je te tieandrai dans mon coeur jusqu'à ce que je puisse te tenir dans mes bras.

lyrics:

shiki
I see why you left, this is awful
I don't wanna die anymore, I just want you
Kiss me while I'm dying inside of this bottle
Fall in love with strangers, now my heart is a hostel

Left my love on the east coast
But I don't wanna be alone, I don't wanna be alone, no
And you can text me good morning, but we're in different time zones
And I know that you don't care like I do
I'll find another one just like you
I'll find a new one, call her your name
Black my eyes and paint my face a new shade of grey
I ran away, in East LA where none of my love can get in the way
And baby, I don't think that you could save me
But thank you for trying

I hope you don't know it's about you when you hear this
But I knew you'd listen, only reason I wrote this
And I would bleed for you if I thought you would notice

I'm too scared to dream since I saw you
I told you I would move to New York and write a novel
But I'm still in my mom's house
The one that you warned me about
The one you said was haunted
I'm nauseous, I can't stop heaving
Who would want this? I'm still bleeding
Hide my ribs like, yeah I'm eating
Come save me, this room is freezing

skele:
I know why you left, this is terrible
As I was writing this, I wanted to let you know
It's getting really hard to let you go
I wanted five more minutes baby, just so I could hear you talk
Cuz everything I knew just fucking fell apart
You never really cared, you just played the part
And now you're gone, it's all my fault

hostel w/ skele (love,matt x chris marek)

produced by me ^^ <3

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Lyrics -
i just don't understand
i left it in your hands
you left my heart tainted, don't know where i am
but i ain't fuckin' healed yet
but you act like you don't see it

you don't deserve the praise
you didn't wanna change
you gave it all up for a little bit of fame
and i just don't wanna feel shit

i just don't really need this, no

late calls
i didn't wanna text you
too long
that i didn't really see you
won't lie yeah, i've changed a lot
spent the summer with myself and all of my thoughts
bring another bottle
i could really use one
but it's something that i never really talk about
never really saw the same
never really felt the pain

i just don't understand
i left it in your hands
you left my heart tainted, don't know where i am
but i ain't fuckin' healed yet
but you act like you don't see it

you don't deserve the praise
you didn't wanna change
you gave it all up for a little bit of fame
and i just don't wanna feel shit

i just don't really need this, no

i just watch u cry
you do it all the time
i'm here cause i like you
it ain't a lie
focus how to breathe
i need u for some venting
look at me i'm worth
more than i really think
knock me down until it hurts
i'm omw to brink
i'm omw to edge
i'm omw to learn
i'm omw to death 
i don't wanna make this turn, no
i don't wanna make this turn
i don't wanna hit the dirt
i don't wanna make it worse

i just don't understand
i left it in your hands
you left my heart tainted, don't know where i am
but i ain't fuckin' healed yet
but you act like you don't see it

you don't deserve the praise
you didn't wanna change
you gave it all up for a little bit of fame
and i just don't wanna feel shit

i just don't really need this, no

late calls (feat. heylog)

produced by jpjp
vocals + lyrics by heylog & i'm geist

lyrics:
your caught around my throat
i don't think you wanna know what i know
you remember we were close
now i don't call you a bro anymore
watch out i might contain hostility
you say u know but you don't know me
i guess i'm used to it
people that i know always abusing it

i'd kill the old me
a lot has changed so i'd do it in a heart beat
through the veins, through my skin
subtle scarring
what was left in the past
know it hardly
i had a job and i failed to kill the old me
a lot has changed so i'd do it in a heart beat
through the veins, through my skin
subtle scarring
what was left in the past
know it hardly
i had a job and i failed to kill the old me

so long, won’t accept my defeat
i know i’m running out of time
but i can’t even breathe

lost cause, threw me into the sea
it’s not what i wanted to be
they prayed i drowned in the deep

but i’m holding on
there’s so much left inside of my head that i’m fighting for
what went wrong?
cause i seem to have lost myself amongst the dying stars

what went wrong?
cause i seem to have lost myself amongst the dying stars
what went wrong?
i seem to have lost myself amongst the dying stars

i'd kill the old me
a lot has changed so i'd do it in a heart beat
through the veins, through my skin
subtle scarring
what was left in the past
know it hardly
i had a job and i failed to kill the old me
a lot has changed so i'd do it in a heart beat
through the veins, through my skin
subtle scarring
what was left in the past
know it hardly
i had a job and i failed to kill the old me

through my veins, through my skin

SPOTIFY

heylog & i'm geist - through the veins, through my skin (jpjp)

