@ilyaxhes x @joshuasageart
prod. by @internetjoe
curated by @shameitried

bleeding thru (ft. ashes & joshuasageart)「prod. internet joe」

@ihateshinigami

full album, split into its respective singles

OXYGEN

written, performed, mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ goblin haven
art by Allen Rogers
lyrics:
Find me at the airport girl I’m coming home
And I got it in my jansport they don’t even know
I was tryna hit the pavement til I hit the road
But I’m chasing down a payment loan it for my soul
The collateral damage security deposit
Don’t know how I manage I wish that I could stop it
Got me on your homescreen he was in your locket
Keep me at a distance can’t breathe in your pocket
You know that I’m unsafe both of us in danger
Didn’t anybody tell you stay away from strangers
Ever since I met you I’ve been feeling stranger
The thing is that I felt you when you were a hater
And I understand why you’re wanting me to quit
But if I was given choices it would take a minute
I cannot decide if I'm out or I’m in it
I’m on and I’m off one don’t wanna admit it
Tracking every move staying on me like a fitbit
Couldn’t tell a lie to you wouldn’t wanna risk it
Couldn’t cut me off it would take more than a wrist slit
I’m never really gone but I’m always gonna miss this
This is how it’s always felt for me
I’ve fallen for your apathy
My fallen order friends that leave
You’ve never not been there for me

at the airport (+ homecomingqueen)

rip jw🕊
☆☆☆
**THIS BEAT IS FREE FOR NON PROFIT USE**
LYRICS: 
All girls are the same 
Their rotting my brain, love 
Think i need a change 
Before i go insane yeahhhhh 

Let's admit that we did it all wrong now 
I just wish you could understand it was you as well 
I’m sorry that came into your life when i was like that  
I know i was a mess 
And I'm not fucking proud of it 

All our stars were aligned so perfect 
It was too good to fuck up but we did it 
I know you’re not as hurt as I am 
You only ever liked me never even loved me 
4 months on and i’m still fucking hurting 
Im still tryna drown you out of my soul 
You wont fucking leave me alone 
I feel your spirit everywhere I fucking go 

I feel your spirit everywhere i go now 
I wonder if you feel mine too somehow 

Let's admit that we did it all wrong now 
I just wish you could understand it was you as well 
I’m sorry that came into your life when i was like that  
I know i was a mess 
And I'm not fucking proud of it

all boys are the same <\3 (Jame$ x Just RT)

THIS IS THE REAL VERSION

ALL THE LEAKS ARE MAPLE'S HOUSE REMIX

shinigami - bloodstains w/ quinn (maple) *SNIPPET*

music vid https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cdMxIrKfnmo
prod tykun

And i'm searching for the one inside a flower field 
Looking into her eyes would make a coward yield
And I don't know if this life will ever make me feel
I feel confused every day don't feel like it's real

and I just wanna leave it all in the past tense
No one used to hit my phone now it's all mass texts
They try to tell me Josh you can hook up with a bad bitch
and I'm like no she can just stick to using her lovense, fuck sex

And I got nothing to lose and I got nothing to gain
And all this boredom & cluelessness driving me insane
Feel like absolutely nothing when I'm not using my brain 
And I wanna go outside but no one hanging out today

Tired of being lonely no matter where I go
And I wanna move out then I'm like hell no
One little thing will turn me off and it's no longer a goal
I just hope that I will keep on getting stronger I suppose

And i'm searching for the one inside a flower field 
Looking into her eyes would make a coward yield
And I don't know if this life will ever make me feel
I feel confused every day don't feel like it's real

Don't feel like it's real get me out this illusion
How could I find love in my life if i never had a cupid?
And i'm falling to cement so I intentionally get bruises
Nah I'm playing showing pain will make me look too fucking stupid

And i'm searching for the one inside a flower field 
Looking into her eyes would make a coward yield
And I don't know if this life will ever make me feel
I feel confused every day don't feel like it's real

