your tears start to fall as he’s walking away,
you talk to the stranger cause you need a break,
you won’t say you’re wrong so, i’ll take the blame. 
i think you’d be happy if i split our pain.

you’re just a liar, it’s all in your head.

you’re just a liar, that’s not what i said. 

you’re just a liar, you’re better off dead. 

you’re just a liar, so sick in the head. 

*distorted* I love you, please come back. 
bae i love you, please come back. 

please come back.

liar

SEROTONIN DRIVE

i cant be your romeo

https://open.spotify.com/track/1m8CPu0glpDoP8g5WG6nMx?si=87a896ffdca84fc0

featuring @luvkurtis
first time trying new genre

lyrics:

@1bearr

she says boy you can run you won’t make it far 
minds at the crossroads i’m being pulled apart 
i know deep down she’s the one poisoning my heart 
keep on trying to leave but she won’t let me past 

grabs my arm says she won’t let me go 
every second she breathes she’s checking up her phone 
always blaming me for every single fault
her voice never leaves, it’s my head it haunts 

@luvkurtis

now i gotta go
got drugs for days for when i’m on the road
when i'm on a roll
baby go and let me go
no i don’t care too much
know it's my time
i know she’ll watch me when i fall
don't call my line
don't let me down it’s what u want

@1bearr

she says boy you can run you won’t make it far 
minds at the crossroads i’m being pulled apart 
i know deep down she’s the one poisoning my heart 
keep on trying to leave but she won’t let me past 

grabs my arm says she won’t let me go 
every second she breathes she’s checking up her phone 
always blaming me for every single fault
her voice never leaves, it’s my head it haunts 

glass shatters all over the kitchen floor 
pictures ripped right off my bedroom wall 
the way she acts, so bloody cynical 
she’s draining me, parasitical 

@luvkurtis

you gotta run fast fast baby fast as you can
no i ain’t ever coming last
i’ll be first to the chance
im getting back back back all the shit that i had
so shut up, close mouth
i don’t wanna hear it all again

@1bearr

repeating it won’t ever make it true 
thinks it’s time for both of us to change the view 
all these lies, can’t believe youd follow through 
you can trip me up but i won’t fall for you 

she says boy you can run you won’t make it far 
minds at the crossroads i’m being pulled apart 
i know deep down she’s the one poisoning my heart 
keep on trying to leave but she won’t let me past 

grabs my arm says she won’t let me go 
every second she breathes she’s checking up her phone 
always blaming me for every single fault
her voice never leaves, it’s my head it haunts

crossroads w/ kurtis

(Lyrics)

If you need me by your side
And you wanna take some time
Just let me know, me know
Before I make myself look dumb
I’ll stop trying to be what you want
Taking pictures of the rising sun
I wanna go back to when it shined on us

I’ll make sure I pick the right flowers
I’ll get tulips
You’re favorite kind
I’ll make sure I pick the right diamonds
Just playing I know you like rose gold 
Im not out my mind
Know I love spending time with you
Spending time with you
Despite all my issues
Despite my issues
Oh sometimes I wish you
Sometimes I wish you
Would say that you’re mine

I need you here
Unaware of every single fear
When you are by my side
Could you tell me you love me
Even if its lies

Cus I love being, love being
Around you, you know
Used to be fine by myself before I met you
Now I hate being alone
(I need you the most, I need you the most)
Tell me everything (I need you the most)
I know that you love it when I compliment your face
(I need you the most)
You know that you’re stuck up in my brain (I need you the most)
I’ll get you any flower buy the prettiest bouquet

I’ll make sure I pick the right flowers
I’ll get tulips
You’re favorite kind
I’ll make sure I pick the right diamonds
Just playing I know you like rose gold 
Im not out my mind
Know I love spending time with you
Spending time with you
Despite all my issues
Despite my issues
Oh sometimes I wish you
Sometimes I wish you
Would say that you’re mine

MINE

(Lyrics)

Swear to God I can’t help it (fuck!)
Watch me bleed out in velvet 
Don’t say its all my fault
I can’t say I’m not selfish
Say you hate me I felt it, I felt it all along
And now I’m alone
With your guts in my hands and your brains
On the walls
Guess I made you look dumb
What’d you expect when I say
You belong in a trunk

Leave you breathless baby, breathless
Rip your tongue out
For breakfast baby, breakfast
Girl you had me so tempted baby, tempted

Swear to God I can’t help it (fuck!)
Watch me bleed out in velvet
Don’t say its all my fault
I can’t say I’m not selfish
Say you hate me I felt it, I felt it all along
And now I’m alone
With your guts in my hands and your brains
On the walls
Guess I made you look dumb
What’d you expect when I say
You belong in a trunk

you taste better when you're terrified

oxy girl

I had been working on this piece when our beloved cat, Tobi, suddenly passed away. A few days before, he had started to fade, but we didn't realize it would happen so quickly in the end.

I was playing my guitar, searching for harmonic notes while he sat in front of me. It made me sad to see that he was in his twilight days. In response, I played my arpeggio in reverse, so it sounded like falling rain.

By the time I finished working on the guitar piece, Tobi had sadly already passed away. I wanted to find a Buddhist chant for animals to help him cross to the other shore. I discovered that "Om Mani Padme Hum," meaning "Jewel in the Lotus," could be used to assist both animals and humans in planting the seeds of practice for their next lifetime. This beautiful chant also helps with the process of grief after losing loved ones, guiding them as they cross to the other shore. "Om Mani Padme Hum" is widely recognized as a Tibetan Buddhist mantra, often associated with Avalokiteśvara, the Bodhisattva of compassion. 

The ending felt like a way to send him off and into the light.

Each of the six syllables carries a unique quality and meaning.

you taste better when you're terrified

ilyzayy

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