lyrics:
fill my lungs
drown my brain
with whatever you got
make me ok 

replace thought
with cocaine
(just as a disclaimer, coke isn't my doc, but it fit with the rhyme scheme <3 hence the proceeding lyrics)
make me what i was not
drive me insane

i am not
as innocent as i will plea
my thoughts they get the best of me
and these urges are strong 

i am lost
so suddenly i’m spiraling
into hell this angel screams
denouncing your god 
for promise
of 

salvation
can any other new world creation
make paradise without such temptation 
i think this best that we got

i’m aching
my sinuses are begging for oxygen
my stomach is in need of nutrition
but honestly i’m scared to wake up

i’ll try again
when i sober up


suck me dry 
take all life
not that it is worth much
there’s not much to take

take my soul 
body whole
but half of its weight
there’s not much to take

i am not
as content w this as i will plea
my thoughts they get the best of me
and these urges are strong 

i am lost
so suddenly i’m spiraling
into hell this angel screams
denouncing your god 
for promise
of 

salvation
can any other new world creation
make paradise without such temptation 
i think this best that we got

i’m aching
my sinuses are begging for oxygen
my stomach is in need of nutrition
but honestly i’m scared to wake up

i’d try again
but god am i fucked


never gonna sober up 
never thought i’d self destruct
never knew that pleasured hurt 
always knew i liked the burn 

god if you could see me now
i know i’d be cast out before 

what in hell is there to learn?

never gonna sober up 
never thought i’d self destruct
never knew that pleasured hurt 
always knew i liked the burn 

god if you could see me now
i know i’d be cast out before 

what in your heaven can i yearn?

never gonna sober up 
never thought i’d self destruct
never knew that pleasured hurt 
always knew i liked the burn 

god if you could see me now
i know i’d be cast out before 

but i did all of this on this earth 


seeking my own salvation
can any other new world creation
make paradise without such temptation 
i think this best that we got

i’m aching
my sinuses are begging for oxygen
my stomach is in need of nutrition
but honestly i’m scared to wake up

i’ll try again

purgatory of drugs (accoustic demo :) )

Deus 
acima 
segurá-la 
para nós 

meu corpo e-
stá doendo 
não to entendendo 


mas eu sei que tudo é destino 
mesmo que seja desconhecido 
envie mais uma mensagem 
eu te amo, tenho saudade

eu sei que tudo é destino 
tudo chega seu término 
envie mais uma mensagem 
eu te amo, tenho saudade

sorriso
para ela
segurá-la
em alegria
viver
e amar
respirar
mais um dia


por eu sei que tudo é destino 
mesmo que seja desconhecido 
envie mais uma mensagem 
eu te amo, tenho saudade

eu sei que tudo é destino 
tudo chega seu término 
envie mais uma mensagem 
eu te amo, tenho saudade

as ondas
vão acabar
e a areia
vai secar quando ela chegar

toda a água
era áspera 
más no céu todas praias são calmas


e eu sei que tudo é destino 
mesmo que seja desconhecido 
envie mais uma mensagem 
eu te amo, tenho saudade

eu sei que tudo é destino 
tudo chega seu término 
envie mais uma mensagem 
eu te amo, tenho saudade

waves

as praias do céu

C Am f g
E C#m A B
happy 2 months 
to my skin
oh life has been rough
i won’t give in oh 
time heals all 
i’m watching the days fade by

happy 2 days 
since i’ve been sober
trading the pain
one low for another
time heals all 
i’m sleeping and then i’m high

f g am g
off acid and xanax
spewing out nonsense
blacked for days
im losing my conscience 
i don’t remember 
if i am better
i don’t remember 
whether 

f c am g
i have grown or wilted
roots are barely planted
who the hell invented 
these grocery store plants
they all wind up dead in time
i water with wine
under fluorescent white light
how can i live my life when 
grocery store plants 
all wind up dead in time

