thank you for listening, i hope you enjoy <3
happy valentines

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lover

co produced w @speedlmt

lyric

i don't wanna die but i don't wanna try
when your not here w me i get a teary eye
my dreams are lucid, they gonna get you 
how can i prove it, that your the issue 

i got these tissues, oh fuck i miss u
will you be here soon so i can kiss u
i can't stop shaking im forever breaking
i know you like that, its never changing::(

decomposing in the mirror posing 
spooky black my father:3 stop diagnosing 
why do i bother, im controlling, im the victim. forever rolling;

a sob sandwich its kinda adequate
let me swallow it, these my bandages
songs just foru cos i said it is !
of grams not sedatives, dont know what day it is:(
pop another sedative?

i got these tissues, oh fuck i miss u
will you be here soon so i can kiss u
i can't stop shaking im forever breaking
i know you like that, its never changing::(

I DON'T WANNA DIE BUT I DON'T WANNA TRY
WHEN YOUR NOT HERE W ME I GET A TEARY EYE
MY DREAMS ARE LUCID, THEY GONNA GET YOU 
HOW CAN I PROVE IT, THAT YOUR THE ISSUE 
I GOT THESE TISSUES, OH FUCK I MISS U
WILL YOU BE HERE SOON SO I CAN KISS U
I CAN'T STOP SHAKING IM FOREVER BREAKING
I KNOW YOU LIKE THAT, ITS NEVER CHANGING

pine

produced by me
hope you enjoy <3

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lyrics:

Crucified
Out of time
It’s a goodbye
I’ll show you a sign

Out of breath
Cut my wrist
Let it bleed
Til I can’t see

No one’s calling on my phone
So I’m sitting all alone
Contemplating suicide
Cause god it’s always on my mind
 
You can’t say I didn’t try
Living’s just a state of mind
So I’ll stop wasting my time
Get it off my chest

I’m never coming home
Don’t expect me back
I’m taking all my things
All of my burdens with that

No I don’t wanna talk
Cause you’d brush me off
Or I’d scare you off
Cause my mind is like a wasteland

Fighting for my life but I can’t take it back
If you get too close I’ll rip your head off clean
God it’s just obscene
Can’t lay in peace

Now you wanted to fight
But look, I don’t have the time
You lost control of my mind
So its a goodbye

We can’t meet at my place
So pls don’t show me ur face
Just leave me alone

Honestly, I don’t really know what to say
I’ve got everything but still don’t feel complete
Always said that trust is earned, none left in me
Lock my room cause that’s where I’m safe

Don’t waste my life
Talking to myself
don’t need no drugs
Better luck next time

please give me a sign x4

sign

(casperrr)
so high bitch i feel like im flying
u say u love me but i really know u lying
posted at ur crib, bae why u crying
u can't understand shit i say i cut the high end 

feeling low baby can't even get outta bed 
u said u hated me and now all im seeing is red 
never leaving home, im crying to myself
i can't understand your point, why can't u give me help 

posted, outside with extendos 
big bag, full of greens not no lettuce
in the stu with the homies good fellas
still sad but at least im feelin better

why u screamin whatchu fuckin mean 
i need real love not no rom of teens
i know im young but i was never a kid
nowadays im finding it hard 2 live

so high bitch i feel like im flying
u say u love me but i really know u lying
posted at ur crib, bae why u crying
u can't understand shit i say i cut the high end 

feeling low baby can't even get outta bed 
u said u hated me and now all im seeing is red 
never leaving home, im crying to myself
i can't understand your point, why can't u give me help 

(1fern)
talk shit & youre headed out the window
don't talk to me, you are not my kin-folk
2 9s yeah, we always hold akimbo
got your girl & she acting like a nympho

when i speak you respond on demand
empty ashtrays, fill em up again
so fucked up, i can't even stand
but she still askin me what's the plan

when i wake up, i'm feeling so lifeless
swear to God, i been feeling like a flight risk
can't speak cuz I feel like my brain broke
spending money on some green and a bespoke

seeing stars, even when i close my eyelids
all alone when the party subsided
i been lost & i know i been misguided
i don't really know where my fucking mind is

