I Miss U

Lyrics:

this shit is fuckin targeted
so ill say it as i mean it
i'm so sick of all the paragraphs
but i feel like you need them
all the years of gearing up
unsheathing swords and fighting demons
never thought i'd die to you
a pretty girl who sent me reeling

this shit is fuckin targeted
so ill say it as i mean it
i'm so sick of all the paragraphs
but i feel like you need them
all the years of gearing up
unsheathing swords and fighting demons
never thought i'd die to you
a pretty girl who sent me reeling
honestly in many ways i think i'm really missing you
i've still thought of coming back but i don't think we'd change our views
thought i knew all that i wanted i assumed that you did too
looking back i'm fucking stupid
fixing shit that wasn't strewn
so i guess it's an apology for feeling all my feelings
for looking this far into things that held no fucking meaning
but knowing you
you'd get me quick
for why i acted on a weakness
and i don't think it's what i want
so please 
i need a single reason

i just need a single reason
to come back to you
i just need a single reason
to come back to you
i just need a single reason
to come back to you
i just need a single reason
to come back to you

-

you couldn't know what it's like.
you couldn't know what it's like
don't u dare pretend u get this
don't u dare pretend u get this.
it's a unique pain
it's a unique pain
it's a unique pain
yea somehow this shit don't feel the same.

a dragonslayer's weakness (sadtxnshi)

thank you to everyone that had a hand in this and for everyone who has been listening and showing support. I didnt know what to put for the genre since its a bunch of different ones so i chose pop idffk lol.

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i hate myself & i hate that i hate myself

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i hate myself & i hate that i hate myself [p. back2thapast+sor]

original song
https://soundcloud.com/heylog/oblivious

lyrics:
still oblivious to what u like
took my head cut away for life
hoping you'll see, maybe notice the time
ur wasting, face it, i wanna make u mine
still oblivious to what u like
took my head cut away for life
hoping you'll see, maybe notice the time
ur wasting, face it, i wanna make u mine

fiending for love, don't know if i'll get it
my heart is growing numb, i can never feel it
and if u are the one, doubt i would know it
cause i'm too dumb to know what ur feelin
REMEMBER WHEN YOU SAID YOU WOULD LIKE TO SEE ME
WERE YOU JUST SAYING THAT CAUSE I TOOK IT HONESTLY
NO POINT IN FEELING BAD I'M JUST HAPPY YOU COULD SEE
HOW HARD I'M BOUTTA CRASH AND YOU SAY YOU'RE HERE FOR ME

still healing to be whole
don't know what's inside
guess i could explore
the sun sets west as i pedal on my bike
the rain falls best in a vertical line
still fallin inna hole
let's see what i find
cus i need somethin more
the sun sets west if the horizons behind
the rain falls best in a vertical line

fiending for love
don't know if i'll get
my heart is growing numb
i can never feel it
n if you are the one
doubt i would know it
cause i'm too dumb
to know what ur feelin
remember when u said u would like to see me
were u just saying that cause i took it honestly
no point in feeling bad im just happy u could see
how hard i'm boutta crash

THE THUNDER IS APPROACHING FROM MY HOME TO YOU
CAUSE EVERYTIME I DROVE BACK THE SKY WAS NEVER BLUE
AND THAT HAD TO MEAN SOMETHING BABE
CAUSE IT HAPPENED EVERYTIME I LEFT YOUR PLACE
NOW EVERYTIME IT RAINS I ALWAYS THINK OF YOU
CAUSE WE COULD BE KISSING, DANCING UNDER THE MOON
NOW I WONDER IF YOU THINK THE SAME THINGS
I DOUBT IT, PROBABLY JUST ME
SO KILL ME NOW CAUSE I KNOW I'M LOSING YOU
IT'S SO HARD TO BREATH IF WE'LL NEVER UNDO
I STILL LOVE YOU WITH EVERYTHING
IT'S BEEN A WHILE LAYING EYES ON YOUR FACE
I'M WRITING THESE SONGS N BABY THEY'RE ALL FOR YOU
HOPING THAT YOU SEE AND COME IN TO PURSUE
SO BABY TELL ME WE'RE OK
IS THIS LIFE? CAUSE I'M HOPING IT'S A PHASE

heylog - oblivious (slowed)

9tails - for after a long day (prod. stranger)

produced by jacob vallen

lyrics

i havent been myself and im sorry
but i could never hurt you because doing so would kill me
i could write a damn book bout all the shit i had to learn the hard way
but i will lift you up until my arms and my bones break

i was so surprised when you told me im the one that you love the most
and i never cry but lately i feel like im coming close
i got a habit of killing all my plants before they get the chance to grow
its a metaphor
what are we fighting for

well i often think of those nights-
well really early morning when id lay on the beach with you
i took one hell of a beating since then but i made it out
im just as surprised as you
i still think true love is a silly word
but its what were closest too
protect me cause im losing myself and my senses
but im coming to
baby ive been praying for you and your family
october really fucked me up, but december killed me
i could write a damn book bout all the shit i had to learn the hard way
ill lift you up
until my arms and my bones break

i was so surprised when you told me im the one that you love the most
and i never cry but lately i feel like im coming close
i got a habit of killing all my plants before they get the chance to grow
its a metaphor
what are we fighting for

plants (jacob vallen)

sewerperson - Tgif (jabarionthebeat x nigeluno) (snippet)

lochmoar v1 (nico north) (snippet)

face off (jabarionthebeat) (snippet) 6/28/19

Für immer und ewig

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@onlyfriendyeah
prod. metlast

(kanashi)
i been down bad, bad
a panic attack away from living out a backpack
yes, im high af you aint even gotta ask that
ppl say they love me but i know they be lying
brain explodes every time you fuckin imply it
and i dont wanna hear that shit
no no, i never had a truthful friend
and thats the end of it

yeah i dig myself to the depths again
question my very existence
and this pain up in my head
it paints my thoughts a shade of red

this existence, yeah you know its fuckin narcissistic 
cuz i only exist to hurt
a trail of dead bodies left in the dirt

and i leave pain in my wake
every single word that leaves my brain...
so full of vindication...pushing them away...

(onlyfriend)
feels like i been this way from the start
just keep your distance as i fall apart
get it off of my chest
hard to breathe through this stress
every word that they say
platitudes and charades

because hell is other people, if not myself
i don't wanna fuck with anyone else
and there's nothing you can say to change it

9tails - for after a long day (prod. stranger)

Yurei

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