1_6arelyhuman - bimbo_(Instrumental)

cover of martine rose snippet by greyrock & madk1d
https://soundcloud.com/czep30057/madk1d-martine-rose-snippet-07

martine rose

prod. bowsa

when i was young something died inside me
growing up, i was broken down piece by piece
the only person i had was me, cause i couldnt say a thing to anybody
only once i trusted someone, they turned around and told my whole family
i was forced into therapy
thats what i get for saying something

so i make all this music, i write all these songs, cause no one can tell me not
its the only way to let it out
i can be heard and not forgot about
i dont have to be a burden, i can be down
i can have fun with it, i can be proud
i thought something would change
everything just stayed the same

i was laying in my bed today
i was thinking bout how far i came
i was thinking how the work paid
i was thinking bout everything
thinking bout the sacrifices i made

i was thinking how to numb the pain
i was sat with it face to face, and i realized, im gonna die at this pace

imma die at this pace, imma die at this pace, imma die in my room at this pace
imma die at this pace, imma die at this pace, imma die in my room at this pace
i know i've met my final days, yeah i know i've met my final days
imma die at this pace, imma die at this pace, imma die in my room at this pace

im gonna die alone in my room very soon at this pace

i just hope you tell me when you change your mind

make you sweat

i wish i knew how to fucking cope
i just isolate, sit all alone
during my whole life, its all i know
i know im way too emotional
keep guards up, shields around my soul
i trusted you, i kept you close
we'd talk for days, sat in my room
i loved you more than anyone
sit down with me and watch my shows
even though theyre weird, youd still come watch
you understood, youd always know
laid down on me to calm me down
id lose my mind, id lose control
i needed you to make me yours
you played it safe, you made your choice
you chose to play me like a toy

i dont know why, youd lie straight to my face 
all of the times, i cried, for nothing
id be just fine, just fine, with honesty
couldnt make up your mind
whats wrong with me?

and i know you love to blame me 
im so up and down 
we go round and round
all the time 
yeah remember when you said to me 
im like fireworks
a rollercoaster
that you love
well i guess you couldnt handle me
you know, it gets hard
to go love someone
that wont try
take a chance, and commit to me 
nah
you didnt sacrifice anything

i told you i want you by my side
i told you, you better make things right
i said you wont hear from me again
if you break your promise, then you did
now i wish that we had never met
i still talk to you inside my head
while im fucked up laying in my bed
doing lines just like the way we did </3

life update: she changed her mind

if i could be the only one you love
i would never look away
i left you there just like in london
well, here you are again
i shouldnt of let you hug me
with tears run down your face
i shouldnt of even loved you 
ever in the first place

1_6arelyhuman - bimbo_(Instrumental)

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