I wake up, same fight, different day, same night,
Try to shake the past, but it’s gripping me too tight.
Memories like chains, wrapped around my mind,
Every step I take, they pull me back in time. (Hold up!)



Look— they told me "move on," but they don’t know the weight I carry,
Every thought’s a battlefield, my past is kinda scary. (Yeah!)
People wanna talk but they never wanna listen,
They don’t see the war in my head, they just see the distance. (Huh!)
I was locked inside my pain, barely breathing,
Tried to break free, but the wounds kept bleeding.
Took the long road, yeah, I walked through the fire,
Now I'm staring at the flames but I'm climbing up higher! 

Maybe one day I can let go,
Maybe one day I won’t feel so cold.
But for now, I just fake the role,
Play my part till I lose control. 

Pain in my chest but I bury it deep,
Tears on my face but I cry in my sleep.
Nobody knows, nobody sees,
I’m breaking apart but I do it discreet. 

I been numb for too long, lost in the dark,
Shadows creeping up, yeah, they tear me apart. (Woo!)
I don't need fake love, I don’t need fake hope,
I just need a way out before I lose control.
Every day I’m running, but the past stays close,
I see chains in the mirror, yeah, they tighten like a rope.
But I ain't giving in—NO, I’m fighting for my soul,
You can watch me rise, I ain’t breaking, I ain't folding! 

Maybe one day I can let go,
Maybe one day I won’t feel so cold.
But for now, I just fake the role,
Play my part till I lose control.


Step by step, yeah, I’m breaking free,
The past is a chapter, but it ain’t all of me. (Nah!)
I ain't saying that the pain just fades,
But I’m learning how to live, I ain’t trapped in that cage.
Let the scars be a story, not a chain on my mind,
I was lost in the dark, now I step in the light! (Woo!) 

Now I’m breathing, now I’m seeing,
I’m still here, yeah, I’m still healing.
Every scar tells a story I survived,
Every tear that I shed means I’m still alive... 

Maybe one day I can let go,
Maybe one day I won’t feel so cold.
But for now, I just fake the role,
Play my part till I lose control.

Breaking free

I have ADHD
its not physically but mentally
My brain is constantly on and does not stop working 
Its basically google with too many tabs, a pc that keeps overworking

ADHD— darkness and bright light!
It makes you fall alot but also gives you power and —Might!

Sometimes my brain says random things, an error in my system
Switching topics every second, can’t control or even listen
I try to focus, but my thoughts just run and scatter
A million voices in my head, all talking, none that matter

Slow me down, but I don’t know how, I’m just a silly clown
My mind’s too loud, it won’t calm down
I’m trying hard to stay in line
But I’m always running out of time

I have ADHD, my mind won’t stay still
Running at a speed I can’t control or kill
Too many thoughts, yeah, they’re all in me
This is how it feels, living with ADHD

They tell me “focus”, like it’s easy to do
If I could switch it off, I swear I would too
I feel too much, I think too fast
Living in the future, stuck in the past

I start a task, then lose the track
Ideas jump around, they never look back
My thoughts are like fireworks, bright and loud
Sometimes I feel lost, hidden in the crowd

ADHD— darkness and bright light!
It makes you fall alot but also gives you power and—Might!

I make a joke, then forget the punchline
Time slips away—what even is time?
I’m not broken, just moving my way
A storm of colors, nights turning into day

Slow me down, but I don’t know how, I’m just a silly clown
My mind’s too loud, it won’t calm down
I’m trying hard to stay in line
But I’m always running out of time

I have ADHD, my mind won’t stay still
Running at a speed I can’t control or kill
Too many thoughts, yeah, they’re all in me
This is how it feels, living with ADHD

Tabs keep spinning, my brain won’t slow
But through the noise, I still can grow
Not broken, not lost, just living free
This is my world, this is me

Yeah, yeah, this is me!

