unreal

you tore my heart apart 
now I try to put it back together 
you’re my only love 
I wish that I could be with you forever 
Yeah I fucked up and now you’re gone 
and I don’t know what to do with myself 
Every days the same 
I can’t wash away the pain
so I switch up my meds 
can’t sleep in my bed 
cause I’m always wondering if I’m in your head 

wakin up every day to this life it Fuckin sucks 
Always having you on my mind and I wanna wish you luck 
wish we could’ve worked, I’m always drinking now, I’m fucked 
im going days without eating and only filling up my cup 

I’m running on empty 
cause I don’t have you here anymore 

I do the same thing every day 
Getting high is my escape 
so I don’t have to think of all the problems 
how I couldn’t solve them 
so I write these poems 
singing how I feel so numb 

nothing works anymore 
I’m so empty down to the core 
you closed up all of your doors 
left me here on the floor 

I’m feeling so anxious 
Cause I be fighting this depression 
I never learned my lesson 
always waiting for a message 

God don’t even listen to me 
answer all my questions 
I am always fuckin stressed 
living without any direction 

You were such a blessing 
gave so much affection 
just enough attention 
a beautiful connection 
I always see your reflection 
When I am looking for perfection 
writing songs about you 
fuck, I’m feeling so depressive

everyday's the same (prod. Afterlife)

arrowhead

all that i know

your eyes

burning like a star, doomed to die alone

lyrics: 

dont know how to make this right
always feelin' so dead inside
its all i can do not to end this life
yall just fuck me up and leave me here to die
god knows im so sick of cryin
fuck this shit i feel like dyin
dont believe anything they say now
ima light up to relieve this pain now...

dont know why 
i cant face this world
im always starin thru the blinds 
dont hmu im just a waste of time 

dont hmu im just setback
id rather be alone and hit this gas pac
pls dont get to close to me
everyone who does becomes the enemy...

dont talk to me...
if you do youll just want to leave
im backin down i dont want this 
nothing that i do could ever, ever stop this
burning like a star, im doomed to die alone
everybody leaves ive never had a home
just go away, i dont wanna talk now
im perfectly fine being a shadow in the background

oooo a shadow in the background
oooo the sun comes out
i dont make a sound...
i dont make a sound....

shadow in the background [+taurs & jolst]

i'm a casualty of life...
prod. @gonetoofar x @memoryroseishere
cover photo taken my by girlfriend :)
hope u all enjoy <3

lyrics:
oh how i dream of the west coast
or maybe somewhere thats not here
i’ve been all cooped up inside
need a place to reside
where the water can run clear

i hate to wait for my chances
but i’m a casualty of life
my brain cannot wait
for the day i can say
everything’s gonna be fine

don’t want to be here tomorrow
but in the sense i don’t exist
i’m sick of basic routine
need a change in my scene
i don’t know how to fix this

i think i'm tumbling backward
i need a hand to life me up
or maybe air i can breathe
maybe eyes that could see
why the water has dried up

freshwater [toofargone x memoryrose]

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Here I Am” is a vulnerable yet victorious Christian R&B ballad that lays bare the struggle of shame, pride, and hidden wounds—yet declares the power of God’s unconditional love. Inspired by Psalm 51 and Romans 5:8, the song moves from whispered confession to a triumphant choir-backed finale, reminding us that God doesn’t wait for our perfection—He meets us in our surrender.

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Here I am

[Prod. Northeast Lights]

MIXED BY FRVR&ALWYS:
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MONSTER! [Prod. Northeast Lights]

Shout out to @scummusic for being so nice and hopping on this track with me. He makes amazing music go listen to him now!!

