How could one night turn into years of the same thing?

how could one night turn to years of the same thing 😢

Had to come back to this song 5 yrs later, man this is too good

i have a special connection to his emo ass songs

💟

@lilhappylilsad @i_x_t_a_i_l_s

lil happy lil sad:

obligations stacking up
lust to live is dropping down
all these feelings fuck me up
breathing fast I'm getting numb

want you to just feel okay
i just make u run away
find u crying with the blade
i know that I'm the one to blame

let me wipe the blood streaming down your legs
fucking up with all the words that i fucking say
sometimes i cant control what i fucking say
i need you to just know i will always stay

9tails:

sometimes i cant control what i fucking say
i need you to just know i will always stay
i could hold your hand as we run away
or i could hold my tears as you walk away

running out the door while i scream your name
we need some time apart thought youd feel the same
i dont like the thoughts running through my brain
and i dont like your eyes looking through my face

weed smoke in my neck
send a text 
then i pass out

hit me back
like we should chill
but girl its bad out

we could smoke
and watch a movie
here at my house

or i could ruin all we have with words from my mouth
screaming

stay w/ 9TAILS (prod. lilhappylilsad)

Feel the weight in my age
Should I drink and wilt right here
When the rage has all lifted
I'll still use hate to block my fears

I see blue
I've left oceans, I've left family
No devotion
mixed up feelings bout existing

Mostly anxious, of course broke
Guess I'm angry
Trying not to find a burner
Destruct naturally

Guess it's like that
Curse on my back
Only see black
In my memories

- FamilyPet -

I found religion in places it shouldn't be.
And I found beauty in faces I shouldn't see.
Found I was clinging to people I didn't need.
Found out I'd only be happy in my dreams.
Look at the stars,
Watching them die
Spacial perspective of my life
Smoke in the sky at midnight
Drifting out like high-tide

wondering when's the highlight
of my lowlife, when someone dies i get tongue tied because my mind just holds on tight to the thought that every night

might be my last, wasn't built to last,
and the years go slow but the days go fast. and i cant move past the simple fact,

that the end wont wait, even if you pray,
even if you cry

, even if you beg,

we are all the same, in the way we hate, the way we love, at the end of the day we're all the

same

blue ft. familypet

proud of me ft. shinigami

safe haven (feat. supachefm!)

spotify

im good at being lonely cant u tell

@prodreaper @93feetofsmoke

i can't trust anyone 
tell your friends pretty stories 
i just wanted a peace of mind 
and all the years wasted time 

every bridge is burned 
i don't wanna know 
stabbed me in the heart then you took my  soul 
never get it back i can't get it back 
no, no, no 

like be honest?  do you want it?
i know your eyes when you're lying 
and i'm trying, and i'm dying to hold it together in my hands 

no trust 

(93FEETOFSMOKE)
I dont understand
Where the Fuck I am 
Blood on my back
Blisters on my hands

Do you even know
Who the Fuck i am lately 
I can feel the stress
Gripping round my neck
Save me 

Do you understand 
Time is getting thin
Lately
Trailing a fine line 
Between fine and kill me 

6 speed
See me Earnhardt
Thru the nosebleeds

No trust I got no love
Left in me 

6 speed
See me Earnhardt
Thru the nosebleeds

No trust 
I got no love
Left in me 

I tried my best 
Is it working
My brain is 
Such a fucking a bully

Do you understand 
Time is getting thin
Lately
Trailing a fine line 
Between fine and kill me 

6 speed
See me Earnhardt
Thru the nosebleeds

No trust I got no love
Left in me

no trust w/93FEETOFSMOKE (prod. reaper)

I cant get over those green eyes
so pale but she's so full of life
I've never seen somebody so lovely
wonder if there's really something
or if I'm just fucking up again
I cant get over those green eyes
her hair her face the way she smiles
im fuckin dead
I love hearing about how you've been
thought about you every single day since
cant believe someone so perfect exists
I cant get over those green eyes
I swear her heart has flowers inside
so beautiful
words cant describe they don't even come close
send you my love inside of a blue rose
just say goodbye and ill leave you alone
I cant get over those green eyes
her hands are so cold just like her fuckin heart
swear that I love how you tear me apart
draw with my blood like its more of your art
miss you so much but I know that you arent
missing me the same
feel so alone now
thought you cared about me
did you ever even feel anything
or was it all in my head
was it all in my head

her heart has flowers inside (prod. slidinmoon)

i spoke to the demon that lives in my nightmares
he told me that life wasnt fair

he taught me how to hate myself and hide it
he showed me how to die behind my eyelids

im pretty sure he doesnt have the best intentions
and i think i really need an intervention

ill go out
all alone
with a smile on my face
and i promise
im not scared of you
im not scared of you

i spoke to an angel that blesses my conscience
she told me i shouldnt have fear

she taught me how to love myself
but i didnt listen
now ive become too self aware

ill go out
all alone
with a smile on my face
and i promise
im not scared of you
im not scared of you

say bye to all my friends
waiting for the end
this is the path ive chosen
i cant pretend
that everything is fine
my lifes a fucking lie
the demon on my shoulder
has one this time

i spoke to the demon
he murdered the angel
and now ive got blood on my hands

demons & angels

i can see your face in my dreams
beggin me to stay
feel your heart beating faster
finally fell in love

