[VERSE 1]


I don’t answer when it’s late,

But I check if someone called.

I keep the light off in my room,

Like I’m not supposed to be here at all.

Time runs like it’s scared of me,

Or maybe I’m the one who flees.

I tell them “I’m okay these days,”

And mean it just enough to breathe.

[VERSE 2]


I start things I don’t finish,

Like I’m scared of getting close.

I fold into myself so tight,

I forget what I was made of.

Some days I dress to disappear,

Others just to prove I exist.

I look at my reflection and think,

Would I recognize if I fixed it?

[CHORUS]


If I meant to stay,

Why do I keep slipping?

If I had a home,

Why do I keep drifting?

I tell the truth but keep the rest,

Hide in silence, call it rest…

If I meant to stay…

Why does leaving make more sense?



*(adlib: “Tell me why it makes more sense…”)

[VERSE 3]


I never learned to want out loud,

Only how to fold the want inside.

I envy people who move like songs,

I freeze even when it’s right.

I don’t ask for anything anymore—

I just hope they notice when I don’t.

[BRIDGE – distorted voice, reverb-heavy]


I want to be held without asking…

Loved without earning…

Seen without speaking…

But I leave before I’m seen.

[FINAL CHORUS – stripped then swells]


If I meant to stay,

Why do I feel like a guest here?

If I knew myself,

Would I even hear me clearer?

I want to stay. I do. I swear.

But I keep walking like no one’s there…

If I meant to stay—

Why do I disappear this well?



*(last adlib: “…I disappear so well…”)

(beat slowly dissolves into silence)

[OUTRO – no music, raw voice, like a voice memo]


“I think I’m just tired of trying to want things.”

IF I MEANT TO STAY (S)

[Intro]

Mm... yeah
Cherry lights on my skin (uh)
Leopard lace, I’m sinkin’ in
One step out, whole room spins
(They don't know what they're dealin' with)

[Verse 1]
I walk in like déjà vu
Every eye say they never knew
A girl who’s fire but cool as blue
Mysterious, baby—what’s new?

Bleached blonde boys try to play it slick
Tatted arms, but I see the trick
I don't chase, I sip my drink
Cherry red lips, don’t even blink
(uh-huh... no cap)

[Pre-Chorus]
Used to hide, now I illuminate
They ask, “Who’s she?”—too late
I danced through pain in platforms tall
Now I don't trip, I just don’t fall

[Chorus]
Velvet night, I’m drippin’ gold
Midnight queen, I can't be sold
Pour me light, let the story unfold
I'm the heat when the world feels cold
(Oh yeah, oh yeah...)
They can't touch what they can't hold
(I’m untouchable, yeah)

[Verse 2]
Wasn’t made for small-town dreams
Now I paint 'em on gallery screens
Wounds turned art, now I’m serene
But don’t mistake soft for weak

Got ghosts that still hum my name
But I’m not playin' old games
I’m the storm, I’m the flame
Wrote my name, then broke the frame
(yeah, yeah... broke the frame)

[Bridge] (spoken word-style, fading into melody)
I’m not who I was,
but she walks with me still...
You feel that shift in the air?
That’s me, baby. That’s real.

[Verse 3]
I dance for the girls who dream too loud
Who talk to stars and never bow
Who stayed soft through every shout
I’m them, I’m me—I’m proud
(yeah yeah yeah—say it proud)

Got my heart stitched in designer seams
Took my past and turned it into themes
Now I float through life in moonlit beams
A little wild, a little queen
(haha... that part)

[Chorus]
Velvet night, I’m drippin’ gold
Midnight queen, I can't be sold
Pour me light, let the story unfold
I'm the heat when the world feels cold
(Say my name...)
They can't touch what they can't hold
(Yeah, never fold...)

[Outro]
So here I am—no mask, no doubt
Took the long way, now I stand proud
I’m the art you dream about
Velvet voice in a fearless shout
(I'm the story they whisper now...)

Velvet Night (N)

[Intro]
[soft synths, low beat, whispery tone]
Ooh... yeah
You thought I was the dream?
Nah, baby
I’m the whole storyline...

[Verse 1]
He saw my light from across the floor
Told his boys, “I’ve seen her before”
But I don’t play in déjà vu
I’m a first-time kind of view

Hair slicked back, eyes on me
Like he read me in a lucid dream
But I don’t melt for pretty scenes
I need soul, not movie screens
(uh huh, say that...)

[Pre-Chorus]
Don’t confuse the gloss for grace
This shine was built, not placed
If you want the real, don’t chase
Step correct or know your place

[Chorus]
I’m not your fantasy
I’m deeper than the dream could be
Not a girl you write in poetry
I break the mold, unapologetically
(Oh no, oh no...)
I’m the page you couldn’t read
(Too real for make-believe)

[Verse 2]
Told myself I’d wait for truth
But truth don’t come in shiny suits
I loved too hard, I bled too blue
Now I pick me—and I always do
(yeah, I choose me...)

