i can’t see 
with everything dancing in front of me and
i can’t breath 
the airs too thick and my lungs still scratching and
i can’t speak 
the words play at my lips but they have no meaning so i 
just freeze
as my skin turns pale pink and the haze weighs on me it’s like
everyone
why the fuck are you staring at me im 
kneeling down 
there’s puke on my shoes and there’s puke on my jeans 

ripped
and beat
by vague 
memories i cant 
stand to think about
so i just throw them up onto my feet

ivewornthesameshoeseverydaysinceninthgrade

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thank you sara for loving me and being by my side forever and always, my parents for being cool with me dropping out of college to keep playing music and for supporting me all the way, and to DK, alyssa, peter, grace, lobo, bill, riley, and JC for learning my songs and playing them live wherever we can find a show and an audience. also shout out to awakebutstillinbed, blind equation, godfuck, gingerbee, home is where, hey ily, flyover states, lobsterfight, widowdusk, catalyst, in loving memory, short fictions, homewrecker, record setter, and so many more for being the coolest people ever, i love you all so much <3
credits
released August 11, 2024

written and recorded december 2020 - june 2024 in bedrooms and kitchens and cars all across chicago il and katy tx

drums performed and recorded by Lobo at Slappy HQ located somewhere in the suburbs of chicago

mastered by will killingsworth @ dead air studios

beautiful album art by emma lacy (@__dilema__ on IG)

death of a rabbit

let’s get married

honestly, i still don’t know who to be for you
i wish you’d put a gun to the nape of my neck
or dig a knife into my fucking trachea
anything, for me
i wish you would

i think you’re so pretty babe, i want to die at your hands
feel them around my throat knuckles white hands clasped tight
just string me up to bleed with all of these feelings i still can’t begin to perceive
anything, for me
i wish you would

(i swear
when i close my eyes
your face bores holes right back into mine)

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