLY WANTED TO COVER IT

i wanted to die (cover)

luna coming soon

lyrics:

i lie here awake at night

so stressed out cant shut my eyes

cry about how fast time flies

forever after

heartless im hollow inside

tears shine bright like the night sky

i cant stay im just passing by

forever after

theres nothing left
dont love that bitch i just wanted the neck
no money no hoes got no reason to flex
remember all that fuckin time that i spent
tryna get that bitch out of my head

i still hate myself yea not that much has changed
im wondering why nothing has been the same
since back in the days
when life wasnt grey

i cant do this anymore
might pass out on the floor
please dont knock on my door
when you dont hear from me anymore

days are passing by and things will be alright
the darkness is alive i cannot find the light
with blood shot eyes i stay inside
im hoping i can stay the night

holding on to nothing
hoping i can make it something
i waste my time by chasing ghosts
and its me i let down the most

all i am is skin and bone

rather stay in bed alone

restless legs i shiver cold

and lie awake forever after

we hope our sorrows end and that our hearts will blend
im hoping everything works out before the end
so here i lie under the night
maybe our paths are intertwined

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