youtube upload - https://youtu.be/Nx0i8yjQRsc
spotify - https://open.spotify.com/album/7JLcMMgmXYzcLqZdqPoxXX?si=Qaw8iwHRTDiVRbwfCWATVw
bandcamp - https://friendxp.bandcamp.com/
twitter - https://twitter.com/friend_xp

- lyrics -
“My oh my! It’s quite sad what you’ve become...
“Sooner than later, you succumbed”
Well I’m sorry that I wasn’t innocent
I promise, all I wanted was some fun
Still, yea-a-a, I agree
That it’s better to be deceived
It seems you and I are one in the same
So let’s not pass the blame, I don’t want your shame

That’s that, learn when to quit
Though I admit, I’m a bit of a hypocrite
With jealousy I have frequent chats over how, for this life, I’m unfit
“Deny this life and win the game”
We earned a prize that never came
I wasted my time and got what I deserved
But we made a vow, you can’t back out now

Keep putting on an act so the world remains intact
Sleighting hands make their demands, and the seasons never change
This kindness has a catch
I mean, is it really that far fetched?
Nightmares like to creep when no one’s asleep

Forget this life, here I thought that we could make a deal
And that dream I had
Tell me, was any of that real?
A promise lined with silver and gold
I’d half a mind to fulfill this urge
In a wonderland where nothing’s quite right
Through this selfishness I thought I would’ve learned
That this give and take cannot be overturned
I know I don’t deserve control but I can’t help but feel a little bold
‘Cause as long as your eyes are on me, it’s fine if we play make believe
So throw away your nightlight, tuck me in and sing, “Goodnight!”

FOOLISH :)
Though I admit, I always was
Years of deceit, the perfect product of
Day in, day out, I’m still being taught
Everything’s outside what I would have thought
I want to see the best in things, but I can’t trust those behind the strings
To stand idly by and fall in love with this lie
Waiting, biding time, isn’t that a crime?

Ain’t it a little trite to keep picking and choosing what’s wrong and right
And of course I’m the guilty party
It’s not that hard to outsmart me
But where’s my judge? My jury? My sympathizer?
Turned away so I stayed none the wiser
I guess this was all for naught
Still, you dare be concerned when I’m caught?

Keep putting on an act so the world remains intact
Sleighting hands make their demands
And time seems to stop
Seems living has a catch
I mean, is it really that far fetched?
Nightmares like to creep when no one’s asleep

Forget this life, here I thought that we could make a deal
And that dream I had
Tell me, was any of that real?
A promise lined with silver and gold
I’d half a mind to fulfill this urge
In a wonderland that’s just out of sight
Through this selfishness I thought I would’ve learned
That this give and take cannot be overturned
I know I don’t deserve control but I can’t help but feel a little bold
‘Cause as long as your eyes are on me, it’s fine if we play make believe

So decide who deserves to profit from a life that hands out hardships so often
No other options…?
Substitute these evils any way you please
Call it destiny, but you’re not fooling me

Forget this life, let’s become exactly what we feared
In that dream I had, everyone disappeared
I promised I’d fulfill my role
I warned you, yet even so
There’s no way out
So, give in to all of your doubts

Forget this life, here I thought that we could make a deal
And that dream I had
Tell me, was any of that real?
A promise lined with silver and gold
I’d half a mind to fulfill this urge
In a wonderland where nothing’s quite right
Through this selfishness I thought I would’ve learned
That this give and take cannot be overturned
I know I don’t deserve control but I can’t help but feel a little bold
‘Cause as long as I can be deceived, it’s fine if we play make believe
No right nor wrong, don’t you agree? I’ll throw away this passing glee
No matter how you beg and plea, it’s time we woke up from this dream

goodnight ft. gumi [vocaloid original]

LYRICS:

I told you who I am, so why are you surprised?
Your heart of gold and wants for me are clouding up your eyes
And honestly, I truly just cannot provide my care
When you tell me how it hurts I laugh at pitiful despair
-
I hate to be a downer but I think I need to say
I’m a slut for degradation, so tell me what you hate!
With a sadomasochistic mind, you’d think I’d want to change
But reality is different, babe, I don’t mind I’m deranged


(Wanna be indifferent? Well go off and be my guest
Just please don’t ever blame me for the coming consequences)


Shut up, I never asked, no I don’t care ‘bout your day
If you knew that I was like this then you should have run away!
No one can fucking help me this is the millionth time,
I don’t want your pity, everything that hurts me’s by design
-
You say I’m fucking dying but I’d die if I’m the same
All these urges just to hurt you or to hurt me are hard to tame
But to be one-hundred percent honest pain is just a game
It’s cute y’know, and only one shall touch me for their gain


(Wanna be indifferent? Well go off and be my guest
Just please don’t ever blame me for the coming consequences)


I’m not in a good headspace to listen to your woes
And to think there’re people like you who can’t defeat their foes
It’s, like I said, pitiful to see,
You really are so stupid to have some hope for me
-
(I told you who I am, so why are you surprised?
Your heart of gold and wants for me are clouding up your eyes
And honestly, I truly just cannot provide my care
When you tell me how it hurts I laugh at pitiful despair)