C Am f g
i’m fertilizing 
with powdered white lines
photosynthizins 
hard when ur starving
time heals all 
in winter i’m sure to die
i’m surviving off

f g am g
off acid and xanax
spewing out nonsense
blacked for days
im losing my conscience 
i don’t remember 
if i am better
i don’t remember 
whether 

f c am g
i have grown or wilted
roots are barely planted
who the hell invented 
grocery store plants these
they all wind up dead in time
i water with wine
under fluorescent white light
how can i live my life when 
grocery store plants 
all wind up dead in time

grocery store plants

violets and roses
violent currents
vib-erant sunsets w
very short lifespans
each 
too sweet
to chew

buttercup kisses
blistered cut lips n
beautiful whispers
bewildered with words
mind
runs wild
confused

f g am 
n all because
i gave too much 
caved, eyes shut
let myself go
without usual holding 
my heart
too tight
to lose

C g am g
love like this can hurt
losing all my words
leaving common sense
behind
brave and shy 
break my mind 
bruise my spine
learn 
to love you yet preserve 
breathing in
and getting high
braving heights 
breaking all my nerves
love like this can hurt


tropical vodka
too tipsy to stop
taking each line w
tragic excitement
stop
while i’m 
ahead

scratches n hickeys
so close i’m faking
sweet little kisses
silence is risky
mind
runs wild
with you

lovn u, will hurt 2 lose u

F AM G a7
the air is thick 
anticipation seeping through our skin
i blink 
i’m waiting for a certain sort of sin 
i’m be having
well i hope you’ll reward me

your skin is cold
contrasting your whole character
i think i know
the rest of this whole night is ours alone
to hold
touch me places darling hold me close

am c 
make me feel alive
this passion is all that i have tonight 
and darling oh i swear that it’s alright
if touching leads to nothing 
hold me tight 
collecting every breath and heavy sigh 
this passion is all that i have tonight 
and darling oh i swear that it’s alright
if touching leads to nothing 
hold me tight 

F AM G a7
skin to skin 
i’m taking it all off consider
this a win
love can taste so bitter
on your lips, i kiss
grab my neck 
cause baby i’m your bitch 

am c 
make me feel alive
this passion is all that i have tonight 
and darling oh i swear that it’s alright
if touching leads to nothing 
hold me tight 
collecting every breath and heavy sigh 
this passion is all that i have tonight 
and darling oh i swear that it’s alright
if touching leads to nothing 
hold me tight

touch (voice memo)

beauty until it destructs
c am f g 
paper on our tongues
laughter out our lungs
u took a video of me 
mesmerized in peace
n when you saw that i was overwhelmed
you ushered me to get the hell off the floor
n u hold me more oh

astigmatism strong
lines are growing long 
you sat and watched the stars with me
lichrally twinkling 
that’s when you ushered us back into bed
we laughed n gasped oh how you take my breath 
i loved it then but 

am g c f 
every geodes
been corroded
favorite colors
get annoying 
dams can hold the water 
for so long 

every drug is
getting boring
fiending for some
oxytocin 
take it all to only 
sober up 

beauty until it
destructs 

c am f g 
ya damn adhd
is the most precious thing
oh i believe that i could hear you speak 
for hours on about nothing 
i listen til you fall asleep 
but in my brain the visuals went bleak 
hide my tears and leave oh 

i do this every time
when things are going fine
i tend to overanalyze 
i hate my fuckin mind and it’s been
ruining my life
like every thing i touch is sure to die
you’re next in line oh 

am g c f 
every geodes
been corroded
favorite colors
get annoying 
dams can hold the water 
for so long 

every drug is
getting boring
fiending for some
oxytocin 
take it all to only 
sober up 

beauty until it
destructs 

how do you love a living bomb 
each morning waiting to go off 
yet you defuse it 
out of love

funny how quick people shift
i’m holding on to good moments
they’re slipping through 
my finger tips, they’re gone