(casperrr + 1fern)
so high bitch i feel like im flying
u say u love me but i really know u lying
posted at ur crib, bae why u crying
u can't understand shit i say i cut the high end 

feeling low baby can't even get outta bed 
u said u hated me and now all im seeing is red 
never leaving home, im crying to myself
i can't understand your point, why can't u give me help

duality w/1fern (reijiro)

[AMV]: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DNv4eGItpyg 
produced by @nate2timezz & i
thank you endlessly for listening.
more to come in time
🖤

they say, "you're not alone"
but i'm weighing myself down to the bone
i'm deprived of your voice, your expressions, your tones
they scream, "don't.. go"
but i guess you didn't listen
i hope that you just missed it

i'm losing my grip on reality
i need some help or just someone around me
not a physical family
the moment feelings all erupt
they can't handle your trust
guess i was too much of a burden from the cut
but don't let yourself go and doubt on me
the ocean is howling
that's my kind of outing
you don't know the hurt that it brings
can't focus, can't breathe
i love you, but you know what i think?

i'm way too detached
you don't got my back
been tryna distract
"that boy's such a drag"
i lay in my bed; think things never meant
her hand; never leant
where have you been, love

that girl made me feel like i didn't wanna suffer
validated all my reasons
and then continued to smother
cards all on the table
the table's brittle as fuck
cause you leave with no intentions of hurting me
that's enough-

if what you say is what you mean
then fall back onto me
i'll swallow up your misery
i don't care what it brings
i'll be your puppet with no strings
just show me that i have meaning
like a matter, or a purpose
just a reason that i'm breathing
i've been wishing on the stars since a kid
they're where my arms don't reach
but my eyes look past them
the scars make a pretty constellation
they connect all i see
but at the end of the day, they still look past it

you gotta hope it lasts
you're holding yourself back
if you're falling, your wings' cracked
you gotta snap em back
and when the sky becomes the ceiling,
i'll throw rocks to make it crash
oh, don't look back (2x)

through and through
every time i break down my own recluse
just because i thought they understood me too
from my point of view
they never do (2x)

they say, "you're not alone"
but i'm weighing myself down to the bone
i'm deprived of your voice, your expressions, your tones
you've never known
but i guess you didn't listen
i hope that you dismissed it.

everlast [prod. nate2timez x autumndropsdead]

@tnvr555

if we had a happy ending 
// lyrics 
say
“it’s you and i”
oh baby say it to my face
“until we die”
and i can’t stand to watch you waste
that precious smile
so follow me out of this place
let’s live our lives

it’s getting cold
promise i’ll keep you warm
so please just hold me close
don’t ever let me go

we’re soul tied now
i’ve fallen deep in love
oh baby, there’s no way out
so say, am i enough?

say
“it’s you and i”
oh baby say it to my face
“until we die”
i’ll put my hands around your waist
and hold you tight
we can dance all night to day
just you and i…
(just you and i)

i feel it in my bones
i’ll follow you wherever, you’re my home
i feel it in my soul
it’s tied to yours, i’ll never let you go

and what i would do to hold you here forever
have your hand in mine we’d never grow apart
my heart was made for you

we’re soul tied now
i’ve fallen deep in love
oh baby, there’s no way out
so say, am i enough?

we’re soul tied
we’re soul tied woah oh
we’re soul tied, soul tied, soul tied no oh oh
we’re soul tied, soul tied, soul tied oh

soul tied [tnvr]

scared

produced by me

lyrics:
wanna be alone cause it's quiet
locked up in my room, no more fighting
plug both of my ears, hear no riot
put away my feelings, no more crying

no talk
thorns out
mask on
happy home

always feel ignored and nobody wanna take me
seriously for once, why you think I'm always faking
walk around my   room with no purpose, thoughts are pacing
wish I had the guts, cause the future fucking scares me

always feel ignored and nobody wanna take me
seriously for once, why you think I'm always faking
walk around my room with no purpose, thoughts are pacing
wish I had the guts, cause the future fucking scares me

don't go the way I went cause you'll end up with scars
I just want a piece of quiet, is it too much to ask?
rarely check up on my phone, cause it's filled with demands
I can't meet ur expectations, you been asking too much

