please, dream faster

ill release real music sometime i promise

stop ! let me grab my backpack

i don’t wanna be late to my class again

honors been waiting since last november 

when we had to quarantine for a term 

had to keep the doors clean. in return

we would spend 14 days alone

only seeing four teens if were 

lucky enough to see a friend 

up in morning we would spend 

our time right online 

doing assignments 

RUN IT BACK !!!!!11

let me digress 

to when we were young, not scared of anyone 

don’t know where the time went

took a nap now it’s 2021

one more day

one more day

until i gotta say

“ooh, moma OOOOOH ! 

do you like my cap and gown?

ooh mama, OOOOOOH

are you proud???” x2

he said with a mask on

he can’t believe he’s already at the finish line

but before he packs up

he’s gotta pass one more class

i don’t wanna go

i don’t wanna go act like i’m happy 

about a cap thrown in the air 

don’t know if i’ll last long in the

real i world

fear the world x2

practice my penmanship 

while my pity’s pending in a

pretty small penny sized penitentiary 

that i call my brain. i don’t plan to plead 

for a plodding pace in life 

i just wanna say

i just wanna say 

one more day

one more day

until i gotta say

“ooh, moma OOOOOH ! 

do you like my cap and gown?

ooh mama, OOOOOOH

are you proud???” x2

class of 2021

out on all streaming platforms :) :) thanks @t0rr @soupandreas 4 working on it w meee

you told me to let go
cause i’ve been taking too long
i’ve been taking it solo
and you’ve been righting my wrongs

she said

how does it feel
to get what you want
how does it feel
to think that you’re good till youre gone

check, yes more of the same
you’re calling my name and i’m calling your bluff
ink on every page
i’m writing you letters and you’re writing my songs

yeah ive been living too fast and pushing on the gas and nobody’s giving me the option to stop

and i don’t wanna slow down but i never know if im living life right or wrong

she said
how does it feel
to get what you want
how does it feel
to think that you’re good till youre gone

howdoesitfeel? (prod. torr / soupandreas)

prod me!

stay for a minute
let me take a piece of your mind
you taste a bit like teenage drama
and what you want from me i can’t define

she said i could hurt you
i said i can take it
i never said that i want you
but i don’t wanna fake it anymore

and now we’re in my bedroom
on the floor with secrets in our wine
and you ask me bout the future
well i think eventually we’ll die

and then i said i could hurt you
she said she could take it
i don’t know what you want from me
and im just lost at sea

and now we’re treading dangerous water
wading through untamable souls
if we’re gonna get any farther
it’s gotta be everything or nothing at all

say what you mean
I’m falling endlessly
and what has to give
for you to get up get off and tell me how to live

and now she’s standing with me
on a cliff at the end of the world
and i’m not keen on jumping
but i don’t think i would do it with another girl

cherry

come on i'm sure
it always gets better
so stop this damage
i know it hurts
he left so soon
but i know he'll manage

he'll come back, and he'll be him again
i don't know if i still want to be friends
its not enough, its not enough, for me to pretend
its not enough, its not enough

and i dont know you anymore

your white lies, your white lies
leave with fright lines
i cry when light up with the sky
i almost died but i feel alive
it left me with fright lines
it left me with fright lines

i scratched up my old identity
fell in love so everyone could see
the fright lines, the fright lines, the fright lines
the fright lines, the fright lines they drew on me
caught up on emotions i didn't need
locked away for a summer of secrecy
the fright lines, the fright lines, the fright lines
the fright lines, the fright lines they drew on me

the fright lines

the fright lines, the fright lines, the fright lines
the fright lines, the fright lines they drew on me

the fright lines

the fright lines, the fright lines, the fright lines
the fright lines, the fright lines they drew on me

the fright lines remind me
the fright lines remind me

only last year
did we talk together
how it'd get better
we were right here
i looked at you
and you said you met her

im sidelined, waiting looking in
i cant tell if we even still are friends
i want it back, i want it back, and see you again back
i want it back, i want it back

and i dont know you anymore

your white lies, your white lies
leave with fright lines
i cry when light up with the sky
i almost died but i feel alive
it left me with fright lines
it left me with fright lines

i scratched up my old identity
fell in love so everyone could see
the fright lines, the fright lines, the fright lines
the fright lines, the fright lines they drew on me
caught up on emotions i didn't need
locked away for a summer of secrecy
the fright lines, the fright lines, the fright lines
the fright lines, the fright lines they drew on me

the fright lines

the fright lines, the fright lines, the fright lines
the fright lines, the fright lines they drew on me

the fright lines

the fright lines, the fright lines, the fright lines
the fright lines, the fright lines they drew on me

fright lines!

