ugly (prod siemspark x xmichaelwarren)

prod. ukii

you say that you wanted space
but now you're texting my phone
i don't have much self respect
so i can't leave it alone
and now it's three in morning
you're out with god knows who
i'm going crazy
just tell me,
just tell me what to do
you led me on to an idea you weren't thinking through
and now i'm left here with the pieces
you've got someone new

just shut it,
shut it,
tell me,
am i your puppet?
got me right round your finger
and it seems like you love it
could you cut me, cut me
i wont bleed though, i promise
i just need you to trust me
when i say this, i'm sorry

bright eyes, now they leave me petrified
i shake, and i don't wanna be alive
haven't spoken in days
can you remember why?
my voice just trembles
every time that i would try

you say that you wanted space
but now you're texting my phone
i don't have much self respect
so i can't leave it alone
and now it's three in morning
you're out with god knows who
i'm going crazy
just tell me,
just tell me what to do
you led me on to an idea you weren't thinking through
and now i'm left here with the pieces
you've got someone new

spotify

petrified

prod. michael harrison

i should probably go 
ill take the long way home 
so i avoid your dorm
so i don't think of whats unknown
you could break all of my bones
you could take me out of my zone
we could smoke a blunt and get stoned
we could fall in love on the phone

and it's all fun and games
until someone falls in love
and it's me, it's me
yeah it's always been me
when you took those three months
just to lead me on
i just wish you had come
with a warning label on
and it's got to the point
where i probably should leave
but i can't cause i still 
hope you're coming home to me
when your lips touched my hips
i thought we we're meant to be 
i just wish you could love
me a little more free

i should probably go 
ill take the long way home 
so i avoid your dorm
so i don't think of whats unknown
you could break all of my bones
you could take me out of my zone
we could smoke a blunt and get stoned
we could fall in love on the phone

warning label

prod shattered 
co prod 31sentinel

lyrics: 
i’m so cold now
but, fuck it i’m over this
two months
and nothing had come from it
you love 
to get some 
attention
maybe you’ll just get
a mention 
maybe he’ll leave you
in passing 
and i know
you’ll come back
im laughing 
fuck you
you took all my passion
i hate how you’re always acting

you don’t wanna talk to me
then hop right on my dick again 
every conversation that we have
is just a waste of breath
you just like attention 
that you get
from all of these fucking men
i just wish they’d break your heart
so you could feel what i had said
don’t lie to me 
it’s not worth it
i’ll see past
your every other movement
don’t act like 
i was the issue
you’re a siren
that’s just what you do

feeling sad on a weekend 
doesnt help that i saw your new boyfriend
im feeling sick, i dont like him
need a line few times and drink just to calm me down

dont call me dont say youre sorry
when you call me dont say youre sorry now
dont call me dont say you love me
when you call me dont say you love me now
(x2)

so bad how when you treat me like that
got me feeling so mad not a thing could calm me down
its so sad when you put it like that
what you say to my back dont say youre sorry now

espeon (w/ kairu)

prod. drmabeats

through the well
i fell into a portal
hard to cry
when you’re so unremorseful  
etch it in my skin 
i love the torture 
leave me thin
ready for the vultures 

what does it take just to do this?
i couldn’t imagine a human
so devoid of emotions you’re clueless
making this shit therapeutic 
you’re stupid thinking i won’t milk this shit 
so i can write these songs 
hoping that the way i talk about you
makes you cry along

the fire has burned your tongue 
spreading all the way down your lungs 
don’t look 
don’t scream
don’t run 
you won’t get past the sun

how does it feel to be self aware 
the pain that you caused
yeah it’s going no where
i don’t like the way you talk to me
i think you should get some therapy

and i’m setting the scene for fucking failure
always go for the girls that love to tear you
in a second your wrecking your every day ooh
never get too close 
when they love you

through the well
i fell into a portal
hard to cry
when you’re so unremorseful  
etch it in my skin 
i love the torture 
leave me thin
ready for the vultures 

the fire has burned your tongue 
spreading all the way down your lungs 
don’t look 
don’t scream
don’t run 
you won’t get past the sun
(x2)

portal

prod. drmabeats

and i thought that this was over
like way back in july
you had me grasping onto something
that was never alive
and you only like me for the chorus
subtle hints
and petty stories
i used to think that i was worried
but now i think that you’re so boring

you changed the color of the scene
you’re a monster you kill everything
just stay the fuck away from me
and pour yourself some kerosene

i’ll sing your name into a melody
turn my pain into harmonies
you just can’t get enough of me
you just are not my ecstasy
you put this pen to paper
but you’re burning all the memories
i wish they never happened
like god damn you’ll be the death of me

