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my phone is where she lives
i rlly like her and i think that she knows this
i know that she wont give a shit
i have no hope ya
im a pessimist 
plz save me before the razor hits my wrist 

when ur sleeping all i think about is us
wish we could be together we would have like sm fun  
a although u show me signs 
i treat them as tricks playing on my mind
         
she wishes for an affectionate man
thankfully thats all i am 
while i make her smile
988 is on the dial
if u wont pick me
im not worth ur while
im not the best at anything 
so why would i compete 
if i blow my head off
will i be complete?
i wanna be ur someone 
this summer
our gloomy lives
will see the light

i dont wanna be pessimistic anymore Prod odihu

prod @bloodsekai

2d girls on my phone they're so nice and loveable
i'd never turn my back they could trust me
real girls aren't like this we get pitied

some think im funny and thats about it
one said she'd date me if i was different
didnt rlly get it cuz it wouldnt b me
but i understand now she just doesnt like me
i don't think that i could ever let me date them
whole standard thing makes me hate em
im a loser for the way that i think
but i rlly dont care cuz the world stinks

all the sols i've watched all the losers that i saw
they all ended up in love so why haven't i won
it really doesnt make sense to me
every girl should die unless they're 2d

i love 2d girls and hope all real women die
4x
hope when i die i get isekai'd
get welcomed home from a girl in my camera roll

real women should die @iloveanimegirls

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do u feel it when i kiss the phone
all the butterflies
that are in my heart when u say u love me 
i dont like when u 
distance from me
can u put ur chest
on my body 

theres no more fish inside the river 
disappointed i head back to my pond 
luckily 
i have u
u stick out like a lonely swan 
lonely swan b my pawn 
make it to the end and gain my trust 
n b my queen 
lets get out of the scene
go m.i.a.
turn on dnd

dont hit my phone im in paradise
one glance at her and i melt like ice
told her i love her so much 
i wanna suffice 
she said she wants me to stay by her side
i said gladly i'll b ur knight 
b my lantern b my light 
guide me through the darkness
lets feed on each other 
no need to harvest 

i wanna ask how u think of me 
am i the boy u rlly need 
i've been broken before girls gave up on me 
am i all that u have i wanna believe 

am i the one u need
am i the only one that you'll ever see
ur the only one that i need
just prove one thing to me 
do u feel it when i kiss u thru the phone 
all the butterflies when i say i love u 
i know i've distanced from you
but i need u to trust me the way i trust u

lonely swan Prod bloodsekai

prod me

im a loser
all my friends they hate me
such a boozer
5 bottles of poison per day
theres nothing redeeming
about me im screaming
the words that ur thinking
they say

im so lame im such a slob
got no car and got no job
all my grades are falling down
holy shit i cant do this now

i cant make a single person laugh
the silence is so thick
i could cut it in half

i cant even express how i feel
cuz im super fucking shy
it just makes me wanna cry

im a loser
all my friends they hate me
such a boozer
5 bottles of poison per day
theres nothing redeeming
about me im screaming
the words that ur thinking
they say

poison

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prod me
@bloodsekai @odihu

i cant, i cant feel or digest
hard to eat when i get upset  
on this feeling
everybody calls love
i cant, i cant feel or digest
hard to eat when i get upset  
on this feeling
everybody calls love

im so scared
im on my own
spent 8 days
with a dry phone
cant recall
when i went out
its so dark
im all alone
i feel like im a monster
i always get so mad
i turn away from u
put the world against my back

i cant, i cant feel or digest
hard to eat when i get upset  
on this feeling
everybody calls love
i cant, i cant feel or digest
hard to eat when i get upset  
on this feeling
everybody calls love

im so shuttled in
and i wish life was different
im a joke who am i kidding
so much things my life is missing
like a summer ant 
im stomped on and forgotten
i think my soul is rotten
im just steadily just falling 


i cant, i cant feel or digest
hard to eat when i get upset  
on this feeling
everybody calls love
i cant, i cant feel or digest
hard to eat when i get upset  
on this feeling
everybody calls love

monster

monster (ft. bloodsekai & odihu)

@bloodsekai @foreverstained

sitting in the back of class
why do i feel so attached?
i dont wanna ever go back
to the way it was cuz it was sad
everyone sits and stares
i look around like i don't care
it's so mundane
like everyday
it's so mundane 
like everyday

i always feel excluded
i wanna be included
why's everyone so ruthless?
good thoughts been so elusive  
walking around with no change of face
i wanna be like u so bad
joking & laughing everyday
inconvenient, my heart lacks 
i wanna be like u so bad

sitting in the back of class
why do i feel so attached?
i dont wanna ever go back
to the way it was cuz it was sad
everyone sits and stares
i look around like i don't care
it's so mundane
like everyday
it's so mundane 
like everyday

i miss when i could jus smile it off
recently i've been finding myself pissed off
scrolling on twitter, it feels like tinder
every girl's in love, i wanna wither
it forces me to always remember 
what i once had yea i miss her
seems like i just want attention 
but i promise i have good intentions
disconnected from my friendships 
broke my antennas i have no reception 
every girl hates loverboys they just want manipulators 
i dont wanna be that guy but i could really treat u greater
every nights the same thing im begging someone saves me
why does it feel like everyone hates me?

