produced by cxrter & retz
📸: cxrter

lyrics:
i’m so sick of the notion
they won’t ever understand 
got no things to put hope in
got me hanging by a strand
keep a cabinet open
and a bottle in my hand
found the pressure too potent
now i'm nothing like you planned
thought you wanted devotion
now you want some other man
got me stuck in a ocean
it’s high tide

everybody wanna know what i do
it doesn't matter
when i'm writing
swear it's pulling me through

we don’t talk like we did when we were close friends
i've been sick and tired, tying up my loose ends
she said i should go to bed, but i need one more
sorry baby, i know lately i'm an eyesore

yeah we used to want that house with picket fence
now summers almost over and you told me it depends
putting teardrops on my pants 
and now my music my one plan
i don’t wanna walk around it
quit the drama no offense
i’mma 
i’mma be who i'm destined to be
watching people pull me down
but i'm still on my feet
bet you’re looking at now
while i'm living out my dreams
never did it for myself
girl i did it for the weak

we don’t talk like we did when we were close friends
i've been sick and tired, tying up my loose ends
she said i should go to bed, but i need one more
sorry baby, i know lately i'm an eyesore

everybody wanna know what i do
it doesn't matter
when i'm writing
swear it's pulling me through
just hoping for some guidance
looking at my scars
on my cheeks and on my eyelids

like girl i feel it in my chest, when the night turns young i can feel it in my head now
why i’m feeling so depressed
but i try to talk about it
and it turns into a mess
i was just a kid now i'm losing all my hope
put a bounty on my head
point your gun and now i'm broke
wrong way wrong turn and now im dead weight
can't kick a habit
i can feel it on my worst days
they keep saying that im perfect
but u knew im never worth it
like i kept lying to ur face
now i'm going back to bed
but its been feeling like my grave

we don’t talk like we did when we were close friends
i've been  sick and tired, tying up my loose ends
she said i should go to bed but i need one more
sorry baby i know lately i'm an eyesore

eyesore w/ halfhearted (cxrter x retz)

lyrics

hammer in it
hammerin it
can u try to visit
damage in it
hoe i lived it
you could try to listen
if i went missing
i went missing
would u look for me
try to fix me
u cant fix it
can u try to fix it
hammer in it
hammerin it
can u try to visit
damage in it
hoe i lived it
you could try to listen
if i went missing
i went missing
would u look for me
try to fix me
u cant fix it
can u try to fix it

im chopped into spare parts
is it possible that u could lend a spare heart
i got half a mind to leave it to the deep dark
i got half a mind to burn it with a quick spark

can u hold me back 
while i detox
could there be another road
ion see one
its impossible to live in the deep end
its impossible to see when cash in

hammer in it
hammerin it
can u try to visit
damage in it
hoe i lived it
you could try to listen
if i went missing
i went missing
would u look for me
try to fix me
u cant fix it
can u try to fix it

its never been more over (sorrowbringer)

lyrics

fall in love with me again
wait in my coat while i smoke cigarettes
and plan to watch the sunrise, but fall asleep instead
i want to hold you like i used to
i want to tell you that i love you
we killed the tree and ripped the roots

and for now im no one
for now im no one
for now im no one
for now im no one
now im no one
now im no one
(x2)

i miss those nights 
cuddled up during the winter we're soul tied
my brains succumb to the wither on both sides
like fuck tryna forget her
cuz now im packing my bags
im building the bags under my eyelids
and you're too attatched
and im way too sad for it to be august
and yesterday holds memories that im losing
i dont remember much nowadays
i dont remember much nowadays

fall in love with me again
wait in my coat while i smoke cigarettes
and plan to watch the sunrise, but fall asleep instead
i want to hold you like i used to
i want to tell you that i love you
we killed the tree and ripped the roots

and for now im no one
for now im no one
for now im no one
for now im no one
now im no one
now im no one
(x2)

for now, im no one (p. muzcean)

lyrics ⬇️ 

its been a lot to bottle up what ive become
ive came to terms with what id done a year ago
but i forgot how we had met and how it crashed and how it burned
you said it would all be worth it in the end maybe wed learn

what i wanted ended faster than i hoped for
its been exhausting my whole memory straight folklore
yea i see dreams along my hall
its been weeks since we last called
maybe i should write it off
i would rather lay than talk

i take anger out on everybody that dont deserve it
but when its wearing off i promise you ill feel like a burden
so when im hurting really bad ill make sure they know im alright 
i did everything i could with what i had i tried fight

but it aint go to plan whenever other thoughts arrived
it made me realize how i wasted all my time

