@imxue
im supposed to change
but everyone sees me like
ill always be the same
is it really worth the fight

and this move out feels like
such a waste
will i always be the same
i feel so contraint with

all your lies
written in on your shiny face
all this time
i spent wasting away

and i tried
to let me wait
but i hate it here
and i wont explain   

@daywxtch
i don't want my old friends to stay in touch with who i was
i don't want my new friends to stay in love with who i am
everything about me, i hope to change
dry eyes, torn skin, every morning is strange
i can't see when i wake up
you're gonna see me when i'm focused, nah
you will only love me when i'm okay
hate it when you say you miss me like i'm away
same house, short on words, so we don't exchange 
like what's the difference if i'm here or gone
like doesn't it feel the same or do you view me wrong?
don't wanna give a wrong impression, but i can't explain 

@imxue
im supposed to change
but everyone sees me like
ill always be the same
is it really worth the fight

and this move out feels like
such a waste
will i always be the same
i feel so contraint with

all your lies
written in on your shiny face
all this time
i spent wasting away

and i tried
to let me wait
but i hate it here
and i wont explain   

all your lies
written in on your shiny face
all this time
i spent wasting away

and i tried
to let me wait
but i hate it here
and i wont explain   

dont you give up now, i was on time
throw it out, i was alright
i watched for the first time
everyone eyes were wide
and i tried   

all your lies
written in on your shiny face
all this time
i spent wasting away

and i tried
to let me wait
but i hate it here
and i wont explain   

@starlightt08
and ill know that you’ll keep changing
and ive known that i cant keep waiting
the truth is a bit complicated
but ill be fine, ill be fine

let my wings take flight
even when its hard to say bye
i just hope ill make it alive
but ill be fine, ill be fine

all your lies (ft. lightt)

i thought i heard your voice again
i turned around, where are you at now?
the same illusion once again

but you were gone before i even spoke
leave me stuck, i’m still stuck in yesterday

i can’t hold on, you slip away
leave me stuck, i’m still stuck in yesterday

stuck in...Yesterday_3

goodbye (live)

all i shiiiittttt::

now, baby you're gone, and i don't feel like i belong
and i don't wanna watch you walk, but i feel it's all i got.

darling i watched you glow, didn't think that'd you go so low, oh no no...

now, baby you're gone, and i don't feel like i belong, and i don't wanna watch you walk, but i feel its all i got.

all i got

@imxue
you could’ve pulled out
anyone else
but you dug me up
right out the ground

you could’ve devout
it to yourself
i was death
but now im your reroute

you negleted me
im your defectency 
you had a dream
did it include me?

brought so far
more than eye can see
put me in your car
and let me bleed


@willowindhi
You cry to yourself
In the dark of your room
Nobody can tell
That you long for it too
I’m sick of the faces 
And being your muse 
But I’ll go anywhere 
long as I’m there with you

And I fell from the horizon
And you watched from the ground
And I know that you’re lying 
When you say that you want me around

@imxue
you could’ve pulled out
anyone else
but you dug me up
right out the ground

you could’ve devout
it to yourself
i was death
but now im your reroute

you could’ve pulled out
anyone else
but you dug me up
right out the ground

you could’ve devout
it to yourself
i was death
but now im your reroute

you negleted me
im your defectency 
you had a dream
did it include me?

brought so far
more than eye can see
put me in your car
and let me bleed


thank u
@phil10music
@ilyness
@flervia
@senca100k
for sum sound design

defectency (ft. willowind)

sum guitar from a friend sum from me

four eyes and
no teeth
bled out on 
your dusty screen

she likes hiking trails
he likes whats beneath
she tried and failed to
fix his foreward lean

tongue tied and
burnt up skin
screamed through the heavy smoke
he throw her in

drown it out
close your eyes
cover your mouth
but dont you cry

four eyes and
no teeth
bled out on 
your dusty screen

she likes hiking trails
he likes whats beneath
she tried and failed to
fix his foreward lean

tongue tied and
burnt up skin
screamed through the heavy smoke
he throw her in

drown it out
close your eyes
cover your mouth
but dont you cry

shaky breath
stffined joints
four eyed monster
cant you wait

dried out face
contemplate
dont you forget
the love you faked

//4

//4eyed_monster

cover of "love yourself" by justin bieber
made october 20 2024

lyrics:
for all the times that you rained on my parade
and all the clubs you get in using my name
you think you broke my heart, oh girl for goodness sake
you think i'm crying on my own well i ain't
and i didn't wanna write a song
cause i didn't want anyone thinking i still care
i don't but you still hit my phone up
and baby i'll be moving on
and i think you should be something i don't wanna hold back
maybe you should know that

my mama don't like you and she likes everyone
and i never like to admit that i was wrong
and i've been so caught up in my job
didn't see what's going on but now i know
i'm better sleeping on my own
cause if you like the way you look that much
oh baby you should go and love yourself
and if you think that i'm still holding on to something
you should go and love yourself

