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SHINIGAMI

vibes

EMO/CRYIN/

Stardust

https://soundcloud.com/scummusic
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I don't wanna feel anything anymore
i just wanna put my hand straight through that door
Now i got wrist bleeding on the bedroom floor
cause i dont wanna feel anything anymore

I remember everything from the time that you left my side
Wiping the tears 'no don't fuck with my eyes'
Biding my time, i wanna try 
Just to forget you but i feel alive 
Oh please take my life
Please take my life
Its the best time to die
Like now, i wanna right now 
I wanna die

I don't wanna feel anything anymore
I just wanna put my hand straight through that door
Now i got wrist bleeding on the bedroom floor
cause i dont wanna feel anything anymore

I dont wanna live in a world without you
Even after al the shit you put me through
You're still the one 
Night grow cold and I'm alone
And you don't ever pick up the phone when i call
So let me die here

Let Me Die Here w/ scum (prod. trxpicvl )

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random old old song i wrote a long ass time ago with my friend daniel

Six Feet Sleep

prod. @harvest  w/ @killedmyself

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Turning In My Sheets ( Prod. Harvest w/ killedmyself )

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shout out brandon 4 inspiring me

lyrics:
i dont wanna fucking die here
cant watch the stars shine here
i cant lie in this bed

im turning to a ghost
watch me go
the curtains close
i told you so

i been flexin on my exes
dont reply to no message
they wanna get on guest list
i guess i need to stress this

dont hit up my phone 
im all on my own
dont need no one to hold

but if you stay here with me
well fly away in the clouds
never go back to the ground

turn off all the lights
say goodnight
shut my eyes tight
sweet dreams tonight

im pullin up in my 240
babygirl cant ignore me
skrrt off with windows tint 
spark up now the functions lit

falling asleep cos im faded
ill never be complacent
i feel numb and i hate it

your eyes twinkle like the nightsky
tears like diamonds when you cry
let me sing you a lullaby

its like a scattered dream
a far off memory
something that you cant see

grimworld thats the fuckin set
cant feel shit im such a mess
sometimes i wish i was dead
instead of sleeping in this bed

but then i cant be with you
alone in my room
watching the stars and the moon

save my soul
it wanders every night
thru the wind and trees
i guess this is goodbye

the sky lights up at dawn
its such a sight to see
roll my windows down
i feel you here with me

ghosts 👻

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Let go w/ Fats'e (Prod. sheltr )

Gallows

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I can't do this (Prod. fats'e x keeper)

luna has risen

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take me away from this path that i follow
its left me hopeless and empty and hollow

will i stay asleep forever
nothings the same as i remember

i still bite my nails like i learned when i was seven
and i still remember that car that you left in

so i close my eyes and hope that tomorrow
brings brighter lights and respite from my sorrow

the sky is dull i fade away
why do i feel so far 
from myself and the way that i used to be

forever all alone
no one seems to see
the colors in the rain
i guess nobodies feel this way [x2]

my eyes are still sleepy just like when you kissed me
just let me be alone i dont care if you miss me

numb and cold and scared to be away
from those i love im heartless anyway

im scared of the day i wake up and im 18
the walls of my room are collapsing please save me

dream a dream and hope for that one day
you come to life and feel like youre something

the sky is dull i fade away
why do i feel so far 
from myself and the way that i used to be

forever all alone
no one seems to see
the colors in the rain
i guess nobodies feel this way 

nobody
nobody

luna

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nobody 😔

luna has risen

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lost and afraid of the world that surrounds me
i constantly let down everyone around me

my heart it glows
my soul it floats
i stay awake cos i cant breathe
when demons haunt me in my sheets

have you ever felt like you were dead?
like nothing feels the same 
so you just lie in your bed?

light a cigarette 
put your woes to rest
im a fallen angel baby im not like the rest

i try to hold on to the things that i once loved
my heart and emotions are something im void of

youre wasting away
are you okay?
please just keep your head up and just hope for better days

hold on to your memories and youll be safe
this may be our last chance to leave this place

its like i hold myself back
crying wolf to all the sheep
singing lullabies to ease my mind
safely drifting in the night

but nothings ever as it seems
waking up from fever dreams
ive counted every single sheep
but i still cant fucking sleep

a fallen angel 🌟

Comfortable

music video: https://youtu.be/WLmP3M_SIoI

lyrics:

i got angels hovering above my fuckin head
i got heart eyes for this lil shawty in my head
wake up every morning thinkin that im fuckin dead
makes me wonder why i dont just stay inside my bed

stay inside my bed
this never fuckin ends
makes me wonder why i dont just stay inside my bed
stay inside my bed
im inside her head
makes me wonder why id rather talk to you instead

twinkle twinkle twinkle you know im a fuckin star
twinkle twinkle twinkle you dont know just what you are
gotta find my way back home i think its getting dark
but home is where your heart is and you know that i dont got a heart

keyblade on my back i never need a strap
bankai on my lap im always on attack
flexin all these bands you know that shit is wack
tired of this shit im boutta take a nap

i got angels hovering above my fuckin head
i got heart eyes for this lil shawty in my head
wake up every morning thinkin that im fuckin dead
makes me wonder why i dont just stay inside my bed

stay inside my bed
this never fuckin ends
makes me wonder why i dont just stay inside my bed
stay inside my bed
im inside her head
makes me wonder why id rather talk to you instead

