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I don't wanna feel anything anymore
i just wanna put my hand straight through that door
Now i got wrist bleeding on the bedroom floor
cause i dont wanna feel anything anymore

I remember everything from the time that you left my side
Wiping the tears 'no don't fuck with my eyes'
Biding my time, i wanna try 
Just to forget you but i feel alive 
Oh please take my life
Please take my life
Its the best time to die
Like now, i wanna right now 
I wanna die

I don't wanna feel anything anymore
I just wanna put my hand straight through that door
Now i got wrist bleeding on the bedroom floor
cause i dont wanna feel anything anymore

I dont wanna live in a world without you
Even after al the shit you put me through
You're still the one 
Night grow cold and I'm alone
And you don't ever pick up the phone when i call
So let me die here

Let Me Die Here w/ scum (prod. trxpicvl )

music video: https://youtu.be/WLmP3M_SIoI

lyrics:

i got angels hovering above my fuckin head
i got heart eyes for this lil shawty in my head
wake up every morning thinkin that im fuckin dead
makes me wonder why i dont just stay inside my bed

stay inside my bed
this never fuckin ends
makes me wonder why i dont just stay inside my bed
stay inside my bed
im inside her head
makes me wonder why id rather talk to you instead

twinkle twinkle twinkle you know im a fuckin star
twinkle twinkle twinkle you dont know just what you are
gotta find my way back home i think its getting dark
but home is where your heart is and you know that i dont got a heart

keyblade on my back i never need a strap
bankai on my lap im always on attack
flexin all these bands you know that shit is wack
tired of this shit im boutta take a nap

i got angels hovering above my fuckin head
i got heart eyes for this lil shawty in my head
wake up every morning thinkin that im fuckin dead
makes me wonder why i dont just stay inside my bed

stay inside my bed
this never fuckin ends
makes me wonder why i dont just stay inside my bed
stay inside my bed
im inside her head
makes me wonder why id rather talk to you instead

im a waste of space yea all i ever do is lie
i dont understand why you give me your fuckin time
blowin up my phone they know i wont ever reply
pls just leave me alone im just a waste of time

darkness stands alone i know the light will guide us home
but i cant help but feel like ima fuckin die alone
if you fuck w me hold me down like a dialtone
youre the reason why i always stay up on my phone

stay up on my phone
please just take me home
youre the reason why i always stay up on my phone
stay up on my phone
i feel so alone
youre the reason why i never can put down my phone

i got angels hovering above my fuckin head
i got heart eyes for this lil shawty in my head
wake up every morning thinkin that im fuckin dead
makes me wonder why i dont just stay inside my bed

stay inside my bed
this never fuckin ends
makes me wonder why i dont just stay inside my bed
stay inside my bed
im inside her head
makes me wonder why id rather talk to you instead

sea salt ice cream (✿◠‿◠) [visual in desc.]

@familypet

shinigami: you said thisll never last so now im falling apart
my face is feeling numb again 
a shattered soul
dont let me go
you killed me first
im sure you know

she said thisll never last now im left in the dark
you saved me from myself again 
after the fall
i knew it all along
i never asked for this at all

you shouldve never let me in at all
now all you can do is watch me crawl
away
isolate myself
and i still can feel it all

and you can see the devil in my gaze
i think its best you stay away from me
im weak why cant you see this

familypet: thinkin back i fucked it up
my brothers just don't give a fuck
we skate until it's dark enough
to smoke and drink
we act don't think
don't think we act our age with it
i know i always ruin shit
i hope i never ruin this
i hope we'll always stay like this
putting each other in hospital beds
remember last summer when i broke my leg
doing a jump at the gap at 18th
remember the time that i knocked out your teeth
i'm glad that you always forgave me
these are the stories and memories that made me
i know i wasn't worth saving
i was just crazy
can't help the fact that i love misbehaving

i never asked for this [feat. familypet]

no samples

[lyrics]
is it I think too much
or are we chasing after
a ghost of what once was

I can't tell the difference

is it you care too much
or am I holding our past
like a knife against my tongue

I can't tell the difference

would it be enough
if we were loaded and fucked up
house out in the hills

I wouldn't bet on it

we could be more lost
car roofs, wet shoes
cashed out in an friend's garage

but one time's enough

Will it ever be enough
I hate fucking being numb
sorry that I love these drugs
do you think my head is fucked

Will it ever be enough
I hate fucking being numb
sorry that I love these drugs
do you think my head is fucked

i hate fucking being numb

FT: https://soundcloud.com/lilzubin
 https://twitter.com/lilzubin

PROD: https://soundcloud.com/charlieshuffler
 https://twitter.com/CharlieShuffler

ART: https://soundcloud.com/wolf_drawn
 https://twitter.com/WOLFDRAWN
 
MIX/MASTER: https://soundcloud.com/nick_colletti
 https://twitter.com/nick_colletti

amphetaminez ft. lil zubin (prod. charlie shuffler)

vocals recorded, mixed and mastered by ronnie scocozza

@yungscuffonline - Anywhere but My Arms ft. YungJZAisDead (Prod. DJ KHALED'S SON)

@ihateshinigami

https://genius.com/Shinigami-fairytale-lyrics

if i had the courage
i would leave this place
burn it to the ground and let it rot away
you can fill the void up
with the drugs you take
they will never ever take the pain away

fairy tales of a place ive only seen in my dreams
all alone in my head ripping apart at the seams
i dont know where to go from here
i dont know if i could face my fears

fade to black in the back seat
i been doin fine if you ask me
thinkin back to the days in the classroom
skippin class and gettin high in the bathroom

i got a cloud on my head now
it pulls me into my bed now
the chains of my past keep me grounded
i lost my mind but i found it

shinigami - fairytale (prod. jay vee)

frozen soul (feat. fats'e)

LAST RANDOM SINGLE BEFORE ALBUM 

prod/guitar/mix/master - @youngburial

ur there every time i die

@curtainss @taxpurposes

you were on the phone
and i was in the back seat
gettin rly stoned
thinkin bout my last week
how i was alone
sleepin on my friends couch
tryna move along
when i know this isnt lasting
somethings wrong with me
i wont give it up, not easily
take my hand
just breathe
i wont give u up, so easily

gimme a way out or give me a sign
every word you rehearsed
remembered all of the lines
bullshittin me ab love every night
and im better off without you in hind sight
i wasted so much time
playin all these games
puttin up a fight
hopes a dangerous thing
when its all u got
just leave me be

just leave me be
im better off without u
hangin out to dry
while someones in ur bedroom
covered in the sheets
that hid me just last week
funny how it works
youre so quick to forget me

you were on the phone
and i was in the back seat
gettin rly stoned
thinkin bout my last week
how i was alone
sleepin on my friends couch
tryna move along
when i know this isnt lasting
somethings wrong with me
i wont give it up, not easily
take my hand
just breathe
i wont give u up, so easily

i know how it goes
one day im ur everything
and the next im just some dead weight
we just started and u fold
ik ur still in love with ur ex and o’s
and i deserve so much more
so u can see urself out thru that door
then ill drink so much that ill hit the floor
and do it all again
dont know what for

you were on the phone
and i was in the back seat
gettin rly stoned
thinkin bout my last week
how i was alone
sleepin on my friends couch
tryna move along
when i know this isnt lasting
somethings wrong with me
i wont give it up, not easily
take my hand
just breathe
i wont give u up, so easily

somethings wrong with me
i wont give it up, not easily
take my hand
just breathe
i wont give u up, so easily