he used this scene from The Notebook in the beginning because I was already married to another man when we started messing around.

I listen to this song every day and... I just relate so much , it hurts :(

i love how the ending is the beginning of the convo and. beginning is the end of the convo👌 also its a great song💖  

t h o u g h t s

“Las palabras que tocan el corazón revelan la verdad de nuestra existencia.”

Al-pasar-junto-los-olivos-eternos

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revealing hope (ft. Lil Lotus)

deadbeatteen - When you're around

not on my album just a song to delay it a bit more 

lyrics:
i don't believe that you can love me
i believe that i'm ugly
i believe that everything i love leaves me in the end
cause i tried to steal, i tried to keep you
you ran away cause i got scared and oh..
i don't know how to talk to you
i don't know how to follow through
cause i just doubt myself in everything i do 
i don't know how to love

i don't know how to love w/ convolk (prod. imdepression)

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Horse Head, Lil Peep, & Lil Tracy - Last Fall (prod. Nedarb)

THIS IS PROBABLY ONE OF MY FAVORITE SONGS BY SYRINGE AND I DID IT NO JUSTICE BUT REALLY WANTED TO COVER IT

i wanted to die (cover)

luna coming soon

lyrics:

i lie here awake at night

so stressed out cant shut my eyes

cry about how fast time flies

forever after

heartless im hollow inside

tears shine bright like the night sky

i cant stay im just passing by

forever after

theres nothing left
dont love that bitch i just wanted the neck
no money no hoes got no reason to flex
remember all that fuckin time that i spent
tryna get that bitch out of my head

i still hate myself yea not that much has changed
im wondering why nothing has been the same
since back in the days
when life wasnt grey

i cant do this anymore
might pass out on the floor
please dont knock on my door
when you dont hear from me anymore

days are passing by and things will be alright
the darkness is alive i cannot find the light
with blood shot eyes i stay inside
im hoping i can stay the night

holding on to nothing
hoping i can make it something
i waste my time by chasing ghosts
and its me i let down the most

all i am is skin and bone

rather stay in bed alone

restless legs i shiver cold

and lie awake forever after

we hope our sorrows end and that our hearts will blend
im hoping everything works out before the end
so here i lie under the night
maybe our paths are intertwined

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forever after 💜

i wanted to cry, i wanted to die.

i'd prefer an unmarked grave

check out @eloimmeth @guardinmusic
my first orignal ever that actually got vocals on it. 
thank you to both eloimmeth and guardin for taking their time and recording vocals for this song. you are both amazing <3
lyrics:
[eloimmeth]
cause imma be ok
yeah imma be ok
no matter what you pray for
(no matter what you wish for)

yeah imma be ok
and imma be ok
no matter all the scars i’ve got
(they just make me who i’m not)

from the ground i will rise
(from the ground i will rise)
its gonna be alright 
relapse is just a phase
under the morning rain
before the rising sun

cause imma be ok
yeah imma be ok
no matter what you pray for

[guardin]
no matter what you pray for ey

i protest everything that i feel
i don't know where i'm at but i don't think that i'm real
got a blunt in my hand just escaping the wreck
and if you want honesty, i think that i've been depressed

this marijuanas just another defect 
gettin' high till i cry that's just cause and effect
gotta prioritize get my shit together
cause i don't wanna feel like this forever

i think i'm gonna be fine
if you think otherwise gimme a sign
baby it's not your fault, you know it's mine
imma keep tryin', i'm crackin' my spine

i'll realign till i can contest
artificial happiness ain't the best 
fuck all of that it'll leave you a mess
and leak from your brain all the way to your chest

love yourself 
cause nobody else gonna do whatchu do when the sky turn blue and the sun shines thru ya window 
ya head hittin' the pillow
sproutin' like a willow yeah
sproutin' like a willow

i'm gonna be fine

i'm gonna be fine (ft. eloimmeth & guardin)

safe haven (feat. supachefm!)

My real life.

prod by taylor king 💘

LYRICS:
you my best friend 
and my enemy
i pop one then i pop five 
you my remedy
and i don't know what 
what comes over me
i get fucked up 
my soul ebony

only dream off a bean ya
tryna be up in the scene ya 
(aye) clips limousine ya
why she callin me a feen ya ya
sad faces 
i aint got no heart
cold cases 
i ain't never gettin caught
ya she too basic 
i could never love a thot yuh
too shameless
i aint never give a fuck no

the pillies is silly
but i cannot quit it
woke up in the pital
my demons is winnin
why i'm always sinnin
downin this liquor
drownding myself in this venom 
ya ya ya

(the sample i used is from skins :)

My Best Friend

prod/recorded/engineered by me

s/o @daine-lauren for guitar inspo <3

how many days have passed?

so many days that passed
couldnt do a fuckin thing
sit in bed, roll a blunt, think of who i need to be

gotta smoke at least a gram a day to keep my mind straight
guilty pleasures, true love
fightin for my heartache

but ur the only one that has my heart
i never meant to break what we had built

i wish i knew the things i have to say
to even up the score and get u to stay with me for another night

but im the only one there is to blame
u dont need to change a fucking thing
baby girl i know it aint the same
but ur in my heart forever

cant even help
but feel like ill fuck it up today
and u dont see
that my minds all over the place

it aint enough
yeah ur hearts for the latter
fucked up
nothing else even matters

lost in my head
lost ur love
im movin on with that

just addin weight 
to my shoulders
straighten out my back

it aint enough
and ur hearts been shattered
fucked up
nothing else even matters

how many times i told you
that the doors right over there?
gave u signs that u ignored
now u pullin out ur hair

yeah its my fault
my fault
dont put no blame upon urself
too far gone
a lost cause
ill keep them pictures on my shelf

cuz ur the only one that has my heart
i never meant to break what we had built
i wish i knew the things id have to say
to even up the score and get you to stay with me for another night

im the only one there is to blame
u dont need to change a fucking thing
ur perfect in every way
i hope that u realize that someday

youre too good for me
and now ur leaving
keep runnin away
til u stop bleedin
ill be here for you
whenever u need it
you can come back to me
if u ever needed

cant even help
but feel like ill fuck it up today
and u dont see
that my minds all over the place

it aint enough
yeah ur hearts for the latter
fucked up
nothing else even matters

Follow me <3

leaving

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dead and gone w/ sleye (prod. metlast)

this is my life

prod by @trechorboy
cover art by @trechorboy

bright flames 
light faces 
with a warm hue
every town 
burns down
that i pass through
doctor walked in
said that ill probably 
pull through
stared that fucker down 
and told him 
i didn’t want to
i have a confession
all this depression
has made me hate
every being 
in every direction 
i want the worst
i want it done
i wish that covid 19
took out everyone

the seasons change 
& its getting colder
my mind is the same
but im getting older
piece of shit 
20 something
low life bitch
if i was incarcerated
i would prolly snitch
i had a dream 
last night
where everything
was just alright
i woke up
in regret
that my life 
hadn’t ended
all quite yet

bright flames 
light faces 
with a warm hue
every town 
burns down
that i pass through
doctor walked in
said that ill probably 
pull through
stared that fucker down 
and told him 
i didn’t want to
i have a confession
all this depression
has made me hate
every being 
in every direction 
i want the worst
i want it done
i wish that covid 19
took out everyone

i searched for a reason to not kms & found nothing.

if you want get a feature or collab just hit me up on here

i don't know how to love w/ convolk (prod. imdepression)

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