im a waste of space yea all i ever do is lie
i dont understand why you give me your fuckin time
blowin up my phone they know i wont ever reply
pls just leave me alone im just a waste of time

darkness stands alone i know the light will guide us home
but i cant help but feel like ima fuckin die alone
if you fuck w me hold me down like a dialtone
youre the reason why i always stay up on my phone

stay up on my phone
please just take me home
youre the reason why i always stay up on my phone
stay up on my phone
i feel so alone
youre the reason why i never can put down my phone

i got angels hovering above my fuckin head
i got heart eyes for this lil shawty in my head
wake up every morning thinkin that im fuckin dead
makes me wonder why i dont just stay inside my bed

stay inside my bed
this never fuckin ends
makes me wonder why i dont just stay inside my bed
stay inside my bed
im inside her head
makes me wonder why id rather talk to you instead

sea salt ice cream (✿◠‿◠) [visual in desc.]

music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w8fc7-Y-XF8

lyrics: if life is what you make of it
im better of giving in
the space between my bed and my door has never been this thin
how can i carry on
with all these voices in my head
i need to get away from this town i wont rot like the rest

im a loser and a fucking mess
every day i wish for death
i bang my head into the wall
dont let me fall
youre so fake
youre all the fucking same
life is nothing but a game
complain and wait until the day
we cant be saved

im lying in my bed again
will this ever end?
im bored out of my mind i think its time i call it quits
welcome to my world
where nothing ever goes my way
smoking out my bedroom window
im such a disgrace

im a loser and a fucking mess
every day i wish for death
i bang my head into the wall
dont let me fall
youre so fake
youre all the fucking same
life is nothing but a game
complain and wait until the day
we cant be saved

loser [music video in description]

banshee

mixed and mastered by @notmorgn

@supachefm 🎱✨🕸

always been violent 
never just learned to keep quiet 
ion like turning the page
struggle to pick up my eyelids
i keep on hiding in home
if u don't like me just go
i keep on trying to stay
but you don't want me all alone
time keeps on turning away 
why do you always need space?
i don't care about the times that you fucked up wit him 
you've been fucking wit me to my face
follow my vision
 and dick down these bitches 
idgaf what the people will say
its in my imprint 
theres something thats different 
the way that i sing and the way that i sway
you keep on trying to copy my plays
i cant see shit i am lost in a haze
all of my life ive been smoking away
tripping on chemicals deep in my brain

slide in that bitch and i tear up the sides
riding the wave you aint catching the vibes
i hit her up every time that I'm high
what if i told you i wanted to die?

Free Download

every time that im high (prod. notmorgn)

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luvmeansdeath (prod gotgash) *video in description*

no samples

[lyrics]
is it I think too much
or are we chasing after
a ghost of what once was

I can't tell the difference

is it you care too much
or am I holding our past
like a knife against my tongue

I can't tell the difference

would it be enough
if we were loaded and fucked up
house out in the hills

I wouldn't bet on it

we could be more lost
car roofs, wet shoes
cashed out in an friend's garage

but one time's enough

Will it ever be enough
I hate fucking being numb
sorry that I love these drugs
do you think my head is fucked

Will it ever be enough
I hate fucking being numb
sorry that I love these drugs
do you think my head is fucked

i hate fucking being numb

occam's razor

in vain w/ kaiyko

decaying at 18 w/ supachefm

angel boy

disconnection

baby it's alright with me
kill me here i'm on my knees
don't make me say pretty please
so fucked up lost everything

i'm feeling like a love lost fuck up
i know i never made much progress on us
i know i never fucking focus
i guess
i guess i'm just so fucking hopeless at best

caught me in a bad place,
bad mood, bad year
i still hear your name
yeah, it's ringing in my ear
shoot me through the heart
hunt me down, please my dear
baby kill me now
please girl let me die here

bury my dreams beneath these screams
abandon hope and let me bleed
i called your phone
you called it off
you're at your peak
i'm at a loss
i was so weak
all along
i will admit though
i was wrong

caught me in a bad place,
bad mood, bad year
i still hear your name
yeah, it's ringing in my ear
shoot me through the heart
hunt me down, please my dear
baby kill me now
please girl let me die here

bury my dreams, bury my dreams
just let me bleed, just let me bleed

baby it's alright with me
kill me here i'm on my knees
don't make me say pretty please
so fucked up lost everything

caught me in a bad place,
bad mood, bad year
i still hear your name
yeah, it's ringing in my ear
shoot me through the heart
hunt me down, please my dear
baby kill me now
please girl let me die here

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bad mood, bad year

artwork by @rizaaguasin on twitter

stardust it falls from the sky
somewhere inside my dreams
i see a world with you and me
far from reality

shinin so bright like the night sky
i see the stars in your bright eyes
you haunted my thoughts on the drive home
a ghost with a smile that i know
you lay in a garden of roses
i lay in a garden of corpses
you light up the shadows in darkness
im nobody im jus a heartless

the closer you get to the light, the greater your shadow becomes

within the depths of a nightmare
i hear the voices inside there
they say im too weak and too fragile
to save my princess from the castle


stardust it falls from the sky
somewhere inside my dreams
i see a world with you and me
far from reality

sinking thru my sheets [video in desc.]

shinigami