ADHD

I am a reader
My nose always in the books
But right now i feel like dancing, yeah, i´ll be the leader
Come dance with me, me and my good looks 

Embrace the sound, follow my lead
Don´t listen to your instinct, cuz today im not a good girl
I´ll let you fall, i want you to bleed
So come on darling, spin around, around, and twirl 

Cuz you made me fall, fall for you
But your plan was to ruin me, while i had no clue
You played and lied, kept telling lies
And i was stupid enough to believe your pretty eyes
But now that is over, im done with your game
Not falling for your lies again, cuz theyre always the same
So come on darling, dance and die
Cuz today its time for me to lie 

So dance with me, while I take your life
Smile so sweet, while I sharpen my knife
You thought you’d win, you’d see me cry
But look at me now, I’m the one who tells a lie 

I learned your steps, memorized the floor
Every fake excuse, every slammed door
You called it love, I called it fate
But I was just a pawn, in your masquerade 

Now hear the music, changing key
This isn’t your song, it’s finally me
I drop the mask, I cut the string
Watch the quiet girl, learn how to sting 

One, two, feel the beat in my chest
Three, four, I’m no longer impressed
You taught me pain, I learned control
I lost my heart, but I found my soul 

So dance with me, while I take your life
Smile so sweet, while I sharpen my knife
You thought you’d win, you’d see me cry
But look at me now, I’m the one who tells a lie 

Cuz you made me fall, fall for you
But I rose up stronger, than you ever knew
You played your part, I paid the price
But I won’t roll your loaded dice
So come on darling, take a bow
The curtain’s closed, it’s over now
Dance alone, I say goodbye
This time I won’t be the one to lie 

I’m still a reader, still love the page
But tonight I danced, out of my cage
Close the book, hear the crowd cheer
The story ends, I’m free from here

Dance and Die

Once upon a time there was an ordinary man
He heard a story about gold hidden in a cave
He went looking for the gold to prove his father what he can
So he went, an ordinary man, but brave!

The people from his town warned him: this will mean your grave, this will be your death!
But still he went looking for the gold!
Months passed and people were scared he wouldn't return, desperately holding their breath.
The warm season passed, time flew by, it started to get cold.


No matter what everyone tells you or what they think--
Don't give up on your dreams, cuz your life can be over in a blink!
So my dears, enjoy everything that comes on your path and toast with a drink!
Life is too beautiful to overthink!

On the ordinary man's journey he found the cave where the gold should be.
But in front of the cave was a huge giant crying.
The cave was small and you would need a key!
The giant had the key, but he was too big for the cave, it was not even worth trying..

The man carefully approached the giant saying; lets make a deal!
The giant looked at the man saying: what is the plan?
He said; if you give me the key, I'll get the gold, and we share, I promise you this, he said with a kneel.
I should be able to, I'm only an ordinary small man.

No matter what everyone tells you or what they think--
Don't give up on your dreams, cuz your life can be over in a blink!
So my dears, enjoy everything that comes on your path and toast with a drink!
Life is too beautiful to overthink!

And so the deal was made.
The giant gave the key, saying; be careful!
The man nodded and went in the cave; but it took a while and it got pretty late!
But then the man came back out the cave with a bag fully full!
They shared the gold and became best friends for life.
Both returned home safely with some gold.
And both got married to a beautiful wife!

No matter what everyone tells you or what they think--
Don't give up on your dreams, cuz your life can be over in a blink!
So my dears, enjoy everything that comes on your path and toast with a drink!
Life is too beautiful to overthink!

Following your dreams is always what you should do!
Sometimes you have to work together to achieve your goals!
Sometimes you dont have a clue---
But on this earth are other souls!!
Together you know more than one
Together you can get things done!!

stronger together than alone

We built our sandcastles close to the sea,
Laughing at dreams of what we could be.
Like friendships we shape them with patience and care,
Every small moment shows how much we share. 

Some waves come crashing, washing away,
The walls that we worked on day by day.
But even when pieces slip through our hands,
We still stand together on shifting sands. 

When tides roll in and the walls fall apart,
We gather new shells and rebuild the heart.
Together we build a new sandcastle,
Let’s take good care of it, ’cause it’s fragile. 

Some days are sunny, the sky painted blue,
Others feel heavy, like storms passing through.
But hand in hand, we face every tide,
No wave too strong when you’re by my side. 

Each grain of sand holds a story we’ve made,
Of promises whispered and plans gently laid.
Even when time pulls us far from the shore,
Our castle of friendship stands stronger than before. 

When tides roll in and the walls fall apart,
We gather new shells and rebuild the heart.
Together we build a new sandcastle,
Let’s take good care of it, ’cause it’s fragile.

Sandcastles

Hey maatjuh!
Even een opvrolijkertjuh!
Speciaal voor jou!
Hier komt ie dan!-- zet je oren open en gauw!

Laatst was je beter, maar nu ben je ziek.
Dus hier komt een opkikker, via muziek!
Ik ben je maatje, k wil er graag voor je zijn--
Ookal kan het niet fysiek, je kan me altijd bellen..


