blowing ash into my lungs like im an ashtray

I'm 18 today, I've been listening to this song since I was 14, it does hit different now lol

Almost gonna turn 17 listening since middle school crazy how life changes so quick but can feel so long at certain periods

FLOWSY

wasted on you (ft. 93FEETOFSMOKE and KING CHRISTIAN)

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rip your underwear (prod. tothegood)

production by jay vee
vocals by shinigami

@ihateshinigami
full project together soon

grew up too fast
like a bullet breaking thru the glass
remember that
fell asleep in every single class
i hate the fact
that ive become an insomniac
i hate the fact
that im never ever going back

cant even say that im feeling sad
i cant help but dwell on everything i had back when i was a kid
all those emotions they cease to exist

the world was so new woke up bright every day
now im just jaded its faded to grey
and i lay in a coffin that i helped create
facing the fact that ill never feel great again

shinigami - grew up 2 fast (prod. jay vee)

occam's razor

decaying at 18 w/ supachefm

miss u haven't met u tho

Shinigami x Lil Lotus - nightmare

give it up (feat. yesterday) [prod. brody]

pulled up so late that i missed the whole party

I’ve never felt so fucked send help my love I’m going under
I wonder what you think of me tell me is it over
wish I didn’t love you so much
I’ve been getting used to what it does
trying to loosen my grip
girl I know I won’t get anywhere by
holding on too tightly I’m trying
not to lose my fuckin mind
you’re so confusing all the time
I don’t wanna lose you ill do anything
damnit I think you’re gone already

I wonder what you think of me but
god I know i shouldn’t
fall apart every time that you come when
I’m standing still alone and fucking stuck
wish I didn’t care about you so much
miss the way we used to talk
lately you’ve been gone
so far off from what I thought I would want
I love you so much 
you can use me just know I love you and

I’ve never felt so fucked send help my love I’m going under
I wonder what you think of me tell me is it over
wish I didn’t love you so much
I’ve been getting used to what it does
trying to loosen my grip
girl I know I won’t get anywhere by
holding on too tightly I’m trying
not to lose my fuckin mind
you’re so confusing all the time
I don’t wanna lose you ill do anything
damnit I think you’re gone already

I don’t wanna waste my time with you
spend a couple months now I’m back into
this game that I hate and I know its forsure
that you’ll leave me broken when you walk out the door
wish I didn’t fall so easily
cuz I feel you start to walk away from me
and I know I gotta get my self together now
feel so small underneath this ground
can you tell I’m breaking
with every word you’re saying to me now
all my bones are shaking trying my best somehow

I’ve never felt so fucked send help my love I’m going under
I wonder what you think of me tell me is it over

gonna keep loving you
cuz its the only thing I know how to do
I’m useless I’m used up
your perfect I’m in love
holding onto pieces that would keep us connected
pouring out my heart I should have kept you protected
I don’t wanna lose you after all that we went through
if it has to be this way ill never forget you

send help (feat. kaiyko & familypet) [prod. curtains]

stella // @edacityy

7.  over you
feat. lil lotus
mix by brody 
prod splashgvng & brody

[Lil Lotus]
Fuck your new tattoos
And your sweater in my room
It still smells like you
And there's nothing I can do

I was just waiting for something more
And I guess that you were too
So I'm getting over you
I'm getting over you again

[Edacity]

I'll be a fly on the wall watching all of your pitfalls
Every time im comin down i think about you
If anybody ever calls askin what the fuck im on
You better not tell ‘em all the things i do

The ways i move
The words i choose
When im beside you
When i try to be alone

Mirror mirror on the wall
Whos the fakest of them all
Took a moments time to paint a picture like you
If anybody ever calls Askin what the fuck im on
You better not tell them All the things i dooo

What do i do?
Ill remind you
Im beside you
When i try to Be alone

Come on out here why you doin this 
We be on that good shit like 
yeah yeah we doin this 
Come and throw it down like you done do this 
Got my shit together i got iced wrists  

But this glass heart it stays broke
Hell its endless 
Youre heartless i'm choking
How dare you come around 
when you just know that 
Life will end this 
And we're so damn hopeless 

I want to breath life into misery 
I’ve spent enough nights alone at peace 
Never knowing where i’ll be
Not coming to terms is on me

I'll bury all these bones from our history (it's an artifact)
It took 3 years to feel complete
Never knowing where i'll be
Not coming to terms is on me

decaying at 18 w/ supachefm

shinigami

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