Mirror talks in candlelight
Told the girl inside, “You right”
She’s the legend in disguise
Glowin’ up on her own time
(she’s divine, yeah yeah...)

[Bridge] (Jennie vibes—soft rap/sing)
No filter, no script, just me
Past life heart in a Y2K beat
Seen boys fold from a single stare
Tried to touch, but they wasn’t prepared

I’m rose gold on a Tuesday night
Solo ride, but I still shine bright
You fantasize, I rewrite
I'm the plot twist, not the type
(no lies, just vibes)

[Verse 3]
Too soft for the world, too strong to break
Too real for the mask, too rare to fake
I’m the answer and the ache
The one they dream—but never take
(can’t take what’s divine...)

[Chorus]
I’m not your fantasy
I’m the soul you wish you’d see
More than silk and melodies
I’m the story you can’t believe
(Yeah yeah...)
I’m the realest thing you’ll meet
But only if you come clean...

[Outro]
(slowed down, dreamy)
This ain't a love song, it's a spell
Don’t chase a dream you can’t hold well
I walk away, and still, they dwell
'Cause I’m the truth they’ll never tell...
(fade into echoes: ain't my fantasy...)

Rose Gold (N)

[Intro]
[slow beat, breathy layered vocals]
Shhh…
Don’t talk, just feel it
Mmm… yeah, that’s it

[Verse 1]
Your eyes say more than you do
But I’m not the type to move too soon
I taste the heat in the room
Like honey drippin’ under the moon
(ooh... slow it down)

Lace and shadow trace my spine
You keep trying to read the signs
But baby, I’m the kind
You unwrap slow, like vintage wine
(uh huh... you feel that?)

[Pre-Chorus]
Pull me close—but don’t assume
I write the rhythm in the gloom
If you want this, change your tune
I bloom in velvet, not too soon
(mmm, take your time with me)

[Chorus]
I’m sugar on my skin, soft sin
Candlelight glows where I begin
I’m the curve you crave, the breath you lose
One touch in and you’ll never choose
(Anyone else... nah)
Don’t rush, baby, dive in slow
Love me like you’ll never let go

[Verse 2]
Perfume laced in satin air
You trace my steps, but I’m not there
I move like secrets wrapped in flair
Seduction’s not a dare—it’s prayer
(whisper my name...)

Say you want more than the night
Say you can hold me without fight
But even if it ends with light
Tonight, you’re mine. Just for the night.
(just for now, mm...)

[Bridge] (half-sung, half-whispered)
Every look you steal, I let
Every sigh? A silent bet
My nails on glass, breath on neck
I leave a mark you won't forget
(ooh… remember me)

[Verse 3]
Turn the volume down to low
Let the rhythm tell you where to go
My body ain’t a yes or no
It’s a song that’s sung real slow
(real slow, baby...)

Say you want more than the night
Say you can hold me without fight
But even if it ends with light
Tonight, you’re mine. Just for the night.
(just for now, mm...)

[Bridge] (half-sung, half-whispered)
Every look you steal, I let
Every sigh? A silent bet
My nails on glass, breath on neck
I leave a mark you won't forget
(ooh… remember me)

[Verse 3]
Turn the volume down to low
Let the rhythm tell you where to go
My body ain’t a yes or no
It’s a song that’s sung real slow
(real slow, baby...)

[Chorus]
I’m sugar on my skin, soft sin
Candlelight glows where I begin
I’m the curve you crave, the breath you lose
One touch in and you’ll never choose
(You’ll never wanna...)
No one tastes quite like this
Fever dream in a midnight kiss

[Outro]
(fading, layered whispers)
Sugar on my skin…
Still on your lips, can’t wash it in
I’m the craving under your grin
This was more than just a sin…
(mmm… I linger, I win)

Sugar on My Skin (DEMO) (N)

[Intro] [slow beat, breathy layered vocals] 

Shhh… 
Don’t talk, just feel it 
Mmm… yeah, that’s it 

[Verse 1] 

Your eyes say more than you do
 But I’m not the type to move too soon
 I taste the heat in the room
 Like honey drippin’ under the moon
 (ooh... slow it down) 
Lace and shadow trace my spine 
You keep trying to read the signs 
But baby, I’m the kind
 You unwrap slow, like vintage wine 
(uh huh... you feel that?) 