track 1

what can i say
i always hope i could see a pretty face from here
but im miles away
i’d burn to death in your atmosphere

but after the fall comes the break
and i’ve been looking for things to change

ready set go
i’m coming back home
and i’ll be looking for something new
i’m checking my soul
for something unknown
because i won’t be stuck on you

so what comes after
they’re telling me to please dream faster
and break down my walls
i got that broken bullet out my backside
and i can’t lie i thought that

i won’t lie i thought i couldn’t take it
you on my mind while i was wasted
i thought i was happy but i just faked it
i couldn’t do this while i tried to make it

i can’t lie i thought i couldn’t take it
you on my mind while i was wasted
i thought i was happy but i just faked it
i couldn’t do this while i tried to make it

ready, set, go!

track 5

i’m running up backrooms, spaces, all day
anything to keep me up scared, not
dreaming, of your, face
and fucking up my feelings again

it’s always the dullness of my suburbia and your city lights
growing up under different night skies
i didn’t feel like the right guy

so i tried being a poser but i wasn’t impressed
it comes down to your face and the way that you’re dressed
i got delusional but only to a certain effect
thought i was great when i’m only in the middle at best

and i’m tripping over my words
i’m saying jack shit even if i am heard
cause i just write about sex and the end of the world
and how i can’t get over the same girl

i don’t talk enough and i don’t say what i’m always thinking but maybe im not thinking enough
i’m dreaming of love and to myself i’m a winner
and if you don’t think the same well then i don’t give a fuck

suspensionofdisbelief (p. dretty pope)

track 2

she said
i am falling again
and i’m better for it
and i wish that we’d both die
and meet up in heaven

there been better days
so i better say
that you’d probably want to live
if you never fell for me

fuck me for being all on the fence, oh
and i got cool friends but they make me feel unspecial
but i met a girl at some party
she was there fore it started
and i felt like i’d just reached an intersection

she said i need a little cocaine, fuck playing games
what do you wanna do tonight
get a little shitfaced, trash this place
or maybe ask each other on a date

i don’t know where to go
i don’t know anyone she knows but i know
i’d prolly be better off in the back of a taxi alone with a heart and a soul

well i keep myself at a distance
or maybe i get a little too close
when i sing these words i hope somebody listens
if i didn’t write these songs nobody would know

that i feel
and i hope you see
i want to be real
i wanna be free

two miles outside of the i-270 loop

listening to my album nearly 8 months on ive sorta grown from most of them but i still think this song is one of my best ever i also pyut it on spotify cuz idk im silly

Growing Legs

>>>\\\LYRICS BELOW

goodbye, Trophy! (45-53)

the final trophy song

____

made in 24 hours for @artbyform 's All Nighter Vol. 7

In this song, clearlew's vocal performance embodies my two-year debate of being transgender. It's Canal Pride in Amsterdam as we're making this, and I'm sitting home writing a song with my best friend about being beautiful in my own way. However, given as to how clearlew sings my story and he doesn't represent the lyrics personally, we decided to write a song that can also be interpreted as a love song, about a girl named >>>"lola" - the name I would have given myself, if I would have decided to become a woman.

____

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____

Lyrics

I've gotta think twice
Because lola she's so beautiful
And I
I know it's gotta come from inside (yeah)
Girl this is ineffable
Girl I'm so irrational

I've gotta think twice,
Because lola she's so beautiful
And I
I know it's gotta come from inside (yeah)
Girl this is ineffable
Girl I'm so irrational

White heels, white skirt
I know I've never met her
But I can tell you that I know her more than anyone (oh yeah)
I'm such a perfectionist
But I dont know what perfection is
I'll tell you who I am
But girl I don't know who I am

Do you know how to do it like her?
Materialism, I think I'm falling for it all over again

I can't open my eyes
to see your face because I 
Just can't take another lie
(Give it time)

