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Antent, Nectry, Tsunami J. & Staarz - Don't Wanna Fall

LYRICS:

Have you noticed that the soul repeats yeah withdrawal symptoms losing sleep
Yeah manic patterns these walls breathe now close around me try to leave
It's in my vision that abyss when you close your eyes do you see
The lines and traces, everything from iris burns illuminate

When the black curtain falls and I see everything I try to reach
Do I just run to try and chase it make my mind up losing patience
Risk it all embrace the fall as I collapse and i still crawl
So I can feel something just more than being static left on hold

I want to be something that's human but you know that’s hard for me 
I disconnect from everything from ones I love the friends that cheat
And I'll just drown my liver out, I swear my body hates itself
For having a fuck up control decisions that will break my soul

So label me the one you hate the one you fear the one that breaks
From every encounter he has made, to try and fit it no he shakes
At explaining at what it's like to not fit in to not feel real
So I'll just sit and bite my lips until the blood has soaked my chin

Becoming Real

LYRICS:

You know I can't be someone that you depend on
Cus you know when you hit me up I will not answer
The consequences of separation are never easy
And when you’re all alone you hit me up, say that you need me

But I'm sick of that, I don't wanna be used to the grave
Panic attacks hit the stage open up I'm in a state
Dont wanna talk about feelings why can't I be left alone
I'm not coping, I’m not good, I didn't think that it would show

Yeah cus, I didn't want to be someone that you depend on
I didn't want to be the one that didn't answer
You said "Hold your tongue cus I don't want to hear you ever speak,
You just stay inside, haven't had a reply in a week."

"I hope you suffer in the bed that you have made for yourself
Are you happy all alone, in this hell are you content?"
"Yeah I don't care about you, I guess this is goodbye,
Cus I still don't understand the reasons why you wanna die."

Cus I hate you, when you break me, you choose
It was always us two back then I was confused
It's always when I see you falter I slip up to
I see that you are amused by the fact I need you

You know I couldn't help you when you just suffered
You know I couldn't be something that you wanted
Always getting up at me like I made a mistake
Push us back and then we break, constant fighting, say we’re fake

You wanna reprimand me for times when I didn't understand
Don't want to explain it to me so you give me the backhand
You say that I'm selfish for trying to be someone that just cares
But you run away, ignore me then just give me a blank stare

So what the fuck is up with it, I get it yeah you hate
Everyone who doesn't understand the pain that you create
You say you wanna tear them down in hopes that they never exist
I guess we all just have opinions and to you they don't mean shit

I see, "You suffer in the bed that you made for yourself
Are you happy, all alone in this hell are you content?"
"Yeah you know I care about you, I guess this is goodbye
And I still don't understand the reasons why you wanna die."

Cus I hate you, when you break me, you choose
It was always us two back then I was confused
It's always when I see you falter I slip up to
I see that you are amused by the fact I need you

Cautious

The lyrics are about the experience of how overwhelming life as a neurodivergent working class person can be – and about taking stock of what's good in life and little accomplishments when facing overwhelming odds or generally bleak prospects. It's something I really have to remind myself of to stay sane as there are plenty of times where I've felt like the world was against me. The odds are stacked against me in a very real way and it's dangerously easy to let that get under my skin and tempt me to give up hope that I will ever be able to make a better life for myself. But if I don't give it everything I've got to do so, there will be no chance at all, so failure isn't an option.

NO_ACCESS

Prod by: Me :)

Artwork by: https://www.instagram.com/kidaart_005/

Lyrics:

(Chorus)
Feel like I’m dying ‘cause I can’t be real
I live in my thoughts, don’t know what I feel
Lets hide in the moment and live for the thrill
This time I’ll be fine ‘cause these pills fucking kill
The voice that keeps talking inside of my head
Louder and louder it screams that we’re dead
I’m cautiously waiting, so carefully tread
You speak without words but enough has been said

(Verse)
You don’t think I notice when you lie to me
I’m fucked up so I get it, you don’t vibe with me
Now slowly stepping back, I need to distance me
Now fucking sick and tired, I can never sleep

I'm obnoxious right?
Talking like I never fucking see the light
See the light? I could only ever fucking live at night
Live at night? The only time I find the fucking peace to write
Please be alright, my truth, my sun, my only one, my heart will soon ignite