[Pre-Chorus] 

Pull me close—but don’t assume
 I write the rhythm in the gloom
 If you want this, change your tune
 I bloom in velvet, not too soon 
(mmm, take your time with me) 

[Chorus] 

I’m sugar on my skin, soft sin 
Candlelight glows where I begin
 I’m the curve you crave, the breath you lose
 One touch in and you’ll never choose
 (Anyone else... nah) 
Don’t rush, baby, dive in slow
 Love me like you’ll never let go 

[Verse 2] 

Perfume laced in satin air
 You trace my steps, but I’m not there
 I move like secrets wrapped in flair
 Seduction’s not a dare—it’s prayer
 (whisper my name…)
 Say you want more than the night
 Say you can hold me without fight 
But even if it ends with light 
Tonight, you’re mine. 
Just for the night. 
(just for now, mm...) 

[Bridge] (half-sung, half-whispered) 

Every look you steal, I let Every sigh? 
A silent bet 
My nails on glass, breath on neck 
I leave a mark you won't forget 
(ooh… remember me) 

[Verse 3] 

Turn the volume down to low 
Let the rhythm tell you where to go 
My body ain’t a yes or no
 It’s a song that’s sung real slow 
(real slow, baby...) 
Say you want more than the night 
Say you can hold me without fight
 But even if it ends with light
 Tonight, you’re mine.
 Just for the night.
 (just for now, mm...) 


[Chorus] 
I’m sugar on my skin, soft sin
 Candlelight glows where
 I begin I’m the curve you crave, the breath you lose
 One touch in and you’ll never choose
 (You’ll never wanna...) 
No one tastes quite like this 
Fever dream in a midnight kiss 

[Outro] (fading, layered whispers) 

Sugar on my skin… 
Still on your lips, can’t wash it in 
I’m the craving under your grin 
This was more than just a sin… 
(mmm… I linger, I win) 

Sugar on My Skin (N)

[Intro] (pulsing beat, synthy shimmer) 

Ooh… 
You don’t know what you started 
Now I’m burning where you parted... 

[Verse 1] 

He came in like a slow flame 
Lit me up, but never stayed 
Told me lies in silver chain 
Now I wear 'em like a name


 I danced alone in that red light
 Wishing you would treat me right 
But baby, wishes fade at night 
And I’m done losing sleep for mights 

[Pre-Chorus] 

Now you’re looking back, too late 
I moved on, don’t hesitate
 I’m the fire you can’t escape
 You lit me—now feel the weight 

[Chorus] 

You can’t hold me under
 Can’t tame my thunder
 You kissed the spark, now 
I’m the flame
 I’m not the girl you tried to name 
No, I don’t break when you appear 
I only shine when you come near 
You can’t touch my fever 
Not even under moonlight
 (Can't feel it, can't steal it...) 
Not even under moonlight 
(Ooh, not anymore...) 

[Verse 2]

 I was soft, I was all yours 
You watched me bloom behind closed doors
 Now I dance on my own floors 
And I don’t cry for what was forced
 (you hear that echo? that’s me leaving) 
I kissed the pain, turned it to art 
Took the ache, made it my spark 
Now every beat inside my heart 
Plays louder when we’re apart 

[Bridge] (slow, sultry breakdown) 

Underneath the fevered sky
 You still chase my lullaby 
But I’m no longer there to try
 I’m stardust in your goodbye
 (you lost your shot, baby…) 

[Verse 3] 

You tried to box me in your dark
 But I shine brighter than your mark
 I’m not your secret, not your spark 
I’m the whole damn sky, not just a part
 (remember that…) 

[Chorus]

 You can’t hold me under 
Can’t tame my thunder 
You kissed the spark, now 

I’m the flame 
I’m not the girl you tried to name 
No, I don’t break when you appear 
I only shine when you come near 
You can’t touch my fever 

Not even under moonlight 

[Outro] (echoed, fading into beat) 

No, not under moonlight... 
Not now, not ever 
I’m untouchable forever 
(you lit me... but I’m the fire now) 

Underneath My Fever (N)

[Verse 1]

I lost my spark somewhere last June,
Been dancing in circles, out of tune.
But tonight I’m not here to cry,
I came to sweat, I came to fly.

[Pre-Chorus]

Touch me,  I wanna feel alive,
I wanna feel it all ignite.
Don’t need your love, just your hands,
Touch me right and break my plans.


[Chorus]

Spark me up, turn me on,
Play that beat until I’m gone.
Heat me up, make me move,
I got nothing left to prove.
In the dark, I’m shining loud,
Lips like velvet, dancing proud.
Spark me up, don’t slow down—
I’m back, baby, light this town.



[Verse 2]

All eyes on me, but I’m looking for one,
Boy with a grin and a loaded gun.
My hips don’t lie but my heart just might,
So come a little closer, it’s Friday night.



[Pre-Chorus]

Let your hands find my flame,
Say my name and own the shame.
No forever, just tonight,
So set me off and hold me tight.



[Chorus]

Spark me up, turn me on,
Play that beat until I’m gone.
Heat me up, make me move,
I got nothing left to prove.
In the dark, I’m shining loud,
Lips like velvet, dancing proud.
Spark me up, don’t slow down—
I’m back, baby, light this town.