You always hide behind your actions like you know what's right
I'll keep hiding behind my eyes, 'till the time is right
You always hide behind your actions like you know what's right
I'll keep hiding behind my eyes, 'till the time is right

White heels, white skirt
I know I've never met her
but I can tell you that I know her more than anyone (oh yeah)
I'm such a perfectionist
But I dont know what perfection is
I'll tell you who I am
But girl I don't know who I am

Do you know how to do it like her?
Materialism, I think I'm falling for it all over again

I can't open my eyes
To see your face because I
Just can't take another lie
(Give it time)

You always hide behind your actions like you know what's right
I'll keep hiding behind my eyes 'till the time is right

I've gotta think twice
I've gotta think twice
(Yeah!)

____

goodbye, Trophy! (45-53)

clearlew + TROPHYTROPHY - lola (51)

source

Music Video: https://youtu.be/SZW7eoFDP6k

ITS TRUCK MONTH BABY !!!!

thanks to @jessephamel for the cover art and the MUSIC VIDEO!
thanks to @wishlane for backup vocals on the last chorus !
thanks to all of YOU for your love and support !

lyrics:
i'm scared to leave my room now
i'm scared to leave my house
my mom says it's unhealthy
that i never get out
i'm scared of the helicopters
scared of the cops
i'm scared of the chem-trails
keep my door locked

keep in the filtered air
recycle everything
everywhere now
see me through my webcam
you know they can
you know they can
you know you know

don't want my life to pass me by
god damnit maybe it's really my star sign
you said i'm prone to hiding
i said it's just anxiety
"why would you be afraid of what you don't know?
take the risk take the shot
and see wherever it goes"
i wish it was that simple
but i can't shake this syndrome

i'm tired of baggy eyes
of being an adult
white guys on youtube always tell me it's my fault
i need to try to meditate
get off of these meds
if there's no [redacted] left
then fuck it it's the end



keep in the filtered air
recycle everything
everywhere now
see me through my webcam
you know they can
you know they can
you know you know

don't want my life to pass me by
god damnit maybe it's really my star sign
you said i'm prone to hiding
i said it's just anxiety
"why would you be afraid of what you don't know?
take the risk take the shot
and see wherever it goes"
i wish it was that simple
but i can't shake this syndrome

PG-13

prod aldrch mastered by sticks

if i can't say
i might've loved her just a little bit
and if i can't say
these days I'm too much of a pessimist

and on and on and on
she's got me checked in, blacked out
like every night i see her
dressed up, looking down on me as if i'm not here

but one night she turns around and says,
hey hey! call me when the right day comes
hey hey! call me when the right day comes

I'm not that type
i dont just fall for every pretty sight
i guess it's not my time
to be into someone who will mess up my life

so when i check in, black out
the next time i see her
dressed up, looking at me with some kind of concern

well i guess it's my turn so,
hey hey! call me when the right day comes
hey hey! call me when the right day comes

Oh it's impossible not to fantasize
about a little bit of wrong,
a little bit of right
I could go back home
or stay up all night
Oh well, I guess time will tell so hell-

hey hey! call me when the right day comes

you rock the boat, believe the lies
you sink, you swim, you roll the dice
like glowing fish or fireflies
light up the dark for love or life

you rock the boat, believe the lies
you sink, you swim, you roll the dice
oh i wish i saw her on a different night,

so hey hey! call me when the right day comes

Until the right day comes (prod. me + aldrch)

Blank Space

🌸🌸🌸

~lyrics~
i don't think you know me anymore
head on my shoulder
i don't wanna get close because i think you're just bored
oh no

i guess we're getting older
but i'm not your only guy
that you're talking to tonight, no

and i might be thinking about you in that way
but last time we talked you didn't even try to stay
now don't act like this is the end
but i think that we should just stay friends

we should go downtown today
i wanna have some interaction
before you try and say goodbye
can you promise me you'll come by soon?
because i don't wanna be here alone

but i don't think you know me anymore
head on my shoulder
i don't wanna get close because i think you're just bored
oh no

i guess we're getting older
but i'm not your only guy
no i'm not your only guy, no

and i might be thinking about you in that way
but last time we talked you didn't even try to stay
now don't act like this is the end
but i think that we should just stay friends

ready, set, go!

jacob geoffrey

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