shini had something to prove w/ this one, damn...

fed 2023 second half

hamilton:
got the weight of the world posted up on my back
yea my brain never rests, got no time to relax
off the leash, off the tracks, with my bros stackin cash
dont u come around with drama, we aint fuckin with that
x2
im a mess, dont know what to do, i cant fix my mood
on the edge, girl im so confused, wish our love was true
but its not, had to cut u off, yea its for the best
on my own now im stayin high, gettin to this check
i was down bad, wearing trues, now i pull up ina coupe
margiela 22s, undercover denim too
smoking on the high grade, sticky pack its just like glue
please dont waste my time girl, i dont have the time for u

wstd:
rosen hole, bitch im goin thru, eytys on my shoes
gettin them bands, goin blue, im still enjoying the view
im on a lake toking on a joint, it start to canoe
these number nines from 2008 and the nikes new
night shift, chilly like my wrist, link up with the crew
im w hammy in the stick shift, spark up in the coupe
need a minute to myself so im goin room to room like is clue
people run into me "omg ur so wasted" yea its truuu

slaying like the red queen, head ina basket
in the 2XL tee, 03 scab i look ratchet
alice pack on me what i had o keep the racks in
im smoking alice pack, cant see thru the oakley glasses

romeo n juliet, im climbing up her trellace
her friends r gettin so jealous
ik that we cant develop but without her the world is hellish
her memory's just a relic, moments i forgot to relish
im fucked up ik im selfish, the loud im lettin the smell in

everything is in ur reach
2 edged sword got blessed with speech
she doesn't know what i mean
nothing here is that concrete
im not takin ur critiques
ik what i can achieve 
eleusinian like the greeks
spendin racks at the boutique

posted up! w hamilton

life goes on [prod. shinju]

I carry this pain
Underneath my eyelids
Spitting out my teeth

Searching for somewhere to place the blame

A river tainted
With the blood that i have lost

Cant see the sunshine when im feeling the rain pouring
Down on me
Im begging please
Im on my knees
The angels help me
Fall asleep
When the rain is pouring
Down on me

Looking in the mirror
I dont know what i see
Disconnected 

Stressing over things i cant control

This cant be the end
I have to find a better way

Cant see the sunshine when im feeling the rain pouring
Down on me
Im begging please
Im on my knees
The angels help me
Fall asleep
When the rain is pouring
Down on me

Here i lay broken
The crows pick at my bones
As im rotting away
Theres nothing left here to say
Thats how the story goes (x2)

The rain is pouring 
Down on me
Im begging please
Im on my knees
The angels help me
Fall asleep
When the rain is pouring
Down on me

Im sick of hiding
And crawling in my skin

This is no way to live
I feel it in my chest

downpour

fever

noelleallowed x maeve chustar - But it won't always be at my expense!! (prod me + noa + rayan)

Lyrics:

Its GX, motherfucker

Why am i like this?
Why am i like this?
I’m a ghost
Theres a hole
And i’m bleeding out

Why am i like this?
Why am i like this?
Down to the bone
I have always been nothing 

Shove it down your throat
Abandon every hope x2

Still i could never be one of you
Most of us never had an option to choose

Frustration 
Impatience 

Eviscerate the souls of the broken
Swallow your words and leave your thoughts unspoken

Nobody’s listening
Nobody’s listening
Nobody’s listening when you scream

Why am i like this?
I’m a ghost
Theres a hole
And i’m bleeding out

Why am i like this?
Why am i like this?
Down to the bone
I have always been nothing 

Nobody’s listening
Nobody’s listening
Nobody’s listening when you scream

Poison coursing thru my veins
This world’s nothing but a stage
My heart is filled with so much hate for all of you 

Poison coursing thru my veins
This world’s nothing but a stage
I will never change
But i will never be like you

turmoil

tact

Lyrics:

What a slap in the face
I’m wiping blood from an open wound
I haven’t slept in a day
I’m watching ghosts roam a vacant room

The trees are all dying
The angels are crying
Move closer
Move closer to me

Drag my body under
In your crosshairs
Taking cover
You taught me how to run away
As far as i can

Everything falls to the floor
Should i pick up the pieces?
Should i just leave it?

Everything falls to the floor
Should i pick up the pieces?
Give me a reason

An echo of hope
Extinguished by flames 
You worship my words
But they’re born from my pain

Drag my body under
In your crosshairs
Taking cover
You taught me how to run away
As far as i can

Everything falls to the floor
Should i pick up the pieces?
Should i just leave it?

