shoutout geist ancestors for having their lineage lead up to peak

prod hiraeth

i run away from everyone that i know 
its like a nightmare i be stuck in my home
i got no where to go im lossing my soul
so baby i be running until i cant go

i run away from everyone that i know 
its like a nightmare i be stuck in my home
i got no where to go im lossing soul
so baby i be running until i cant go

give me reason thinking that i need yo but im dreaming
but baby i know you leaving
cause i been her with this treament
and i know just how it feels to be alone and by the waste side
always wanna be her but i never wanna waste time

down rough down bad but you know that
dont care dont ask just to show that

a million different reasons and i never wanna face mine
i wish i coulda told u all i wanna do is facetime

tell me if you love me cause im borderline insane now
im pulling out my hair i swear i never wanna break now 
tell me if u want me but i know u havent changed now
i really want my life to be the way its always stayed now

i could never mean it why u keeping secrets
tell me that you love me then y d fuck u meet him 
while u think im dreaming he fuck u till ur screaming
tell me that you love me to my face while i was sleeping

i run away from everyone that i know 
its like a nightmare i be stuck in my home
i got no where to go im lossing soul
so baby i be running until i cant go

i run away from everyone that i know 
its like a nightmare i be stuck in my home
i got no where to go im lossing soul
so baby i be running until i cant go

down bad

Little Good

Little Good (feat. Skele)

you put ur hands all on me now im leaving
you tell me that you love me, do you mean it ?
mean it 
mean it
dont you ever mean it ?
how could i mean everything you keep me as a secret

i put the switchblade to my arm
you left in the pain now its all gone wrong
you left me in vein now youre all i want
i dont gotta stay but shes all i want

like keep me as a secret
you mean it ? you wont leave ?
tell me that you miss him im griping upon ur sleeve
and even in the end i wont matter i wont breathe
im sick of always wanting the best and its not me

sleepwater
keep me from what you been selling please
pushing straight down make it hard to breath
i'm not okay now find it to hard breath !
dont know who to chase now, guess it wasn't me
rolling with my
guess ill just roll on my own i guess ill just roll on my own

i put the switchblade to my arm
you left in the pain now its all gone wrong
you left me in vein now youre all i want
i dont gotta stay but shes all i want

like keep me as a secret
you mean it ? you wont leave ?
tell me that you miss him im griping upon ur sleeve
and even in the end i wont matter i wont breathe
im sick of always wanting the best and its not me

roll on my own (feat. sleepwater)(prod. unlucky)

ty for listening <3
prod. i'm geist x deadfish x hiraeth
mixed/mastered by deadfish

@imgeist
@hiraethsry
@imnotenvy
@yokaidreams
@sleepywater
@deadfishpoland

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/2MEwCgdk51OeRKs5vdbJZJ 
also up on itunes and apple music!

// lyrics
// imgeist
oh, hold on wait, tell me did i let you down
can i breathe a little swear that i won’t make a sound
and everybody’s out for blood that’s why i hate this town
and everybody’s out for me that’s why i’ll go ghost now

oh, hold on wait, tell me I’m the monster now
when you’re the one who went and filled my head with doubt
i gave up everything just to be the one left out
i tossed you my heart, you stomped it on the ground

// hiraeth
put your hands all on my body now i'm leaving
i don’t wanna hurt you bitch, i'm falling for a reason
give another reason, leave without a meaning
tell me that you love me, tell me that you miss him

i could run away and still nobody wanna know now
funny i meant everything until he wanna come round
leave it at the door and get your shit just on the way out
text him that you want him cause he knows you're on the way now

// notenvy
and i cant even look at myself dont feel the same i'm
trapped inside my own little hell you pin the blame you
took my heart it snapped and i fell you'll never say why
i've been steady feeling unwell what has this come to?
and i've been dying tryna get you outta my head
and i keep fucking crying over things you said
dont tell me that we'll ever have a chance again
cause i can't deal with trauma take my life instead

// imgeist
oh, hold on wait, tell me did i let you down
can i breathe a little swear that i won’t make a sound
and everybody’s out for blood that’s why i hate this town
and everybody’s out for me that’s why i’ll go ghost now !!!!!!!!

oh, hold on wait, tell me I’m the monster now???!
when you’re the one who went and filled my head with doubt???!
i gave up everything just to be the one left out???!
i tossed you my heart, you stomped it on the ground

// yokai dreams
you always jumped at a chance to slice up my ego
power your libido
take your time, suck the life out of everywhere that we go
emotional mosquito
she's undead never had a care
for the affairs of the living
take your heart and she grinning
as the clock strikes 10
honest men will head to bed
but she just started causing pain by the minute

// sleepwater
torment anxiety
what is inside of me
i'm broken, i'm destined to die
a loner, a puppet in disguise
soil is dirty, i'm drowning reserve me
i need you don't burn me, i'm liquid lurking