silent voices screaming at me
telling me to change
i grow cold by the hour
i think that im going insane

its hard to trust
its hard to care
when i feel things that arent there

i really miss how it used to be
feel like im missing a part of me

the world will turn
ill crash and burn
im starting to think that ill never learn

how to breathe
i wont survive
the thought of you will just fade in time


i can see your face in my dreams
beggin me to stay
feel your heart beating faster
finally fell in love

silent voices screaming at me
telling me to change
i grow cold by the hour
i think that im going insane

grimworld

silent voices

vocals in order of appearance
93feetofsmoke
fats'e
cøzybøy

produced by jay vee
coproduced by fats'e & 93

@youngburial
@93feetofsmoke
@cozyboycries

bleed for no reason w/ 93feetofsmoke, fats'e, & cøzybøy

1st track off of "halloween, but all year" dropping 10/31

lyrics:
hold you close like a doll, i'm a kid at heart
super late out, but i like it in the dark
there's monsters in the street, baby stick to me
you can hold my hand while we trick or treat
and the night sky gets lit on fire
when i look in your eyes it just makes me higher, 
not a jackass, i'm a jack-o-lantern
and if i knocked baby would you even answer

i feel like a ghost 'cause you see right through me
second that we might it's like you already knew me
i was like "oh shit, am i in too deep?"
nah, i think i'm cool i'm just foolin'
around and around again
you walk around in side my head
when i'm with you i don't feel fear
feels like halloween, but it's all year

Listen on Spotify♥

halloween, but all year

"𝕀𝕥'𝕤 𝕣𝕚𝕡𝕡𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕞𝕪 𝕙𝕖𝕒𝕣𝕥 𝕚𝕟 𝕥𝕨𝕠"

Fuck, I want u back in my arms :(

cover art credit: https://www.instagram.com/exchoess/?hl=en
_____________________________________________________________
lyrics:

[intro]
Tonight last night, we gotta make it special
but girl there ain't no pressure
hold your heart so gentle
I just wanna chill with you
It's ripping my heart in two
fuck it i'm coming through
like right from the start I knew

[chorus]
I'll be there for you every time
you stole my heart that is your crime
i'll get upset but you can find
a way to calm my nerves this time

[verse]
I want to be with you
I might need a tissue
cause when you'll be gone I will so fucking miss you
I wish I did kiss you 
but anxiety in my brain could not let me
please do not forget me
you really do get me
so please girl just let me
look at the stars tonight and point out to you all the cool constellations
we going far tonight your beauty a 10; matched by our conversations
I really do like this girl, would take her forever with no hesitations
we're stuck in this stupid world but all of it seems worth it for our obligations

[bridge]
don't want a broken heart again
i'll hold you in my arms till then

[chorus]
I'll be there for you every time
you stole my heart that is your crime
i'll get upset but you can find
a way to calm my nerves this time

[outro]
tonight last night we gotta make it special
but I just made this song instead, i'm feeling sentimental

I wish you were here [prod. Ellit]

produced by me

official video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_RX7bF8kLBo

in the morning

just a spontaneous drop, ur welcome.
random art bc i didn't have anything.
tell her that u love her.

producer/beat link:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LkpHPuKmxSo

can i get ur number

can i get ur number [prod. fatheryelvy]

follow up to the yellow hears ep from january
on all streaming services oct 26th

am i perfect yet? w/ tyler white

You my moon, you my stars, you my sky at night
You the fire in my heart, keep me burning bright
Hold me close, in the cold, cause you all mine
Got my heart, make it quake like a fault line

Ooh, you know im living like i wanna do
Got my girlie in my arms, im coming up, she know it too
Piling all this money i got bands and then i roll it dude
Chillin on the couch im countin racks boy you know what it do

Ooh, i got some fans and they love me, im running all the way to sunny California with money, im tuckin hunnid dollar bills inside my pants while im hungry, ill never be complacent cuz im always searching for something, yeah

hit the road, get on board, cuz we comin up
got some drip, got some Ks, but its not enough
got my girl, by my side, and she keep me loved
throwin bills, catchin dubs, while i run it up

Throwin bills, throwin bills yah
While I run it up

Feelin sunny on a mountain top
Gettin money like i cant be stopped
Makin bangers like im finna drop
Keep it going cuz Ill never stop
Yah lil homie you know what it do
Got my baddie i aint share wit you
She my girlie yeah she be my boo
She my ride or die she love me too

(November seventh, you hit my phone
You stole my heart and, gave it a home
I'm doin good now, but you been know
Cause you my moon now, im in your glow)

All i got is my words
And all i want is to learn
All these rappers absurd
All they want is to turn

All they boring little songs into a mountain of clout
Never ever cared about the music they speak about
So ima keep it to myself but let them words all come out
Cuz im just tryna keep it real so i been speakin it loud, ooh

Find me in the stu you know im staying on my grind
Im writing every single day to get it off my mind
Im spittin bars and writing hooks i do it all the time
Im being me you see and me i can not be defined

Ayy, i run this show on my own yeah
But then i pick up the phone yeah
I tell my girl to come home yeah
Cause now we're never alone yeah

November7

documenting me and m bestfriends journey

ig @ cc3dr1c

safe haven (feat. supachefm!)

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