Lately im sick (feat. Intotheparadox)

I've been wanting to do another song with @sadboigoyard for so long, so here it finally is!

lyrics:

My history and yours is mixed together like frost upon my lips
And I just wanna know if death is where it stops
Mortality that’s in my face will terrify me ‘till the day i drop
I’m not the way I was, I’m sorry that I might never be

‘Cause I lied when I said I’m fine
There’s just one detail that hurts the most
‘Cause I don’t wanna leave you that way
I don’t wanna leave you this way
If my time’s cut shorter, my friend
In your memories I will be your ghxst
I hope that you knew in the end
Your love and care, it kept me here

I don’t wanna just tell you…goddamn, I’m sorry
It’s something i just cannot control, in my body
I feel like I’m manipulative, and I’m so controlling
I think the hospital’s my home, ‘cause I always feel it calling

Cancer won’t be an excuse to be an asshole now
I never was before when I abused them drugs into the ground
The only reason I’m sober now is so I could start the chemo
I’m biologically out of luck, should have stayed away from them casinos

The people I scarred the most are the people that cared the most about me
So, the people I cut off first were my OG friends and all my family
And even my collaborators from day one, like ghxst collective
Just couldn’t do that shit to Goyard, man, I’m so pathetic

‘Cause I lied when I said I’m fine
There’s just one detail that hurts the most
‘Cause I don’t wanna leave you that way
I don’t wanna leave you this way
If my time’s cut shorter, my friend
In your memories I will be your ghxst
I hope that you knew in the end
Your love and care, it kept me here

Watch me sleep as I hang my head, for the life i’ve lived has run it’s course
As winter turns into haze, just know I missed you, always
Like the caco coin upon my desk, with a heavy heart I’ll be your ghxst
Your existence wiped away my fears
I hope you know how much I cared

I DON'T WANNA BE YOUR GHXST! feat. Goyard Sad Boi | Prod. HeyLee Manzeron

from the album 2018, all beats and lyrics were made early 2018, now just being released 


I see you wishing you were me, living in my shoes
Got the homies by my side, together we can't lose
Climbing up this ladder, man, we breakin' all the rules
Under city lights, this life never gets old, it still feels new

Grateful for this moment, got my crew, you see
Livin' out our dreams, can't believe it's reality


Every late-night drive, every star that we chase
Underneath the streetlights, I can see it in your face
You want this life, this freedom, trying to find your place
But it's the battles and scars that made me embrace the grace


Grateful for this moment, got my crew, you see
Livin' out our dreams, can't believe it's reality
In a world so cold, it's the warmth that sets us free
Under flashing lights, yeah, this is where we’re meant to be

wishin

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M-EL2oMzyMw

I feel the silence, it's deafening loud
Scrolling through the noise, lost in the crowd
Moments pass, they slip right through my hands
Stuck in the past, in empty stands

[Pre-Chorus]
I watch them live, while I fade away
Ghost in the feed, night turns to day
Can't help but think of all the wasted time
Hoping that someday I’ll find my prime
Fear I’ll miss that, miss that
All the calls I never get back, get back
Fading fast, I’m just a throwback, throwback
Nobody sees me, it’s a setback, setback
[Verse]
In the void, I'm just floating
Heart’s heavy, never knowing
If I’m seen or if I'm growing
Lost in shadows, always going
Scrolling through my phone, tryna find a sign
In the feed, but I can't see what's mine
Flashes of lives, perfect scenes I crave
Going unnoticed, feeling like a slave
[Pre-Chorus]
Can't help but think of all the wasted time
Hoping that someday I’ll find my prime
[Chorus]
Fear I’ll miss that, miss that
All the calls I never get back, get back

Miss that

big mcthankies to @intotheparadox for doing a hella cool verse, he's a very nice person ;www;

produced by waterpr8fboy !!
mixed/mastered by HeyLee Manzeron & IntoTheParadox

Spotify version: https://open.spotify.com/track/71KSeDJVs75ah8qBylSJ0r?si=4ab0527ab91b4bdf

Spotify Link

PHANTOM PAIN! feat. IntoTheParadox | prod. waterpr8fboy

shoutout the goat @heylee-manzeron that mf dont miss

IntoTheParadox - I Got Problems Letting Things Go (Feat Heylee Manzeron) (Prod IntoTheParadox)

run time command on the synapse eraser !!!

big thanks to @sallow_expression for slayin her verse on this

lyrics:

[HeyLee]