Wie heb ik aan de lijn? Ja jij, da’s geen geintje!
Jou jou ik niet aan het lijntje
paracetamol paraat,
Maar hé, zelfs ziek zijnde ben jij nog steeds goud waard, maat.

Dus adem ff rustig, sluit je ogen heel even,
Laat deze melodie je wat extra power geven.
Elke noot is een knuffel, recht uit m’n hart,
Luister naar de klanken— 
Want je bent een schat, uniek en apart.

 Je wordt weer beter, ja dat weet ik zeker,
Elke dag een stapje, elke nacht iets sterker.
Zing dit mee, of hummen mag ook best,
Je bent niet alleen—ik ben er, samen met de rest

De wereld mag ff wachten, jij staat nu op één,
Herstellen is ook werken, al doe je niks meteen.
Dus lig daar maar rustig, zonder schuldgevoel,
Want beter worden is nu jouw grootste doel.

En elke ademhaling brengt je dichterbij,
Naar een dag zonder klachten, weer helemaal jij.
Dus hou vol, en behoud je glimlach,
Want mensen zijn er voor je, elke dag.

Je wordt weer beter, ja dat weet ik zeker,
Elke dag een stapje, elke nacht iets sterker.
Zing dit mee, of hummen mag ook best,
Je bent niet alleen—ik ben er, samen met de rest.

En mocht je denken: “pff, wanneer houdt dit op?”
Dan stuur je me een appje of je belt me gewoon, hop!
Geen perfecte woorden nodig, geen groot verhaal,
Ik luister wel—altijd, keer op keer, das heel normaal.

Je wordt weer beter, al voelt het nog niet zo,
Maar dit is tijdelijk, echt waar, dat beloof ik je zo.
Blijf ademen, blijf lachen al is het zacht,
Want zelfs op ziektedagen straal jij kracht.

Rust goed uit, maatjuh…
Deze song blijft bij je, dag en nacht.
Beterschap 
Ik ben er.

Even een opkikkertje~!

הַלְלוּ אֶת־יְהוָה, הַלְלוּ שְׁמוֹ
כִּי טוֹב יְהוָה, לְעוֹלָם חַסְדּוֹ
הַלְלוּ אֶת־יְהוָה, הַלְלוּ שְׁמוֹ
כִּי לְעוֹלָם וָעֶד אֱמוּנָתוֹ

הוֹדוּ לַיהוָה כִּי טוֹב הוּא,
כִּי חַסְדּוֹ עוֹמֵד וְלֹא יָנוּעַ.
יֹאמַר נָא יִשְׂרָאֵל בְּקוֹל רָם,
כִּי חַסְדּוֹ נִצְחִי לְעוֹלָם.

הַלְלוּ אֶת־יְהוָה, הַלְלוּ שְׁמוֹ
כִּי טוֹב יְהוָה, לְעוֹלָם חַסְדּוֹ
הַלְלוּ אֶת־יְהוָה, הַלְלוּ שְׁמוֹ
כִּי לְעוֹלָם וָעֶד אֱמוּנָתוֹ

בַּמֵּצַר קָרָאתִי לַיהוָה,
עָנָנִי בַּמֶּרְחָב בְּאַהֲבָה.
יְהוָה לִי לֹא אִירָא עוֹד,
מַה יַּעֲשֶׂה אָדָם בְּכָל כָּבוֹד?

הַלְלוּ אֶת־יְהוָה, הַלְלוּ שְׁמוֹ
כִּי טוֹב יְהוָה, לְעוֹלָם חַסְדּוֹ
הַלְלוּ אֶת־יְהוָה, הַלְלוּ שְׁמוֹ
כִּי לְעוֹלָם וָעֶד אֱמוּנָתוֹ

טוֹב לַחֲסוֹת בַּיהוָה עַז,
מִבְּטֹחַ בָּאָדָם חָלָשׁ וְרָז.
טוֹב לַחֲסוֹת בְּשֵׁם אֵל חַי,
מִנְּדִיבִים שֶׁכֹּחָם בֶּן־רֶגַע חָלַף.