// deadfish
and i've tried to move on
yea i’ve tried to forget
but you just
seem to never wanna leave my head
so
i can never fucking see you again
you know that
i really need it to feel again

stop fucking calling and wasting my time
said that you’ll fix that, we know thats a lie
now that i’m gone you regret what you've done
when you are crying i’ll hide in my home

could you stop fucking up my entire life
telling everyone that i was just another guy
never said what you did, i’d never tell a soul
cause i'm better than this and i'm better than u

Spotify

out for blood! w/ hiraeth, notenvy, yokai dreams, sleepwater, deadfish

w/ @sleepywater <3
prod @afterlife66 🖤

~~lyrics~~

easy to target
swear i’ve been honest
i’m still tryna rejuvenate
from the memories last august
ink drip from the ceiling
familiar feelings
to take time is to realize
what it really means to be healing

knees go numb when i reach for the shelf
there’s an old song that speaks of myself
but i’ve lost it; my subconscious 
won’t take away this blockage
it’s irritating; the way i hate it
all you are is full of nonsense

how you gonna say ur not into me
everytime you’re my enemy
i feel out of body
everytime im getting the…
drugs from my doctor
off a sedative, i forgot her
i feel like i deserve my happy ever after
i don't like it here, i like raptures
enrapture me for a disaster
i got wounds on me so where’s my plaster
in a room with me, i feel like casper
she don't touch me; i shatter
she dont trust me, i’m in tatters
i’m forever climbing up this
unforgiving ladder

i’m unfair & i know it
frustration; i bestow it
i’m shaking baby, yeah i’m aching,
maybe this is punishment for the broken
the sight that i see through my eye 
isn’t blind
a sigh of relief comforted by a lie
i can’t really take it, 
the pace that i’m making is 
turning me into the me i despise

fuck, i'll turn my back on ur ass & won't
 give it a thought or the time of the day
it doesn't matter, the wounds & the plaster are begging me
“autumn, you just gotta change”
if i go any faster, my body will splatter
 yet i'll be alive, put me outta the pain 
i pick up the fragments of me that just happen
to still be in tact, even after the rain

everything i spew out
i tell the same story
bout how you don't want me
never ever want me
how comes ur all up on me
i pull u, you don’t pull me
im stressed out, can't relax
another pill, i might relapse

i just don’t get it how this life
taught revenge and left me behind
no time to cry…
cause in the end you’ll be fine

how you gonna say ur not into me
everytime you’re my enemy
i feel out of body
everytime im getting the…
drugs from my doctor
off a sedative, i forgot her
i feel like i deserve my happy ever after
i don't like it here, i like raptures
enrapture me for a disaster
i got wounds on me so where’s my plaster
in a room with me, i feel like casper
she don't touch me; i shatter
she dont trust me, i’m in tatters
i’m forever climbing up this
unforgiving ladder

wounds & plaster w/ sleepwater [prod. afterlife]

// chorus
such a cost to pay
watch it all go in flames
if i could explain
would it all end the same?
but I can’t convey,
simple thoughts in my brain
well I guess, checkmate
yeah I lost, what a shame

// verse (envy)
everything will fall apart if you just give it time, oh no
and I'm not fine and you're not far
my pieces too misaligned, oh yea
and im not trying to waste your time
so there's no need to put on a show
and i might call you once or twice
cause i have a hard time letting go

the queen always corners the king
her shadows lingering
i feel my heart skip a beat as she sings
this is the end for me

// verse (geist)
this is the end for me
you’re getting close, i start to freeze
i’ll hold on to the memories
of times when we both had a dream

and i’ve been sick of overthinking
make your move i’ve lost my patience
there’s no way that I can make it
I’ll take the loss but,

// chorus
such a cost to pay
watch it all go in flames
and if i could explain
would it all end the same?
but I can’t convey,
simple thoughts in my brain
well I guess, checkmate
yeah I lost, what a shame

checkmate w/ notenvy

prod. @afterlife66
cover art drawn by @wolfff_art <3

i get that it's all my fault
i should've never called..

my bones are melting, again
(again)
so guilty; i'm better than that
(better than that)

thread caught in us all
you're not in control
& i'm just a soul
for the manufacturing of an end that was meant
another casualty but without the consent

and all my life, been feeling scorn
i've tried to hide,
but these feelings tore up my insides
and left nothing more
than pitiful lies; tangled wires and cords

now why did i think that was okay?
remembered that moment was so vague

turning, learning; does it matter?
undeserving; losing stature, oh
swear i'm hurting, breath is flatter
"just desert me, leave me shattered"

guilt every night, and i can't move 
on when she's right by
& she fucking hates me, 
but it's alright, 
in some way, there's no way...
THIS ISN'T RIGHT

my bones are melting, again
(again)
so guilty; i'm better than that
(better than that)
better than that
(better than that)

i don't wanna make it out alive
it's a part of life, i'm sorry that i lied
there isn't excuses for the way i treated this
i'm just a vessel losing grip

