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march

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Sophmore year

untilled #1

this is the worst thing ive ever made lol

lyrics:
It's time to jump up in the air
Jump up, don't be scared
Jump up and your cares will soar away
And if the dark clouds start to swirl
Don't fear, don't shed a tear 'cause
I'll be your 1-UP girl
So let's all jump up super high!
High up in the sky!
There's no power-up like dancing
You know that you're my Super Star
No one else can take me this far
I'm flipping the Switch
Get ready for this
Oh, let's do the Odyssey

1-up girl

Maoist Girls

beta orbiter!

H3artcrush - Suk My Dik

16 - ESBN - 12 Mourn

12 - ESBN - 08 Yesterday By The Beatles Or Imagine By Yoko Ono As Performed By John Lennon

09 - ESBN - 05 Leave Everything

05 - ESBN - 01 Homesick

02 - Demo - 02 Leave Everything

Ice Cream

Good Influence

prod me 

odihu
she lives inside my head
idk what she said
i wasts staring at her pretty face and down to her legs
i tell her about the scary things and shit i regret
pretty face turnin red
i want her in my bed
i hope she knows how much i love her
i pray that she doesnt find another
shes the girl inside my dreams
i know one day shell come crawling to me

blehh
the way she talks to me 
has my heart skipping beats
i need to find a way to make her fall in love with me 
she's the one for me
yeah i'll love this girl forever
don't know what she thinks
but we should be together
girl girl girl girl i love you
i wanna get to know everything about you
you're the girl inside my dreams
i know one day you'll come crawling to me

lovecupid
can you crawl in my head
and tell me all the pretty stuff you have said
can you open me up and pour your love into me
and tell me pretty things i would always need
i keep on having dreams about you
i just wanna know do you love me too
i just keep on thinking about you
why the fuck did you need to leave me too?
i hate you

the girl of my dreams (ft. if birds were real & lovecupid)

Rita

https://open.spotify.com/track/5ZIIE80NheRzoIBzmo18dU?si=f78fc6c0ed884726

@melodyx_o cover
prod me

i feel like i am dead
cant get outside my heaad my head
i feel like i cant move
just dont know what to doooo
to do

i hate being alive
slit my wrist i wanna die
wish i wasnt such a guy
stay inside like all the time
life just feels like such a pain
i really hate everything
motivation is so drained
and i really hate my face like
oooo
been so long since i have cleaned my rooom
been so long since i have made my fucking bed
i feel so made fun of by all of my friends
and
i feel so degen
i wake myself
at 1 pm
i hate this life
i think of death
but im too scared
of nothingness
im not prepared
to leave this world
i wish i was
an average girl
instead i struggle to feel real
instead i struggle to see a life where i pay bills

i feel like i am dead
cant get outside my heaadd my head
i feel like i cant move
just dont know what to doooo
to do

i dont know why i try
bad decisions i just cry
see incisions on my thighs
next to prickly bumps of mine
everything is strange
why do i feel so much pain
my hair feels so disarrayed
and i cannot feel okay like
i dont have like any power
feel like my life is over
only have me to blame
throw on a skirt and
run outside again
embarrassing
myself for hours
feel ashamed my shitty mood
ive fucked my life too soon
i know i’m not doing too well
i’ll end up a jisatsu girl
if i don’t grab onto myself
if i don’t lose my fucking mind without some help

i feel like i am dead
cant get outside my heaad my head
i feel like i cant move
just dont know what to doooo
to do

jisatsu girl (自殺) (cover)

prod me

notice how u cut me
act like ur above me
want someone to hold my hand
need someone to love me
u say im disgusting
and i amount to nothing
the only time ur nice to me
is when we're fucking

whats the deal with this shit
see u with another guy and ill cease to exist
suicide slit my wrists
no surprise this is it
no more tricks up my sleeve
except my scars in this bitch
im seein stars in this whip

notice how u cut me
act like ur above me
want someone to hold my hand
need someone to love me
u say im disgusting
and i amount to nothing
the only time ur nice to me
is when we're fucking

trick

ty for 4k listens <3 pls listen on spotify too https://open.spotify.com/album/0Zu1TMGY256iat7o8KzQDF?si=svEpCWrKQpmFG-wHON6KPQ

based on the anime "our dating story"
prod me

cant do what i want to do
i might die today
ill try not to lose my sanity
from the way u move
and the way u talk to those other dudes
and i hate myself
i wanna kill me too
and everyday we talk
i fear were ending soon
cos i noticed u started distancing
and i knew with time
you'd eventually leave me

im such a jealous loser
im such a jealous loser
im such a jealous loser
im such a jealous loser
x2

cant do what i want to do
i might die today
ill try not to lose my sanity
from the way u move
and the way u talk to those other dudes
and i hate myself
i wanna kill me too
and everyday we talk
i fear were ending soon

jealous loser

Tyla

Beach LEak

Beach Leak

merry christmas yay

https://open.spotify.com/track/6rnFI5QdFHM2FMrqOv5GZY?si=14625d2fde004aaa

prod me w/ @deathwish38

lyrics:
i thought i could get away
from everything and still be safe
well, that was a stupid mistake
so pardon me and my dumb brain