oh god i love you more than life
i guess that’s why this fuse ignights

i’m praying every night to stay alive
i’m praying that you’re safe from my mines 
i’m praying i won’t lose my life line 

oh 

am g c f 
every geodes
been corroded
favorite colors
get annoying 
dams can hold the water 
for so long 

every drug is
getting boring
fiending for some
oxytocin 
take it all to only 
sober up 

beauty until it
destructs 


I love you so fucking much. Oh did you hear about that story of the kid that… oh wait yeah what I was saying, you are the light of my life and I’m not the next one in line. If anything I will be last. I adore u. You are so insanely talented this is so beautiful baby

i am in love with you <3 words cannot explain how many little mental health n ocd n trauma things you have helped me over come, it’s very little things but they r important to me and i notice them. i will love you forever and always and life is so beautiful with you :)


I love you. So much. My mind wants to die tonight and I’m in control if him. You are the sweetest, cutest, king, carting. SMART.  Incredibly smart. Insane. I’ll miss you. No matter what happens. If that 1% of chance a is  things we’ make it.

We could have done this. If it were okay you, you would be in my life since I was born. I don’t know where I got water and snacks but boy I SAY TRUUUUUND.

I love you more than words can express. More than my messy Sun could describe  a gorgeous <vagan>  that only eats sun made food 🤔

I love you all. No one’s fault.
Peace out, see ya in the next one 💗👾

don’t die pls
i sad

beauty until it destructs (voice memo)

Am C G G*
you don’t understand 
how bad it has been
i love you too damn much
that it just sucks
too watch you fall to sin

i don’t give a damn 
do what helps you live
cause i’d be lying if
i didn’t say 
temptations pulled me in

F G C G G*
and after every goddamn line
i start to hate my fucking mind
cause i’m obsessed with truth
this game we play
is wanting us to lose

after everytime time i cry
i get scared you’ll leave my side
cause i’ve repressed these tears
for 20 years
n they say this is our prime?

F G Am G
n i don’t know what comes next
but if i had to take a guess
we fck n fall in love
until you’re done
putting up w this

you got me on my bruised knees
and i will beg each time i breathe
let’s fck n fall in love
until you come 
rewind n press repeat

darling please don’t leave
i love you oh so deeply 
i’ll just repress these feelings
hoping there’s peace
in your ketamine

just wish it could be me

Am C G G*
sleeping through the days
wasting life away 
and god i miss the way 
you hold my face
when i am not okay 

fuck the rules i’ve made
i may i go insane
i love you too damn much 
i’ll self destruct
to help you numb the pain

F G C G G*
and after every goddamn day
i start to hate my fucking brain
cause i freak out when plans change
this game that i plays
is wanting me to break

after everytime time i cry
i get scared you’ll leave my side
cause i’ve repressed these tears
for 20 years
n they say this is our prime?

F G Am G
n i don’t know what comes next
but if i had to take a guess
we fuck n fall in love
until you’re done
putting up w this

you got me on my bruised knees
and i will beg each time i breathe
let’s fuck n fall in love
until you come 
rewind n press repeat

darling please don’t leave
i love you oh so deeply 
i’ll just repress these feelings
hoping there’s peace
in your ketamine

just wish it could be me

fnfil.

F Am 
get me high 
i don’t need fuckin drugs to night
packing up a bowl uh luv tonight 
baby got me in the sky

hold me tight
touch me like i’m fuckin pure tonight
i’m show you all my love tonight
baby got me in the sky

f g c am
but i swear 
it’s fuckin innocent
bet on a lil sin
getcha fingers 
on my neck 
i’m losin every breath 
im forgetting every step
but i’m lovin it 

am 
god i wish that we’d do this
again 

doin it like i don’t have regrets

f am 
take me out
fuck me in the middle of the crowd
hands go up it’s all up to ya now
baby got me tied down

take my frown
make me laugh like i didn’t know how 
honestly i’m happier around
my baby got me tied down

f g c am
but i swear 
it’s fuckin innocent
bet on a lil sin
getcha fingers 
on my neck 
i’m losin every breath 
im forgetting every step
but i’m lovin it 

am 
god i wish that we’d do this
again 

doin it like i don’t have regrets

fuckin innocent

am f am g
how m-i supposed to cope?
when i’m the punchline of the joke 
i keep on making bad decisions 
i never thought that i’d be in this

and god i wonder what you do 
am i dramatic or are you 
i keep on making bad decisions
i never thought that id be in this

