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@ipodfreakx
anytime u dancing with me time goes slow mo
and im making music 4u our love is like snow
im so inlove when im with u im in the stars
im so fucked up baby hate me , our love wont go far

youre so inlove but im a reject that can die
and im so inlove but i cant confess im to terrified
my wrist are open to you baby common let me die
and im calling 4u baby in this stupid lullaby

and ur tossing me away just like im a stupid doll
common baby hit me up cause you know i will do it all
im so obsess with you bae i will throw my life away
im such a dumb reject that wants to decay

if ur not for me baby dont hit me up otherwise
and im to drunk making songs 4 a normal life
and im so dumb ya u was waiting for my demise
demons taking over baby my stomach is open wide

in the club girls on me money fall to the floor
idk whats wrong with me i love it when u decide to mourn
idk anymore ur acting like a whore
and idk whats up with u i love it when u cut more

cute cat girl yea she want me in her life
common baby hit me up cause yk im ur only one

IM YOUR ONLY ONE

let me die

##i0pfr3aks
##CRYINGONXTC

HIT ME ON INSTA FOR A FEAT OR A BEAT !!!!

if i die, bury me with spiders.
𝖘𝖙𝖋𝖚 // 𝖎𝖓𝖘𝖆𝖓𝖊

if you want to read what’s bellow feel free if not it’s fine
I was just feeling very depressed so i wanted to write it somewhere





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[The worst day of my life]


am i falling to a void? maybe
is it good or bad? I don’t know
this “thing” that i feel is it worthlessness? or is it hopelessness? I don’t know either but one thing that I’m sure of is that I’m still falling

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I remember now, that… day… the kind you’ll never want to remember but something always make you go back to that… day… you can’t escape from it and you will never be able to, that’s your “fate” because “HE” decided it.

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I woke up that day feeling happy, went to school, and then came back home, i did my homework, and then i went out to play with my friends until 7pm, then came back home and i went to eat with my family at the table.
It was a “happy day” still but soon after it wouldn’t be anymore. I remember EVERYTHING, the blood, the heavy breathing, the tears, the vomit, the sleeplessness, the shadows, the voices, how my “life” as a 9yrs old came to an end…..


(wait am i remembering something wrong? Friends?Family? Voices? The blood? From who? Who was i crying for? I know him right? Who would i cry if not someone that i know, but do I actually remember who they are or not? I wanna think that i do… but… what are they like, how do they look, what were they for me, a friend? a sibling?
a parent? or everything? I don’t know, even though i wanna know i can’t do it anymore i’ll never be able to.)

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this is weird i seem to have forgotten something.
a face… wait a face? they have a face but how did it look like?

ah… i get it now that’s why lately I’ve been feeling so sad, it’s because of that I don’t remember that face anymore… 
oh… i-i-i’m actually crying I thought that felling didn’t existed more within me but it seems that i’m wrong, is the reason they’re “haunting” me because I’ve forgotten their face it has to be right?.

maybe I deserve it right?
it’s been almost ten years from “that” day and i still haven’t been able to move on
but… what do you think i could have done, they were the light of my world, the sustain of my world, they bringed joy and happiness to my world, so… isn’t obvious that if such person disappeared i would be lost right?

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I expected my life will be better if someone helped me
but… no one… no one helped me not even what I considered my family, my sister? she lives her own life, for her i’m just a “sibling” that she can lie about and say to her friends that she’s a “good” sister, but when i needed her help she didn’t do anything, i even begged to her to help me and still nothing.
my mother the one that should always do something for their son… and what for why do i have a mother for if she’s not going to help me, she always makes me remember and tells that her life would have been better if I didn’t live and i know it’s true and that’s painful… really painful

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but it’s fine it’s always fine right? yes that’s right i just need that to come true and she can rest in peace


but before that i’ll try to live a “happy” life even though the feeling “true happiness” doesn’t exist for me

Before you end up reading this i wanna ask you something.


Do you think i’m still falling into a void?


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2007/09/13—XXXX/XX/XX
1992/11/26—2016/07/16


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