please stop yelling, I've been trying
please stop pushing, please stop fighting
I dont wanna see you crying
I just wanna feel 
(at home)

home

produced by raspo

lyrics:

im so done you made me feel like im a ghost
i feel out of place and still have no one to call my home
if im a creep then your a weirdo
ill never ask for help, your the same as me

i feel lost in your eyes
do you feel the same as me
you can lie

i feel lost in your eyes
do you feel the same as me
you can lie

i can try
but i wont
be alive
for very long
i could cry
oh could you
if i died 
would you

lost

hi :)
prod. me

lyrics:
say you wont forget me
i've been lost and empty
i don't need the sympathy i jus need a friend i can lean on

empty, lately i been empty
drugs been lookin so tempting, but ill hang on
hang on tight just for you

she wanna talk, but she heating up.. why you wanna talk when you need help?
i think i know a fake when i see one, and i think im gonna break if you be one
u can find me at my place barely breathin
i was always less needed
than them and i can see it
u can try and call it wont reach me

i dont really talk, but you kno that im like that
you know when it comes to me i dont fight back
read into everything you say, your words never lost with me

i know it gets so hard,
but life is separating us
so i wanna hear you
say you wont forget me
i've been lost and empty
i don't need the sympathy i jus need a friend i can lean on

i remember that look on your face, its so distrusted
i know, you didn't want this
but we found our love
right on pavement i found
u stomped ur feet on the ground
im sorry

say you won't forget me

Been alone for a while i felt helpless 
didn't stop mean to question your intentions
you should've given a part of me lesser
i lost a half when i left your possession

oh i say im fine when im not 
cus i left the best part of me 
2 thousand miles away 
i swear to god when i get free 
i'll fall into ur eyes again 
surrender every enemy 
left in the trenches of war would you lay with me 

don't let me go 
i want more and i've given it all 
to the girl i adore 
im never enough 
no im never enough 
FUCK
ive tried to live it up 
but i feel like im nothing at all 
baby im such a dissapointment 
leave me with the ocean 

take me home where i belong 
i cant take it no more
a part of you evolved with me now i spread ash on the floor 
just wanna see you and im sorry love youre all that i want
ive waited years and now the months are getting harder to trust

trust
to trust
oh love youre all that i want
want
want

oh love youre all that i want

she says bless you everytime i ever open my mouth
and god i miss you theres no words to explain how

take me home where i belong 
i cant take it no more
a part of you evolved with me now i spread ash on the floor

bless you

@decayinganyways @tnvr555

// decaying
break it down, all to the ground
and one day now, you will be proud
of the things I’ve done, all over round
and I’ll try my best, and hope I don’t drown

and i, i don’t wanna die young
guess i’m feeling like i haven’t done enough
wasted all this time so now i gotta catch up
but everything i’ve done it never feels like much

i was so fucked up in that year
and ever since then now, it’s so clear
and everything i fear now, i hold dear
oh no

so is it fucked up
i been feeling like i haven’t done enough
and i been feeling like i haven’t tried enough
tell me why i always gotta mess it up
fuck it up
so is it fucked up
i been feeling like i haven’t done enough
i been feeling like i haven’t tried enough
tell me why i always gotta mess it up
fuck it up

// geist
oh oh
so they all listen now
guess i’m on a roll
do i make u proud?
you’re the sweetest ghost
knew what i’m about..
now i’ve lost the most
can i make it out?

aha
sit back
watch afar i swear i’ll make a change
it’s sad that
that our paths will never cross again
it’s all love but we have to go our separate ways
cause i can’t follow you if we don’t see the same

there’s music in my veins
i bleed to numb the pain
if i die young
i’m grateful that u knew my name
if i die young
just know i’m in a better place
so promise you’ll remember i gave everything

// geist & decay
i’ll dream tonight
hold it tight
hope my life
turns out fine

hope my life turns out fine w/ DecayingAnyways [Tnvr]

prod @tnvr555 

// lyrics 
i bet you’re staring at stars
living your dreams where u are
i’m chasing mine they’re so far
oh oh :)
i hope you’ve healed from your scars
found love that’s worth your whole heart
just hold on tight and never let go...

