Ruwan Meepagala is a podcaster and coach. In his early twenties, he became involved in the matriarchal cult, known as One Taste, which was recently covered in the Netflix documentary Orgasm Inc. Ruwan describes his time with the group as one of the most formative experiences of his life, giving him a crash course in some of the darker parts of human nature. The memoir of his years in the cult, along with his other writing and podcasts can be found at: 

https://ruwando.substack.com/


In this revealing and insightful discussion, Ruwan opens up to Rachel about his time in One Taste outlining the more dangerous aspects of the high-control group, while maintaining the positive aspects of empowerment and self-confidence he experienced. He goes on to share how the group's leader Nicole Daedone, who is still under investigation by the FBI conducted her "orgasmic meditation" business. Throughout the conversation, Rachel points out the cognitive dissonance may cult survivors feel as they struggle to hang on to the helpful practices or ideas they learned in an otherwise destructive group.



Before You Go: Rachel expands on the seemingly counter-intuitive notion of survivors holding on to certain positive aspects learned from their time in high control groups. She offers up tools for figuring out what ideas to abandon and what lessons to remember.



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One Taste of Freedom w/ Ruwan Meepagala

Jeff Guinn is the author of the new book Waco: David Koresh, the Branch Davidians, and a Legacy of Rage.  He has written several other best-selling books including; The Life & Times of Charles Manson, and War on the Border. Jeff was the co-executive producer alongside Leonardo DiCaprio on the TV docuseries "Terror in the Jungle," which is based on his book, The Road to Jonestown. He currently resides in Fort Worth, Texas, where he is a member of the Texas Literary Hall of Fame and a two-time winner of the Texas Book Award.



In this fascinating conversation, Jeff points out the common personality traits among the cult leaders he's studied in depth in his work, including Charles Manson, David Koresh, and Jim Jones. Throughout the discussion, Rachel confirms Jeff's understanding by relating what she's learned from her clients who have survived cultic experiences.



Before You Go: Rachel explains why governmental organizations are often inept when dealing with cults and can often be an impediment to justice because of their ignorance and arrogance.



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Diagnosing Demagogues w/Jeff Guinn

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In this solo bonus episode, Rachel shares her insights on the "Love Has Won" cult, led by Amy Carlson who is referred to within the group as "Mother God". Rachel points out the commonalities that Amy's manipulative leadership shares with other cult leaders.



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BONUS EPISODE PREVIEW: On "Love Has Won"

Michael Laurie is an actor, a small group facilitator, and a parent. He talks with Paul about his road to recovery and shares his unusual story of becoming a foster parent, with all the love and pain that entails.&nbsp; More about Michael Laurie:<a href="http://www.MichaelLaurie.com" rel="noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">www.MichaelLaurie.com</a>IG @MichaelLaurieus WAYS TO HELP THE MIHH PODCASTSubscribe via&nbsp;iTunes and leave a review.&nbsp;It costs nothing.&nbsp;<a href="https://itunes.apple.com/us/podcast/mental-illness-happy-hour/id427377900?mt=2" rel="noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">https://itunes.apple.com/us/podcast/mental-illness-happy-hour/id427377900?mt=2</a> Spread the word via social media.&nbsp;&nbsp;It costs nothing.Our website is&nbsp;<a href="http://www.mentalpod.com/" rel="noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">www.mentalpod.com</a>&nbsp;our FB is&nbsp;<a href="http://www.facebook.com/mentalpod" rel="noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">www.Facebook.com/mentalpod</a>&nbsp;and our&nbsp;<a href="http://www.twitter.com/mentalpod" rel="noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">Twitter</a>&nbsp;and&nbsp;<a href="http://www.instagram.com/mentalpod" rel="noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">Instagram</a>&nbsp;are both @Mentalpod&nbsp; Become a much-needed Patreon monthly-donor&nbsp;(with occasional rewards)&nbsp;for as little as $1/month&nbsp;at&nbsp;<a href="http://www.patreon.com/mentalpod" rel="noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">www.Patreon.com/mentalpod</a>&nbsp;&nbsp;Become a one-time or monthly donor via PayPal at <a href="https://mentalpod.com/donate" rel="noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">https://mentalpod.com/donate</a>You can also donate via <a href="https://www.zellepay.com/get-started" rel="noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">Zelle</a>&nbsp;(make payment to mentalpod@gmail.com)&nbsp;To donate via Venmo make payment to @Mentalpod&nbsp; Try Our Sponsor’s Products/Services See Privacy Policy at <a href="https://art19.com/privacy" rel="noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">https://art19.com/privacy</a> and California Privacy Notice at <a href="https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info" rel="noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info</a>.