i’m a mess
i must confess
i’ll blow my brains out
just to vent
you don’t like me
i don’t like you
guess it’s best
that we are through
and i don’t like
the way you talk of me
when you’re out
or with your friends
you’re a headline
im the back page
i could’ve guessed
how this would end

you changed the color of the scene
you’re a monster you kill everything
just stay the fuck away from me
and pour yourself some kerosene

i’ll sing your name into a melody
turn my pain into harmonies
you just can’t get enough of me
you just are not my ecstasy
you put this pen to paper
but you’re burning all the memories
i wish they never happened
like god damn you’ll be the death of me

ecstasy

flashlight (the front bottoms)

lyrics:
i just copped a bag put the k up in my nasal 
glock 17 pointing straight at ur face hoe
one, two, three, four shots to ur spinal 
i just got a bad bitch yeah she off of bangbros 

i don’t really know what be going on 
walking home from the club cuz im tweaking on 
mixed pills i down with alcohol 
feeling like i just wanna end it all

i be going stupid yeah 
i be going fucking dumb 
shooting hip fire like it was a ray gun 
deadshot daiquiri way she give me dome 

i be hitting all my shots 
like its kovaaks
twenty seven club
u wont make that

m4a1-s the way i keep it silent
talking to me crazy
you'll end up dying
pull up to the function
leave it with some sirens

deadshot freestyle (prod catloversclub)

prod. forzen x maniks

doing everything that i could to make you fall in love
you make me look stupid cause ill never fucking be enough
new years party and i’m coping using all these drugs
you turned to something evil honestly you’re just a fucking cunt

you’re the cause of all my problems
yet i still love you instead
you’re the reason i have trouble sleeping i can never rest

i could slit my throat and stain my bedsheets with all this regret
maybe then you’ll finally feel the pain you love to just project 

im not the same
as i used to be
you just used my flesh
you took everything

new years eve

you said hello 
i said oh no
those hazel eyes 
you occupy my mind
tell a lie 
just be afraid
don't mess this up
don't make the same mistake
you told me you hate it when i call you my love
but then you act so differently when its just us
i could feel the tension baby it feels like a drug
i could see the love i give but you don't give a fuck 
and ill cut the thorns right off the rose
give it all to you
my love, i swear its true
its getting too real for me, ill probably fuck it up
never had no interest in me last a couple months
i tend to ruin things when i fall right into love
im always just too much or never good enough

hazel (forzen)

ashes in the dark, let me see the spark
numb down to the bone, like i had to go
waking up alone

do i wanna know
what u getting up to
when u all alone
do u think of me too
when i slit my wrists
do u see the blood too  

do i wanna know
do i wanna know
do i wanna know
do i wanna know
do i wanna know
do i wanna know

hop in the car
cuz i wanna go faster
straight to the face
baby im tryna get plastered
two gram blunt
that'll put you to the asphalt
i see stars
and im looking like a bastard

ashes in the dark, let me see the spark
numb down to the bone, like i had to go

what is the point
cuz we're stuck in the past tho
hate my old self
baby i don't think ill ever grow
fuck my life
wish i died when i tried hoe
fuck my life
if i died would you cry though

if u cannot change the past
then how the fuck do you move past
all the shit that u had done
getting better's not enough

will you take my heart, in the moonlight
yeah you tore out the pages and left me the spine
our love is covered in riddles, we're so intertwined
can you tell that im not over it, 
time we spent together but you told me was it counterfeit
picking up the pieces left me bleeding how'd it come to this?
why do i return to the scene, i wanted none of it
i was in the dark, i gave you my heart 
then we fell apart,  how did everything fall through?
knew it from the start, you're my winning card

ashes to ashes (mays)

w/ https://soundcloud.com/kairux_x

lyrics:
never wanna go to sleep, always missing therapy
lock myself up in my room i could hide away for weeks
you showed no concern for me
i don't have no time to grieve
i just lay alone in my bed lacking energy
i would give the world for you
remember all those movie scenes
whatever you had asked me
i just want you happy, i'm sorry
almost wanna take my life
the way i stay up every night
i wish that i could change the past 
but nothing will make you come back

honestly i wish that i could send a letter
but i know that i can't so i should just forget her 
my minds been at war it's not getting better
so i'll just write a song that i'll never send her
and i will never forget
the way she lit up every room

https://soundcloud.com/kairux_x:

i can blame my, can blame my past
i can wonder why the good dont last
why's it so hard just to be a friend?
i didnt want this to be how it ends

out of the smoke, and into the fray
i've given up hope, but ill be okay
im trying my best, but i feel stuck in place
i've come to my senses, you've left me defenseless

account not found (forzen)

