lyrics 

i cant imagine it getting worse
u couldve told that i never learn
i couldnt answer before i turn
its homing a cancer thats never burnt 
i wish u knew how much it all hurt
i guess youll know when im in the dirt
u’d wish the same when im under earth

its over
its alright 
take time
youll be fine
the toxins
get released
my body 
gets erased
and i love it

i dont rest
ill take your breath
ill save you now
ull break me down
i know

i rip thru the sign
yeah
all of it sits in my mind
i got my plans and theyll work out in time
give me some time to get out of ur sight
i just needed someone on my side
im sitting back and along for the ride
im going blind sitting under these lights
i think ill head to a place less bright

i cant imagine it getting worse
u couldve told that i never learn
i couldnt answer before i turn
its homing a cancer thats never burnt 
i wish u knew how much it all hurt
i guess youll know when im in the dirt
u’d wish the same when im under earth

its over
its alright 
take time
youll be fine
the toxins
get released
my body 
gets erased
and i love it

Earthlings iii (hollowprpl + sorrowbringer)

the fear was born in this house
so i need to leave it here
but i can’t get out
it’s weighing me down
the worst of it has me now

i’m begging just let me go outside
i’m making up reasons now
i’m so used to having a bad time
and now i can’t phase it out

i thought i’d feel better at home
and i thought that you knew me but maybe you don’t
the walls that surround me crush right to the bone
but i’ve been so weak maybe it was my fault

the fear was born in this house
so i need to leave it here
but i can’t get out
it’s weighing me down
the worst of it has me now

born in this house [neverforever]

blow it off p. prodbychen

you fell and stained the ground beneath us 


prod/master: https://soundcloud.com/vito2300

feeling my body going numb
waiting but morning never come
i hope that god will forgive me 
oh the things that i've done
hurt somebody i needed
and somebody i loved
blood loss
my vision is starred,
hold on
i'm slowly reaching my fingers over top 
don't think there's ever been something 
that i feel like i want 

it's just the way that it goes
i know you feel like i don't 
like i don't love you at all 
i know it kills you the most
i never wanted to go 
i never wanted to stop 

i called your name a thousand times
and in my dreams i saw you die 
i saw the light fade out your eyes
and i woke alone,
and cried in case you
could hear me there
could hear me 
i screamed your name 
believe me 

(baby i wanted to stop 
got me praying to god 
love i'd do anything, i've
i've got my hand round the cross) 

i can feel the warmth 
drain out of your skin 
my shirt stole red from the cracks of your lips
i held you close and you felt so thin
i held you close like the way that you did 

i held you close
i held you close

you fell and stained the ground beneath us





i held you close

got another stomach ache
a new home, another shape
broke down on the tracks as you walked away
i’m missing home
i watched it burn today

i’ve been chasing dust
it’s such a long road
i’m walking it
two feet in the dirt
it’s a journey and i’m not equipped
climbing up the bridge to look down on this vacant town
but it’ll never feel the same since you’re gone
it’s a different sound

you would take my hand and tell me i am not a letdown
and if i fall this time you won’t be there
i’ll only hit the ground
i paint it all grey
to show there’s nothing left
i’m in a ghost town
one more day
i’ll no longer be around

stomach ache [deadends]

P. nomansland 

Support my friend enyu!

https://on.soundcloud.com/qUpx1yH6fYpXyzuuwE


Lyrics~

(Swamp) 

My lifes in a spiral 
And I just can’t seem to catch a break
When I tried this shit the passive way 
they hit me at a faster pace 
It was a massacre up there on that caligo hill
Sends A shiver down your serabelem, signal the chills 

Ok yeah I’m back up on attack, there’s just no foldin us 
Grab that ammo load it up 
It’s gettin kinda quiet on this California western front 
Give it all you can until you can’t and hope the war is almost done 
Shell shocked, you’ve had enough 

There you go, you’re telling yourself that never again 
Will you put you’re life on the edge for something that somebody said 
The battle goes on in your head 
And shurly you’ll face a certain death 
But I guess you love that shit because you never left 

(Enyu)

Loaded chambers caught in a deadlock
choke on me like a tight knot
rewinding all of my future plans
hailing down on me till my heart stop
yeah, but i’m still in it
guess i’m twisted
drawn to where i fucking bled
need some god to grant my wishes
rather than be fucking dead

i scrape my wounds when its dark
a shiver down my extremities
and while the whole world fell apart
i stand upfront with serenity
and when I turn around
the time has come for confession
to learn a beautiful lesson
i’m heading outbound
to fend off my imperfections

(Swamp)

