Always dad
Never daddy
Always dad
Somber and cold
Angry and gruff

Your words
Tore my skin
And shaped me
Into me…

I try to remember what you were like
When I was little
When we ate dinner together 
As a family..(as a family)
In pain
You spoke little
Sometimes commenting on the food
Which was usually bland 
As Mom hated to cook
But I don’t think you cared
As you frequently went dining out when you were away
From us. From her. From us
Life was free away
Away from us…
Free away from us…

Mostly I remember you
As sick in bed
From exhaustion 
As an escape
As a way to stay away from us
a young father who avoided his own seed
His own seed
Once you had to leave, you recovered
Packed your bag and left again

Always sick
Always mad
Short temper fuse
Feared your wrath
Feared your voice
But your ridicule (your ridicule)
Tore my skin
And shaped me
Into me…
A sad me…

Always dad
Never daddy
Always dad
Somber and cold
Angry and gruff
No hugs
Few smiles

Trying to remember you
When I was young
When I was little
I don’t see you in my far away 
Now that you  are gone
My memories are of my search
To please you through men Like you
Men like you..
Ones who spoke to me through pain
Through ridicule

Always dad
Never daddy
Always dad
Somber and cold
Angry and gruff

Tore my skin
And shaped me
Into me…
Into me…
Into me…
Me…

always dad never daddy

Illustration : Forest Dance Party chez Stockcake

Tribal Summer Dance  (Original)

X-Starkbierzeit

Original song: @neowakan- Not the Same
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02-07-2025
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i was supposed to delete almost 4 tracks (plays/likes/cmnts/insights-all gone), to free some space for a new download! All music platforms "suck"
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lyrics:
They're telling us to go back, 
To what we were in the past,
But we are no more there, 
That version of us stands in the distance, 
and it's waving us goodbye, 
Wishing us good luck, 
we are not the same. 

They're telling us to hold back,
of sharing what hurts inside, 
But they were no more there.
Pain, fear, shame, and hate,
They're better keep quiet there's no debate, 
Didn't run for their lives
So they don't care!

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well, twelve days may not seem so long to many! but it can turn the whole world of some ppl upside down 4ever!

Not the Same

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Credit: beat Produced by LickOwens

That You Were There

The dream of flying , far from this world, with the beloved one....

On Oubliera

Cyberfunk

Ma raison s'est fracassée comme un miroir brisé et ses fragments se sont dispersés dans les profondeurs de ma conscience …. me laissant cette étrange impression de quelque chose perdu à jamais ….

Voix : Clara Sorace. https://clarasorace.com/ & Epic Cinematic Vocal Library - VANDRIA  par Megi Angelova https://www.megiangelova.com/

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My reason has shattered as a broken mirror and its fragments have dispersed in the depths of my consciousness…. Leaving me this strange impression of something lost forever ….

Voices : Clara Sorace. https://clarasorace.com/ & Epic Cinematic Vocal Library - VANDRIA by Megi Angelova https://www.megiangelova.com/

Marina ....

summer meditation

"The moon came down to watch, and all the creatures of the wood began to spin and sway, each to their own secret music." - Terri Windling

An improv composition inspired by fairy tales...Because you're never too old for a little magic!

Enchanted Forest Dance

Ishq Mashup 2.0 | Ishq X Tera Mera Rishta |

Love music as much as air. I am writing & creating  my own music with the help of Ai tools. Hope you will listen to some of them.

always dad never daddy

ilasky