SuiSai: No self worth im selfish and worthless cant help this they think its fake cause they cant relate
watch the world go by, yeah ill just lag behind
look at these cold eyes and all that they despise oh oh

yeah dont know why they cannot hear me
are they choosing to just ignore and look away?
im used to that shit anyway oh oh
cause im screaming my lungs out
dreaming till the suns up
leave me in ash and dust ill see you again when its all done

Scum: I feel boring, not important
waste my time while yall are soaring
i dont wanna be the one to let you down no
feeling really hopeless you can watch me drown now
whys it gotta be like this people are so quick to switch
i just always moan and bitch i guess i had enough of it
yeah i guess i had enough of it
i hope time can heal
i hope time can heal

SuiSai: yeah dont know why they cannot hear me
are they choosing to just ignore and look away?
im used to that shit anyway oh oh
cause im screaming my lungs out
dreaming till the suns up
leave me in ash and dust ill see you again when its all done

it's all done ~ w/ scum [p. ocean]

star dust (hxrxkiller)

drifting (p. lxve)

im a young lil sinner yeah im falling for you
i don't really care i'll crash inside of your room
ride inside the coup
im off a perc 30
glock with a beam
yeah im always riding dirty
balenciaga sneakers feel like walking in a blizzard
my wrist so cold got me feeling like a wizard
ion wanna miss her
but i think i just kissed her, got a young gothic bitch and we faded off the liquor

lil goth boy dont you worry about me
imma die young 
when i'm gone then you'll see 
when my voice on the beat
will you cry 
for my peeps
young white bitch and i let her in for free
let her in for free
now she wanna beef
got designer jeans aint nothing on me cheap
came from the grave now i'll never rest in peace
now im off a bean never eat, never sleep

you said it'd last forever but i don't know if its true
say we never be apart and now you say you need some room
block me on your twitter
like what the fuck is that
got me rolling up a blunt
now my mind fades to black
im a young lil sinner yeah im falling for you
i don't really care i'll crash inside of your room
ride inside the coup
im off a perc 30
glock with a beam
yeah im always riding dirty

sinner (hxrxkiller)

prod. loopy
mixed by @kvnny

i told you id be a better me
im so sorry that i lied
my disguise
kept me tied up
im feeling tired of all this

something inside me
is running and hiding
and letting the rest of me run free
i guess we'll see
if it works out
but something has been telling me its over now
so let this be my final stand
close my eyes and hold my hand
god i know that ive done wrong
so let this be my final song

let me fade out in the background
i feel like ive been caged like a dog pound
i feel like im insane
when you not around
but
im prolly worse when youre here
made a mistake
and forgot it with a beer
write another song about
you scream and shout at someone
who just wants the best
god im depressed
where did i go so god damn wrong
i think ill be gone before too long
so maybe just maybe it wont ever matter
and maybe oh maybe
its not a disaster
maybe youll be okay
and one day i can say the same
or maybe we meet and heavens gates

i told you id be a better me
and maybe i didnt lie at all
its the fall
that i must take to
fade away from all this
all the shit i talk
i know i was wrong
but i cant take that back so
i hope that you understand
im no man
im a boy
im destroyed
ive been hiding from all of my problems
and you filled the void

"but for the love of god pls let me go"

prod by loopy

ive been feeling lost i
cant remember last night
i dont feel like the good guy
i guess maybe im the bad guy
never meant to be the villain
drink too much until its spilling
i tell myself that im fine
but i cant remember last night
im so stagnant repeating myself
all of this liquor is bad for my health
begging and begging i want you to stay
all of the while im getting more grey
im losing color my palettes a mess
everydays darker im fucking depressed
this life is boring and im fading fast
i guess that we crashed
i got what i asked
for
mi amore
это все новое для меня		-- this is all new to me
J'essaye de faire de mon mieux	-- im trying my best
туда и сюда			                -- back and forth
я думаю, что я сойду с ума		-- i think im going to lose my mind