Love_UrSelf 10/20/24

m/v: https://www.papercuties.art/bodybodybody

put your body onto me
aint no point having the same talk bout u n me
turn it up a bit baby turn it up a bit
the solution for your heart is my remedy
party through the week baby you're my clarity
i do the same old same old same old things
thought youd escape from me
baby sing this melody
lose grip of time and i count the hours im in

turn it up on my body and its all for you
you can take it as a joke but baby i love..
now the sound of your body is louder n i see thru
you can take it all away from me

bodybodybody

this got kinda buried mb 

prod me & engineered by https://soundcloud.com/danaelco

don't say some basic shit
you do it all the time and it don't make sense
i'm tired of waiting for you
i'm tired of watching what i say
it's a game a game to you i don't want to play
find it funny that you're always gone
why you always gone

missed calls too late
it gives me such a headache
i'm frustrated with this
first fall catch up
i fell right on my ass before
i've grown to know the feeling it has

i'm not the same person i was before 
my friends are moving on
i still wish i didn't have to 
flash back to back in our bedrooms 
watching cartoons after school
your mom had pissed you off
so you crashed out on my futon
i don't think it's right like that
said you could run way faster 
my shoes didn't have the same groove
i don't wanna fight about that
if she really really loved you
she wouldn't of kissed my lips 
i don't think it's right like that
said you could run way faster 
my shoes didn't have the same groove
i don't wanna fight about that
if she really really loved you
she wouldn't of kissed my lips 

i had a hard time thinking about it 
don't bring me around 
your schedule crowded 
i know everybody goes through shit
when i do you don't listen in 
bring it all back quick 
i seen the lies and i questioned your motives 
i could be dying wouldn't care if you noticed 
i was a book and my pages were open 
you were just closed as it gets 
and i'm tired of people saying 
they got love for when they don't 
what's the worth in lies 
all it's going to do is waste our time
and i'm tired of people saying 
they got love for when they don't 
what's the worth in lies 
all it's going to do is waste our time

first fall

i did what i had to
called u out by name 

u told me u missed me
in all that remains

i trusted the oddity
and ill tell u honestly
i heard all in homily
full with all of ur qualities

i told my apolegy
but it came out it blank

its the first time
and i just learned how to change
its the worst time
and everyone is all the same

but your different
called u out by ur name
its the first time
someone’s made me feel like u do

its the first time
and i just learned how to change
its the worst time
and everyone is all the same

but your alright
from all that remains
its the first time
someone’s made me feel like u do

its the first time
and i just learned how to change
its the worst time
and everyone is all the same

but your different
called u out by ur name
its the first time
someone’s made me feel like u do

its the first time
and i just learned how to change
its the worst time
and everyone is all the same

but your alright
from all that remains
its the first time
someone’s made me feel like u do

i did what i had to
called u out by name 

u told me u missed me
in all that remains

i trusted the oddity
and ill tell u honestly
i heard all in homily
full with all of ur qualities

i told my apolegy
but it came out it blank

its the first time
and i just learned how to change
its the worst time
and everyone is all the same

but your different
called u out by ur name
its the first time
someone’s made me feel like u do

its the first time
and i just learned how to change
its the worst time
and everyone is all the same

but your alright
from all that remains
its the first time
someone’s made me feel like u do

its the first time
and i just learned how to change
its the worst time
and everyone is all the same

but your different
called u out by ur name
its the first time
someone’s made me feel like u do

its the first time
and i just learned how to change
its the worst time
and everyone is all the same

but your alright
from all that remains
its the first time
someone’s made me feel like u do

its the first time
and i just learned how to change
its the worst time
and everyone is all the same

but your alright
from all that remains
its the first time
someone’s made me feel like u do