i just wanna hide my face, my face
150 miles to leave state, leave state
do i got plans? can't say, can't say
but i hope i wake up okay, okay

okay, okay, okay, okay

admiration, it contents me
i'm so abrasive and filled with envy
and depending on situations
my mind might struggle and complicate it  
sea of thoughts, too fatigued to float
but you saved me, you're my antidote
coming through the woods with a bright red coat
you take me out, make feel unlow

broken puppet with no strings
a fallen angel with no wings
ill never search for something new
cus all ive ever had was u
let me down im falling falling
by myself im calling calling
bathroom floor im bawling bawling
12am my head is throbbing

admiration, it contents me
i'm so abrasive and filled with envy
and depending on situations
my mind might struggle and complicate it  
sea of thoughts, too fatigued to float
but you saved me, you're my antidote
roaming through the woods with a bright red coat
you took me out, made feel unlow

red riding hood

red riding hood (ft. deathwish)

https://open.spotify.com/track/7GHsBQ5oLMz6Jhq6TgzBHj?si=m6AqD8a8T5CoOFmWkkiqOA&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A4fE7fPBBe4x8t58IbcpFs4

prod me ft @kiheir

@requiem-for-you
saw u at that party last week
im so damn awkward u know i cant speak
but baby please
believe
that ur everything to me
x2

u treated me like shit
i know its not ur fault but it kinda is
i never thought that it would end like this
i never thought these words would leave my lips
but baby im cutting at my wrists
and i dont see an end to it
can someone help me
im dying
without u darling
oohhhhhh

@kiheir
and i never thought id feel this way
now that im seein u in the same damn place
or meeting u in these awkward ways
now that im seein u in the same damn place
or meeting u in these awkward ways
no one here to fill the void of my days
cuz ur gone
cuz ur gone

i needed u said ud never run away
the partys almost over i just hope that ud stay
my mind went blank ive got no words to say to u
and i doubt that u do too
ooooh i doubt that u do too
and i miss u but im glad that i met u

@requiem-for-you
saw u at that party last week
im so damn awkward u know i cant speak
but baby please
believe
that ur everything to me
x2

awkward w/ kiheir

https://open.spotify.com/track/5Nnwe5weuh5fyte28mcrJR?si=ea812a2a3b0c4e23

old (wujek) styleeeee !!!!! beat by me 

w/ @humanendeavour

[endeavour:]
together oh forever
your so clever yea whenever
things get better it gets better
oh however it will never
together oh forever
your so clever yea whenever
things get better it gets better
oh however it will never

[sekai:]
migraine my head aches
ur phone contains my messages
u haven't read im dead
im being ignored again
yesterday i had the worst time
and today if i said im good
then thas a lie
can't get better
im stuck inside
this shitty weather
i wanna die
i said my head hurts
a thousand times
but when ur near me
i feel fine

[endeavour:]
together oh forever
your so clever yea whenever
things get better it gets better
oh however it will never
together oh forever
your so clever yea whenever
things get better it gets better
oh however it will never

[sekai:]
can't get better
im stuck inside
this shitty weather
i wanna die
but when ur near me
i feel fine

[endeavour:]
together oh forever
your so clever yea whenever
things get better it gets better
oh however it will never
together oh forever
your so clever yea whenever
things get better it gets better
oh however it will never
ill my blood feel it up i wanna fill it all with blood
i feel your guts i cut it up
im sorry if that is too much

together forever w/ endeavour

(lovefilter) 
girl you look so good and i read online
if i talk to you i will feel alright
and im not rude im just real uptight
got my hands round your neck and i make them tighten
your lies ill take my life
if i hear them one more time
your eyes yeah your my bride
my girl forever ill decide
the prize of having of you is hard to act alright
dont mind me im fine ill be alright as long as your alive

(@yukisasayaki)
wanna keep u mine
pls dont die
come spend the night
lose track of time

fallin asleep with my tv on
and u look so cute with that t shirt on
i dont ever ever ever wanna see u gone
but i know it'll happen and i wont move on

it'll happen baby u cant tell me
feed these lies n it'll drive me crazy
jus want an answer like yes no maybe
thought u came to this world to save me

keep u mine w/ yuki (bloodsekai)

@weejk cover!!!! prod me

anyone can see that ur outta my league
i wish that i could be a perfect man for thee
the way u tie up ur hair
the way that u dont care
ur lips they look so soft
in my room i rot
i wish u stared at me
the way u stared at him
think im going crazy the lights are dim
the way u tie up your hair
the way that u dont care
ur lips they look so soft
in my room i rot

ur outta my league (cover)

1 billionth wujek cover enjoy! (wasnt my idea i swear.)
n yes i got sum lyrics wrong Ooops

prod me ftttttt @bloodsekai

@yukisasayaki:
huhh
u said u think it wont work out
i thought everyone has their ups n downs
u left me for another guy
but ill be cool yea ill be fine

i watched that elevator close
blood leaking all over my clothes
i wish it worked i rlly hoped
that i get nothing left oh no

i spent the nights crying over u
i guess u go around fuckin other dudes
its fine dont trust me bae its cool
i rlly dont kno what to do

i watched that elevator close
blood leaking all over my clothes
i wish it worked i rlly hoped
that i get nothing left oh no