F c g am
another round will numb the pain
i’m glad youre out my way 
i’ll slowly detonate 
and fuck up everything
i gotta get you off my mind
and trust me babe i’m tryin 
i sure you hate that now i’m high 

just give me another guy 
give me another line
tequila light on ice
i’ll even buy another fucking mind

maybe it won’t get lost this time 

am f am g
i’m never going back 
it’s called a break let’s honor that
i keep on making bad decisions 
but i don’t think that’s countin leaving

F c g am
another round will numb the pain
i’m glad youre out my way 
i’ll slowly detonate 
and fuck up everything
i gotta get you off my mind
and trust me babe i’m tryin 
i sure you hate that now i’m high 

just give me another guy 
give me another line
tequila light on ice
i’ll even buy another fucking mind

maybe it won’t get lost this time

idk how 2 cope

pagan : 15
Em G C Am
oh god save me
i am spiraling
save me from thine
biggest enemy 
i am fed up
tired i’m done
kneeling it’s time
to rise up good bye
i’m 
begging god if 
you’re out there 
please save our lives
i’m convinced
earths a night mare
and so is life
grant me mercy on my soul 
lost in my prime
i’m no christian
but i’ll love thy neighbors wine

C G Em G
on my knees
begging mary to come for me
comfort me
in the absence of everything
having faith 
she’ll appear in a fall from grace 
and i’ll be saved 

goddess above
save these poor ones 
lost so sinful they’re
starved of your love
theyre preaching of sin
while living in it
i pray god’s merciful 
for his child’s so
hy po crit i cal 
i
beg you goddess 
you’re out there 
please save their lives
i’m convinced
faiths a night mare
and so is hymn
grant me mercy on my soul 
lost in my prime
i’m no christian
but i’ll drink thy neighbors wine

C G Em G
on my knees
aphrodite please come for me
comfort me
in the absence of everything
having faith 
she’ll appear in a fall from grace 
and i’ll be saved 

Em C
oh this old pagans
an advocate for the damned
repremanded and curs-ed
lend me your hand
your intentions stay pure as they reprimand 
and our gods 
our gods will handle them 

C G Em G
on my knees
aphrodite please come for me
comfort me
in the absence of everything
having faith 
she’ll appear in a fall from grace 
and i’ll be saved 

C G Em G
on my knees
ares please will you come for me
comfort me
in the absence of everything
having faith 
he’ll appear in a fall from grace 
and i’ll be saved 

C G Em G
on my knees
may the gods all please come for me
comfort me
in the absence of everything
having faith 
theyll appear in a fall from grace 
and i’ll be saved

oh god

trace amounts of nicotine and marijuana 

c am g f
fill my body numb feeling
with delta 8 n nicotine
i cante even smoke thc (real weed)
without my head spiraling
n yet i still chose to breathe
cause oxygen still chokes me
every time 

if i could i’d go too hard
id be drowned in raging waters
but i can’t even take 2 bars
without my body givin up
n yet ill still pop one more
id rather sleep on the floor
every night 
than deal w life

am g f g
how am i alive
how did i survive
every single
near death
experience
sprung from 
my innocence 
why aren’t i gone yet 
i don’t feel alive
i don’t remember life 
every time
i get high
i pray that i 
don’t die
but then again
i wont mind

if i died 
outside
of my mind

c am g f 
i dilute my glass of wine
when i drink every single night
cause i can’t handle bitter sweet
but this is how i take my drink 
i don’t wanna black out
i just wanna keep down
vodka sprites