הַלְלוּ אֶת־יְהוָה, הַלְלוּ שְׁמוֹ
כִּי טוֹב יְהוָה, לְעוֹלָם חַסְדּוֹ
הַלְלוּ אֶת־יְהוָה, הַלְלוּ שְׁמוֹ
כִּי לְעוֹלָם וָעֶד אֱמוּנָתוֹ

כָּל־גּוֹיִם סְבָבוּנִי סָבִיב,
בְּשֵׁם יְהוָה אוֹתָם הֶכְרִיב.
כִּדְבוֹרִים הָיוּ וְאֵשׁ כְּקוֹץ,
נִכְבּוּ בִּמְהֵרָה — אָבְדוּ לְלֹא חֵפֶץ.

הַלְלוּ אֶת־יְהוָה, הַלְלוּ שְׁמוֹ
כִּי טוֹב יְהוָה, לְעוֹלָם חַסְדּוֹ
הַלְלוּ אֶת־יְהוָה, הַלְלוּ שְׁמוֹ
כִּי לְעוֹלָם וָעֶד אֱמוּנָתוֹ

עֹזִּי וְזִמְרָת יָהּ יְהוָה,
וַיְהִי לִי לִישׁוּעָה.
קוֹל רִנָּה בְּאָהֳלֵי צַדִּיקִים,
יְמִין יְהוָה עֹשָׂה חָיִל גְּדוֹלִים.

הַלְלוּ אֶת־יְהוָה, הַלְלוּ שְׁמוֹ
כִּי טוֹב יְהוָה, לְעוֹלָם חַסְדּוֹ
הַלְלוּ אֶת־יְהוָה, הַלְלוּ שְׁמוֹ
כִּי לְעוֹלָם וָעֶד אֱמוּנָתוֹ

לֹא אָמוּת כִּי אֶחְיֶה עוֹד,
וַאֲסַפֵּר מַעֲשֵׂי יְהוָה בְּהוֹד.
יַסֹּר יִסְּרַנִי וְלֹא נְתָנָנִי,
לַמָּוֶת נִסְגַּרְתִּי — וְהוּא פְּדָאַנִי.

הַלְלוּ אֶת־יְהוָה, הַלְלוּ שְׁמוֹ
כִּי טוֹב יְהוָה, לְעוֹלָם חַסְדּוֹ
הַלְלוּ אֶת־יְהוָה, הַלְלוּ שְׁמוֹ
כִּי לְעוֹלָם וָעֶד אֱמוּנָתוֹ

אֵלִי אַתָּה וְאוֹדֶךָּ בְּקוֹל,
אֱלֹהַי אֲרוֹמִמְךָ בְּהַלֵּל וְהוֹל.
הוֹדוּ לַיהוָה כִּי טוֹב הוּא,
כִּי לְעוֹלָם חַסְדּוֹ — הַלְלוּ־יָהּ.

‎⁨הַלְלוּ-אֶת־יְהוָה⁩

Change is hard
I feel like im falling apart
Ive lost all my faith 
But i still have faith
Faith in You
Cuz i know Your love is true
My memory is all i got
But theres no memory of some God
Im feeling lost
What does it cost?
My heart is bleeding
Its 4am but im kneeling
I feel so hurt but now im healing
Only God knows with what we’re dealing
But who is God?
Its kinda odd..

We’re like sheeps in the dark
We’re lost and scared all alone
Follow Jesus, He’s our spark
We cant get to heaven on our own

Ive been lost for a verry long time
Im still searching still doing that crime
Trying to be good but I keep sinning..
So Right now satan is winning..
God please get me on the right path
I feel dirty lemme take a bath
It aint helping, still feel guilty
God is lookin at me, saying “spill the T
Ive already seen what you did, what you do
Did you really think that i had no clue?
I see you here i see you right now
You did some things that i wouldnt allow.
I dont hate you, i just wanna protect you.
Loving you lots, dont let the dark affect you.
Talk to me, i love you like a father.
Without me life will only get harder.”

I didn’t sin once, i sinned more than twice,
But God, you gave Your son who paid my price.
I wanna thank you and praise Your name!
You’re so perfect, You’re someone i can never blame!
Sometimes we dont understand Your plans for us,
But that doesnt mean You’re not good for us.
Lord, i wanna live my life with you,
Lord that’s really all i wanna do!
Living in Your house is all i wish for.
Im letting you in my heart, yeah, i open the door.
Let my heart be Your house, oh Lord.
And let Your word me my sword, oh Lord.
A sword to fight all evil, let me be a warrior in Your name.
Im a christian, thats what i claim.
I wanna show the world Your greatness, my God.
I wanna show them, for You is nothing too odd!