speaking different languges
learn communication
its fucked up
all the shit i put you through
what you put me through
i dont really understand why i dont hate you
you dont hate me too
at least not that i know of
id throw up
im trying so hard not to grow up
oh man
feel like peter pan
but
now im just left with the trust and the pixie dust
guess that ill mix it up woah
my life is spinning
im sinning
my throats
been burning
im turning
the table
so now im unstable
wait fuck no i wanna go back
i cant relax
your voice echos inside of the silence
im feeling violent
no i cant escape
guess that im stuck in the bed that you made
then i made it worse i gave in to the hate
nothing i can do about it now
but im feeling like shit
so i guess ill write it down
guess that im the villain
not feeling my self
running all the time
and its not going well
no more
hit the floor
closed door
fuck my hearts torn
im a bore
bodys sore
guess ill never roar
never lion
dont know why im tryin
i think theres a chance that this beds the one ill die in
im so sorry
i dont know whats gotten into me
a ghost of who i used to be
theres nothing at my core

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never meant to be the bad guy

FIRST SINGLE FROM "Past the Stars" IS OUT NOW! next single drops may 22nd. I really hope you guys enjoy this one, I know it's a bit different but I have a good feeling you will like the next single if you don't like this one! Thank you for listening, stay safe <3

produced by: @sinxi
Mixed by: @sinxi
Art by: @digitalyams on twitter

Lyrics:
A spotlight is shining on you and me
Oh, I can feel your breath on my skin, I love your company

So dance with me
In the moonlight I’ll hold your hand
Oh, I’m afraid, but I’ll dance until I can’t stand 

I can’t see anything but your face
If the sky was falling I wouldn’t leave this place
I can name all the places that we used to go
Out to all the shows
I’m so glad that you’re back
The lights on us and everything is black

So dance with me
In the moonlight I’ll hold your hand
Oh, I’m afraid, but I’ll dance until I can’t stand

Stay with me
That's all I'm asking from you
Hold me tight
I'll never need to move

So dance with me
In the moonlight you'll hold my hand
And don't let go cause you're all that I need and more
So dance with me
In the moonlight you'll hold my hand
And don't let go cause you're all that I need and more

Past the Stars

Dance With Me (Prod. Sinxi)

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Produced and mixed by @caustyk
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🌊🌊🌊🌊🌊🌊🌊🌊🌊🌊🌊
Lyrics:
My cuts show
Shits goin down
Whered your love go
Bloods runnin out
I dont want that hoe
I dont wanna hear a sound
Cut me in
Cut me in and out

Tired of always lookin back
I feel my heart go flat line
I dont wanna hear you still cry
I dont wanna live in this lifetime

I dont wanna see you for a life time
Broke my heart imma die twice
Need a limousine and i need ice
burnt everything inside yeah

I cant even pick up these shards no
Fallin im fallin all apart yeah
You dont know whats hidden in the dark yeah
You dont know what go on in the dark yeah

Rollin up rollin up spark
Rollin up rollin up spark
They all wanna eat me like sharks
They all wanna eat me like sharks

Make time freeze
Smoke so much i cant breathe
I dont wanna sleep
See old memories when i dream

Cover my eyes i dont wanna see
Starin at screens, watching it bleed
What are we, what do you mean
Its just me, in ripped jeans

Its just me its just me
Its just me in ripped jeans
X2

My cuts show
Shits goin down
Whered your love go
Bloods runnin out
I dont want that hoe
I dont wanna hear a sound
Cut me in
Cut me in and out

Tired of always lookin back
I feel my heart go flat line
I dont wanna hear you still cry
I dont wanna live in this lifetime

I dont wanna see you for a life time
Broke my heart imma die twice
Need a limousine and i need ice
burnt everything inside yeah

I cant even pick up these shards no
Fallin im fallin all apart yeah
You dont know whats hidden in the dark yeah
You dont know what go on in the dark yeah

Rollin up rollin up spark
Rollin up rollin up spark
They all wanna eat me like sharks
They all wanna eat me like sharks

sinner (hxrxkiller)

shattered

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