i freak out when i’m sober
because the walls change color
and i feel like i’m insane
my last trips haven’t been the same
but i can’t close my eyes
because the visuals
still haunt my mind 
sober or high 

am g f g
how am i alive
how did i survive
every single
near death
experience
sprung from 
my innocence 
why aren’t i gone yet 
i don’t feel alive
i don’t remember life 
every time
i get high
i pray that i 
don’t die
but then again
i wont mind

if i died 
outside
of my mind

g am 
n god willing
my self destructive habits
catch up 
faster to me
i’ll finally 
plead

i’ll change
you’ll see

dont breathe 
for me

trace amnts of nicotine n marijuana

blood

c C-1 G A
livin this long may not
sean like a feat
but dammit i’m proud of myself

bleeding out slow may be
slightly concerning
blood letting the easier thing

when you live with the cobwebs
the spiders aren’t scary 
it’s people that frighten you most

when you live in a mansion 
your goblets not empty 
your plate remains filled by the host 

these people im spossed to love most

F C G
oh 
blood is thin 
anemias bout to set in 
to 
untouched skin 
now wrinkled 
by the hand of your kin
the original sin
of the birth i was
forced to begin 
wasn’t worth all the pain
of this life that i’m in 

growing thin
losin it
downing water again
cause this bloods boiling
and its filled with regrets
 
my water is thicker than this

c C-1 G A
running away may just 
seem so dramatic 
well baby i did theatre too 

and i am not able to
cope with these addicts
addicted to degrading you 

and i am so scared
of the future before me
the past was not kind in my youth

what if i don’t make it through

F C G
oh 
blood is thin 
anemias bout to set in 
to 
untouched skin 
now wrinkled 
by the hand of your kin
the original sin
of the birth i was
forced to begin 
wasn’t worth all the pain
of this life that i’m in 

growing thin
losin it
downing water again
cause this bloods boiling
and its filled with regrets
 
my water is thicker than this

blood

lovin you 
is some temporary booze for two 
and baby i know don’t drink
but hey tonight boy i was thinkin 
why don’t we just go get screwed

count my blessings 
god there’s few
but there’s one i can’t afford to lose
and babe before i go to heaven
i was hoping you would bless me
cause you’re who i kneel and pray to 

am f
every night before i go to bed
i give thanks for every word you’ve said
you are all i want and more
im hopin that you don’t
regret it in the end 

am
tell me you love me again
and i’ll say it back times 10
hold me like i was gonna fall 
cause babe i’m gonna stumble
i can’t get up i can’t 

you are the reason i can stand

darling sweet 
you are every piece of heart in me
i get scared of when it beats 
i get scared of everything
n youre my 
benzodiazepine

am f
every night before i go to bed
i give thanks for every word you’ve said
you are all i want and more
im hopin that you don’t
regret it in the end 

am
tell me you love me again
and i’ll say it back times 10
hold me like i was gonna fall 
cause babe i’m gonna stumble
i can’t get up i can’t 

you are the reason i can stand

darling sweet 
you are every piece of heart in me
i get scared of when it beats 
i get scared of everything
n youre my 
benzodiazepine


I wub u. Awuwu!!!

you are the reason i can stand

g g*
psilocin
listenin 
trippin in such
innocence

i’m losin 
indifference
do you want me
listenin

oh psilocybin 
i’m dying
my lover is crying
and i am in awh of their strength 

silly sighing
and whining
i’m overrelyin 
on people who’ve lost their own strength 

can you teach me 
what i know to be true
can you teach me
to be more loving to you

glistenin 
you’re glistenin
radiate
happiness

i love you 
sweet lyricist 
i love your 
sweet saddness 

oh psilocybin  
i’m dying
my lover is crying
and i am in awh of their strength 

silly sighing
and whining
i’m overrelyin 
on people who’ve lost their own strength 

