I'll hide and find a place to hang my head
stare at the floor inside I tried my best
I wanna stay away but don't think that I can
I keep trying again and again
I'm over it

don't think that I can make this work
biting my tongue with blood on my shirt
I know I have so much more to learn
like how to quit when
all my alternatives are spent
every one that I love has left
wish you saw me for who I am
but I guess that everything is all for forfeit
giving up hurts so much more than
staying away
at least nobody can see me
everything is all for nothing
I just wish I saw it coming
from far away
hold my breath like you're watching

baby does it hurt
knowing youre the worst one
laying in the dirt
say the words of your god
baby give it up
there's no point in crying
say that you're in love
tell me who was lying
trying to hold on
you should just let go
pick yourself up
leave me alone
just give it up

don't think that I can make this work
biting my tongue with blood on my shirt
I know I have so much more to learn
like how to quit when
all my alternatives are spent
every one that I love has left
wish you saw me for who I am
but I guess that everything is all for forfeit
giving up hurts so much more than
staying away
at least nobody can see me
everything is all for nothing
I just wish I saw it coming
from far away
hold my breath like you're watching

How To Quit (feat. Penelope Waters) [prod. BlingBlou]

@familypet

shinigami: you said thisll never last so now im falling apart
my face is feeling numb again 
a shattered soul
dont let me go
you killed me first
im sure you know

she said thisll never last now im left in the dark
you saved me from myself again 
after the fall
i knew it all along
i never asked for this at all

you shouldve never let me in at all
now all you can do is watch me crawl
away
isolate myself
and i still can feel it all

and you can see the devil in my gaze
i think its best you stay away from me
im weak why cant you see this

familypet: thinkin back i fucked it up
my brothers just don't give a fuck
we skate until it's dark enough
to smoke and drink
we act don't think
don't think we act our age with it
i know i always ruin shit
i hope i never ruin this
i hope we'll always stay like this
putting each other in hospital beds
remember last summer when i broke my leg
doing a jump at the gap at 18th
remember the time that i knocked out your teeth
i'm glad that you always forgave me
these are the stories and memories that made me
i know i wasn't worth saving
i was just crazy
can't help the fact that i love misbehaving

i never asked for this [feat. familypet]

https://open.spotify.com/artist/6NFHn7VH6jgV2nVWqW2bsa?si=4GL1fS_8Q7iRYjWf_FlXBw

https://soundcloud.com/i_x_t_a_i_l_s
https://soundcloud.com/yung-jza-shawty

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r6bt08gOCHM

lyrics: 

poppy tears: 

everything is a lie and nothing here is true 
how I feel inside and what meant to you
when I broke my spine I lay inside my room 
tried to take my life before a flower could bloom

where you go when I fell into your heart 
in a galaxy alone I found your star 
she said are you with it, I said if you are 
she be going for my neck like a vampire x 2

my dark red blood drips on your skin 
my heart holds love just deep within x 2

9TAILS:

one side of my pillows always cold 
cant sleep and i thought you should know
summer heat seeps in through the windows
2 o clock and youre still not home 

2 o clock and im still 
heard the ring but i cant find the phone
summer heat seeps in through the windows
3 o clock and youre still not home

4 o clock and im in my zone
fuck out my room can you please not touch me
she said she wanna know how to feel empty
if thats the case then just watch me

they always want me to meet their friends
why would i do that if i dont have any of them
i abandoned everyone i dont wanna start again
im still learning bout myself so i wont let no body in

pour it up
roll it up
smoke it up
drank

fade away
looking like
my eyes
sank

feeling worse
than i look
think i might
faint

feel myself
coming down
roll some more
stank

what you mean you cant see me anymore
slow it down tell me what you yelling for
say to quit i think i might just roll some more
3 grams to a zig couldnt pack more

❄︎ ✰ ❄︎ ✰ ❄︎

where you go w/ 9TAILS (prod. YungJZA)[visuals in description]

https://open.spotify.com/track/4SyKnSUTgKkTjAZETcQJ01?si=wqCOaZ7zRLy2ZJAeTL0OLg

@ihateshinigami
@ihateshinigami
@ihateshinigami
@ihateshinigami

shinigami - memories of you (prod. 4evr)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_noynJ4lpBQ

spotify

wasting time with you

me & @okkmidnight .....

never coming home   ...

phantoms

this is just a way for me to say
cus sometimes i cant speak at all
ill forget the memories and grit my teeth
i promise that ill prove you wrong
im sorry that we cant see eye to eye
but sometimes it makes me feel blind
i hope that this storm will just blow over
maybe im wasting my time

maybe i
can walk this road alone
maybe im
not worthless after all x2

this is all i have
this is all i need
and i wanna take u with me
ive got the world
inside my hands
but the weight is too heavy

maybe i
can walk this road alone
maybe im
not worthless after all x2

grimworld

i'm not worthless

official video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BbsOizVRjWA

ft. @ihateshinigami & @93feetofsmoke
prod. @ghostrage & @jakkyboi
mix/master @youngburial