(Wanna be indifferent? Well go off and be my guest)

SADOMASOCHIST -【IMPOSTOR】FT. MACNE NANA ENGLISH // VOCALOID ORIGINAL SONG

BIG CLAPPY - Ghost and Pals

LYRICS:

Tie me up and break me down, unspoken words I’ll shout out loud
Wonder what I’m looking for, besides the consequence of fighting more
Undoubt, the hounds have come to tear me apart
I’ll drown, fall down, but it’s a work of art
-
Even though I know the point is moot and it’s a losing battle
I can’t help but crave the rush of feigning blindness for the crowd


Beat me to the last breath that I’ll take
Know that this won’t be my final day
So break my mind and make me deaf
Your screams are all I need to cause my death


Little maggots crawling all around beneath my claws, beneath me now
Follow my lead, for my eyes you’ll plead, unmistaken I will be undoubt
Fortified wrath, unbreakable walls, no sympathy for those who crawl
Am I alone, or am I adored? Who cares, after all my name echos
-
Pitiful sludge and larvae all around, I’m a giant to you all
Little spiders crawling at my feet must stay away I’m arachnophobic
Pitiful wastes of space all cursed to have that face, I’ll cull them all
Am I alone, or am I adored? Who cares, after all my name echos


Bloodied by the cut of all those words I heard
Sadomasochistic urges
-
Spinning in a web of yin and yang
But to us, this war is just some silly game


Beat me to the last breath that I’ll take
Know that this won’t be my final day
So break my mind and make me deaf
Your screams are all I need to cause my death


Little maggots crawling all around beneath my claws, beneath me now
Follow my lead, for my eyes you’ll plead, unmistaken I will be undoubt
Fortified wrath, unbreakable walls, no sympathy for those who crawl
Am I alone, or am I adored? Who cares, after all my name echos
-
Pitiful sludge and larvae all around, I’m a giant to you all
Little spiders crawling at my feet must stay away I’m arachnophobic
Pitiful wastes of space all cursed to have that face, one day I’ll cull them
Am I alone, or am I adored? Who cares, after all my name echos X2
-
Lay me down upon my final resting place
Gently close my eyes, your soft hands drift across my face
Please remember that I’ll be okay
A victim’s plight is sung before their better days

FORTIFIED ARACHNOPHOBIA -【IMPOSTOR】FT. 3 VOCALS // VSYNTH ORIGINAL SONG

UGGUGUGUGGG OKAY ITS DONE THANK GOD,, this was technically due yesterday but i was given so much work this week it was most definitely impossible to get this done on time so thank god i got an extension till monday,, the song and video took longer to  make than i'd have liked, but i guess it was pretty ambitious to try and finish this entire video in two days,, but uhh i'm really proud of this song,, we had to make a presentation about our identities for this project and i decided to make every aspect of my identity visual and let the lyrics focus on my cultural and racial imposter syndrome which has been playing a really big part in my life right now,, here's a little breakdown of the aspects of my identity shown in the video: at the climax of the song, the dress i'm wearing is heavily influenced by mexican culture,, it's made up of all the colors of the non binary flag,, the sun on my cheek is the sun on the flag of the philippines and the patch over my eye is the lgbt flag,, on my shoulders are more specific flags (the mlm flag and gendervoid flag) of the identities i identify with,, and lastly on in my hair is an asian giant hornet (my favorite insect) because i want to be an entomologist :) i have no specific tie to sewing,, i just thought of the idea of a quilt being made up of different parts of someone's identity and decided to go with that,, but uhh yeah enjoy the song and if i don't get a good grade i'm gonna go ballistic because this took so much longer than i would've liked ❤️
VIDEO: https://youtu.be/fKLbtp3AfCQ
LYRICS: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1H3BxeOFEI9LBxpSk3zGquI5elG26dc5Z-fXjLOthcJg/edit?usp=sharing

[VOCALOID Original] A Chimera's Quilt feat. Maika

Axel ist auch dabei

prod @mzxlt
mix master @koj3on
@ifrostyousomovin

@koj3on.
しんけんにするけど きみがこわいよ
あなたはなんか あなたはなんか
しんでもいいだろ、あそびましょう
おのれ、君さま 어딜 가려고 だめ
どっちがいいか どこで行こうかな
あなたはなんか あなたはなんか
しんでもいいだろ、あそびましょう

@ifrostyousomovin.
never let u down 
you geeked up everynight
we on the top yeah
already on the line
shawty on lady 난 위로 올라가
かかし only one
平気よ。いっぱいになった時
うん。Im nightwalker
club에 있어 
Im frozen up
꼬마야 꼬마야 뒤로 돌아라
내 노래가 나오면 입을 닫아라
똑 똑 누구십니까? 
너네 멱 따러왔지
who's that?
koj3 and mov1n frozen up

@koj3on.
しんけんにするけど きみがこわいよ
あなたはなんか あなたはなんか
しんでもいいだろ、あそびましょう
おのれ、君さま 어딜 가려고 だめ
どっちがいいか どこで行こうかな
あなたはなんか あなたはなんか
しんでもいいだろ、あそびましょう

nightwalker + @ifrostyousomovin

【Oliver, Fukase, Kagamine Len, Utatane Piko】"Original Song Collaboration" it's dark!【DrawyColours' Remix】

My curiosity for remixing this song was too high so here you go! Also, it made me laugh hard! XD

Song is a collaboration by: GHOST, Aria, Ponko & UmbarticForest
Thumbnail Art: GHOST
Remix: Me

it's dark! 【Timid's Remix】

Wow, Trevor posting a song less than four months after his last one? It's a Christmas miracle! (Also tomorrow is the one month anniversary of 5AM what a neat fact!)