lyrics:
so tell me that you miss me
i want you to kiss me
drown it in the whiskey
love you till i'm dizzy
love you 
till my heart stops
in your hands
in your hands
the ghost of you
floats in the smoke
i'm a joke
every aching night
stay awake
burning photographs
tell myself
i won't ever relapse

wake up in my bed
with the thoughts stuck in my head
my wrists are looking red
cuz of all the blood i shed
texting you at 2
baby you know what to do
call me up again
i wanna hear your precious voice
let me haunt your dreams
with the time that we were teens
hear my final song
while you hit your parents bong
i know that you don't care
i'm wishing i was there

so tell me that you miss me
i want you to kiss me
drown it in the whiskey
love you till i'm dizzy
love you 
till my heart stops
in your hands
in your hands
the ghost of you
floats in the smoke
i'm a joke
every aching night
stay awake
burning photographs
tell myself
i won't ever relapse

do it for the fans
never switching plans
heart in my own hands
throwing up a couple grams
you never even cared
talking shit like i'm not there
but i see you in his hair
like the weed that's in the air
baby i know you've been playing me
you got me torn in my heart
watching it all fall apart
watching it all fall apart

tell me that you miss me

SPOTIFY

tell me that u miss me

acoustic guitar: https://soundcloud.com/taurusmoon
lyrics:
i thought you were the one for me
turns out your just a cheap
and now i'm all alone
crying on the phone
wish you were
a different breed
but you hurt me
and i thought you were different
but now i'm here sickened
wishing you 
out of my head
it never worked
i am hurt
and i still seem to care
even though your never there
even though you never cared
lets take it back
to when were 
acquaintances
setnences
back and forth
through our phones
you told me 
to promise
to not hurt my own skin
but you did that
on your own
no regard
for my groan
what 
went 
wrong
when i didn't call
across the hall
i want you
to love me
like you did 
way back when
when we were only friends
when we were only friends

when we were only friends (acoustic)

https://soundcloud.com/hatefulbeats
lyrics:
drop dead
on the doormat of my ex again
feel the empty space
when she's clogging up my head
now i can feel the
brain cells start to fade away
she take the pain away
she take the pain away

i'm trying
i'm trying
to live life this way
every day
feels the same 
with the pain
no one can stop me from making the bops
i'll never quit until i hit the top

hitting the tops of the charts with my song
hoping that you heard it hitting your bong
hoping that one day that i'll sing to you
rotting in hell know i'll see you here soon

cutting my wrist until all the pain stops
smoking the tree until my lungs go drop
never gonna find a girl as crooked as my ex
only use me for the sex
and now i think im coming next

smoking all day and all night and all day
never found another way to take away the pain
falling to the ground because i only got cement
and my life is not content
i lose my shit when we connect

drop dead
on the doormat of my ex again
feel the empty space
when she's clogging up my head
now i can feel the
brain cells start to fade away
she take the pain away
she take the pain away

take away the pain

follow hateful

take the pain away (prod. hateful)

shoutout to soundcloud.com/itsyungvan & https://soundcloud.com/daddydandy <3

lyrics:
shattered:
shawty you know that you lie
you wouldn't care if i die
you wouldn't care if i cry
shawty why do you lie

i wish i didn't date you
i wish i didn't know you
i'll sell shows to break you 
i flex on my ex
cuz that's all that i got
she run away cuz she know she a thot

i hope it was worth it 
bite like a serpent
act like a bitch cuz it tears me apart 
truth is i'm hurting
truth is i'm learning
truth is that i hope that i end up burning
your legs are like doors
you open and pour
you'll love anyone who won't call you a whore
but
that's what you are to me
i'm just a casualty

manipulating
when we were dating
you told me don't fret
he's just an old friend
he's just an old ex
i only love you 
back of my car 
we can have so much fun boo
do i still love you
baby i can't tell 
you talk to others
while i hide in covers	
sheets on my head
make me feel like i'm dead
texting your phone but you leave me on read

yung van:
fuck you, you don’t about care me
fucked up, naw the blames not on me
don’t talk shit behind my back, cause i don’t roll like that
i know you wanted on me
what’s he got that i don’t
he’s got you, that’s a joke
you’ll switch up, like a roach
just make sure you don’t choak
with all that shit your mouth
you better shut the fuck up
cause when this news gets out
all your friends gon’ switch up
i have no remose for you
don’t come back crawling to me
when he finds out what you do
he’ll throw you off like his shoe

shattered:
baby
you're faker
than santa claus
than santa claus
the guy 
that you are with
will leave
so please just don't come back to me
shawty 
you're colder than ice with some salt
my friends were right
about the night
when we had met
you got me set
like juliet
with bayonets 
ready to fire on me at your will
choking on smoke while we kiss and we chill
leaving my ass for a kid with some skill
you just a park all you give is a thrill

