Big love to:  https://soundcloud.com/akacarpenter
https://linktr.ee/Rivilin

mentally fucked in my own way devil wanna maintain 
another connection with me so I just cannot sustain
stomaching another fucking lie 
like you pull me into the abyss and smother out my eyes

playing naughts and crosses on my arms to tell if im alive
I don’t really feel the pain so I still question my life
so the devil tells me its just the god that I have to blame
gave me too much self-awareness so I think I am insane

seeing double fucking vision of the knife to my neck yeah
question if I really want to do this but I know that I just won’t
cus im a fucking coward yeah I admit, 
I couldn’t defend my friends, they let go in a fucking minute

tell me have you ever seen a flame extinguish by self-loathing
watch the light go out of their eyes as you know they’re not coping
so we sit in this room, watch the water rise above our necks
yeah I can’t catch my breath yeah I can’t feel a fucking thing

so I detest
about the way you fucking look at me, I feel your eyes burning so deep
and I confess
I couldn’t stand the way you spoke to me so I just cut off and fucking 
left this hell
where you welded shackles yeah all around and now im sinking further down
into myself
im building a wall above around my head so I hope i don’t let you fucking in

- AKA Carpenter

Oh, creep in the skin like an insect
Finding my solace I lay in the nest
and I soar like an albatross, I rest in the air

but im more like a phoenix, come burn me and test if I care
when you're looking your best, they stare,
so you better pose for a photo
I fuck with the voyeurs when they putting bread in my pocket
I'm only complaining the moment it stops

The eyes can weigh heavy like lead vests, be careful please
yeah you stole my heart like a vandal, oh, but you're there for me
I'm lost in myself and I lean on the lamp post, I'm embarrasing
I'm settling now with my fate, I take lemon and ice with the kerosene

Save Us Ft. AKA Carpenter

Artwork and visuals animated by BY HUGO / @hugo.psd 
Visual Lyric Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OKrgc2vhL5Q
AMV: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lNbj2o31NLo
Lyrics: https://genius.com/Chris-rain-city-of-the-dead-lyrics

City Of the Dead

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CITY OF THE DEAD (Prod. Mantra)

Lungs

Castle in the Sky

Sapphire Tears

9 to 5 (Prod. Pacific)

(looking in the night for the sunlight) x4

Why would I stay but how could I go
If my little home is all that I know
How could I pay for all that I know
If all that I know is all in my soul
I'm putting on clothes all over my bones
And leaving my home 
like fuck it I know I know that I won't
Boasting my foes and ghosting my bros
Like fuck it I know I know that I'll go

And I come from the other side
This time I see it in your eyes
Blood knife is dripping through my thighs
Imma fuck it all up just to see me blow and know

I fuck it up so tired of love
I can't move on but I can't get up
And I'm slipping in darkness and falling
I cover my traces and scream in the rain I...

And the sky is falling (falling once more)
The people applauding (applauding encore)
Needles are piercing (right through their core)
And praying for days (till the day of the sun)

The ashes are rising and shifting their shape
Colored like paint in the wind while we pray
All night, all night 
I can't run this time 'till the ceiling's all gold

Why would I stay but how could I go
If my little home is all that I know
How could I pay for all that I know
If all that I know is all in my soul
I'm putting on clothes all over my bones
And leaving my home 
like fuck it I know I know that I won't
Boasting my foes and ghosting my bros
Like fuck it I know I know that I'll go



Wiwáŋyaŋg Wačípi

SUN DANCE (REMASTERED)

_Yalan Dolan

Music Video

☆ medicine (prod. nicolas sales) ☆

Lyrics:

fighting with anxiety a pointless war inside of me
how come I hate the ones I love, taking pills it’s not enough
I’m so numb its a tragedy, hooked on a tendency 
can’t get rid of these dark thoughts in my head why do you snuff me out

mix the good times with the bad
tell me when did I become so sad
flicking channels on the tv 
just to see the static shining through

choking on depression it stabs so deep
straight through my ribs, it feels like I’m breaking
flashing blue and white in my eyes
I hear my fans begging for more

more of the sad times, 
I’ve never sunk this low
it feels like my hearts on the floor
chuck it out it’s going cold

see friends and the faces that I used to love
they pass by straight in a blink
I know they still want me to keep going 
I will carry on

staying afloat with best friends by my side
yeah  they know what it’s like when
I feel like I’m not coping 
I’m sinking down into your red eyes

yeah your fingers in my soul
yeah I’ve never felt this cold
so numb from the pain
shutting down, block it all away

closing the doors to my house
yeah I’m in too deep
watching the water rise 
above my neck, I can’t catch my breath

when will I get a break,
no, I don’t wanna take
medication to make me sane
yeah I wanna be free

Snuff Me Out

MERCH AVAILABLE SOON
Lyrics:

[hook]
I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

[verse1]
fuckin' hell
Im not well
Trusted you
And then I fell

So afraid
I'm awake
Friends' like who?
Cause ya'll so fake

I might break
Then remake
Save my heart
From all the ache

Got my blade
I might fade
3 more lines
I wish you stayed


I'm so fed, no longer full
On every lie that you pull
Strings from above I'm their fool
Mastermind drowned in the pool 


[hook]
I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

[verse2]
You hate the way I numb my pain
I've hung myself inside your brain
An ornament for severing
The insecurities I'll bring

Bestow upon me gifts in vein
I'd follow you into the rain
But now you've gone and I'm insane
And you're the reason I'm to blame

It's suffocating not knowing where you lie
Awake I'm waiting for all to be made right
It's hard to believe me when I say that I'm alright
I live every day but I don't feel like I'm alive


[hook]
I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

Health Issues (prod. Bartes)

Demons in the Attic ft. Jake Hill prod. GHXST

"Demons in the Attic” prod. GHXST out now
iampseudomusic@gmail.com

Demons in the Attic ft. Jake Hill prod. GHXST

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