I finally used Sonika agin! How've you been, buddy? It's been a year and a half! Oh how the time flies.

I don't have much to say on this on to be honest? Except for the fact that I had no idea what this song was about until I wrote the lyrics for the chorus (a.k.a like 6 hours ago) but now it's got a spiffy little story! I won't share it though because I like to see how people interperet my songs ahah.

Anyways Sonika is a queen please love her.

~*~*~

Free download + instrumental: https://pumpkinheaad.bandcamp.com/album/in-solidarity

VSQx: https://www.dropbox.com/s/ceaxelh36osvizm/yellow.vsqx?dl=0

Youtube upload: https://youtu.be/8HfaZaNyzxE

Lyrics:

A pretty yellow light
That keeps me safe at night
Kaleidoscope of dreams
Keeps me safe and warps memories

Could it be? Could it be?
Could it be? Could it be?
Could it be? Could it be?
Could it be? Could it be?

Well, maybe. Well, maybe.
Well, maybe. Well, maybe.
Well, maybe. Well, maybe.
Well, maybe. Well, maybe.

Well, let's see. Well, let's see.
Well, let's see. Well, let's see.
Well, let's see. Well, let's see.
Well, let's see. Well, let's see.

A broken yellow sea
That keeps on receding
Unfamiliar to me
Ships collide and drown inside me

Fall away with me
And sink into the sea
A world of spirits sing
Their haunting, retched melodies

Crumble with me
And be kissed by the sea
Rot away in waters
Salty yet sweet

Yes, feel the grace
Of my glorious dream
Watch as it bends reality
Just for me

Reach out your hand
Grasp that bright yellow light
Keep that light safe
Through the darkness of night

Yes I am gone
But I always was gone
Hey, don't feel pain
For someone who never lived

【Sonika】 In Solidarity 【Original Song】

Listen I know this is my fourth song about this story b UT I'm living my best life so it's okay

I hope you'll check out the YT upload because this song is the first one I've written since 5AM with a full-blown PV (And I didn't draw the art for 5AM, but I did for this one!) I'm really proud of the work I put into it as well as how it turned out so I hope you like it, too.

This is also my first song in like 45803945834 where I added harmonies that aren't just an octave up or down LMAO so there's that too. I also wrote this differently, starting with the vocal melody and chords instead of the lead instrument! So tl;dr this was me experimenting a little bit

~*~*~*~*~

▶Free Download + Instrumental: https://pumpkinheaad.bandcamp.com/album/star-speckled-wonderland

▶Youtube Upload: https://youtu.be/LUPnqTy2K84

▶VSQx: Soon

▶Twitter: https://twitter.com/galacticism_

Lyrics:
Death should cause no pain
All lost spirits turn to stars one day
Except for me
I'm so lost, but I'm not shining

My world is gray
The Mother took the color away
To ease the pain
Of two souls who passed and went away

I'll say, "It's okay.
You can leave me if it stops your pain."
I'll take the blame
For a death I wasn't born for

I miss them too
And I wish they weren't taken so soon
Just me and you
You who forgot of me far too soon

But, one night
I saw them wave from the night sky
And say that I'd be with them soon

Star-speckled eyes told me I would soon say my goodbyes
To the Mother who never saw me
Constellations painted hands waiting for my embrace
And I'd be with them when the world ended

Death should cause no fright
Upon death you're reborn in the sky
And, if I'm right
Let my death come take me tonight

I'm not afraid
I'm eagerly waiting for my fate
The mother may
Be the one who tears this world away

Our lives come and go
The Mother's the one who told me so
But, I have a plan
To live life with my Meteor Man

With every day
This world continues to fade away
The only life
That remains is my house and the sky

But, I know, even if my death is slow
I'll have my Meteor Man waiting

But, I don't know if these fateful dreams are untrue
Oh, if they're lies I don't know what I'd do

Meteor Man, I'm still waiting for you to save me
The mother's killing me so slowly
The sky is blue, a gorgeous cage stealing me from you
You need to free me, you need to save me

I don't want to live on if things will stay like this
'Cause everything I know is a lie, all that I know are her lies
All I know will die if the mother succeeds
But, oh, that was the plan all along, that was the plan all along

Meteor Man, I can't see what's there in front of me
The future's coming, are you ready?

Whisper goodbyes as the world crumbles before my eyes
And get ready to start a new life
Goodbye Mother, the creature who stole my soul from me
I never loved you, never loved you

I'll never love a monster like you
I'm glad you're trapped under the ashes