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Feeling Down

They are real cant you feel
All the evil in the air
I got pictures i got proof
Why does no one even care
Run the earth in disguise
Why cant you see through their lies

Space demons in nato led us astray
Lied to and subverted, now were enslaved
It might not have been nato, i forgot the name
Space demons in something made us all gay

Were so dumb, theres no choice
I guess well just be destroyed
In this game that they play
I feel like i am a toy
Fuck things up just for fun
Were just puppets til theyre done

Space demons in nato led us astray
Lied to and subverted, now were enslaved
It might not have been nato, i forgot the name
Space demons in something made us all gay

Blame it all on them
Theyre rent free in my head
They want us to be dead
And i dont care
Cause we deserve it all
Our conscience is so small
Theyre rightfully appalled by the human race


Space demons, i can see them
Space demons, i can see them
Space demons, i can see them
Space demons, i can see them

Space Demons in NATO

I wanna know why you need all these other guys
You need attention from everyone else alive
It pisses me off i dont think you realize
Or maybe you dont give a shit

Why am i not enough
So sick of this stuff
Youre messing with my head
And im in a rut
Why am i not enough
So sick of this stuff
Youre messing with my head
And ive had enough

I know ill miss you but i know this cant go on
You couldve listened, accepted where u were wrong
You always made me so filled with this jealousy
I think you like them more than you like me

Why am i not enough
So sick of this stuff
Youre messing with my head
And im in a rut
Why am i not enough
So sick of this stuff
Youre messing with my head
And ive had enough

Why am I not enough?

this girl is a bitch and i fucking hate her
we go to school and i wanna date her
her face is cute but shes so obnoxious
i still wanna put my fucking cock in

oooooooooo

i follow her inside the hallways
i dont wanna part ways
i just wanna stand here and stare at you
i dont think shell ever see me
why cant this be easy
i just wanna stand here and stare at you

someday ill make you mine
ill just take it one day at a time
someday ill make you mine
i dont care if youre dead or alive

I Wanna Date Her

Theres a hole that i cant fill
And nothing will fix whats in my head
I wish i was dead 
When will it just end

ooooooo

Everythings fucked up and none of this matters
I smoked too much and my mind shattered
I should jump off a bridge and fucking splatter
Because its all fucked up and none of this matters

Everything now looks so fake
And i cant explain why im so freaked out
I let you down
Now i cant leave the couch

Oooooooo

Everythings fucked up and none of this matters
I smoked too much and my mind shattered
I should jump off a bridge and fucking splatter
Because its all fucked up and none of this matters

None Of This Matters

My life is void of direction or meaning
Outside im calm but inside im screaming
Inside my house is where i stay
Nothing out there ever seems like a good play

I dont know where to go thatd make me feel much different than this
I dont know what to do thatd make me feel like i exist

So fuck this
So fuck this

Nothing i do will ever be enough
Ill never fill the void with any amount of stuff
Nothing i do will ever fix this shit
Ive tried way too hard to amount to just this

Everyday i let down my family
Im so depressed and you know that im planning
To kill myself in a matter of years
No one will miss me when im not here

I dont know where to go thatd make me feel much different than this
I dont know what to do thatd make me feel like i exist

So fuck this
So fuck this

Fuck This

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Beyond Melancholy - Lost life...

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Nocturnal Depression   Nocte Aeterna

Stay away from me
I don't want you around
I don't wanna belong to you
So you can put me down

I can't seem to breathe
Whenever you're near
I wanna fall asleep
Then disappear

Everybody knows
Or at least they act like they do
I guess that's the way it goes
When you're sad and blue

Stay away from me
I can't control myself
I don't need your company
I don't need your help

I can't seem to dream
Without wanting to cry
I fall apart at the seams
When you cross my mind

Everybody knows
Or at least they act like they do
I guess that's the way it goes
When you're sad and blue

I guess that's the way it goes
I wish that i knew

slit my wrists

Drowned In Misery

Sorry... - 07 Dont Go (Happy Days cover)

God I've really screwed up this time
theres no endless line
I cant escape it
this is my torture

this isn't for the weak
you left me here on read
unable to forget
loading up the shotgun shell

Please put me out of misery
im much more happier dead
im talking like morrissy
This is my end

I'm ready, just pull the trigger
too scared to die at 16
what would my mom think
I want it to end

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Missed one time, too scared now
oh god i wanna go back
i hate being who i am
this is my torture

Remembering the years beyond
not understanding what went wrong
not believing in myself
I'm not built for this world

Trapped inside my mind
one way ticket on my side
shaking and trembling in fear
This is my end

Alerted the barking dog
woke up the neighbor's god
i found myself lost and gone
I want it to end

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Missed one time, too scared now
oh god i wanna go back
i hate being who i am
this is my torture

Remembering the years beyond
not understanding what went wrong
not believing in myself
I'm not built for this world

Trapped inside my mind
one way ticket on my side
shaking and trembling in fear
This is my end

Alerted the barking dog
woke up the neighbor's god
i found myself lost and gone
I want it to end

My End

post black metal from austria. track 1 of the EP "Rückzug in die Innerlichkeit" 2012

Rückzug in die Innerlichkeit

God has blessed me with my musical talent

My End

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