instrumental by my boy @prodpishogue go follow

lyrics:

you said you love me
but i cant ever tell tho
she said she hates me
its hard for me to know tho
maybe im a fool and nobody really loves me
said she wont hurt me, she really really cut me

really really thought she wouldnt stab me
snuck a tag into my car and tracked me
looked in thru my windows when im napping
why shes always there when im lacking

she told me pass her the joint
i wanna turn off my joins
she told me pass her the joint
i wanna turn off my joins
she told me pass her the joint
i wanna turn off my joins
i want her out of my head

shell probably come track me down
shes probably here in my town
shell probably take me away
ill probably never be found
she really need to calm down
she need some lean or some loud
she such a queen, need a crown
i know ill never be found

you said you love me
but i cant ever tell tho
she said she hates me
its hard for me to know tho
maybe im a fool and nobody really loves me
said she wont hurt me, she really really cut me

maybe im the crazy one idk

you're such a bore and i'm not patient anymore
and i'd adore my fucking body as a corpse
i don't care anymore and now my pride is on the floor
can't go back to before sit in silence and ignore

waste

#7 - soft serenades

https://youtu.be/NqCo-_pVRTY?si=HcHl1xlRnIsP0WW4

stuck in the past, the present day don't really work out
hoping i dont spend my future in that jail cell
i'm moving fast, but not too fast to get my workout
i'd rather fast, i'm too depressed to do a workout, workout
was kinda hoping it could work out, work out
i cut myself don't even hurt now, hurt now
i'm feeling better guess it worked out, worked out

work out (music vid in desc)

1. not sure how u like me over discord 
2. dont know what my life has become w prodii 
3. my family hates me w proddii and creepies
4. just know this song aint abt u w gussi
5. ik its christmas but why are u a bitch


i tired to off myself at the family function

@kaysnoto
such a silent girl
like what did i do
ya im tryna be right with u
but now your picking and choosin
ya im up in ruins
like what am i doing
like what am i doing
look at what your doing
like what am i doing (what did i do)
like what am i doing (what did i do)
look at what your doing (what did i do) 
what did i do
what did i do
what did i do
what did i do
oooooo
what did i do
what did i dooo
oh you take my soul
and your running away with it
oh you take my home
and now your stuck up and your livin in it
such a silent girl
like what did i do
ya im tryna be right with u
but now your picking and choosin
ya im up in ruins
like what am i doing
like what am i doing
look at what your doing
like what am i doing
@wasitbroken

silent girl w/wirt

prod:
lyrics:
oh huh ohhh
oh huh ohhh 
oh huh ohhh
ah huh ahhh
i’m really missing the feeling of u digging in my skin 
the past was shitty but if go back and do it all again 
u left me cold on the floor and now i’m surrounded by sin 
u left me cold on the floor and now i’m surrounded by sin 

i guess i didn’t know u like i thought i did 
i don’t know what to do i’m sparking up just to forget 
i’m just a loser in my room because i’m not really shit 
know i disappointed you and you didn’t have to say shit

restart

Losing sanity

#3 - what a pathetic story

I think you're my new obsession Take me out from my depression
I know love is all about progression I'll spill your guts and teach you a lesson
Sick inside the head, but I can't control you
I can't control my hands, I can't help but hold you
I'll make you remember every fucking word I told you
Then I'll dismember your whole body after I scold you

I want to control you I'll lock you in my basement where no one can hear you
The shock is in your face, I'm loving the fear too
I'll make you feel safe, but I still wanna hurt you
You're a bitch, you're a slut, but you're everything I want
Spent my last dollar on you
I'm a fucking cuck, but I'll get my revenge on you
I'm so sick and you're so cute

I'll harass you and beat you
Why would I treat you like anything more than a toy?
I'm so fucking see-through, all I do is feed you lies
And take away your joy

sorry mom im sick and perverted

#4 - what a pathetic story

I feel you staring at me with your eyes
Are you judging me?
Or are you trying to read inside my mind, well you couldn't see
And I couldn't breathe
Just one more cig, what my lungs really need

You want me to stay
I want you to leave
Why are you so empathetic towards me?
I know I don't deserve it
I want you to bleed
I'll be the last thing she stares at, oh yeah it was me

interlude 1 - why do i keep doing that to her

Gotta change my ways or I'ma end up in a ditch
I know when I fuckin' die, they won't really give a shit
If you wanna kill me, it'll be like I never exist
Make my dreams come true, that's my only fuckin' wish
I know that you're disappointed, I was hopin' you'd forgive
Why are you acting so shocked? You knew I'd end up on the list
I got something up my sleeve, it's my one last trick
Really hate my life, but I'm too scared to commit
I don't have any friends, cause I push them all away
You just wanna keep me around when you're tryna save face
I just look into the mirror and I hate my face
Layin' dead on the floor with a fuckin' blue face
I'm really psychotic, suspect of a cold case
Didn't wanna kill that girl, but she wanted me to stay
I'm a gross fuckin' creep, I wish I could be erased
But my time's comin' someday, it'll be okay

interlude 2 - i’ll end up just like him

nothing seems to get my mind off of death
I guess that you can say im just a little bit obsessed
Well Im already dead so tell me how to speed the process
I don’t deserve a damn thing except to be a carcass
I tried to be a good person but im so caught up
Everyday it’s getting worse man im so fucked up
i contradict all of my words but im so tired of lust
what’ll kill me first the drugs or a barrel to my gut

interlude 1 - why do i keep doing that to her

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