I'm 18 today, I've been listening to this song since I was 14, it does hit different now lol

Almost gonna turn 17 listening since middle school crazy how life changes so quick but can feel so long at certain periods

BalenciagaT(prod.YOUNGMESA)

the worthless

uncertain

the water

is rising



im choking

help me

i dont know how much more i can take



oh what a beautiful night it is

the wind is howling at my skin

inching me closer to the window

and im not scared at all



a walking corpse

cleanse my soul

rid me of all my impurities



or let me rot

6 feet deep

either ways fine with me





i gave the world my heart and all i have to show for it are scars and nightmares



and i always think about how fucked up it is that we live our whole lives trying to please others



but we can never please ourselves 



day after day

night after night

its just never enough and it will never be enough



now everyday i just sit in this bed and feel sorry for myself and the cycle repeats like clockwork



years to months to days to hours to minutes to seconds



and i swear the only way out of this prison i put myself in is a bullet to my fucking head or a bottle of spilt pills



i need to learn

to just to give in

theres no point in fighting it anymore

i gave the world my heart and all i have to show for it are scars and nightmares

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ＳＵＢＪＥＣＴ　ＭＡＴＴＥＲ

ＣＬＯＳＥ　ＹＯＵＲ　ＥＹＥＳ　＆　ＴＡＫＥ　ＩＴ　
ＡＬＬ　ＩＮ

ＭＡＹ　ＴＨＩＳ　ＢＲＩＮＧ　ＹＯＵ　ＰＥＡＣＥ

//ごめんなさい//

@tothegood

lacuna

follow tothegood

blue (prod. tothegood)

occam's razor

decaying at 18 w/ supachefm

skin deep w/ jay vee

spotify

apathy w/ guccihighwaters

prod. by @4evrgone

lyrics
--------
lower than low you fucking piece of shit
you're nothing more than a kid
just something i wanna rid 
& i confess that i care too much
about everyone 
you're the weight that's pulling on my lungs  

suffer alone until you get a grip 
until the acid drips 
from your eyes to your lips 
find your way out of all the shit you cause 
you can not hit pause
this is your monologue 
and i don't really feel like
you get me so let me just fucking live life
my patience is wasted because i'm too nice
fake friends take advantage i know it's happened twice 
like
they don't really care 
i'm fully aware 
baby don't you dare 
i've been looking at the way you look at him you stare
i'm not throwing up i'm just in need of fucking air 

lower than low you fucking piece of shit
you're nothing more than a kid
just something i wanna rid 
& i confess that i care too much
about everyone 
you're the weight that's pulling on my lungs  

i've been patient starting fires 
burning higher than before 
i've been patient growing tired 
of the lump that's in my throat

follow 4evr

useless (prod. by 4evr)

miss u haven't met u tho

prod. @4evrgone

I don't know who i am
i don't trust who you are
lately all i can do is pray to the stars
that this bleak observation of everything i see
might one day turnaround 
i need to get some fucking help

im fucking sick of myself 
fucking sick of how my brain has a mind for itself
consider this an open letter you wont read for yourself
yeah of course im talking bout whos typing these words all down

looking more and more like deadman in this wonderland town
looking more and more like deadman in this wonderland town

leave me in the past like your bad dreams
dont care if your home in the morning
im betting its best to ignore me
its worthless for us to keep pushing
leave me in the past like your bad dreams
dont care if your home in the morning
im betting its best to ignore me
its worthless for us to keep pushing
im fucking sick of myself 

im fucking sick of myself
fucking sick of how my brain has a mind for itself
consider this an open letter you wont read for yourself
yeah of course im talking bout whos typing these words all down

leave me in the past like your bad dreams
dont care if your home in the morning
im betting its best to ignore me
its worthless for us to keep pushing
leave me in the past like your bad dreams
dont care if your home in the morning
im betting its best to ignore me
its worthless for us to keep pushing

sick of myself (prod. 4evr)

available on all platforms: https://song.link/us/i/1456734832

artwork: @levistrauck

MUSIC VIDEO: https://youtu.be/WXTedaF9_Jw

decaying at 18 w/ supachefm

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