(4x)
grip, grip, grip
losing

i'm craving my last breath
when i change it'll be for the best
but nobody'll fucking believe me anymore
for everything i said and did
like are you fucking deaf???
i feel your resent...

vessel [prod. afterlife]

it's my birthday so here's a song, ty all for listening <3 
produced by @prod-oc & @iamvagrxnt <3

and i can’t seem to wake up when i’m not with you
and my life feels so made up, it’s colored blue
so tell me where’d the time go
said i’m just ‘bout fine though
broken by design
but i still feel so alive
and someday you’d have let go
you’ll be just ‘bout fine though
know you’re on my mind
on this lonely valentines

oh
i’m colder than the season
feelings got me feeling feelings
do i really need a reason?
no more
so let’s skip to greetings
hi my name is geist i’m feeling
feelings that i don’t believe in

yeah oh
or i’m just cold in my bed
or it’s just all in my head
i don’t want a reason to feel like i’m falling in love again
yeah oh
painting the walls back to red
staring at the words that u said
phrased like a poet in love with the dead

spotify

where'd the time go? [oc x vagrxnt]

thank you <3 @tnvr555 @b_murph

// i'm geist 
most days i regret i didn’t stay
but it’s all just part of life
and there’s not much more that i can say
but i love you and goodbye

(check 123)

but i don’t care what’s your new damn name
change your @ but it’s all the same
get a checkmark, go chase the fame
but don’t act like you fucking care

oh trust me love that i know
you’re so unhappy
it shows
it’s not your character love
fuck your friends and your drugs

don’t ever try to come around here
but god i miss your face...
don’t ever say you loved me
i can’t take

paint my picture red with the memories
i wish that our love wasn’t everything
i consume the pain like a remedy
sad to see you go, but it’s best for me

paint my picture red with the memories
i wish that our love wasn’t everything :/
i consume the pain like a remedy
sad to see you go, but it’s best for me...

// b murph 
sad to see you go, but it’s for the best
i’ve got this lingering emptiness that never leaves my chest
so i don’t need you to keep piling on
by flaunting all the good shit in your life
and you know that i still love you
but i can’t stay here no more
and there’s nothing left here for me to do
so i’m running out that door

and i’m just gonna keep on running
never gonna stop
even when i meet the edge
and i bet that you think that it’s funny
when i’m gone
yeah i hear you laughing with all your friends
it’s been getting too hard to pick myself up
when i just get another reason to fall
and i know that you love me,
i see it in your flaws
that you hide from everyone but me,
i see it all, yeah

sad to see u go w/ b murph [tnvr]

https://soundcloud.com/autumndropsdead
https://soundcloud.com/nate2timezz

lyrics:
(latency's far)
(i'm picking at scars, again..)

'cause i've been losing strength in my arms
and the warmth in my heart
pick it up, toss it out
feelings shank, feel it sharp

(i've been losing strength in my arms again)

if they complain i'm the worst, then i'll let it hurt
'cause i'm apathetic at best
i'll let it get on my nerves, like i live in reverse
while you b*tch in' and nag, i destress
chardonne in my chest
i'd check my phone but that ego's myself
'till i'm pressed
fluid cardiac arrest
outta my dome, 'till i'm ghost
matter of fact i'm repressed

when i step outside i just fall through the flooring
and you step aside when i'm entering pouring my state of array
every sec of the day, so i turn to the blade but if it goes in deeper
then i may as well make a date with the reaper
and lower concern for myself as a seeker
cause i wasn't fit to bestow what they wanted
trickling stones like an amateur novice

with no sense of balance nor care where they landed
if you would've just realized why this happens
then i wouldn't cry or feel so f*cking captive
and hurt, and alone as i lie on my mattress
and shout to the ma**es, 'bout all of my feelings
fixated on rippin' this notion of healing
apart in the dark, it ain't smart, but they'll hear me
at least to the point where the hurt is appealing

"if you care, why don't you show it?"
"is it because you're a poet?"
b*tch , i'm eternally broken
quit treating me like a hoax
'cause they all disappear when i'm at my lowest
i've been holding up this lantern to glow on it's own
and i feel like spyro, flames in a spiral
back like it's spinal, i've been on my own sh*t
but every little thought that tortures me
are the only ones that help when i lack empathy
confine the lies and shallow tears
oh you're ignorance is something i don't wanna hear

a pa**erby lulling lowered eyes
hope you feel alright for the new year
'cause i stand at the front lines,
it's hypocritical and nuclear
decapitated from my patience
had to wait and let it grow
morals shrink the moment we quit nurturing our weary bones

where'd the time go? [oc x vagrxnt]

I'm Geist

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