#692 Foster Parenting - Michael Laurie

Rachel Holdt and Elizabeth Humble are sisters who were raised in an Independent Fundamentalist Baptist Church they’ve now identified as a Cult, Cornerstone Baptist Church in Colorado Springs, Colorado. In 1998, Rachel was the whistleblower instrumental in the eventual arrest and criminal conviction of Charles Dean Miller, the son of a pastor who would become known to be a decades-long serial pedophile. After law enforcement investigations were corroborated by multiple generations and dozens of victims, his sexual abuse of underage girls was discovered. Liz and Rachel’s forthcoming memoir tentatively titled “The King James Virgin and Other Myths of the IFB” tells this story.


Rachel currently resides in Southern California, where she works as an educator in the field of biomechanics through the modalities of dance and pilates.  Her extraordinary experiences growing up in an oppressively restrictive environment that harshly policed the female body, inform her teaching philosophy through a lens of empathy and inclusion of all bodies.


Elizabeth currently lives in Oklahoma near her three daughters and two granddaughters, where she works as a barber, seamstress, and food truck owner. She also sits on the board of the Stillwater Downtown Association. Elizabeth attended Nazarene Bible College and later obtained a business management degree following her barber schooling at New Mexico Junior College.



In this first half of a two-part conversation, Rachel and Elizabeth provide background on their childhood as members of an IFB-based cult, offering insights on the effects of restrictive environments, psychological and sexual abuse, and the lasting impacts these abuses had on their adult lives.



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The King James Virgins w/Rachel Holdt & Elizabeth Humble

Erin Williams is an author, illustrator, and healthcare researcher who joins Paul to discuss chronic pain and how her own struggles with it have served her art.&nbsp;Look for her new book What's Wrong?: Personal Histories of Chronic Pain and Bad Medicine&nbsp;More about Erin:website:&nbsp;<a href="https://www.erinrwilliams.com/home" rel="noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">https://www.erinrwilliams.com/home</a>Instagram:&nbsp;<a href="https://www.instagram.com/erin_r_williams/" rel="noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">https://www.instagram.com/erin_r_williams/</a> WAYS TO HELP THE MIHH PODCASTSubscribe via&nbsp;iTunes and leave a review.&nbsp;It costs nothing.&nbsp;<a href="https://itunes.apple.com/us/podcast/mental-illness-happy-hour/id427377900?mt=2" rel="noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">https://itunes.apple.com/us/podcast/mental-illness-happy-hour/id427377900?mt=2</a> Spread the word via social media.&nbsp;&nbsp;It costs nothing.Our website is&nbsp;<a href="http://www.mentalpod.com/" rel="noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">www.mentalpod.com</a>&nbsp;our FB is&nbsp;<a href="http://www.facebook.com/mentalpod" rel="noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">www.Facebook.com/mentalpod</a>&nbsp;and our&nbsp;<a href="http://www.twitter.com/mentalpod" rel="noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">Twitter</a>&nbsp;and&nbsp;<a href="http://www.instagram.com/mentalpod" rel="noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">Instagram</a>&nbsp;are both @Mentalpod&nbsp; Become a much-needed Patreon monthly-donor&nbsp;(with occasional rewards)&nbsp;for as little as $1/month&nbsp;at&nbsp;<a href="http://www.patreon.com/mentalpod" rel="noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">www.Patreon.com/mentalpod</a>&nbsp;&nbsp;Become a one-time or monthly donor via PayPal at <a href="https://mentalpod.com/donate" rel="noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">https://mentalpod.com/donate</a>You can also donate via <a href="https://www.zellepay.com/get-started" rel="noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">Zelle</a>&nbsp;(make payment to mentalpod@gmail.com)&nbsp;To donate via Venmo make payment to @Mentalpod&nbsp; Try Our Sponsor’s Products/Services See Privacy Policy at <a href="https://art19.com/privacy" rel="noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">https://art19.com/privacy</a> and California Privacy Notice at <a href="https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info" rel="noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info</a>.

#693 Chronic Pain - Erin Williams

Returning guests, Rachel Holdt and Elizabeth Humble are sisters who were raised in an Independent Fundamentalist Baptist Church they’ve now identified as a Cult, Cornerstone Baptist Church in Colorado Springs, Colorado. In 1998, Rachel was the whistleblower instrumental in the eventual arrest and criminal conviction of Charles Dean Miller, the son of a pastor who would become known to be a decades-long serial pedophile. After multiple generations and dozens of victims corroborated law enforcement investigations, his sexual abuse of underage girls was discovered. Liz and Rachel’s forthcoming memoir tentatively titled “The King James Virgin and Other Myths of the IFB” tells this story.

Rachel and Liz are returning to the show to continue telling the story they began last week and offer further insights into their harrowing experiences in the hopes that they may help listeners who may have been through similar traumas. So if you have not already, please go back and listen to last week’s episode where they introduce their story.


Before You Go: Rachel explains the inherent danger of religious ideologies that claim women's bodies are responsible for men's actions.



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