Artist:
@hiraethsry

Produced by @sinxi

Lyrics:
u don’t wanna listen 
ik u can’t really take it
talk to me for hours baby
convos getting basic
hira just reply to me
im sorry i can’t save it
im nothing worth investing in 
my stomachs always aching

its hard to try when nobody cares
i know you said you want forever
now nobody’s there
but u never had to lie to me
that’s somebody’s bed
u said u never had the time for me 
and fucked him instead

feel like you’re wanting me dead
the feelings are gone; i regret
leave me alone in the back rooms
putting ur marks on my head
fear i know nothing about you
ur laying on my chest
told me you left cause you had to
but you’d do it again

embarassing
you let me down
5 minutes til ur back again
you let me drown 
so dont tell me what i deserve
you dont care 
left in the state that you put me in
its not fair 
stg im an idiot

i dont think i ever liked you
im unconcious but i thought you
where different that youd care for me
cause i bled all my blood for you
and we haven’t talked in months
cause i don’t open any messages
i left it all behind 
so i’ll be waiting on my own again

hiraeth - nobody cares

I haven't left this hole in weeks
Relive the same day on repeat
You're gone, there's nothing left except this letter
I take a pill and go to sleep
Watch my life play out on screens
It's been too long, okay whatever (Oh, oh, oh)
I've never felt so far away
When you're with him, I'm wide awake
Tell me love, does he do it better?
Think I'm running out of time again
Pack my bags, don't tell my friends
You must've known this won't last forever
But now I'm falling to pieces
I don't have a reason
You were all that I needed
Now I can't stop the bleeding (oh, woah)

I fell in love with someone I imagined you to be
I just wanna get some sleep

I can't talk about it right now, it takes a little time
I went everywhere with you, now I can't even go outside
I been talking to the devil, think for sure I'm gonna die
But maybe that's just fine, maybe that's just fine
Is it fun for you to make me feel like this? Don't fucking lie
Leave me lying on the tile while my veins are running dry
And I know that I'd do anything to fake it for the night
Just tell me that it's fine, tell me that it's fine

I'll just rot away inside, do the only thing I'm good at
They were never there for you, so don't you fucking look back
Wait until they see you on the stage, you can look 'em in the face
Show 'em everything they could've had
Now I talk when I want, I don't owe you a response
My replacement left, that's not my problem
Love me when I'm gone, then pretend you're better off
I got everything I wanted
I got everything I wanted
I have everything
(Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh)

I can't talk about it right now, it takes a little time
I told you that I loved you and you didn't seem to mind
I guess I'll leave you alone, just tell your friends I fucking died
I'm writing this about you to remember I'm alive
I fell in love with someone I imagined you to be
I just wanna get some sleep
Before I remember

I can't talk about it right now, it takes a little time
I went everywhere with you, now I can't even go outside
I been talking to the devil, think for sure I'm gonna die
But maybe that's just fine, maybe that's just fine
Is it fun for you to make me feel like this? Don't fucking lie
Leave me lying on the tile while my veins are running dry
And I know that I'd do anything to fake it for the night
Just tell me that it's fine, tell me that it's fine

it takes a little time

[AMV]: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DNv4eGItpyg 
produced by @nate2timezz & i
thank you endlessly for listening.
more to come in time
🖤

they say, "you're not alone"
but i'm weighing myself down to the bone
i'm deprived of your voice, your expressions, your tones
they scream, "don't.. go"
but i guess you didn't listen
i hope that you just missed it

i'm losing my grip on reality
i need some help or just someone around me
not a physical family
the moment feelings all erupt
they can't handle your trust
guess i was too much of a burden from the cut
but don't let yourself go and doubt on me
the ocean is howling
that's my kind of outing
you don't know the hurt that it brings
can't focus, can't breathe
i love you, but you know what i think?

i'm way too detached
you don't got my back
been tryna distract
"that boy's such a drag"
i lay in my bed; think things never meant
her hand; never leant
where have you been, love

that girl made me feel like i didn't wanna suffer
validated all my reasons
and then continued to smother
cards all on the table
the table's brittle as fuck
cause you leave with no intentions of hurting me
that's enough-

if what you say is what you mean
then fall back onto me
i'll swallow up your misery
i don't care what it brings
i'll be your puppet with no strings
just show me that i have meaning
like a matter, or a purpose
just a reason that i'm breathing
i've been wishing on the stars since a kid
they're where my arms don't reach
but my eyes look past them
the scars make a pretty constellation
they connect all i see
but at the end of the day, they still look past it

you gotta hope it lasts
you're holding yourself back
if you're falling, your wings' cracked
you gotta snap em back
and when the sky becomes the ceiling,
i'll throw rocks to make it crash
oh, don't look back (2x)

through and through
every time i break down my own recluse
just because i thought they understood me too
from my point of view
they never do (2x)

they say, "you're not alone"
but i'm weighing myself down to the bone
i'm deprived of your voice, your expressions, your tones
you've never known
but i guess you didn't listen
i hope that you dismissed it.

everlast [prod. nate2timez x autumndropsdead]

@edacityy @ihateshinigami 

// edacity
Why's it so hard to love?
You take it all but won't
Stop acting like you're above me
I, see you inside
Gotta be cool
Chill to the bone
You got ice in your soul
20 below
If you ever let go
Maybe you'll know
Time and time I've tried to change your mind
But you still fight
You can't love cause you're hateful, hateful
You can't love cause you hate love, hate love
You can't love cause you're hateful, hateful
You can't love cause you hate love, hate love