(Bridge)
My heart will soon ignite
My heart will soon ignite

(Chorus)
Feel like I’m dying ‘cause I can’t be real
I live in my thoughts, don’t know what I feel
Lets hide in the moment and live for the thrill
This time I’ll be fine ‘cause these pills fucking kill
The voice that keeps talking inside of my head
Louder and louder it screams that we’re dead
I’m cautiously waiting, so carefully tread
You speak without words but enough has been said

love is conditional when its from you

featuring @heartbreakp
produced by lil chick

[lyrics]
Love is conditional when it’s from you 
I must have missed it you saying you changed 
You playing the victim because you have to
Only point of view you wanna bring is true pain 
That’s a damn shame 
I thought you would help 
Turns out I was wrong and so I left you to yourself 
When the plans changed 
You put me through hell 
Now I can take the blame cause you can’t put it on yourself

Said Hate is conditional when it’s been Been deserved And love turns to fiction when every bridge gets burned 
Pain is medicinal every scar I’ve earned 
I’ll be the criminal if it’s on my terms 
But you know me better
I know that nothings forever 
These days I’m stuck in my head like I been changing the weather
See emotions cut off and severed
I don’t wanna change for whoever
Bring it back I need to recenter
Sometimes I won’t lie

I’m sick of fighting so I quit 
I took the drugs I gave you back so I can trip
Pain inside I smile I can’t let you know I slipped
I can’t give the satisfaction poison dripping from my lips 
Conversation left me damaged after all the trust I give 
Maybe it’s been a while 
I’m good with my only child 
My son here my love i’m happy watching him he runs around 
Learn to keep the family close, not my family you bugging out 
You became my only home, can’t be here if you not around


Love is conditional when it’s from you 
I must have missed it you saying you changed 
You play the victim because you have to 
Only point of view you wanna bring is true pain 
That’s a damn shame 
I thought you would help 
Turns out I was wrong and so I left you to yourself 
When the plans changed 
You put me through hell 
Now I can take the blame cause you can’t put it on yourself

Said Hate is conditional when it’s been Been deserved And love turns to fiction when every bridge gets burned 
Pain is medicinal every scar I’ve earned 
I’ll be the criminal if it’s on my terms

unconditional

stream

unconditional (ft. heartbreakP)

Produced By. MoreCalcium
Artwork By. Sick Again
Engineered By. Baby Gos

Like to feel bad cause at least that’s something
I been doing good baby I ain’t been cutting
How the fuck you been?
We ain’t talked in months and
I just been missing you loving and laughing

Tell me how you’re feeling, I think you’re feeling the same way
told her i’m the villain but i’m finna make that all change
lately i feel withered ion wanna go the same pace
so how are you feeling cuz i gotta feel the same way

Pick apart my brain
let me know if i’m insane
I can’t read between the lines
If I die, then I die
Kill me, make me fly
Oh my god I wonder why
I can’t read between the lines
If I die, then I die

Feel afixiated i can’t see straight
lost in medication feeling irate
take so many pills just to feel faith
thinking of my death, man it feels great

I lost sleep last night cause I can’t face the nightmares in my brain
As i lose my sanity I hope that you can find peace in my pain

Pick apart my brain
let me know if i’m insane
I can’t read between the lines
If I die, then I die
Kill me, make me fly
Oh my god I wonder why
I can’t read between the lines
If I die, then I die

Music Video

WITHERED

FLY HOME

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Imma dig down
And then I'll dig deeper
Laying in the ground
To sleep with the reaper

Bury me now So I can forget it all
Swallowing pride the dosage will get it wrong
hold tongues I meant what I said
Fucked up with a moments regret

Nose bleed, as I hold the line 
Faceless can't identify
Won't last forever so I'll take my time
Past the limit and I'm terrified

Craving too much
Been hating the taste of my blood 
Thinking of life with these pills
It's so empty, oh well

I dont care if im alone in the end
I'd rather be dead near My friends

As my skeleton rots away 
I've been forsaken 
The verge of resurrecting

Bury me now So I can forget it all
Swallowing pride the dosage will get it wrong
hold tongues I meant what I said
Fucked up with a moments regret

Nose bleed, as I hold the line 
Faceless can't identify
Won't last forever so I'll take my time
Past the limit and I'm terrified

NOSEBLEED (prod. sunsad)

Chords: E-, G, A, A-

Official Music Video:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h7GLBolCiAI&ab_channel=CHRISRAIN

Prod CHRIS RAIN
Master by Ivo Statinski

CHRIS RAIN - VICTORY OR DEATH

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