flowars:
bad girl in a mad world
ass fat where you at girl
let me hit it from the back girl
i ain't got a jack shit black pearl
i don't wanna look at you
everything you put me through
but you won't go away
so i guess ill fuck your face
ask that nigga how i taste
does he know your love is fake
tell the boy that i relate
ooh i relate
bitch is latex
she just want sex
and your paycheck
like it's no sweat
bitch is latex
she just want sex
and your paycheck
like it's no sweat

romeo & juliet! w/ yung van & flowars (prod. nick mira & lucky bennu)

lyrics:
https://soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt:
got the louie v
on my coffin 
shawty say she like it how im rockin
she been slurring all her words i think she off it
ive been making money ive been making profit 

throwing up in your bathroom
ive been off the pills what about you
breathe carolina i wont blackout
im too faded but im still gonna cash out
black jeans and my louie v
got my black nails painted match my gucci
got some money spend it all now my wallet empty
trying not die, but it's tempting

shattered:
got the louis v on my coffin
shawty say she like it how i'm rocking
everybody on me since i'm popping
break my heart again just for profit

got 100k in a week bitch
now i hit a million watch my friends switch
but i'm still alone
did this on my own
plug hit me up only time i get my phone

no name thotties all in my mentions
i don't feel like i'm in this dimension
i don't ever wanna be like you
i don't ever wanna talk to you

coffin! w/ lil skele & swoon (prod. discent)

shattered:
in the benz
no more friends
smoking up that indica
with my luck
yeah i feel like i am dead again
in my head
something here doesn't feel right
feel right

woke up 
still gone
yeah i write another song
shawty won't love me for long
guess i gotta move on

always been chasing 
always been lacing
my heart is racing 
your guard is fading
i think i hate you
my soul is screaming
i'm dreaming
there's no escaping
i'm shaking

and when i die
will they shout my name
will i get the fame
will they stay the same

i've been coming up
loko in my cup
sorta funny how these bitches wanna call me up
never felt my pain
never felt the same
never knew the reason that these bitches give me brain

i've been coming up
shawty wanna talk
i don't wanna talk
so that bitch gets blocked
she just want the cock
put my heart on lock
shawty wanna fuck
tell that bitch good luck

sad chill:
i don't give a fuck
i've had enough
i just wanna be myself
is that too much
pressure on my chest
can't breathe 
can't sleep
neck deep
imma choke 
blow smoke
can't cope
all the things unsaid
can i die instead 
im sick of fake love
i just want a friend
all they want is gucci fur
all i need is @gucccifer 
i would die for her 
but im already dead
dont know what to do
dont know what to do
always back to blue
always back to blue
will be gone soon
will be gone soon
hope i follow thru
hope i follow thru
and i try my best
but not for myself
is this fucking hell
i can't tell no

sick of fake love w/ sad chill (prod. jakkyboi)

prod by https://soundcloud.com/splashgvng
ciel:
she told me we’re better off as friends
so this is where the pain starts
and love ends
i dont wanna hurt you
and get it confused
but i’ve never been a stranger
to getting bad news 
i’ve never been one to open up inside
you came in my life and told me
i don’t gotta hide, yeah
and look where it fucking got me
look where it fucking me
you took the knife right out of
my back
then you put it in the front
i can’t forget about that 
it’s kinda fucked up
how this cycle always goes cuz
my heart says yes but my brain says no
the days went by
seen you out with other guys
i hope they break your heart
and maybe cut you down to size
i’m sure they’ll get fed up
listening to all your lies

shattered:
push the knife right through my heart
kick me in a grave where the end is the start
i've never been a stranger to getting bad news
but the end is coming quick
and i'm running out of screws   
running out of screws
i've been feeling loose
everybody around me wouldn't care to tie the noose
it’s kinda fucked up
how this cycle always goes cuz
my heart is saying yes but my brain is saying no
yeah my brain is saying no
baby i should really go
get my jacket and my coat
yeah it's really fucking cold.

cold w/ ciel (prod. splashgvng)

soundcloud.com/convolk

convolk:
so i'm keeping my hopes up
keeping my hopes up
keeping my hopes up
keeping my hopes up
don't let me down
keeping my hopes up
keeping my hopes up
keeping my hopes up
don't let me down
leading me on
you're pissing me off
ain't called in a week
or maybe a month
now i'm losing track
now you're saving face
you're winning the game
i'm losing the race
but 
i'm keeping my hopes up
keeping my hopes up
keeping my hopes up
keeping my hopes up
don't let me down
keeping my hopes up
keeping my hopes up
keeping my hopes up
don't let me down
down 