// geist
you can’t love cause it’s painful
shawty in all black telling me how she’s
famous, hates love
always act like an angel
then show up with a knife to my back
said she’s blood lust, don’t trust

pretty smile on your face
it’s so flawless
love you’re all the same,
chasing fame
let’s be honest
calling me the one,
your twin flame
make me nauseous

never hesitate,
to pin blame
you’re so toxic

// shinigami
oh woah oh
oh woah oh oh
close my eyes and i see red
again this is not how it should be
am i a ghost, a ghoul, a phantom?
why can’t you see me?
i fade away to the background
it was up but it’s all going down now
in the dirt you won’t hear me make a sound
maybe one day i’ll turn it back around

spotify

hate love! w/ edacity & shinigami [siren]

produced by me

lyrics:
wanna be alone cause it's quiet
locked up in my room, no more fighting
plug both of my ears, hear no riot
put away my feelings, no more crying

no talk
thorns out
mask on
happy home

always feel ignored and nobody wanna take me
seriously for once, why you think I'm always faking
walk around my   room with no purpose, thoughts are pacing
wish I had the guts, cause the future fucking scares me

always feel ignored and nobody wanna take me
seriously for once, why you think I'm always faking
walk around my room with no purpose, thoughts are pacing
wish I had the guts, cause the future fucking scares me

don't go the way I went cause you'll end up with scars
I just want a piece of quiet, is it too much to ask?
rarely check up on my phone, cause it's filled with demands
I can't meet ur expectations, you been asking too much

please stop yelling, I've been trying
please stop pushing, please stop fighting
I dont wanna see you crying
I just wanna feel 
(at home)

home

u were hoping i'd cave,
i heard u say it but you'd never say that shit to my face
'cos ur a leech baby taking trends and riding the waves
while im above put myself first i'm up and away
ur left overboard piecing back together the frame

got these fuckin people tryna talk to me, yeah
i don't wanna know where u've been or what girl ur with
i don't wanna know that your friends are so rebellious
i don't fuckin know why? i guess ur shit at picking 'em

Got you madder than me
You got your hands on my sleeves 
You try to put me to sleep 
But I will stay awake 
Don't tell me things wont change 
I always hide my face 
You never break so easily 

Take the pain you never had 
You wanna feel for me 
You set a target on my back 
I barely breathe for me 
Been drinking seven days have passed 
I barely live for me 
I feel addiction coming back

I feel this devil on my shoulder
And my eyes been going black 
I don't lack composure when I'm reading through these texts 
You never reply to me 
I never reply to you 
I don't even like these shades of black mixed in with navy blue

i been so lost i cant focus
bring me down now i dont want this
i dont stare much but youd notice
everytime i look at you im on edge

notice how my eyes stay frozen
i keep tryna run but you keep calling
everytime you speak to me its always
turning out the same its fucking boring

being here without you im much happier now
bury my emotions 60ft in the ground
taking my advice ill slap the bitch in the mouth
so the bullshit that shes spewing will stop fumbling out

waves w/ sinxi & erxn

ohh
it’s been a long time
and i swear that i still miss you
guess you’re happy now
after all that we have been through
a long time
but i still can’t help but miss you
once you’re happy love
doesn’t matter if i’m still blue..

is it the medicine
cause i feel so numb
saw your ghost smile in the rearview
a smile i wish i woke to

i’d do anything
now to feel that loved
cause god i fucking miss u
hope you feel the same too :/

i hope u found the high u always would chase
i hope it’s worth all the love that we had put to the grave
and when the reaper came back for it
i just couldn’t say your name
cause i had promised it was dead
i guess i lied to his face

oh oh
promised it was dead oh
need my head next to your head love :(
otherwise i cannot wake up...

i still miss you [tnvr]

red vol. 2, 7th july <3

i feel my heart tear string from string again 
and i’m so sorry but i don’t know where the fuck you went 
cause you’re somebody, not the one i met  
i’ll leave the roses by our grave for all the love we had  

no one ever really cares for what i need 
i fall in love with narcissists that have different beliefs 
said that you’d do anything 
but chose to watch me bleed 
and honestly the pain is starting to feel like relief 

no one ever really cares till u can’t breathe 
i’m really fucking fighting i just need my time to grieve 
feeling so damn angry can’t take anymore defeats 
i really miss my friend another ghost amongst the trees 

are you mad love 
tell me i’m the bad one 
your life is but a scam but 
you don’t care what anyone thinks of you 
wish you had think us through 

fuck it’s so pathetic 
miss when you were more poetic 
brag that you’re so copacetic 
but what’s that worth when everyone’s tasted you 
it just not the girl i knew..

i’ll lay here flat on my face 
compare us, i’m a waste 
but at least i’m not fake :/ 
so don’t text that you miss me too 
oh love it’s just not the truth

hate love! w/ edacity & shinigami [siren]

I'm Geist

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