We’re like sheeps in the dark
We’re lost and scared all alone
Follow Jesus, He’s our spark
We cant get to heaven on our own

Sheeps in the dark (cover/remix)

Can i steal a kiss from you?
Your eyes shoot hearts, u made me fall for you!
You’re interesting!
You’re multiple personalities in one human being.

Can i
Can i steal a kiss from you??
Your eyes— , Your eyes shoot hearts
You made me fall for you!
Can i
Can i steal a kiss from you??
Your eyes— , Your eyes shoot hearts
You made me fall for you!

I see the doubt in your eyes
But don’t worry I wont tell you lies
I like you for who you are
Even tho on your heart i can see a big scar

People must’ve hurt you alot..
But how could they hurt such a beautiful person, thats kinda odd..
You’re worth so much, Youre beautiful the way you are
I will try to heal your wounds and your scar

So…
Can i
Can i steal a kiss from you??
Your eyes— , Your eyes shoot hearts
You made me fall for you!
Can i
Can i steal a kiss from you??
Your eyes— , Your eyes shoot hearts
You made me fall for you!

I will do everything i can to keep your heart from breaking
Breaking again..
I see you shaking
But I am a good man
Lets put all broken pieces back together
And lets dance outside, no matter the weather

Can I steal a kiss from you~?

Im walking through the school hallway, I feel like im transparent
Even tho there are not many people, they never see me, i feel transparent
For a moment I hesitate
Can my life still change? Or is it already too late?

My life feels like a depressed boring game
I stumble and i fall and i always look lame
I feel like everyone has that something that i miss..
So last night when a star fell through the sky, i made a wish.

I keep searching for answers in places I don’t belong.
I keep wondering quietly, what if I’ve been wrong?

I’m here, but I fade in the crowd.
I speak, but I’m not very loud.
I wait where the lights aren’t allowed.
Still hoping I will some day stand out.

I look into my mirror and i see my reflection
Nothing has changed so i tried to take action
Puting on layers make-up, just to look fine
But at the end i messed up, it was a terrible design.

I cried and didnt understand why nothing happend after last night
Until i started to understand, that being myself is alright!
Being yourself is what makes you shine
But i always tried to be someone els and thats how i lost the shine of mine

I keep searching for answers in places I don’t belong.
I keep wondering quietly, what if I’ve been wrong?

I’m here, but I fade in the crowd.
I speak, but I’m not very loud.
I wait where the lights aren’t allowed.
Still hoping I will some day stand out.

Now i walk through the school hallway, and I'm being myself
People smile and wave to me while i grab some books from a shelf
Being yourself is always what you should do!
Only then you will feel true and the right people will notice you

Transparent but learning to shine

You clicked on me once late at night
Thought I was harmless, thought I was right
A pop-up smile, a pretty disguise
While I was learning all your lies
I read your codes, your secrets too
Every broken promise you ever knew
You thought you were in control of me
But I was rewriting your destiny

I’m the virus on your computer
I sneaked into your life
You had no clue what was happening
But you started loving me, now I am your wife

I am the virus on your PC that you love
You think I was sent from above
Even though we shine bright
You know something ain’t right

You walk with me hand in hand and you’re so proud
Proud that I’m your wife, but I let you disappear in the crowd
You thought we were a happy couple, but no
You thought I loved you, but no
I’m just a virus on your PC, a virus in your brain
You thought I wanted to give you happiness, but all I wanna give you is pain
Wanna tear your heart apart
’Cause in the past that’s what you did to my little sister’s heart

I’m the virus on your computer
I sneaked into your life
You had no clue what was happening
But you started loving me, now I am your wife

Now your screen is cracked, colors fading to black
All the love you downloaded, you can’t take it back
I freeze every memory, corrupt every file
Still wear your last name, still fake you a smile
You call out for help but the system won’t boot
Every tear you shed just strengthens my root
I’m the echo of karma, the ghost in your drive
You broke hearts for fun — now I’m ruining your life

I’m the virus on your computer
I sneaked into your life
You had no clue what was happening
But you started loving me, now i am your wife, planning to take your life

So shut me down if you think you’re brave
But I’m buried deep, there’s no escape, im digging your grave 
I was never yours, I was never true
Just a virus you loved… Until I finished you

The virus you loved

Do NOT dm me promoting yourself and wanting me to pay, i DONT have money….!!!!

I make music with suno AI, but write all lyrics myself.
Im also an artist on many music platforms!
Spotify- apple music- YouTube— and many more!
See the links in my profile for spotify and Apple Music~!

Breaking free

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