2020

Nerve Endings

Perfect World

Too Close To Touch - Perfect World

beautiful ghost

doctor, doctor ft. badXchannels

official video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tG3y-BxoAWE

issues

i had a lot of fun covering one of my favorite songs by @youngburial , hes crazy talented and a brilliant writer. i hope everyones having a great day, and expect another song this week!!

Tuning: D A D F# A E

fats'e 💙

i'd prefer an unmarked grave (fats'e cover)

could have been

1/5 from my upcoming EP "As I Walk Into the Night"
I hope you enjoy <3

Written by: @itsyungvan
Mix/Master: @demxntia
Production: @user-182805726

Lyrics-

(I'm waiting here for you to pick me up)

I'm waiting here for you to pick me up
Everyone is gone, now I'm the only one
I cried all night, but would you even know?
you never show
The things unsaid, tend to hurt the most
I wonder why you never show
The darkest sides of his heart, unknown
When is last time I opened up?
I had to close off my only love
Because the last time I opened up,
you never came and I had to bluff
Now every night he leaves open
I guess he's hoping, someone, will come and hold him
He leaves it vulnerable inside his drawer
Falling asleep he can only dream for more

As I Walk Into the Night

i'm sad and the weathers making it worse

Spotify, Itunes, Etc.

i'm sad and the weathers making it worse (Prod. SaintTomorrow)

Song Title - Fiction
Production & Vocals By Lund.

Lyrics: 

Feelings come and go
Time to hit the road 
Can’t afford
To watch this 
time move past
Im never going back 
Moving forward 

Lying to yourself 
You don’t really need me 
Fiction in your head
That you keep on believing

People come and go
Everybody knows
Love is potent
Let you go
Had to let you go
Now I’m hoping 
You get closure
Cause I’m feeling 
so much better 
now were over

With you
It ain’t right 
To many missed calls 
And long nights 
I heard your voicemail 
to many times
And I aint wasting no more love on you
X2

Open up my chest
Deep into my heart
Do you see it
A shard of glass 
I can feel it slice  
as I’m breathing 
it cut my strings 
Now my fucking 
heart isn’t beating 
And from my brain 
is where I’m bleeding 

Deep inside my mind
Scared of what I’ll find
Our memories linger
hurt confined 
Love the way you’d lie
With a smile
I’m saving me
There’s no wrong or right
This is survival
Put me down
You'd put me 
in the ground
No revival

No revival 
No survival
Im 51:50
Suicidal
there’s no way out 
As far as I see   
I’m going through hell
Can you find me

Boy you left me down
Broken on the ground
Im so sad 
cause your always gone
Out there on the road 
I’m not mad 
I just wish that you would
Call me sometime
I just wish that
We could fucking rewind

But 

Girl you let me down
You been running round 
Im not dumb
Got me staring down 
The barrel of a loaded gun
You burned our bridge
And we can’t turn back time
I got to go 
Before I lose my mind

Feelings come and go
Time to hit the road 
Can’t afford
To watch this 
time move past
Im never going back 
Moving forward 

Lying to yourself 
You don’t really need me 
Fiction in your head
That you keep on believing

People come and go
Everybody knows
Love is potent
Let you go
Had to let you go
Now I’m hoping 
You get closure
Cause I’m feeling 
so much better 
now were over

Going going’ gone
I think my soul is moving on
Hate me while I’m here
Then love while I’m lost
Do we fight to feel the pain
Or Do we bleed to feel the same
Why’s the world so fucking cold 
Why do I often feel alone

Fiction

hey, i hope y'all dig this track. times have been pretty hard. As you all know, I lost my dad a few months ago. a couple weeks ago, i lost one of my best friends to a lifelong battle with depression. if my music has ever connected with you, please take a moment to go and check out @deco-slush music. If it weren't for him, I never would have released any music, wouldn't have had a friend willing to sit for hours while i struggled with software or trying to get an idea out of my head and into reality, truly one of the lightest and most creative spirits i've ever had the blessing of knowing.

I love you so much Shawn, and I always will.

up on all stores v soon

THE COLOR THEORY

old trauma, new problems

Song title - Skin & Bones
Production & Vocals by Lund.