shattered:
keeping my hopes up
i wanna throw up
she don't feel nothing
yeah she don't feel nothing 
i write songs
try to make you go away
but your so close
almost touching on your face
and i love you 
but you always lie to me
i can't trust you
i guess it's only up to me
leading me on
you're pissing me off
ain't called in a week
or maybe a month
now i'm losing track
now i'm losing sleep
i'm getting the bag
but still feeling sad
but i'm keeping my hopes up
maybe you'll show up
maybe you'll love me
and not wanna break me
i highly doubt that 
you tend to be rude
you never loved me
but that's just what i see 
i could write another line about the time you broke my heart
but 
inside of my head 
is where my problems tend to start
i got panic
i got sadness
i got all the things that hurt
and i've fallen for a girl
who would fuck me for a shirt
took my heart 
and you ripped and you burned it
your last love 
was a gift
should return it
should return it
should return it
should return it 
don't let me down
down 
down 
down

convolk:
so i'm keeping my hopes up
keeping my hopes up
keeping my hopes up
keeping my hopes up
don't let me down
keeping my hopes up
keeping my hopes up
keeping my hopes up
don't let me down
leading me on
you're pissing me off
ain't called in a week
or maybe a month
now i'm losing track
now you're saving face
you're winning the game
i'm losing the race
but 
i'm keeping my hopes up
keeping my hopes up
keeping my hopes up
keeping my hopes up
don't let me down
keeping my hopes up
keeping my hopes up
keeping my hopes up
don't let me down
down

keeping my hopes up w/ convolk (prod. jakkyboi)

shoutout to https://soundcloud.com/bornhero for the amazing beat <3

lyrics:
where i belong 
i do not know
stuck in my room
crying at home
watching the parties from my distant phone
everyone always just leaves me alone
i do not know
how to fit in
smoking me out
ripping a spliff  
everyone loves me when i go and dip
everyone loves me when i go and dip

everyone leaves me on read
everyone leaves me for dead
stuck in my bed once again
writing the same lines in pen
everyone leaves me on read
everyone leaves me for dead
stuck in my bed once again
writing the same lines in pen
i'm stuck here 
writing simple songs
hope to take the pain away
when my eyes turn to gray
i know 
that my secrets buried deep below the bong
will release
every thought i'm feeling making me do wrong

where i belong
i will not know
every weekend i'm feeling so low
no where to go 
staying at home
staring at walls scrolling twitter alone
hit up my phone
leave you on read
people around treating me like i'm dead
feel like a ghost
no one will post
sit in my bed think about you again   

no one invites me to parties
sit in a car acting sorry
girls playing me like atari
soon i'll blow up like i'm carti
no one invites me to parties
sit in a car acting sorry
girls playing me like atari
soon i'll blow up like i'm carti

i take control of the whip in my mind
driving me places that i can't define
exploring the road, taking my time
lie to my friends when i say i'm alright
where have i gone
i do not know 
hop in the car and i'm driving alone
phone is on silent not trusting these tones
i feel the weight all the way to my bone

where i belong 
i do not know
stuck in my room
crying at home
watching the parties from my distant phone
everyone always just leaves me alone
i take control of the whip 
going straight 90 i dip
exploring the vessel of me
tell me about what you see

where i belong (prod. born hero)

original sample: https://soundcloud.com/kahlua-and-milk/cheap-wine-1
by kahlua and milk 

shattered:
your beauty is something to notice
unravel my mind like a lotus
got something to say you might know this
but everytime i see you i just lose focus 
lips on your thighs got the roses beside 
swear to god i think the stars have aligned
drunk out my mind like your pussy is wine
stuck on your lips like a grape to a vine 
words fall from petals like roses
loving you shawty you know this
cupid hit me at my lowest
missing you takes all my focus

9TAILS:
turning grey
youll be okay though
no halo
i am no angel
gotta worn down old face
cold gaze
how im spose to love you how u want it
with a full plate
every step i stumble i got no grace
its a trick maze
up inside my mind im on a tight rope
how i fix it up fuck if i know
fuck a high note
smoking blunts singing slow while my eyes low
thoughts attack me make the lyrics sappy
turn up the tune cause my voice scratchy like a vinyl
i hear another person bitching i might uninstall the game
eye strain back pain tooth aches weed shakes
took a break from the music for a week 
came back and it was all the same
new face with the same sound
damn
something like a "we already lost" game plan
fucking up they life to make a new song slam
u wont make a banger just because u kick cans
still it could be poppin if u got the right friends
no reason to sweat it tho u bringing in bands
you and me are gone eventually we all end
we should live the life we proud to live amen to that
amen to that