And all these artists around me they tryna make an image
Sorry I'm not with y'all I don't do this all for business
I respect my boundaries and push myself to the limits
After performance I celebrate with a shake, like I'm grimace

And i'm searching for the one inside a flower field 
Looking into her eyes would make a coward yield
And I don't know if this life will ever make me feel
I feel confused every day don't feel like it's real
Don't feel like it's real get me out this illusion
How could I find love in my life if i never had a cupid?
And i'm falling to cement so I intentionally get bruises
Nah I'm playing showing pain will make me look too fucking stupid

flower field (tykun)

Pour gas onto the fire
Is that all that you did?
I don't wanna talk
Just let me rot inside of the pit
Take my feelings back
As my heart gets stitched
Just wanna stay inside my room
'Cus I'm tired as shit

No sleep I forgot who I'm supposed to be
Can't see through the lies on your 4k screen
Falling apart at the seams
Its easier when you don't have friends like me
So scribble out my face 'til its all gone
Look around this place
Its apparent that its all wrong (all wrong)
Broken moments pick the pieces off the sidewalk
I don't wanna be here anymore its a lost cause

I can't feel a single thing
It's so cold in these empty halls
Guess it was all just for nothing
Why did I even try at all?

'Cus when you look
I find it hard to breathe
Stuck in my head
I'll bite my tongue 'til it starts to bleed
Wait, do you still care
Do you still think of me
Or am I just another ghost
That's trapped inside your screen
Staying up all night thinking of
Friends I used to know
Never mind they probably forgot me a year ago
In my bed but I still feel so very far from home
And no one stays so maybe I'm just better off alone
Don't fuck with y'all leave the group chat
Just grab the package and I'm gone like its DoorDash
Losing sleep I'm getting sidetracked
So hit me up I need a friend before the format

I can't feel a single thing
It's so cold in these empty halls
Guess it was all just for nothing
Why did I even try at all?

pointless

pointless w/ xobuttoneyes

Not Upset + ybcmiley [xgatteora]

OXYGEN (prod. singleway)

prod laurxchu 
https://www.youtube.com/@laurxchu

does she miss me or does she miss the feeling that she had before?
late nights, i remember you were crying at my door
so many times i tried to stay awake
and you lied n told me that youre never bored

you get up without a problem
but when i try do the same
i slip and i'm falling
way way stuck in the deep
can't really solve it

please help my concious
stuck in a box and my 
hearts been hurting way too long
i been fucking up this life with my medication

does she miss me or does she miss the feeling that she had before?
late nights, i remember you were crying at my door
so many times i tried to stay awake
and you lied n told me that youre never bored (x2)

left my pills on a table
cut coke lines
lie to myself
i'll say they keep me stable

but really i been at my worst
they tell me, talk to the church
so i can rid myself 
this negative energy
surviving on my own
i'm lost inside my memory

leave my family
and the people who
have a hold on me
walk into the forest
and you'll see my whole body

nose running
i'm cold blooded
my thoughts frozen
beat me down

does she miss me or does she miss the feeling that she had before?
late nights, i remember you were crying at my door
so many times i tried to stay awake
and you lied n told me that youre never bored (x2)

the feeling she had before

fucked up in the car bitch i’m nauseous 
she just wanna know what we are i’m like stop it
i wanna love you girl but i don’t wanna panic
i might break you into pieces like ceramic 

when the lights are off that ain’t no way to talk to me
i did you wrong but what do you want from me
i can’t stop so don’t get in my way
i’m going 105
i might die today

can we not talk about it
i’m in deep im drowning 
i got these bapes on my feet
why am i still counting 
my days are numbered so i can’t help you
don’t reach your hand out forget i held you

“i already forget yesterday
you been gone so long you’re a memory “
fuck you
and your friends
everything that you say
i guess i’m on my own 
ima do my own thing

all boys are the same <\3 (Jame$ x Just RT)

brontosaurus \ü/

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