can you teach me 
what i know to be true
can you teach me
to be more loving to you

psilocin

Flames

Corporate

Dream

c c am f g c
love of my life
open your eyes
i won’t leave your side
no matter what’s in your mind

i’ll still be here
every year
i’ll be here through strife
despite every low and high 

f g a g  am g c f
and i 
i pray 
this feeling will not fade away 
these colors you painted
too vivid fade 
i assure you i love every shade 

and i 
i know 
that you’ll be the one that i hold 
through every bad dream
i’m put there in the morning
i promise i won’t let you go

c g am g 
baby you’re the one i want
at my wedding day but not
simply in the seats
darling you’ll be kissing me

We baby you’re the one i want 
to grow older with but not
simply on this earth
i’ll love you forever n longer

you showed me what soul mates really were

c c am f g c
darling i know 
each part your soul
it’s so beautiful 
i’m proud of how much you’ve grown

thank you my love
i know that i’m rough
all you see are diamonds
you’ve helped me to learn to love 

f g a g  am g c f
and i 
i pray 
this feeling will not fade away 
we’ve been through way too much 
the waters may get rough
i’ll be here through every wave  

and i 
i know 
that you’ll be the one that i hold 
through every bad dream
i’m there in the morning
i promise i won’t let you go

c g am g 
baby you’re the one i want
at my wedding day but not
simply in the seats
darling you’ll be kissing me

baby you’re the one i want 
to grow older with but not
simply on this earth
i’ll love you forever n longer


forgive me each time i blush 
you give me a brand new rush 
you’re my favorite high 
wanna have you every night 

and if you get overwhelmed
i’ll be patient with yourself
i can be a lot 
it’s only cause i feel so much 

we’ve made promises we’ve broke
but there’s one i won’t let go 
an important one
i’ll remind you in this song 

c g am g 
baby you’re the one i want
at my wedding day but not
simply in the seats
darling you’ll be kissing me

baby you’re the one i want 
to grow older with but not
simply on this earth
i’ll love you forever n longer


you showed me what soul mates really were

wedding song

reborn again.

lines

winter no harmony

escape myself.

gyd.

me or a substance demo

religious

carpet surfing demo

d.a.r.e demo

em c g d
i’m always in the hole you know
i’ve lost con trol my nose
is blowing blow
and i’m not even high

it’s 32 de-grees i need to
peo-ple please my knees
are freezing bleeding out
and yet i’m fine

em g d
don’t you know at 23 years old is when you die
haven’t got no hope no joke you’ll die by suicide
every time december hits i slowly rot and writhe 
what makes it so different this time

c g d
happy birthday 
user, abuser
blow out candles wish for a future
happy birthday 
loser, peculiar 
cut the cake be a dang straight shooter
happy birthday
addict, it’s tragic
zero friends to mourn this passing
happy birthday 
you poor soul
this is what it’s like growing old

i’m clinically in-sane
my name is changing
as my brains decaying 
entertaining disappearing

and i’m so 
over getting older
fold the cards you loner
your poker face is not convincing

don’t you know at 23 years old is when you crash
haven’t got no hope no joke you’re literally trash
every time december hits i slowly rot and thrashe 
what makes it so different this pass
happy birthday 
user, abuser
blow out candles wish for a future
happy birthday 
loser, peculiar 
cut the cake be a dang straight shooter
happy birthday
addict, it’s tragic
zero friends to mourn this passing
happy birthday 
you poor soul
this is what it’s like growing old

hbd -

ear for an ear

track 8 on my new album Yellow, available on most music platforms.
go to https://www.annabellamusic.com/annabella-streaming-links 💛
or my website beyellow.live for more about me and the album

Yellow

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Full version of Annabella's "I Like Girls" cover recorded and arranged by Annabella (@annabellatte on tiktok). All music and lyrical riots go to Girl in Red, PbB Rock, Lil Skies, and their teams respectively.

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