shattered:
your beauty is something to notice
unravel my mind like a lotus
got something to say you might know this
but everytime i see you i just lose focus 
i'm losing sleep over you
dreaming of colors that i never knew
painting the picture of you in my mind
wish i could somehow just stop all the time 
from the ashes of your love
we can go and fly above
leaving rainbows when we die
really hate it when you cry
feeling really slow
i got the flow
give her the ice now she colder than snow
i wanna know will she love me for long
or is it a feeling from ripping the bong

flowars:
babe i'm afraid
i'm just letting you know
i never loved someone like you before
hearts in my eyes
i been shot in the skull
mind in the sky
feeling gravity's pull
oh
words fall like petals from roses
your beauty is never unnoticed
shawty you're glitching my focus
oh shit
shawty you're glitching my focus
you're bringing hope to hopeless
i think you already know this
know this

lotus love w/ 9TAILS & flowars (prod. taurusmoon)

lyrics:
i know i can’t stay fucked forever 
sometimes i feel like my friends never want me to get better 
i been making bops but whatever 
fucked around and made a few racks off a sweater 
money coming in and i spend it like i’m rich, but now i’m broke as shit at least i’ll make it back quick now 
100 miles on the dash i think we’re going to fast now 
whip it like a race when i get up out this town now 
told me i’m the worst and that you wish u did it sooner 
your the one who left but now i’m the fucking loser 
and you ran off and found somebody to replace me
i hope it’s easier to sleep now that you said you fucking hate me 

yeah you hate me
but you wanna date me
stay a little while
and baby you could save me
spinning words around my head it's getting hazy
you could never love me fuck it i'm too crazy
fuck it up again when i see you around
kinda getting nervous when you try to bring me down
kissing in the back of your whip
we're going 80 now
driving to the end of the world
we're never slowing down
woahhhhh ohh oh
we on a comedown
looking at the stars while you're looking for your coat now	
drunken off your love so i'm looking for a kiss now
replicate your dreams and live through me
open up your mind to find the key
woah oh ohh
and i know that i can't stay young forever
but i'm waiting outside in this shitty weather
hoping that you can love me tonight

i know i can’t stay fucked forever 
sometimes i feel like my friends never want me to get better 
i been making bops but whatever 
fucked around and made a few racks off a sweater 
money coming in and i spend it like i’m rich, but now i’m broke as shit at least i’ll make it back quick now 
100 miles on the dash i think we’re going to fast now 
whip it like a race when i get up out this town now 
told me i’m the worst and that you wish u did it sooner 
your the one who left but now i’m the fucking loser 
and you ran off and found somebody to replace me
i hope it’s easier to sleep now that you said you fucking hate me

i can't live like this forever w/ lil skele (prod. irby)

shattered:
got 2 lives
i already died
pieces of my heart breaking by your blue eyes
she already lied
she ain't even mine
drugs numb the pain when you getting real high

d1v:
she only come around when i got drugs
(when i got drugs on me)
i dont rly mind it cuz i just want her closer
yea she always lookin for sum fun
(she never sleep)
baby that alright with me if it makes u stay with me
if i should be honest i dont want to be attached to u
had another girl i loved so i did the dash for u
hate when u make me sad
baby dont feel bad
laying in my bed got my eyes at the ceiling
drain my pain with meds yea i guess i like feeling

shattered:
got 2 lives
i already died
pieces of my heart breaking by your blue eyes
she already lied
she ain't even mine
drugs numb the pain when you getting real high

i've been feeling down
she be taking drugs
i be getting love in the back of the club
shawty say what's up 
pour another cup
 your love is like a drug and i cannot get enough
i can't explain all the pain in my heart
you took the blade and you cut through my scars
when i go to sleep i just crash in my car
but it was all good till you left me in the dark

drugged up shawty w/ d1v (prod. born hero)

finn & marceline ft. keshore (origami)

mixed by https://soundcloud.com/prodbybrody
art by @ihateshota
prod by https://soundcloud.com/branwenmusic

this song means a lot to me bc i don't really hold anything back and it felt so good to say all of this. that being said, im still not in the best mental state, but i'm trying my best.

can someone tell me why i feel this way about love
and why i try to hide my emotions behind these drugs
my friends just tell me its apart of growing up
my bones seem to get much older but i never feel in touch

i talk to my friends like i talk to the people inside of my head
and sometimes i ask them for closure cause i never remember what i said
so tell me what i have to do to feel grown up in this world
maybe ill ditch my old life and just try and go fall for a girl
cause its been a long time since i've felt a thing called trust
and i don't think i've fallen for a girl without feeling a bit of lust

break me down
to my core
and you'll see 
that im the enemy

my age is a factor in this but i feel like im falling too quick
and if i dont slow myself down maybe ill just mess up and ill slip