i’m a mess but i guess i talk about it often enough
and i’m depressed but let’s be honest like who isn’t my love 
the confidence is all a front behind this mask i’m so lost
and i detest my very being for still giving a fuck :/ 

so walk all on me
spit on my virtues...
i don’t hate you
i still miss you :( 
oh come baby
this love i can’t lose
i don’t hate you
i still miss you
darling i will never be happy without you :/ 
i don’t hate you
i still miss you...

you talk about me like you still love my name
like there’s still hope in your veins
like you didn’t choose to walk this road
and every time we tried, it’d all end the same
and i’d still do it again
for every second of your love :/ 

don’t watch it rip me apart oh baby 
i can’t take this feeling anymore :( 
i wake up anxious, my heart is aching
if you’re not here then i don’t have a home

oh
i can’t wipe this feeling of regret
no
you’re moving on but please never forget...

i will never be happy without you

i will never be happy without you [tnvr]

@tnvr555 

one, two, three, four 
stay awake
oh love i need you can you stay with me
there’s something about the way you say my name
it keeps my head afloat and thoughts at bay

it’s 4:04
i left my heart out by the door
tainted black but u adored it..
i gave yours back cause it was too pretty
it wasn’t meant for somebody like me :/ 

butterfly kisses
she’ll give me her best wishes
i’ll say i’m sorry love it’s how it goes :( 
butterfly kisses
you know i’ll always miss it
the hazel in your eyes and how it glows :)

don’t say goodbye
just stay the night
i need you here :/ 
it’s you and i
until i die
don’t let it end...
i will try a million times
until it clicks :(
don’t say goodbye
it’s you and i
please promise me :) 

and without you
i’m someone else
if not for love
what is life
cause this feels like hell
you’ll always find your way back
so grab my hand and take me home love...

lost inside of yours eyes
ive wrote this song like a million times
i’d do it all, do it all till die 
over and over if it’s for you & i :D
falling, you catch me and then i fall for your smile :) 
lean in so close and you’ll kiss with eyes
i’d do it all, do it all till die
over and over if it’s you & i

so you’ll smile and i’ll wave
if it’s love
i won’t break
so let’s give it all we have
so love come and please take
swear it’s love
i won’t break
so lets give it all we have <3

butterfly kisses

butterfly kisses [tnvr]

@tnvr555 

another day
now i’m out the picture for the thousandth time :/
a pretty face
that never fails to captivate with her gold eyes

and its ok love
cause truth be told that i’m doing just fine
i’ll keep acting tough
cause truth be told that i just told a lie...

hey there, darling
you’re so charming 
i don’t want to leave for good
keep on smiling :)
know you’re hurting
say we’re both misunderstood
we’ll get it right or i’ll break
my heart cannot take
a moment without you here!!!
hey there, darling
you’re so charming
i don’t want to leave for good :( 

new face
new lovers
i’m still stuck on the old one i’m sorry now
same flow
wrong color...
but i’m still red till i get this feeling out >:)

i'm still red till it's out 
oh i'm still red right now

and i wont say goodbye
i swear to god that i will get this straight...
and you’re on my mind
like every second of the day :)

hey there, darling

hey there, darling [tnvr]

@onlyfriendyeah
@tnvr555 

give a second dose
anything not to feel this
you know i’ll go ghost
pack my bags and i’m leaving 
and you will find a note
cause i've learnt i love you most...
but you seem to attract the fucking crowd i can't deal with

but time and time again was it worth it?
tell them love how you’re picture perfect
me? i’m trash washed up on the surface
i’m always the worst :))

now we’re falling again
into the darkest of nights
you can say you want me
but you already left my side...
hate myself less
but it’s really bad tonight :/ 
i can’t keep on fighting
i’ve got too much on my mind!!!

darling i will never be happy with you,
fuck i miss you,
damn i hate you :/ 
darling i will never be happy with you,
fuck i miss you,
damn i hate you :( 

say i dont need ur validation
but that's a lie
i cant hold a conversation
i'm too tongue tied
couldn't break it off, not to save my life
instead of amputating i let u bleed me dry
fml
hold me up to hang me high
and if the fall dont break my bones youll twist the knife
and pull me close

soul tied [tnvr]

I'm Geist

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