Miss you, sleepy <3 Sad knowing u hid ur fate in ur songs so often. Sleep easy, sleepy

i love you so much, youre always on my mind.

in 4 days, it’ll be a year. i miss you jude, thank you for changing my life.

you put ur hands all on me now im leaving
you tell me that you love me, do you mean it ?
mean it 
mean it
dont you ever mean it ?
how could i mean everything you keep me as a secret

i put the switchblade to my arm
you left in the pain now its all gone wrong
you left me in vein now youre all i want
i dont gotta stay but shes all i want

like keep me as a secret
you mean it ? you wont leave ?
tell me that you miss him im griping upon ur sleeve
and even in the end i wont matter i wont breathe
im sick of always wanting the best and its not me

sleepwater
keep me from what you been selling please
pushing straight down make it hard to breath
i'm not okay now find it to hard breath !
dont know who to chase now, guess it wasn't me
rolling with my
guess ill just roll on my own i guess ill just roll on my own

i put the switchblade to my arm
you left in the pain now its all gone wrong
you left me in vein now youre all i want
i dont gotta stay but shes all i want

like keep me as a secret
you mean it ? you wont leave ?
tell me that you miss him im griping upon ur sleeve
and even in the end i wont matter i wont breathe
im sick of always wanting the best and its not me

roll on my own (feat. sleepwater)(prod. unlucky)

produced by neverforever

completely non profit 

lyrics

Where u been now
Where u been
Its almost been a week now 
And i havent seen u since
I wanted us to stay friends 
But that isnt how it is
I know it gets stressful
Sticking next to me
All the stress on my mental
It stains all the sheets
So i sway to this tempo
As she falls asleep
In his arms
In their apartment
Life gets hard
But i knew that from the start 

Think i aged like 20 years in a few days
I saw the message of the gods burned in my brain
I found the fight inside my soul n now i spit flame
If anything i learned i got a cruel fate
Suns blocked so i start booting up
I break down my body i dont give a fuck
Bitch im going hard until my time is up
I need the cruelest woman to make me give a fuck

i want u to fuck me up
why is that never enough
looking at me with the eyes of an angel
i think that we're both falling out
how does this come about

she just falls asleep
in her lovers arms
when life gets hard
we fill our lungs with tar

i think i aged like 20 years in a few days
i saw the message of the gods and its burned into my brain 
if anything i got a cruel fate



-1 (neverforever)

prod by king theta
w/ @caspywaspy

lyrics:
i just want to be home
i dont want to be here
i just wanna hold close
and i feel it in my bones
u said "thats how it goes"
ur inside is where u beauty grows

i fell down 
but u picked me right up
when i have a frown
ur still by my side
when i feel low
to the point i cant go
u pick me right up
ur a one of a kind

but i know why u were kind
and i know why u were so nice
u just wanted my soul
u just wanted to take control
of everything i had left
u just wanted my blood
u just wanted my trust 
so u can ruin everything i had left

casperrr:
i thought you loved me
i was such a fool 
so i let you destroy me
u became so rude 
colder than ice
but hotter than fire
im the one u despise
and ur the one i desire

leave me here to die
alone in my bedroom
stab me by surprise
leave me when the moons full

stezzyxl w/ casperrr:
but i know why u were kind
and i know why u were so nice
u just wanted my soul
u just wanted to take control
of everything i had left
u just wanted my blood
u just wanted my trust 
so u can ruin everything i had left

eyes w/ casperrr

guitar by melonmusik

lyrics:
seeing your face by my window
its making me happy you dont know
winter coming my heart decline
baby calling my heart feels fine
sing a carol at christmas time
she dont care at all she never was mine
i dont wanna be here the rest of my life
i might be here cause i dont wanna change my mind
always getting locked down everytime i try
tell that whore to stay away another waste of time
oh baby so gloomy, oh baby your still glue to me
its coming better unleash, get it through to you better haunt me
I FEEL SICK I LOST A FRIEND THAT I WANTED TO TALK TO
she dont care at all she never was mine
GIVE ME THE ICK THEN TELL ME YOU DONT EVEN WANT TO
im getting sick telling you that i want you
i feel like a prick but it goes on without you
just another slip my judgement clouded you
your such a little bitch, mum and daddy even fucking proud of you
she dont care at all she never was mine
i dont wanna be here the rest of my life
i might be here cause i dont wanna change my mind
always getting locked down everytime i try
tell that whore to stay away another waste of time