@bloodsekai:
u said u think it wont work out
i thought everyone has their ups n downs
u left me for somebody else
but i'll be cool, and say i'm well

i watched that elevator close
blood leaking over my clothes
i wish it worked i really hoped
now i got nothing left oh no
x2

@yukisasayaki:
i watched that elevator close
blood leaking all over my clothes
i wish it worked i rlly hoped
that i get nothing left oh no
x2

i watched that elevator close w/ bloodsekai (cover)

https://open.spotify.com/track/4Yod5zUEZ5SyNe0LTqbhVu?si=f91fced6fb2c4d31

w the boat @yukisasayaki prod me

i can't get out 
I've been feeling so fucking down
no one hears me 
when i'm clearly screaming loud
every chance i get
i mess it up without a doubt
put me in a crown
when im the worst like all around
benefit from the misery that i feel
cuz i know no one wants me around anymore
there's no mistake, i'm a waste
i'm not real
cuz that's the sense i get
i'm played with like i'm fake

im drowning in my sorrow
about tomorrow but also yesterday
i don't think i remember
it's been like this forever
I've never gotten better
at least that's on my record..
my hearts buried down
cuz no one sticks around
I've wrote my vows
to never open up
to anyone
i dont need new friends
im better off alone and dead

i cant do it
wont make it thru the day
yea ill prove it
slit my throat n decay
u want what i want
n i rlly want me dead
it mightve been from
all of the things u said
n i cant take it
the words infecting my head
i guess no one would care if i bled out in my bed
im such a loser n im always such a fucking burden
i try n socialize but i can never get a word in
n u look in my eyes n tell me that im fucking worthless
u leave me paralysed oh pls just finish me for certain

and worst of all, it's me

and worst of all, it's me (ft. yuki)

https://open.spotify.com/track/4Mkqb85Xssw7NjMCH7zDKN?si=f0939011e78b4e22

prod me w/ @yukisasayaki again yayyy

meet me on the roof after school
i fell in love n i wanna tell u
i know we don't talk but i think ur cool
n if u don't say it back, ig death will do
i-l-y, i might die
k-m-s, suicide
it's lie after lie, but this time i might try
knife in my chest twist it right close my eyes

baby i feel like im gonna die
tell me that u love me while u look me in my eyes
notice how i see u
from across the classroom
pretend to drop my pencil
and watch it roll past u
i jus wish ud notice me
a loser with no apathy 
slit my throat n watch it bleed
if u n me can never be
i swear that ill take my life
use ur silence as my knife
so come and take my hand
i wish u could be my wife 

yea be be mine
never leave my sight
we can live together in a loop
for the rest of time
no different options
no fucking pathways
ur stuck here forever we'll never part ways 

meet me on the roof after school
i fell in love n i wanna tell u
i know we don't talk but i think ur cool
n if u don't say it back, ig death will do
i-l-y, i might die
k-m-s, suicide
it's lie after lie, but this time i might try
knife in my chest twist it right close my eyes

dating sim suicide (ft. yuki)

https://open.spotify.com/track/74RwQbNMVqPSbp3bvtdwAd?si=fc258f8a429f4b54

i'm rewatching citrus rn, it was like 1 of the first animes i watched when i was 11 so i can't rly hate it....... 

i can't find a good cover art w/ them in it so i'm using the i can't stop crying girls. everything by me (like always)

lyrics:

ur confusing me
are we meant to be?
i feel heartbeats
i don't wanna breathe
when ur lips are so sweet
i know it's wrong
i want to love
let's make things clear
i'll wait right here

even if they get us to break up
i'll be thinking of u night & dusk
what else could we call this besides love?
i wanna be the one u see above
ur in my heart
don't hide ur scars
look at the stars
while i sew ur arms

(kiss, kiss, kiss)
why'd u have to kiss me? 
(kiss, kiss, kiss)
why'd u have to kiss me? 
(kiss, kiss, kiss)
why'd u have to kiss me? 
(kiss, kiss, kiss)
why'd u have to kiss me? 

ur confusing me
(nyaa-nyaa-nyaa-nyaa)
are we meant to be?
(nyaa-nyaa-nyaa-nyaa-nyaa)
i feel heartbeats
(nyaa-nyaa-nyaa-nyaa)
i don't wanna breathe
(nyaa-nyaa-nyaa-nyaa-nyaa)
when ur lips are so sweet

i know it's wrong
i want to love
let's make things clear
i'll wait right here
come wipe my tears
destress my fears
away, i can't veer
away, i can't veer

(kiss, kiss, kiss)
(kiss, kiss, kiss)
(kiss, kiss, kiss)
(kiss, kiss, kiss)

as long as we're under the same sky
we're rly not that far apart

keep u mine w/ yuki (bloodsekai)

magician9000