sitting in the back of class
why do i feel so attached?
i dont wanna ever go back
to the way it was cuz it was sad
everyone sits and stares
i look around like i don't care
it's so mundane
like everyday
it's so mundane 
like everyday

bloodsekai & lifeless - i can't find joy in anything anymore

@bloodsekai girl despaired instrumental 

i cant find anything to do
i wanna say that i love you
blackpilled thoughts consume
im starting to see the truth
im just nothing like them
i dont remember whens-
the last time someone called
and say id get thru it all 
validations all i seek
as much as they say u dont need
reservations cancelled 
with a face like mine who would go

reservations cancelled - lifeless

i look at her and then she looks at me
she can see me blush through the computer screen
she jumps into my arms and falls just like a tree
she says in mellow tone can you please be with me like
meow
meoeoeoeoeoeow
meooooeoooow
meoeoeooow
meoeoeoooow

oh i don't think i can
resist the way u talk to me
u help me by existing
u move my heart by twisting till it beats
oh i'm really nothing special
and sometimes im a handful
but u make things eventful
so i can cheer as long as ur here
i dont want u to go so stay with me
don't disappear
i know things can get hard
but i can make it be so clear
so stay with me
stay with me
pls dont leave
pls dont leave

i look at her and then she looks at me
she can see me blush through the computer screen
she jumps into my arms and falls just like a tree
she says in mellow tone can you please be with me like
meow
meoeoeoeoeoeow
meooooeoooow
meoeoeooow
meoeoeoooow

(when u look at me
i cant help but wonder
why u wouldnt leave
u know im a fuckup)

when u look at me
baby i cant help but wonder
why u wouldnt leave
u know that im such a fuckup

baby pls i beg dont go
i need u more than u could ever know
i need ur texts on my phone
i need ur love it gives me hope

baby i want u to hold me
thru this damn computer
eternalized in the screen so i dont lose her

i look at her and then she looks at me
she can see me blush through the computer screen
she jumps into my arms and falls just like a tree
she says in mellow tone can you please be with me like
meow
meoeoeoeoeoeow
meooooeoooow
meoeoeooow
meoeoeoooow

nyaa w bloodsekai & yuki

prod me

want a human body
i dont wanna stay inside this shell
ill break away with styros cus
i rlly fucking hate myself
my mind gets stuck on things
that i jus wanna forget
repeating again n again
i wont escape this hell

im not good at normal stuff
at least thats what u told me
im so fucking done with love
need someone to console me

sometimes i look at myself
i got blood on my hands
blood on my hands
bloody tissues surround me
u wouldnt understand
u wouldnt understand

want a human body
i dont wanna stay inside this shell
ill break away with styros cus
i rlly fucking hate myself
my mind gets stuck on things
that i jus wanna forget
repeating again n again
i wont escape this hell
x2

u wouldn't understand

prod @bloodsekai ft @foreverstained

@yukisasayaki:
always talkin under my breath
im so insecure ever since u left
but i cant move on n im so depressed
cus being with u rlly was the best

nothing belongs
cant right my wrongs
cant write no songs for shit
nothin ever matters n i wont let it
cus i hate my life n im pessimistic

@foreverstained:
i just cant do nothing by myself
i need u here to keep me well
i feel like i dont belong
i'll never get what i want
what i want is u
i wish ud want me to
my aggression grows
why would i let go

@yukisasayaki:
always talkin under my breath
im so insecure ever since u left
but i cant move on n im so depressed
cus being with u rlly was the best

nothing belongs
cant right my wrongs
cant write no songs for shit
nothin ever matters n i wont let it
cus i hate my life n im pessimistic

i kno u dont feel the same
but its racking up in my brain
n its causin all sorts of pain 
crack the picture n the frame
it wont ever be the same
what else have u got to gain?
i dont wanna play this game
i dont wanna play this game

right my wrongs w/ lifeless

hi i have an ig so uym like follwo plzsddsaswededwsfefrsdgtdfrghzx

you think that you're pretty, i think that you're annoying
you only talk about urself, so let's save it for the morning
you said deep down we're the same
do u mind that ur driving me insane?
im always in pain
i feel sick but lets save it for another day

lets save it for another dayy 2x

reservations cancelled - lifeless

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