without you

produced by raspo

lyrics:

im so done you made me feel like im a ghost
i feel out of place and still have no one to call my home
if im a creep then your a weirdo
ill never ask for help, your the same as me

i feel lost in your eyes
do you feel the same as me
you can lie

i feel lost in your eyes
do you feel the same as me
you can lie

i can try
but i wont
be alive
for very long
i could cry
oh could you
if i died 
would you

lost

presave: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/sendflowrs/colourblind

(for the first time, in a long time, i started to feel things again, i started to feel happy..) 

and i swear to god i will be there for you 
whether or not it is cold outside
i can’t even front
heart stopped when i saw you
for a minute i was sure i had died 
now you don’t pick up anytime that i call you 
and i’m not used to swallowing my pride 
and you dropped your guard 
caught a hit that had floored you 
i’m out on the ropes but will turn the tide 

so i reject the light, 
sit up and cry 
i can finally see 
now ive opened my eyes
and that girl changed my life
but i guess it’s goodbye
and the day that you left
was the worst day of my life 
the worst day of my life 

and it never was the same, was it? 
oh was it?
i’m sick of calling your phone !!!!
when everytime i see you on it
youre on it 
you hide your screen and say no 
i’m fucking losing my shit girl 
honest
just stop it
at this rate i’ll never come home 
and she just screams in my face 
“i promise, i promise!”
she said she does but she don’t 

she said she loves me, she don’t :( 
i know she cheats tho
and i’m as sure of it 
as i’m sure in the spring the leaves grow
she left me 0 speech 
so i left that bitch at heathrow
now i’m at level 3 
put 20xp in free throw 
i’m fucked up
drunk love
real kiss 
fake hugs 
pour up
care plus
guess i should’ve learned
last time felt the witches burn, fuck
left me with a cold touch 
so i jus smoke n turn up 
get money in surplus

(and i know,
mmmmm, 
but she don’t,
mmmmm,
but she don’t) 


now you don’t pick up anytime that i call you 
and i’m not used to swallowing my pride 
and you dropped your guard 
caught a hit that had floored you 🥊
i’m out on the ropes but will turn the tide 

so i reject the light, 
sit up and cry 
i can finally see 
now ive opened my eyes
and that girl changed my life
but i guess it’s goodbye
and the day that you left
was the worst day of my life 
the worst day of my life 


(i guess i've been feeling... distant from you.)

colourblind (wisssery x noahmadethiss)

guitar by melonmusik <3

lyrics:
no one to call my home 
you were gone before i had even known 
never safe when you were close 
youre not my home 
you were so unpredictable and now i know
it was never my fault 
nothing i could’ve done would have changed the outcome 
you were never my home
never safe when you were close 

always alone 
maybe i’m better off on my own 
do still think of us? 
and what once was

no one to call my home 
you were gonna before i had even known

abode

msitreated, misplaced
scars on my face
smoking so much lately
my teeth got yellow stains

no feelings, erased
hate how people change
bloody knuckles hit the wall
but life's still the same 

over you in my head
in my heart u still there
my body's a mess
feel u eating at my flesh 


feeding off of me
ur drinking what i bleed
acting like you love me 
then use me like a leach

how ain't u ashamed of ur-self~
keep on acting like ur the-best
i think u should just let me-rest
stop trynna find where my body-at

deep down, covered in dirt
x marks the spot i got hurt
under a tree, where the sun won't burn
is where i wrote this song

mistreated, misplaced
scars on my face
smoking so much lately
my teeth got yellow stains

no feelings, erased
hate how people change
bloody knuckles hit the wall
but life's still the same (2x)

mistreated, misplaced (caves)

fazed enough to flinch
yet nothing moved an inch around me
fallen through my skin
due the rate my heart is pounding
all that you have seen
are blurs of this retreat
it's like once you don't exist
the less i want these souls surrounding

