engineered, mixed/mastered by me

[Chorus]
Tryna find the words I'm saying
Hard to tell my cultivation, my God
You ain't give me everything that you got
So I found it myself, and I left you to rot
Everybody’s on fire
I rummage through the rubble, oh God
Tryna find the words to say to you
It's eating me alive, and I can't help to think it's all of my fault

[Verse]
While you pushed me down, I lay there right on the ground
My tears start to drop, I knew you wouldn't be around
You laughed in my face, you even looked so proud 
And you made me feel stupid, so I shut my mouth

[Chorus]
Tryna find the words I'm saying
Hard to tell my cultivation, my God
You ain't give me everything that you got
So I found it myself, and I left you to rot
Everybody’s on fire
I rummage through the rubble, oh God
Tryna find the words to say to you
It's eating me alive, and I can't help to think it's all of my fault
Tryna find the words I'm saying
Hard to tell my cultivation, my God
You ain't give me everything that you got
So I found it myself, and I left you to rot
Everybody’s on fire
I rummage through the rubble, oh God
Tryna find the words to say to you
It's eating me alive, and I can't help to think it's all of my fault

walkman


my cover of haunt me x3 by teen suicide
produced by dorfie, composed and written by teen suicide
it's a bit of a remix of the original as well. hope u enjoy

i wanna be haunted
i wanna be loved
i want a lot of friends and
a lot of drugs
i wanna be haunted
i won't leave my bed
i won't go crazy, and i
i won't get sad
so haunt me, haunt me, haunt me
so haunt me, haunt me, haunt me
so haunt me, haunt me, haunt me
so haunt me, haunt me, haunt me


haunt me (x3) - cover // remix

Not Officially Cleared.

The original trompe l'oeil Intro.
Beautiful song Me Lovegravity and Saint worked on.
Original Demo dates back to May 2024 I believe.

MERCEDES. 2005

[Verse]
Am I human enough?
Am I human enough?
Am I human enough?
Maybe I made a mistake
Am I human enough?
Am I human enough?
Am I human enough?
For you to take me away
All the lies that you spread
Spat it back, at my face
All the bruises I had
All the blood on my face
Tear my room to the ground
We went our own two ways
I never felt so good
When you were clogging my space

B4CAMO*

am i human enough?

[Intro]
Even if I, end up dead
Even if I, end up dead
Even if I, end up dead
Even if I, even if I, end up dead
Even if I, end up dead
Even if I, end up dead
End up dead, end up dead
Even if I-

[Verse]
Who would've thought it would end this way
I know you're listening
I feel it in my core, you're dead to me
Could give a fuck about a word you say
I made amends, all for you my friend
I know your hurting, feel like it's your end
I have this feeling, that I'll let you go
It's time I let you go

[Chorus]
You're tired of fighting every single day
I'm feeling every single word you say
You made me feel like I'm in the way
I can't believe a single word you say
Knew from the start it would end this way
I know you feel ashamed
You made me feel like I'm in the way
I can't believe a word you said to me

[Bride]
Even if I, end up dead
Even if I, end up dead
Even if I, end up dead
Even if I, even if I, end up dead
Even if I, end up dead (In my head, you're dead to me)
Even if I, end up dead
End up dead, end up dead
Even if I-

[Chorus]
You're tired of fighting every single day
I'm feeling every single word you say
You made me feel like I'm in the way
I can't believe a single word you say
Knew from the start it would end this way
I know you feel ashamed
You made me feel like I'm in the way
I can't believe a word you said to me

even if i end up dead

[Verse]
What you play me for?
I don't know what to do
I been in my head
In my head
About us two
And I can't
I can't keep going on
I don't understand
What I did so wrong
Maybe I'm just like my dad
What do you take me for?
It's time I leave this world
Really don't got nothing to live for
I know I can't keep going on like this
So I pick up that Ruger, I put a bullet through my head
Maybe I'll feel alive
Hug my momma one last time
Kiss the world, I say goodbye
Maybe I'm just like my dad
But why is that such an insult?
Why is that?
Why is-

you are just like your father

i hope you enjoy 

produced & recorded by me

lyrics:
u wanna
be my friend just to hurt me
for the last time
say it again, i do not want your peace of mind
hey, wait-

be my friend, be
be my friend again

be my friend, be
my friend again

it's all about u now
isn't this what i was scared about? no
reach above the ground, no
it's what i care about, so

do i care, do i care, do i care at all
i thought i did, but you waited for me to fall
not again please. not again
not again
not again
not again

be my friend again

please be on the look for me
i know i'll never make a masterpiece, but
when you try for me
will you try for me?

i don't know what to do anymore
you tried to see me but it didn't work
no it didn't work

please be
please be
i don't got much left to give u now
i don't got much left
please be
please be

u wanna
be my friend just to hurt me
for the last time
say it again, i do not want your peace of mind
hey, wait-

it's all about u now
isn't this what i was scared about? no
reach above the ground, no
it's what i care about, so

do i care, do i care, do i care at all
i thought i did, but you waited for me to fall
not again please. not again
not again
not again
not again

Not Again

dreadnought

Pressing the gas pedal
I'm knowing my past veering
Burnt marijuana, shit, that's my last image
Smoking way to much, I got my lungs blasted
It's up now, I got to much now, to give up
This, lady bug up on me, it ain't bring me no luck
I claim I'm quitting, but my mind, I was already made up
I loved a version of you in my head, but that was made up
You threw dirt up on my name, we could really never make up
You had way too many vices, you really weren't the same
You showed me your true colors, I saw my life turning grey
No point to prove you wrong, your actions spoke it everyday
Can't tell you about my past, you might not look at me the same
Had to get it on my own, it got harder by the day
I be tryna right my wrongs, but my mind be in a haze
I be listening, missing it, contemplate it day by day
Where would I be, if I wanted you to stay

Probably a worse version of myself, it's okay though
Your energy was evil, really glad you made your way though
I made peace with it all, you stayed the same, it's not no ego

dreadnought

immutable fluids