can someone tell me why i feel this way about love
and why i try to hide my emotions behind these drugs
my friends just tell me its apart of growing up
my bones seem to get much older but i never feel in touch

growing up

art by @vvspurpp on twitter
kevin kazi:
my sins they comfort me
they talk to me
eventually
they'll swallow me
and desperately
i search for peace
i fight a war 
from wake to sleep
(x2)

kill me 
kill me
baby kill me
feel me
if you wanna feel the real me
she said im evil but she talkin bout the pill me
and it hurts everytime you fucking pill me
cut me 
fuck me
i know that you lust me
i can give you everything im triple 7 lucky
i wont talk about shit if it dont got nothing to do with money
i wont talk to you bitch cuz u so stupid its not funny

my sins they comfort me
they talk to me
eventually
they'll swallow me
and desperately
i search for peace
i fight a war 
from wake to sleep
(x2)

shattered:
the drugs they comfort me
i find my peace
they help me breathe 
they help me see
angel wings
upon your back
can you save me don't look back

my sins 
they comfort me
i try to sleep
but i can't dream
no i can't dream

you making me go crazy
baby why you hate me
i see it in your eyes yea you really wanna save me
cut me 
fuck me
i know that you lust me
i can give you everything baby girl just trust me
diamond rings
you can meet me in a private jet
where you going babe i know that you ain't tired yet
when i look around your heart i see a wire fence
now im faded on my own off a percocet
cut me
kiss me
make me feel lovely
baby your a cancer
your goal is just to infect me
i won't talk to all your friends like how you seem to do with mine
you were my diamond in the sky
now you just fuck with other guys

the drugs they comfort me
i find my peace
they help me breathe 
they help me see
angel wings
upon your back
can you save me don't look back

comfort w/ kevin kazi (spyder)

how you do that? w/ savagega$p (prod eris)

now im leaving 
will you ever miss me
you were never there 
you're so decieving 
i can't breathe
when i speak
it's like there's no air
pretty bitch
cut me deep
with her pink hair
pink hair
green eyes
shawty so misunderstood
she always gotta lie
now im tryna run away 
i can't escape your tide
im gone for good
no more fights
like every single night

when i die
will you be crying
or will you fuck the guy you told me never to worry about
im choking 
on all the bullshit you told me
while we were sitting on my lawn
passing time
looking at the clouds
ill never forget that
ill always regret that
i could've been sleeping in my room
but now im another boy who gave up his heart
just so you could break it
and now i passed out on your fathers couch
i swear i should've been taught not to fall for you
my dad raised me better than that
but now my knees kiss the front of your doormat
i ring your phone but i know you wont call back
your texts turn green
and you blocked me on snapchat
i swear i saw the signs from a mile away
and now im stuck laying in my grave

now im leaving 
will you ever miss me
you were never there 
you're so decieving 
i can't breathe
when i speak
it's like there's no air
pretty bitch
cut me deep
with her pink hair
pink hair
green eyes
shawty so misunderstood
she always gotta lie
now im tryna run away 
i can't escape your tide
im gone for good
no more fights
like every single night

pink hair (prod irby)

ur dad doesn't seem to like me much
but i don't care i just want your touch
and when you kiss me i just get a rush
passed out on the front of your lawn
now i know 
i'm stupid 
i fell hard
you felt that
but now i'm 
so fucked up
so in love
i'm sorry 

i hope that you hear this
i hope that your worth it
your dad makes me nervous
i fuck up on purpose
no 
no i don't deserve this
oh 
oh

i should stop running my mouth
i get in trouble everytime 
your dad seems to comes around
its not his fault
he just hates me 
cuz of the way that i sound
im super nervous
kinda quirky
i can't figure him out
he wants me dead, a grave right into the ground

watch the world burn as i walk thru the flames
discard my body the ashes will rain
kill everybody 
brain with no body 
talk to myself when i’m scared and i’m crying
emotionless eyes i can’t tell when i’m lying
far from the end but the end is still nigh 
how we all dead but still feelin alive
came out of the womb and i’m not even crying
baby wanna say bye bye
takin my life like i
don’t wanna feel alright
don’t wanna wake up 
don’t wanna step outside
bitch i been up all night

ur dad doesn't seem to like me much
but i don't care i just want your touch
and when you kiss me i just get a rush
passed out on the front of your lawn
now i know 
i'm stupid 
i fell hard
you felt that
but now i'm 
so fucked up
so in love
i'm sorry

ur dad fucking hates me! ft. joseph cash (prod irby)

