Whatsrealwhatsfake

Other 2

Feeling melancholy

👁

for what its worth, no ones perfect. no one ever will be perfect. i envy so many people, but in the end, thats just envying imperfection. 

Part 1 - grey
Part 2 - WRISTBROKEN
Part 3 - sick of faking it
Part 4 - being content with who i am // YELLOW

all parts mixed/mastered by me
prods in order - teemx, myreala, crxmson, emily/myreala
thanks to ryoma for helping with some effects on part 2
and also a special thanks to emily for the vocals on the outro.

this is only the beginning, be patient, i love you

to lose what you dont have

Mirror

prod by apollo (edited by me)
mixed/mastered by me

lost in my ways (apollo)

to the girl who only loved the concept of me, this is an ode to you

prod. ghost orchard

lyrics :

whatever you want them to be




it's lonely in your bedroom

is it really you cover + prod. kizutsuku flip

ty all for the incredible amount of support this year.
cover art conceptualized by me
prod. @genshibeats

~~lyrics~~
(can’t breathe, can’t speak)
(when i’m full of regret)
(you stomped on me)
(with your foot on my neck)
(i cant believe that you didn’t accept)
(that you didn’t accept)
(that you didn’t accept)

can’t breathe, can’t speak
when i’m full of regret
you stomped on me
with your foot on my neck
i cant believe that you didn’t accept
nor see the huge gauge
inside of my chest

oh god i tried to do what i can
i’m sorry your world was in my hands
but the thing was
you couldn’t seem to comprehend
just how detached i really am

four to the dome
somebody just take me home
it’s been a long fucking night
of people coming at my throat
could never do anything right
it’s your hand i wouldn’t hold
i wouldn’t do it outta spite
i just had to let you go

so i peel it;
the skin that holds me back
never knew what i lacked- *throat gets slit bc stfu lol*
this isn’t as easy as it gets
couldn’t you see that i’m a wreck

falling outta place
like an angel out of grace
i just wanna get a taste
for the love of what is fake
i didn’t seem to make
any use of any snakes
all it took was a mistake
NOW I’M BARING HEAVY FANGS!!! >:(

can’t breathe, can’t speak
when i’m full of regret
you stomped on me
with your foot on my neck
i cant believe that you didn’t accept
nor see the huge gauge
inside- side of my-

ha, ha, ha
break, break, break
fa, la, la
don’t be late
knot, knot, knots
causing pain!!
who i’m not is who you hate >:’(

heavy fangs [prod. genshi]

prod/mixed/mastered by me :)

sorry for the big ass absence, im back now (sorta).



-lyrics-

bitch back from the dead
actin like a bitch get a shot to his head
trapped up in my room and the glock leave mess when we run up on ya block you gon bark to da feds
comin from my heart, you a bitch, no stress
comin off a loss so you stay big stressed
fuck a gc, send the addy up instead
when you barking to the bitch, she done showed us what u said
yuh

bitch you never fucking matching what we doing 
you just talking hella crazy on some weird shit
yuh
bitch i came to kill em its on sight
leave em dead up in the lot
cant clean my knife

stabbing with a knife up in my pocket
lost a couple of my brothers
on some weird shit
empty out a full clip
nah
slashing at em blood on my fit
its been a minute leave em drippin got a feelin aint no real in yall

u did great :) (myreala)

havent posted in a lil lmao, hi

mixed/mastered by me
beat 1 prod me nd foreign burial 
beat 2 prod me

(ill put the lyrics later)

mocha (myreala)

im not right here.

You can’t relate.

Lyrics:
I feel like I’m running afraid 
I feel like I’m going insane 
I need this to stop 
It’s hurting my Brain 
Locked in my room 
There’s no one to blame 
I say I love you but you don’t feel the same 
Yeah 
You don’t feel the same.

I fell in love In September 
Then she broke my heart in December 
Heart racing
I’ve been hallucinating 
Fucked up I’ve been too sedated 
We fucked bitch but we never dated 
I hate you girl you say it’s complicated 
You hurt my head I’m so irritated.

I Hate December<\3

my arms are always so sore
im tired of getting up
i just wanna give up
and im tryna be more like myself
but i cant help being someone else
i dont know what to do
my heart is beating out my chest
and its getting faster by the second 
im secluded now
not making rational decisions
finding work arounds to try and fix it now
cant fix it now 

(i dont wanna be, i dont wanna be alone)

i dont wanna be alone
i dont wanna be alone

now tell me what you'd say
it's not over yet <3

it's not over yet

@55depths

video:
https://youtu.be/uVgZnDtL1X4

track 1, an introduction to:
"si tu veux"

a deep dive into 3 pivotal relationships of the past.

lyrics:
you're running back and forth inside my head
like the thought of death
the beginning to an end
if you want
we can forget it all
you left me to fall
all alone
again

calling me out
you're pulling me down
a night all alone
to bring you home
seems real easy
real easy
calling me out
you're pulling me down
a night all alone
to bring you home
seems real easy
real easy

will you pick up
(as i'm thrown into the fire)
i've been calling on the phone
(the ashes of the past)
will you pick up
(serve forever as a reminder)
i'm tired of being alone
(that i'm always pushing higher)
will you pick up
(that i want to get better)
i've been calling on the phone
(that i need to get better)
will you pick up
(that i have to forget her)
i'm tired of being alone
(but this pain never gets better)

calling

art by @ine_mao on twt

the most personal song i've written, surprisingly all in 30 minutes wow!!!
https://open.spotify.com/album/6iYZytUxcpM4ouTNvkwPhR?si=_Lb42YCqTgWAcPKlwwow6w

ok so,

my friends move the country from coastline to coast 
my mother keeps flowers hung up on the post
it’s one of those days, the hummingbird prays 
if god does exist, well, does he love me the same?

the medicine does only what it’s been told 
i wash up the plates and i fold all the clothes 
i breathe for your praise, you just find it strange (it's just kind of weird)
the human rejections a sign of the change

lately i don't know why i can't make up the time
spoil your atrophy, the happy ending's casualty
i sit and stare for summer's end
my wrist will throb, my heart will bend
but all for you, i'd do it all again

so brother, how you been? 

(do it again, i can't pretend you're not fading away from me now)x2
dadadadada

I Hate December<\3

IRIS