To an unwanted chapter in my life.

Link for the lyrics, since SoundCloud has a character limit:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1fji9c0sGlMpR0QQPjNIyrUNQJrd5zOluwmEAxdpNV6Q/edit?usp=sharing

128BPM
7/8
G# Minor

howmany

"Because there's no point in being sad."

I'm generally not one to harness this type of disdain, but I've been broken far too many times far too quick.

Link for the lyrics, since SoundCloud has a character limit:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1EVsYaEjrkHMkdrmL8btulbhRgFEmGoCl0T0lQH7aDKg/edit?usp=sharing

170 BPM
4/4
G Minor (+C#)

VITRIOL

All finds end.

I wrote this song around the time I made a big shift in my life and went through a period of self-validation, acceptance of my scars and trauma, as well as the proper method of taking care of and healing myself. Two years later, I've finally taken the time to finish it and I'm really happy despite how life has been going.

155 BPM
4/4
A Major

Lyrics:
[Verse 01]
Please let me know
As I stumble and trip on my own
I'm alone with this wolf
And I'm running out aloof
Is there anything that I can do?
I don't want the pity 
I just want the endgame
Ride the airwaves and
Coast the Mondays
Sick of waiting and
Pulling teeth out for
Nothing at all
But all finds end

[Bridge]
The signs point north yet
The time goes south so
I stand

Fleeting feelings of
Past mistakes unwind

Just a tandem of memories
Cycling in my mind

[Verse 02]
I’ve gone AWOL in my head
Following the prints of feral truth
Distant roots and vigorous sooth
Kept hidden through
A quarter of a century 
Sworn into secrecy
To be or not to be
Too cautious of my ornery
Wrist is red and slapped bad
Heart up on my lonely sleeve

But I don’t think I’d ever sleep
If I could keep my head on beat
I will smash this glass ceiling
For my friends and fam and me
Shatter insecurity 
Be brazen with the newer me 
I no longer fear the howling roars up inside my head

But the nights get oh so dark
And the lights have gone so far
Yet the heart will race and keep its pace still, but
All finds end

[Bridge]
The signs point north yet
The time goes south so
I stand

Fleeting feelings of
Past mistakes unwind

Just a tandem of memories
Cycling in my mind

Memory Tandem

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Lyrics:
[Intro Chorus]
Okie stogie keep me rolling with the beat now
Seethe wild, keep me stowing with the feel how
Can I, invalidate these ever present pains
Convalescing, always messing with these stoic veins
Okie stogie keep me rolling with the beat now
Seethe wild, keep me stowing with the feel how
Can I, invalidate these ever present pains
Broke joke, living up the fullest in a realm of shame


[Verse 01]
Lately I been picking up on some subtle traits
Like how they only serve you when they got an empty plate
Irate as the rhetoric, cut the shit you're full of it,
Pull the plug this empty fuck is turning full celibate 
Garage living with a lane full of smoke and mirrors
LCDs lit, the hertz burns, keep the lighter nearer 
Death is a mistress, kiss her lips, tense, hear her
Whisper softly as I  walk the void, the end is ever clearer 

Cycle after cycle, a decade suicidal
I cock the rifle while I trifle through my life anti-idle
I got demons for idols and problems in piles
Rotten in style, begotten horrors plagued bubonically wild
But I can't sit for a while, I over-think all my hitches
Pity sitting, wounded bleeding with Modelos for stitches,
Jaeger on the backseat, got me wanting fake bitches,
Odd niches, take illness as a guised richness

Darkness is a hunger that your soul can never sate
A fervency lurking deep in your mental state
Rooted into ambiguity you'll never translate
Prudency so foolish, I go ghoulish for an escape
Rest state got my death rate climbing mad high
Cloud 9 for the millies counting my time
Booked therapists got me feeling bad vibes
Too much pride, so I keep the action on stand-by

Fuck it

[Chorus]
Okie stogie keep me rolling with the beat now
Seethe wild, keep me stowing with the feel how
Can I, invalidate these ever present pains
Convalescing, always messing with these stoic veins
Okie stogie keep me rolling with the beat now
Seethe wild, keep me stowing with the feel how
Can I, invalidate these ever present pains
Broke joke, living up the fullest in a realm of shame

f.r.i.E.N.D.S

Sweaty streamer and music producer. I do commissions as well, so if you're looking for intro music, general content music, or anything really, email me! (-:
Contact: nigeleben@gmail.com (Commissions, inquiries, questions, permissions, etc.)

Everything I release is free to use for anything. I just ask that you credit me via "prod. illethP" or "X by illethP" when citing me. Thanks and enjoy! <3

illethP

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