Coldwntr

recorded 4/30/25
told myself it would be easy to change
but im still a useless waste of space
nothing could ever feel worse than this but i tried way to hard to call it quits
u told me i can change well i guess its too late
am i the problem or am i not "ur holding me back" thats what i thought
u say i can be a better version of me but ik that i cant what dont u see
i could never change im finna stay the same
i didnt prod t his one

change

ngl couldv been recording better but my broke at that time so and not prod me

given up

first song ever really bad dont listne
told myself that idc
everyday see ur dumb curly hair
im so obsessed i stalk ur page,
im on delivered but it says ur not away
if i looked like him, you'd think that im cool
you said that hes pretty hot and idk what to do
it sucks theres no one like you its fucked ik i cant have you
its not that hard to check ur phone
are u doing it on purpose or am i just that unknown
to you, wonder how i look to you
guess im nobody at all jst a random fkin dude

cant have you

its like getting coal for xmas, like ur worth nothing at all
silent cry for help in ur room alone, no one will ever hear ur calls
u always find me in the corner of my room balled up about smth i cant choose
i never seem to win i always just lose, swear its a curse im never enthused

just another useless filler episode to u

will return to punk sound soon jst trying new stuff
nothing i can do all day i jst sit and rot
i dont really want ur help u treat me like a snob
i knew that u had plans ill just say i forgot
i dont really like u and i dont wanna talk
i know its unhealthy but i get lost in my thoughts
im a fukin creep think im always in the wrong
and i dont want ur help no i dont want ur help
you dont know shit think ill fix it by myself

i don't want your help

i know i cant do anything right
fucked up once, i was gone from ur life
said you'd always be by my side
i now know that you're full of lies
there's still something about you i cant get out my mind
im thinking about you, but im left behind
i just miss when we used to talk and
ik that i wont ever forget
hate the thought of you, i think and i get upset
i was in the wrong now i was i wish that i could be dead
dont wanna look back, so many things i regret
too much going on and im feeling so embarrased
we could talk it out, but u act like im a ghost now
everytime i see u i get anxious, im so scared now
ik its over now
i feel so burnt out
cant get u out my head
ik u want me dead x_x

PRODUCED BY me plz do not tell me i accidently rewrote another song yet again

it's over

idk i didnt prod this kinda bad song
im so stuck up on u
and idk what to do
ive been like this for a while
swear ur the reason i smile
its been hard cus u dont care
about me and its not fair
ill still dream of us while i play with ur hair
but no matter how i try im just not ur typa guy
why dont u care how i feel at all?
and no matter what i do u still wouldnt have a clue
about all the things i do for uuu

stuck up

verse:
i know that you have your
reasons to leave me on delivered
but its okay it was a mistake
ill tell myself coping all day

pre chor:
but now you seem to forget me
is it cus im too nice you dont like me
youuu know i try my best but you dont seem to care
and i break down cryin cus ik its not fair

chorus: were friends but i rlly think u cute but ik im in the wrong and theres nothing i can do
think i get attached a lil bit too fast and if u dont feel the same ik that ill be rlly sad
bridge: youre always fuckin lying to me 
you lead me on and i coudlnt see
what you were turly doing to me
but it was nothing at all and now your fuckin in my dreams

chorus repeats

end: were friends and i rlly think u cute but u think that im jus weird and theres nothing i can do
i know u will never feel the same but ill still lead myself on until i blow my fuckin brains

prod me

friendzoned

Produced by holdmetillicry and coldwntr
Vocals mixed by holdmetillicry
Lyrics:

@holdmetillicry
you make me wanna die
you make me wanna die
i think ill kms
cause my whole life is a lie
commiting suicide
and i dont even know why
cuz i just wanna feel something instead of rot

the way u drive me crazy
dont think ill live at 80
girl i just want ur love but u been acting shady

and girl im sorry that i forgot to take u out
but im a loser , sit online , what i write about
ill cut my wrists just watch me bleed i wont make a sound
i think ill kms tonight and im sorry 

@coldwntr
swear ur Love drives Me crazy
swear I want Ur Love so badly
Dont know what it'd take for you to like me back
I'd give you my life, I wont ever look back
You seem to not care latelyyyyyy 
i know u dont notice meeeeeee :///
Visions of what we Could Beeee<#33
just know that For You Id bleed

@holdmetillicry
and i can't work at all
baby i just wanna lay in bed zzz
i took 20 fucking pills to get you right outside my head
but it didn't even work, so i just think of you again
i think ill kms tonight and im sorry 

you make me wanna die
you make me wanna die
i think ill kms
cause my whole life is a lie
commiting suicide
and i dont even know why
cuz i just wanna feel something instead of rot

(ALL PLATS) for you, i bleed w/ coldwntr

og before i changed it with slightly changed lyrics and higher pitched instrumental

cant have you og version

Trapped inside my own mind
Killing me deep inside
No matter how hard i try
Ill always be an ugly guy
Genetically cursed for life
Wish i'd just end i tonight
Theres no coming back my life is done
And im too ugly to have any fun
Hating myself more and more
Why's this life such a bore?
Always felt left out like im ignored
I know one day you'll find my corpse
Genetically cursed for life
Wish i'd just end i tonight
Theres no coming back my life is done
And im too ugly to have any fun
produced by me

Genetically Cursed

no clue

beat produced by me (budget increased lmfao first song with an interface,not recording thru my phone anymore)
drums and guitar sound a lot better first song on fl aswell
i feel like this is already a song but at the same time i dont and im not sure
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u say hes just a friend
but i know how it always ends
you're hiding from the truth
a lie so cruel
why cant i let it be
cause hes all u need
jealousy entrapping me as i melt down
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im out of ur league and theres nothing i can do now
jealous of the fact u hang out wit him now
i really like you you dont rlly like me
what would it take for you to like me back?
wish i were him then maybe you would like me
but im still not and i know i will never be
i really like you you dont rlly like me
what would it take for you to like me back?
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why are you ghosting me?
its been 2 whole weeks
what did i do to make you hate me?
its like the hints you gave
were never hints at all
just signs to leave you alone and never come back to you
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chorus repeat 2x

guy bestfriend

never finishing prob just trying new stuf
prod me

waste my summer in no time
ill leave this whole world behind
my life means nothing to me
2 more months its getting boring

next summer (demo)

single while u guys wait for my ep
(got inspired to make this from a yt beat i produced this tho)
lyrics:
chorus:
Lately ive been feelin useless
Nothing seems to go my way
But i gotta suck it up
Cus nobody gaf
Even when i feel like i wanna quit

verse:
all my life just filled with lies i dont wanna do this anymore
always mad or always sad i keep on going but just what for?
always seem to wonder whats wrong with me
my friends dont stay they always leave
and i always seem to wonder why im so naive
this worlds not real its make believe

chorus repeats then solo

degenerate

<3 sorry for the delays glad i could finally get this song out
prod spawncamped, featuring @coldwntr

reject (w/ coldwntr)

https://open.spotify.com/album/6s9mWWHfw55ve7ItSb39SZ?si=XY0VlKXuS0qzQqUV4vqh4w

Coldwntr

Serïph