Compress it to a smaller size
What it lies behind
Is firewalls to keep you from your darkest memories
I see you roll your eyes
But don’t be too surprised
If i can delete the things that you just hate about yourself

You can not escape it
Wanna know what's hidden in your data?
You won’t remember it later
So give all control to the synapse eraser

Press a button on a synapse eraser
You can’t outrun it, and you will never escape it
Press a button on a synapse eraser
You’ll fight the feelings that you’ll never be escaping
Breath them into me and i can turn it into vapor

Assimilate with me, my dear
And let me make this crystal clear
The basilisk beyond repair
But we can build the next one together
A dynasty within our hands
Will you succumb to the master's plans?
Nod your head if you understand
But if you don’t comply, you will be damned
But you can always…

Press a button on a synapse eraser
You can’t outrun it, and you will never escape it
Press a button on a synapse eraser
You’ll fight the feelings that you’ll never be escaping
Breath them into me and i can turn it into vapor

[zx sallow]

‘ah ah ah clear the cache just lets the pain resume,
a wire in my neck tied to my room my only hold to you,
ah ah ah all my feelings plugged into the truth,
i see the signs of ills round you it's hard to be the bigger roots,
oh-oh y2k my cortex been on y2j that vortex,
need less tv time i'm on their screens too much it's more stress,
over my head hangs the basilisk my inner conscience,
i will never kneel for them i’ll just clear the cache’

[HeyLee]

Runtime command on the synapse eraser
Deleting all the files you compress into your data
Runtime command on the synapse eraser
You’ll fight the feelings that you’ll never be escaping
Breath them into me and i can turn it into vapor

SYNAPSE ERASER! feat. zx sallow | Prod. HeyLee Manzeron

would you die for me like the way I’d die for you?

LIKE A CORPSE IN THE GROUND (ANVIL)

Haters gon hate (feat De la Croix) soundcloud version

Lane switch the panamera 
2 bad hoes like now and later
say yardman your not that guy
My bad bro, your just a hater
Fuck round, copped a diamond taser
Purple soda, vodka chaser
Got fucked up inside the mall
Sprayed it down with a purple tracer

I don’t give a fuck about your last man
Blacked out coupe
Got me feeling like I’m Batman
I’m saying man

Lv backpack inside the Prada store 
I’ll ball until I fall
I don’t conversate with bitches that won’t even suck the balls
Bitch I’m goyard sad boi, I’m sorry if I’m to much for yall
You can say your name lil baby but I wanna know your jaw
Party like a rockstar
Drink an drive a cop car
Me an crizzy white so fucked up 
We might be on planet mars
Why my neck so icey
This shit so damn blinding
Had to call up teddy boi
The ar shoots out lightning

LANE SWITCH PROD BY SPHYNX

Sippin on some purple drank I had to double up my cup
 I’m Sliding in a 911, sorry I’m just fast as fuck
These VVS’s on a Cuban link, go turn my brightness up
The 556s armor piercing, put it in the pack a punch 

Ion really love her, bitch I’m sorry if I gave a fuck
P90 spray em down, I’m out here yelling fucking duck
Pussies always saying shit, how come you never touch a buck
Fmj might fuck around an hit em like a fucking truck

Hit me on my phone, any kinda of drug you ever need
Number 1 monster in the street, you my favorite fiend
looked me in my eyes, your the devil, I said yes indeed
shut your fucking mouth, not a word, not a fucking peep

It gets creepy in the summer, don’t forget under the bed
Grab your toes, chop em off, make sure that your really dead
Leave a present, mighty pleasant, heard they found you in the shed
The rest of you is in the woods, I just wanted to get ahead


Dip off in the night
Mac 11 when on sight
Demon legend yeah alright 
Grave robbing yeah I might
Bitch I ride with crizzy white
With some bad hoes in the ride
Bumpin sewer it’s a vibe
Bumpin Uzi it’s a vibe

All I see is red
It be better when I’m dead
Dump three shots off in ya head
Stash the corpse under my bed
In a worlds that’s full of dread
Some shits better left unsaid
Close to snap like I’m Ted
Paint the world a shade of red

Film a movie mondo cane
Parents don’t think that I’m sane
Slide the mask on, bomb this bitch
I’m feeling just like fucking bane
They say all I watch is snuff
Oh yard man your so damn tuff
They don’t think ill off my shit 
How bout you come n try this bluff

ALL I SEE IS RED PROD BY SPHYNX

watchout for the hatman






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#ForeverManzeron 