(prod. shattered, bangss & ryan medina) 

i think it's time to let go
drive with my eyes closed
baby i don't wanna die
tell me imma be all right
cocaine nose
driving real slow
i don't give a fuck if you cry tonight

hope i die slow
in a car crash far from home
you can't stop what you've created
i am everything you hated
i know i'm not the best at everything
i'm trying really hard just to get you to finally see
you're pulling on my lungs and you're making it hard to breath
i'm going over 90 right into this fucking tree

everything stops when you say that it's over
i never wanted this
i just wanted some closure
you just wanted my clothes off
i just wanted your heart, 
but i fell too deep and now you want us apart

falling down on my bedroom floor
i dream of days where i don't have to feel anymore
im overwhelmed with emotions that i can't explain
i think im dying slowly every day i mask my pain

i think it's time to let go
drive with my eyes closed
baby i don't wanna die
tell me imma be all right
cocaine nose
driving real slow
i don't give a fuck if you cry tonight

you can take the wheel i got my eyes closed
wonder what the fuck goes on when my eyes close
night-time see you when the blinds close
every other days like the same it doesnt change

fall out
fall out i can hear you call out
from a far like a fallen star
gone so far
off of it
so im stuntin hard
and you get lost in it

caution to the wind
and often i find
that all my friends are coffins
gone and lost again so toss it
all your effort is forgotten

i think it's time to let go
drive with my eyes closed
baby i don't wanna die
tell me imma be all right
cocaine nose
driving real slow
i don't give a fuck if you cry tonight

driving with my eyes closed (ft. dylon bangss)

guitar tracked by lokel
written by me

you’re not the person
that i knew
its killing me
but i wonder what happened to you
did he change you
rearrange you
your body language doesn’t seem to match your mood

i stole your car again
but it hurt me more than it hurt you in the end
you ran up the mileage of trust
and the miles of love
that we said we wouldn’t forget
i still smell the cigarette smoke
on the hoodies you stole
from my closet back in march
i tried everything
to get the smell
out of my clothes
and out of my fucking mind

you stabbed me in my chest
but it felt so good
just to feel your touch again
i lay my head on the concrete
cuz you brought me to my knees

you’re not the person
that i knew
its killing me
but i wonder what happened to you
did he change you
rearrange you
your body language doesn’t seem to match your mood

girlfriends (acoustic)

all instruments by me
artwork by @artbyteddye 
mastered by https://soundcloud.com/deloragami

when you wake up
next to him
tell me
how you feel
do your eyes
shut close
when your lips touch
or is it all for real

is he everything you wanted
not a carbon copy of your past
and all the lies you’ve felt
but when i saw you at that show last weekend
you nearly broke right down

i have a list of things i wish i said to you
but you’re gone
and you’re never coming back
and i can only think about
when you kissed me
in the fall
how it meant
nothing at all
how it meant
nothing at all

thinking back to high school hallways
kisses by the lockers
getting drunk
at 12 pm
right before i had a class
and right
after all of that
you gave your heart to someone new
and it made me hate
every song
that we listened to

when you wake up
next to him
tell me
how you feel

dude, dating sucks!

omg
hello kitty tees
ripping up my jeans
heelys on my feet
(x4)

give me back my monster
kiss me on my collar
pictures in my lockette
i got cigarettes in my locker
(x2)

kicking in the crib
watchin invader zim
watch u fuckin fall to the ground
when u take a hit
molly hit hard when the sunset drop
sunset drop
sunset dropppp

on and on and onnnnnn
on and on and onnnnnn
on and on and onnnnnn
on and on and onnnnnn

omg
hello kitty tees
ripping up my jeans
heelys on my feet

hello kitty (prod. deadat18)

i know i'm a mess
you say that you're depressed
but you haven't met me yet
im as hopeless as they get

my mind is over run by enzymes 
hope that ill die soon
hope that you wont cry to, or lie to,
me or my friends cuz u know what u did 
oh my god 
im so fucked
i just wanna feel in love

so nonchalant as you 
watch me break before your eyes 
falling apart will you
meet me on the other side
look past the flaws
can’t you see i just was traumatized 
i can’t blame the drugs 
but i wasn’t myself at the times

when we got together again
i got as low as it gets 
influenced her to seek change 
and live like me on the edge 

she got away but 
the damage been done 
i lost some loved ones 
over my own problems

i posses a modicum of skill it makes me depressed
i just wanna feel something cutting through my fucking chest
baby let me bleed on the floor
ive fucking done this before
you just judge me at my core
i got no fucking support

i still have the photos of you
in my room
in my head
cant fade out 
wont go home
ill get stoned 
on my own

cuz i hate u now more than evrrr
cuz i hate u now more than evrrr
cuz i hate u now more than evrrr

i still have the photos of you
in my room
in my head
cant fade out 
wont go home
ill get stoned 
on my own

i know i'm a mess
you say that you're depressed
but you haven't met me yet
im as hopeless as they get

shattered

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