Everything falls to the floor
Should i pick up the pieces?
Give me a reason

everything falls to the floor

No Amends (feat. MIKE)

i’d take it all back if i could
actually don’t feel like i would
all my life i wanted to be understood
i could say fuck it but it doesn’t meant i should

every day feels like i’m worse
still everyday i just feel cursed
struggle for ideas feels like nothing works
i'm turning pages but it feels like the reverse

i only want to feel secure
feel like victory is finally ensured
most days i wonder if it’s gonna be my turn
i don’t know what i’ll do if that never occurs

i lie face down in my bed
i cry and struggle to end
i think that i should just quit
but i worked so hard just to ascend
i already upended my life
what changes did i get right?

lose my grip from the go
i just hit a new low
for reasons that i’m acting off
i can’t fuck up my strife
hope this changes my life
just for you i know i could

i’m losing all of my focus
anxiety is keeping me from all my friends that’s so bogus
i thought i left it all behind but when my problems followed me that’s when i finally took notice

i’d take it all back if i could
actually don’t feel like i would
all my life i wanted to be understood
i could say fuck it but it doesn’t meant i should

every day feels like i’m worse
still everyday i just feel cursed
struggle for ideas feels like nothing works
i made good changes but it feels like the reverse

i’d take it all back if i could
actually don’t feel like i would
all my life i wanted to be understood
i could say fuck it but it doesn’t meant i should

cursed

Too many nights of saying fuck it I’ll fix the problem tomorrow
Everyday I gamble my life but there’s no chips I could borrow
The chance to hit keeps me in but I pull the lever with sorrow
could I stop viewing it as battles Huh, I don’t know
I have no choice when I wake up but just to get up and go
no choice but to make a change when I’m Sick of the status quo
I used to live way too reckless, but I let go
Will I find reason to leave the house today, I don’t know
I chose to give my life, To you I bestow
I chose this to be my quest So long ago
I pace around in a circle, In limbo
Will I ever reach the end? I don’t know
Too many thoughts, too many tasks, I overflow
Try not to go over the edge, I tiptoe
But I’m still keeping to myself, I’m lying low
Will I end up going unnoticed, I don’t know
The hands keep on moving around, but time’s feeling slow
It lies inside what I wrote, the highs and lows
the weight that lives upon my shoulders never lightens its hold
struggle to find a new reason why I dig deeper holes
I try to climb my way out but I’m swallowed by the ground
I try to send out a message But it muffles the sound
It all goes out into the void, I just hope that I’m found
Ran out of gas in the lighter, no rescue team is inbound
But I just wanna be honest, I think my time’s overdue
I know The house always wins but it’s hard to accept the truth
the wound cut deep in my skin it doesn’t seem to close
Will I break or just bend? I don’t know

speaks of scars as proof of survival — every wound becoming strength carved into flesh.

Carved in Bone

Lyrics:
[Intro]
Blue light, dry eyes — clock says never

[Verse 1]
Calendar’s a crime scene — all red lines
Coffee IV drips — flatlined vibes
Inbox bites back — deadline knives
Doctor says “rest,” rent says “try”
Smile’s a mask — stapled tight
Hands don’t shake — they vibrate at night
Heart on fire — brain on ice
Fight-or-flight stuck — same device

[Pre-Chorus]
If I slow down — the floor gives way
If I speed up — I burn all day

[Chorus]
Burn rate, burn rate — I’m bleeding flame
Ash in my lungs — still I say my name
Hold this weight till the wires fray
Burn me out — I won’t fade away

[Post-Chorus]
I’m not lazy — I’m lit and drained
Smoke in my chest — still I remain

[Verse 2]
Phone glow ghosts — 3 A.M. scroll
Micro naps crash — memory holes
“Take a break” — yeah, add it to goals
I’m a match inside a drum of diesel souls
Body says stop — mind screams “deliver”
Knuckles on the desk, cold steel shiver
Every “Are you fine?” — I say “sure,” quicker
Mirror shows a stranger with a splintered river

[Pre-Chorus]
If I slow down — the floor gives way
If I speed up — I burn all day

[Bridge]
You want rougher? say so — I’ll grit my bones
You can have whatever you need — but I guard my zones
If “finish last” is the fate they’ve sewn
I’ll rewrite clocks with a voice of stone

[Breakdown]
Count — two — three — four
Breathe — hold — hit the floor
Blackout — spark — one more
Cinder heart — roar

[Chorus]
Burn rate, burn rate — I’m bleeding flame
Ash in my lungs — still I say my name
Hold this weight till the wires fray
Burn me out — I won’t fade away

[Outro]
Blue light, dry eyes — dawn says “never,” I say “try.”

BURN RATE

100 gecs - hand crushed by a mallet [shini dnb mix]

prod. Beverly Valley (pierce the vegan on youtube)

turmoil

shinigami

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