[Bridge – break it down, sultry whisper vibe]

Whispers in the smoke,
Hands where words don’t go.
You say I’m trouble—
So, baby,  lose control.



[Final Chorus – full beat drop, layered vocals, ICONIC]

Spark me up, turn me on,
Play that beat until I’m gone.
Heat me up, make me move,
Tonight I’m fireproof.
In the dark, I’m shining loud,
Lips like velvet, dancing proud.
Spark me up, don’t slow down—
Watch me burn this whole place down.

Spark (S)

[Intro – breathy, sparse beat with static crackle]
They say I’m fragile
But I weaponized the delicate

I bloom at night in borrowed skin
Crown of smoke, thorns tucked in
Eyes like secrets left unsaid
Beauty stitched in silver thread

I bloom in silence, bloom in steel
Every look, a loaded deal
Smile like I don’t bite back
But I’ve buried tougher men

[Pre-Chorus]
Call me soft, I dare you to
I wear grace like a weapon too
Pretty’s just a painted sin 
 Underneath, I pull you in

[Chorus]
I bleed pretty 
Smoke and steel
Truth wrapped in something you can’t peel
I don’t scream, I mark the air
With every lie you didn’t dare
(ad-lib: “You knew I knew.”)

[Verse 2]
Don’t ask what I’ve been through
Ask how I made it art
You want pieces? I sell pain
Wrapped in ribbons, torn apart
(ooh--ooh)

I don’t dance—I drift like smoke
Leave the room before you choke
On your pity, on your stare
You want real? Then meet me there

[Pre-Chorus – variation]
Call me cruel, I’ve heard worse
Still look good when I reverse
I make silence taste like sin
Tell me—do you taste the end?
*(ad-lib: “It’s closer than you think…”) 

[Chorus – repeat with more intensity]

I bleed pretty 
Smoke and steel
Truth wrapped in something you can’t peel
I don’t scream, I mark the air
With every lie you didn’t dare
(ad-lib: “You knew I knew.”)

[Bridge – whispered, warped FX, hypnotic]
No costume, no disguise
Just this blood that never dries
I don’t wilt—I crystallize
Your gaze becomes my alibi
(ad-lib: “You looked too long… now you’re mine.”)

[Final Chorus – minimal beat drop + vocal stack, eerie beautiful]
I bleed pretty 
Smoke and steel
Truth wrapped in something you can’t peel
I don’t scream, I mark the air
With every lie you didn’t dare
(ad-lib: “Still breathing…”)

[Outro – breathy & cold, like wind through wires]
Beauty isn’t soft.
It bleeds.
And it learns how to like it.

Bleed Pretty (S)

(Verse 1)
I don’t think I’m getting better
Some days I don’t even try (ad-lib: “mm…")
I wake up just to lose again
And call it being alive 

I laugh when they say future
Like that word belongs to me
Like someone like me gets somewhere
Like I’m not meant to bleed *(ad-lib: “But I do… every time…”)

(Pre-Chorus)
They say it gets easier
I think they mean forgetting 
But I remember everything
And it still hurts like it’s happening *(ad-lib:“ooh… ”)

(Chorus)
I am the ruin 
Not what’s left — just what was wrong
A name that never lasted long
I watch the light, but it won’t land 
It skips me like I’m not here again
*(ad-lib: “I’ve always been too far…”)
I am the ruin 
And maybe I always was *(ad-lib: soft exhale)

(Verse 2)
They tell me love will come one day 
But I don’t stay whole long enough
I break too easy, talk too late
And no one ever wants enough *(ad-lib: “I was never enough…”)

I’ve made peace with being forgotten
Like a song no one replayed
I used to beg the sky to see me *(ad-lib: soft “ooh, look at me”)
Now I just want the noise to fade

(Pre-Chorus)
Hope feels like a foreign tongue *(ad-lib: “Mm”)
Like I knew it once — but it’s gone
And even if it knocked tonight
I wouldn’t know how to hold on

(Chorus)
I am the ruin (ad-lib: “Ooh…”)
Not mysterious, just tired
Not healing — just expired
I tried to be soft, I tried to stay
But softness doesn’t get you saved (ad-lib: “They only want the strong…")
I am the ruin 
And that’s all I’ll ever be

(Bridge – whispered, barely sung)
Don’t tell me I’m strong (ad-lib: “Please… just don’t…")
That’s just a word you give the broken
When you don’t know what to say
I’m not strong—I just stayed *(ad-lib: soft “ooh”)

(Final Chorus – a cappella, soft tremble)
I am the ruin *(ad-lib: “mmm...)
No anthem, no rebirth
Just someone who stopped hoping first 
I smile so you don’t see it all
But I’ve been falling since I could crawl 
I am the ruin *(final ad-lib: “And I always will be…”)

Ruin (S)

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