bad mix sorry @bloodsekai

seems like no party without me
i show up n everyone marks me
i know that i ruin the mood
think i came into ur lives way too soon
acknowledge my nonsense
i dont know what i am
cant find love
or hope
incel
i know
i'll die alone
just let me hear 3 syllables

say u hate me say i hate u
i hate u
i hate u
i hate u
i hate u
i hate u
2x

i know the truth i belong nowhere Prod bloodsekai

demo

im so down on my calories
im wasting all my energy
my bmi is in the negatives
im too afraid to
ask for help
my social anxiety
its getting hard for me

u say that im selfish and i never treat u right
but pls know that i did it all for u
i did it i did it I DID IT ALL FOR U
I DID IT I DID IT I DID IT ALL FOR U OHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I DID IT I DID IT I DID IT ALL FOR U

did it all for you (acoustic demo)

https://open.spotify.com/track/5QTBwgAkE6HuG3wxwe5zFt?si=320d9379b8a1403e

locked inside my room again
thinking about u again
is this really how its gonna end 
i wish u'd b my girlfriend

i trust u never once worried
thought i was rushing things i didnt wanna hurry
u wanna keep me safe i dont want u to hurt me too 
but its impossible if i just really love u 

and i do
and i do 
i rlly do 
and i do
2x

im awaiting
will this go 
how im thinking

i have faith in god 
cuz this is no mistake
almost gave up but i had to stop
cuz i know my love isnt fake
just be urself please
i'll be pleased
i'd do it all for u 
to make u happy 
im not the dirty type 
but lets get zappy
i love ur selfies
and ur body 
its not over cuz i like u 
u could reject me its ok dont be scared to 

thought i lost then, i just didnt know
its not the end yea i have hope 
so stressed im sweating bury me in snow
clipping my nails with my teeth i wanna slit my throat

waitingwaiting Prod bloodsekai

one take ill step on the gas
im going way too fast
hoping that i dont crash
hoping that my life lasts
im feeling way to horrible
my mind is feeling really dull
ive been out of it lately
i think everyone hates me
feels like its constant raining
and that theres no escaping
ive been getting thoughts in my head 
text her phone dont leave me on read
i dont even know what you said
i look like such a fucking mess
spin out of control and idk what to do
if i was to rot today i would still think about you

ive been out of it lately :(

@bloodsekai

prod me w/ @1zakuro

logging off
i feel so sad
lie in bed
i can't go back
i just cope
why am i so mad?
can't fit in
i'm always last
logging off
i feel so sad
lie in bed
i can't go back
i just cope
why am i so mad?
can't fit in
i'm always last

im so shut in
i thought u knew that
and once its in my head
i cant go back
i cant login
or ill get attached
because
i hate egirls that are online
waste all my money and my time
think im just betteroffline

logging off
i feel so sad
lie in bed
i can't go back
i just cope
why am i so mad?
can't fit in
i'm always last
logging off
i feel so sad
lie in bed
i can't go back
i just cope
why am i so mad?
can't fit in
i'm always last

i hate egirls that are online
waste all my money and my time
think im just better offline

bloodsekai - im better offline w/ zakuro

@bloodsekai

happy birthday plob, happy birthday
have a good plob, have a good day
happy birthday plob, happy birthday
have a good plob, have a good day

it might be 9 o clock
i might be late to say
my brains so fucking rot
i made a song today
i hope u had good cake
i hope u feel okay
cuz when u turn this age
u gotta celebrate

bloodsekai - happy plob day

@bloodsekai girl despaired instrumental 

i cant find anything to do
i wanna say that i love you
blackpilled thoughts consume
im starting to see the truth
im just nothing like them
i dont remember whens-
the last time someone called
and say id get thru it all 
validations all i seek
as much as they say u dont need
reservations cancelled 
with a face like mine who would go

reservations cancelled - lifeless

can u see my face am i okay?
im scared of everything i think that im in the way
it feels like mission impossible
i cant do anything (i forgot)
im scared of my future
im such a stupid loser
i think that im so scared
nothing i can run to
all i know is that im weak on the inside
my true emotions wont show and just hide
casue im so vulnerable
im a let down my head is dull
im so weak i think that its killing me
desperate ugly one hug is all i need
one day in hell me and the devil will met
ill write him a note then ill hang it from a tree



mission impossible

a friend told me to reup this so here ya go



even when u drank my blood
i loved ur every move and touch

cause its not hard to realize
that if im gonna live like this ill die
and im an angel girl living in this world
and ive been corrupted ive sinned in front of you

am i a bad girl?
even in the morning time
but

im not a slut im not a whore
at the year 19 or 24
i havent ate since 8 days ago
i fear that i cant fit my clothes

starving
starving by myself
starving and crying
im okay with it of course
it was never where
to the point when i was around
it was not going well
in fact i even felt it in the eye


im not a slut im not a whore
at the year 19 or 24
i havent ate since 8 days ago
i fear that i cant fit my clothes










angelgirl cover

@bloodsekai @yukisasayaki

after hours of reflection, yesterday is always the worst

ft @yukisasayaki instrumental by me @deathsuppressant

everyday's disaster
don't ask me what's the matter
all my dreams are shattered
i can't make new ones even when i sleep

the glass i look through's tinted
my eyes are causing faults
and the concrete i walk on
there's cracks in all the spots
with your arms surrounding me
am i bothering you?
i'm harmful to everyone
yet i can't hurt you

everyday's disaster
don't ask me what's the matter
all my dreams are shattered
i can't make new ones even when i sleep

i cant stop it
ur not jus somebody
everything i could ask for yea u got it
i dont wanna hurt u
yea i said it
but i tend to fuck up yea i regret it

cant take the life out of me 
its constant pathetic fallacy
my fantasy
is all i see
but u shattered all my dreams
cant take it
ur all in my head
i dont care bout my problems
i embrace the dread
i dont care bout ur problems
or maybe i do
i want u to be happy
but im so confused

everyday's disaster
don't ask me what's the matter
all my dreams are shattered
i can't make new ones even when i sleep

reservations cancelled - lifeless

moxi dump