i'm slowing
i'm slowing up
for that i know that matter isn't timing
corroding,
i shutter with touch
exiting the bliss; why would it blind me?
unloading,
i'm closing off
the influence could risk what you've been hiding
still hoping
they say that's enough
it's so, sickening

when a dream's shot dead, does it bleed warm fears?
if it were, i can't tell; letting out old air
but the wood won't rot, given unused time
when a room won't talk, spew unto where it lies
laying waste to a place where the core don't scream
yet it shows through a bone and a row of deceit
when the corridors creek, stay and freeze mid-hall
watching hands reach out from the floors and the walls

cold beams down and through this vacant self of sense
(remain yourself now)
feel this rush of hopeless trust and still hold out
(i'm so unwell now)

tossing, turning, 'till i'm worried
constant churning, hunger lurking
false alarms and bridges burning
nothing's working
nothing's working

fazed enough to flinch
yet nothing moved an inch around me
fallen through my skin
due the rate my heart is pounding
all that you have seen
are blurs of this retreat
it's like once you don't exist
the less i want these souls surrounding

(like, don't surround me) (2x)
(they dance around me) (2x)

retreat

https://open.spotify.com/album/1AUIqZxwIcU6nq1wQVeFFN?si=tqPqLVc9S4aAT6zWH12emA
lyric

just another girl
thats gone tear apart my whole world (my world)
baby talk baby ill stay still (stay still)
never wanna talk baby i want this for real (for real)
i wouldent walk if we could just seal the deal (seal the deal)
i wanna talk but ur not gonna like how i feel how i feel
on the clock if this mf real is it real
this is just how i feel how i feel

she run me right thru
never love me like u
im alone in my room
an im smelln of u
baby im cursed
what about u
alone in my hearse
what about you

fuck help ima shut it down
baby you call me a clown
ill decline your calls from now
why you think im not around

thats gone tear apart my whole world (my world)
baby talk baby ill stay still (stay still)
never wanna talk baby i want this for real (for real)
i wouldent walk if we could just seal the deal (seal the deal)
i wanna talk but ur not gonna like how i feel how i feel
on the clock if this mf real is it real
this is just how i feel how i feel

its ignorant what im saying
my heart is complicated
dont understand on why they hating
do u love me or u fakn

ima waste of space then
sit in out of space then
love you till my days end
will make the pain end

look at me at like that
look at me like that
baby ill be back
baby ill be back

thats gone tear apart my whole world (my world)
baby talk baby ill stay still (stay still)
never wanna talk baby i want this for real (for real)
i wouldent walk if we could just seal the deal (seal the deal)
i wanna talk but ur not gonna like how i feel how i feel
on the clock if this mf real is it real
this is just how i feel how i feel

new girl

stream anywhere :) https://fanlink.to/read-receipts-ft-heylog

written & performed by: @lonesity & @heylog
produced by: @lonesity
engineered by: @camjmusic & @lonesity

lyrics:

[hook: x2]
i understand if you don't wanna be around me
lately i been actin' up a lot, it's unhealthy
a puzzle piece is all i am, searchin' for the right fit
how the fuck i'm finna find somebody if they all dip?

[verse 1:]
nobody wanna hang with me
i get it
i would have to agree
that i'm not perfect
but random people love me
i don't get it
don't know what they see in me
i'm just curious
i'm thinking back on what you said to me
i don't know what i am or what i'm supposed to be
in the end i'll be there when you're close to me
i doubt you'll ever get there, but we'll just wait 'n' see

[hook: x2]
i understand if you don't wanna be around me
lately i been actin' up a lot, it's unhealthy
a puzzle piece is all i am, searchin for the right fit
how the fuck i'm finna find somebody if they all dip?

[verse 2:]
nobody wanna hang with me
i get it
i would have to agree
i'm a lost person
i smile finally
but it don't last for long
99 percent of the day
i wear a frown
i swear to god i don't belong with anyone
'cause they tend to fall out of love
keep that in touch
i swear to god no one
understands me
and i end up pissing me off
it's not healthy

[hook: x2]
i understand if you don't wanna be around me
lately i been actin' up a lot, it's unhealthy
a puzzle piece is all i am, searchin for the right fit
how the fuck i'm finna find somebody if they all dip?

lost

sleepwaterss

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