Lyrics:

You don’t know the pain that I feel
Wasting time on love that wasn’t real
leave me alone 
I’m just skin and bones now 
I think I’m 
turning into ash 
You call my phone 
But I’m never home now 
you couldn’t save me 
from myself 

Lies they left me with 
A broken heart 
Wounds leave scars
When their always 
Torn apart
write me a eulogy
all you can do for me 
This is the 
story of my life 
So let me lay here 
There’s nothing to save here
Cause I’m already dead

Baby I just think that you
Need someone to be 
true to you
I know how to heal your heart 
Let me spend some time with you 
And maybe change your point of view
You could have a brand new start 

I know that you 
feel so damn alone 
But some things
you can’t heal
on your own
When scared to try
You miss out on life 
But darlin now 
I’ll show you the way
Its not your fault
So baby don’t cry 
Do be afraid 
Cause I’m not him

You so beautiful 
It brings me to my knees 
Your eyes are hazel green
shade of autumn leaves 
I don’t look at you 
I look into you 
I’m Lost in a moment
when your with me
I’ll give you trust to
Build up this love 
Cause honey
I know what 
we could be 

Baby I just think that you
Need someone to be 
true to you
I know how to heal your heart 
Let me spend some time with you 
And maybe change your point of view
You could have a brand new start

Skin & Bones

Lyrics:
how many times can i write songs bout stayin up all night
cuz im workin on my shit im stayin on my grind
got some og you dont know me now im feelin fine
got me spinnin while im spillin all thats in my mind

avoided post-traumatic therapy, they know they aint a friend of me
they saw me like a loony so they put me on the centerpiece 
said "why you wanna hurt yourself", they put me back up on the shelf
said "youll be fine just get some help", i asked but then got no one else

down these pills then we'll call it done, got nuff meds in the pickup truck
been prescribed but it hurts inside cuz the pills too big and im out of luck
so instead ill stay inside my room, and ill stay silent like i always do
so dont bring it up cuz ill just push through and i wont reply when you ask whats new

fake a smile isolate on a good day
wont go out do not care what your friends say
now they walkin on eggshells its too late, cuz the damage done they tryna make up for the naysay
said you couldnt do it, but you out here finna prove it
you survived and thats a clue-in that you got something to do here

manic (prod Mage)

Chill acoustic cover of death bed by Powfu

Death bed

Date - my fault ft.nuczi  (prod.tundra)

prod.tundra
@bulletrapmusic

mixed/mastered by me

featured by: nuczi 
@nucziii

hope you guys like it :)

my fault

spotify

@date - My fault ft.nuczi (prod.tundra) ON SPOTIFY

produced by @wurlishmouk
featuring @lofivillain

unstoppable ft. lofi villain (prod. wurlishmouk)

swingsets

it hurts (w/ lokel)

stuck on every line

prod. @prodbybrody

guitar by 93feetofsmoke

no better (prod. brody & 93FEETOFSMOKE)

Piss Off (prod. Majinaru)

bittersweet

tysm to @frvrndalwys for collaborating with me on this awesome project <3

Lyrics

[hook: gothurted]
You can see it in my eyes
There is nothing inside me
So sick of this life
And I'm thinking about it
Suicide is on my mind 
Inner peace what I'm trying to find
You can see it in my eyes
There is nothing inside me
So sick of this life
And I'm thinking about it
Suicide is on my mind 
Inner peace what I'm trying to find

[verse: frvr&alwys]
Suicide, don't let me die
My eyes are blind, but I still try
Do you still cry
'Cause I still cry
And I can't find
Some peace of mind
So Imma just do everything to get fucked up again
'Cause I don't really need your voice inside my head
No more pain
No more blood
It's all the same
It's never enough

[hook: gothurted]
You can see it in my eyes
There is nothing inside me
So sick of this life
And I'm thinking about it
Suicide is on my mind 
Inner peace what I'm trying to find
You can see it in my eyes
There is nothing inside me
So sick of this life
And I'm thinking about it
Suicide is on my mind 
Inner peace what I'm trying to find

2020

Sebastian