Hopefully when the dust settles I’ll be alright 
All intact and alive 
The only loss being time 
Trying to figure out another way to save myself 
From the war in my head, it’s been a living hell

never ending spiral w/ enyu

lyrics

imma spike what i’m drinking
i don’t feel none now im high and im lifted
past the ceiling going to the moon
spike what im drinking
i dont feel no way about it, do it
bitch i hate my life too you need a different excuse
i don’t wanna be the one to leave the ends loose
i just copped that tshirt cuz it went well with the shoes
now i got loose threads
now baby im not sure where the mask starts and the truth ends

i been drinking
swear to God that i been drinking
can’t fight this feeling
wanna push my face through the drywall
baby blow my head off
shit look like a firework when you paint the wall
got different colors in this blunt shit look like paintball
the way she grab my tower she look like king kong
imma throw up the next morning i feel like godzilla
don’t fuck with me cuz i got killers
and you too soft like chinchilla
and you think you real but im way realer
i’m leaning like i’m skrilla every time that

imma spike what i’m drinking
i don’t feel nothing now im high and im lifted
past the ceiling going to the moon
spike what im drinking
i dont feel no way about it, do it
bitch i hate my life too you need a different excuse
i don’t wanna be the one to leave the ends loose
i just copped that t shirt cuz it went well with the shoes
now i got loose threads
now baby im not sure where the mask starts and the truth ends

girl you know id be lying if i said i ain’t excited when i call you
but baby what you calling for?
i’m still mad but that don’t mean i ain’t falling for you
girl you way too much
but you mean the world to me
and if i break this off come send the calvary
bet they don’t do much to me, got this big knife inside of my jeans
i’m smoking on autumn leaves
this keef treat me like creatine
be careful with my heart it’s leased
at the end of the day at least imma spike what i’m drinking

i don’t feel nothing now im high and im lifted
past the ceiling going to the moon
spike what im drinking
i dont feel no way about it, do it
bitch i hate my life too you need a different excuse
i don’t wanna be the one to leave the ends loose
i just copped that t shirt cuz it went well with the shoes
now i got loose threads
now baby im not sure where the mask starts and the truth ends

beer before liquor (p. under the maple tree)

lil vault drop in honor of my brother tiedforsilver getting married ❤️

lyrics

i’ll fight this
feeling but i can’t shake it off me
since when did doing this become a need?
fearing that my addictions may lead
to complacency 

i’ll fight this feeling but i can’t shake it off of me
since when did doing this become something that i need
i fear that my addictions may lead to complacency 
my self-destructive habits will become the death of me

if i don’t give them up
my life will end abrupt
so if you gave i fuck 
you would come interrupt 
and save me from corrupt 
thoughts that get me stuck
knee high deep under the fucking mud

i’ve been scared but i got nowhere to run
you think it’s fair when you’re the only one
who’s having fun
i’m fucking done
nothings new underneath the fucking sun

i wish i cared but i don’t and that’s just who i am
i’ll give you what you want to help or make you understand 
that moving forward in this life was never part of my plan

but please tell me that you’ll see me in the morning
you know where i’ll be wasting time bed rotting 
the songs i write are like a pointless fucking story
i know it’s bad but imma hit this till im coughing blood

never knew what is was like to be understood
till i met you now im gone and i wish i would, have
checked on you more often
please don’t be dead or in a fucking coffin yuh

i still remember 
your face that december
grey skies in the winter
cold nights make my hands tremor 

i’ve been getting sick of tryna find out where you went
asking anyone around but answers aren’t that confident 
yelling at myself like i was in a fucking argument 
maybe i look insane but that’s just fucking, that’s just part of it

i’ll never know where you went and maybe that’s okay
i just hope that you are in a better place
i wish you would’ve left hints that you’d come back some day
just know a part of me won’t let your memory fade
i would never let your memory fade

i hope ur in a better place w/ tiedforsilver & ryan kelly

flow

lyrics

only thing i wanna buy is time
when i blow up, selling tickets for free like shots at the line
you dont wanna play those games no more and thats fine
baby imma be alright
its like you know im waiting for the end when you drive straight to my house and you lift me up
wonder how i made it to my house when im this fucked up
none of this shit was ever in the playbook but i cant take the bus
half the shit i do, the moms on facebook like "control your son"
but this is all of my doing
havent been inside of my head as of late but now im tryna move in
tryna move on if you standing in front of me get out my way
i got them waiting on the next track, dont know what imma say yet
been going to sleep so high i cant tell if im even awake yet
should be a picture perfect life, somebody smeared up the painting

jai's lyrics soon...

chrysalis w/ love jai (p. under the maple tree)

produced by s0ftskelet0ns, who killed this shit
mastered by ne'erdowell
for my brother myles, whom i love

lyrics

I got a friend and he doesn't take enough care of himself
He prays for an end and he bides all his time reprimanding himself 
and he pushes out the cravings of what he really needs
For the habit he built

And he thinks his times up

He thinks she was the one
But it's not worth dying for her
Or the image you had of it all
There's more to this world
Than a girl that you never knew.

Who gave you the idea 
that you're unfit for love my friend
I think I put 2 and 2 together 
they mentioned s&m
That shit was never love and a kid
should never bear these things 
Why you take it out on yourself
There was no winning this

Why do you resign yourself to this mess
Oh Myles you know better

If it feels like you're decaying 
Then the first step isn't praying
Take your foot out of the grave 
And punch the world back in the face
You need some good shit in ur brain
Like Vitamins and sunny days 
You need a proper bit of steak
And then some beers with proper mates 

Why do you insist
On letting this bitch win
Myles you know better

And it's not worth dying for her
Or the image you had of it all
There's more to this world 
Than a girl.

flow

raevyn

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