Call Me Back

what a time

never leave you lonely (loop)

to the wonder

national anthem v2

shes a maniac

girl, that’s bad for us

I Don’t See the Light

* Remastered - Do I (Even)Matter To You*

The Emotional soulful love ballad sadness Life 

The Loneliness I feel
Inside,
Drives me insane.
It,
Does my head in .
All, 
The questioning I do  
Is so draining on me.

I use to Work nights ( not anymore )
To keep the family together
The Sacrifices,  
I made them too,
Not just you .
But it seems to have, 
come at a cost .
The Flame,
Now has flickered between us both.

Gave you all the freedom.
Friends,
Seperate accounts, 
No questions asked.
Never asking where all , 
The money goes, 
So as To keep the peace. 
As they say ,
money Causes rifts . ( it sure does )

I Was there for you ,
when you got sick,
When Cancer hit. 
Took you to appointments ,
Like a good man,
 should do.
Held your hand,
Told you everything would be alright .

But I Feel so alone,
Not close with your son.
Been a father to him,
Since he came to live with us ,
But sometimes,
 I feel like ,
I’m just some friend to him ,
Not someone ,
he respects too much .
Too strict, too rigid.

Tells me  (it’s not the Army here.)

Couldn’t even thank me, 
For doing his 21 photo album, 
Nor, the songs I wrote. 

But , 
I feel empty .
Who is there for me 
In those nights I stay awake?
Staring at the ceiling, 
Tossing and turning, 
 all night long. ( all night )

I Encouraged you,
 to go ,
On your holiday ,
without me.
Waiting for me ,
was taking too long,
With my Doctors appointments ,
Taking up my time .
Caring for my mum ,
As Someone,
 had to stay behind, 
With my sister on her holiday with her family.

Thoughts racing through my mind.

I Was there for you ,
when you got sick,
When Cancer hit. 
Took you to appointments ,
Like a good man,
 should do.
Held your hand,
Told you everything would be alright .

Wanted ,
to renew our vows,
In Santorini.
But that’s just some, 
Some, some, 
dream now.
Will it ever be possible ,
To travel with you,
AGAIN?

Do I even matter, 
To you?

Do I ,
matter to you?
Or am I ,
just a friend to you too?

But , 
I feel empty .
Who is there for me 
In those nights I stay awake?
Staring at the ceiling, 
Tossing and turning, 
 all night long. ( all night )

Do I even matter, 
To you?

Do I ,
matter to you?
Or am I ,
just a friend to you too?

Do I ? Do I ?

22.do-i?

bestie

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