In 2019 i was lost and then i packed my bags im gone
you can’t remind me how i felt unless you slash me with sword
hold tight yea hold tight yea hold tight to me tonight
i have an awful feeling this will be the last time i cry

so if it is please don’t remind me i wont be there tomorrow 
and i regretted when you caught my only shot my only arrow

its only fair tho
i was at my lowest point and i was acting like a scarecrow 
i dont care no

act like you know me like you know how it goes
on the daily
just a microdose 
i think im coming close
please save me


you hate me, i know I been wrong 
im sorry im sorry
full sprint i been on the wrong road
ill hurry ill hurry
hardly what you know you deserve
i wish i had all of that
car crash it hit the curb 
it could be worse-that family okay




yea, way way too quick its a blur
i can’t conjugate i slur
i told my parents im at work- work
think i need a clerk- clerk
before its gets way worse
cuz i can foresee what im talkin bout im jus waitin my turn

my stomach burns -burns
i flip and turn -turn
in my sheets
i cant sleep

hold tight (under the maple tree)

she said that i need help like what abt it luv
better let her leave than watch it fuck me up
bruises under belt, you can see the swell
cause when i dwell in mirror never see myself

take me out this season
this sunlight never seep thru
my window, and rarely see it
same here, i'm barely bleeding
baby i really wanna leave to jus stay alone
cause if we take it slow i know my brain might make u home

sitting back in my room 
all I do is wrong
big bowl high asf
imma get me gone
I forget all the things
all the time that we lost
is it bad i dont care
I don't want this at all

ive been on the bench
I cannot play
I sit this out
my lifes been such a mess
I try my hardest to figure it out

part ways time to time
like we're old clothes
started off a secret
like nobody knew
frown on my face
when was this world so cold?

it was always cold
situation I froze
I don't know what to do
I don't know where to go
I feel like a burden I cant help this tho

she said that i need help like what abt it luv
better let her leave than watch it fuck me up
bruises under belt, you can see the swell
cause when i dwell in mirror never see myself

what_abt_it w/ yungcray (flyfx)

i'll try to remember

gravel road 
driving home
every pothole in wisconsin
people grow
i dont know
if we have much in common, anymore

iv been one with the silence
only you can fill my void
promise that im trying
promise this was not my choice

cuz all that i know is defeat
white flags, running back to places iv seen
i know this damn movie by scene and Frame
and characters names
turn it off

its been hard to be honest
i hate whay iv done
left at the bottom
im one with the mud
was never the fondest 
of showing you love
but ill still deposit
your rent every month

half of these problems 
i did it just to make you mad
if im not an option
dont say you will take me back

phone screen just faded black
i couodnt call
board up my windows im sick of your cold
youre passive aggresivly gaining control
remember that halloween
i made you my home

babe its not you it was me
self inflicted wound where i bleed
you had all that i need
if these walls could feel tension theyd scream

a movie i’ve memorized [jacob vallen]

prod. yami's sin and me

i left the light on just incase you turn around
but the hallway stays quiet not a single sound
theres a cup on the counter still half full
the echoes keep whispering what i cant undo

ive been chasing ghosts in the static air
everything you said still hanging there
the walls know your name better than I do
they're repeated in the dark, soft but loud too
and maybe I should've let things die
but im still asking the silence why
you said you'd stay but I should've known
you'd love to leave right before you're shown

and ive been sleeping with my eyes half shut
dreaming of you just to wake up cut
and every promise you made turns to dust
im tired of pretending to em instead of being lost
you cause heartbreaks just to pass time
you call it closure, but I ask why
talk to the ceiling just get by
love doesn't end it just learns to lie

sleepwalker

prod sorrow bringer x tiedforsilver

lyrics:

can you taste it? baby come alive
feel the heart beat beat like ur running out of time
3 shots deep but i believe im doin fine
thats why i shouldnt buy cheap might as well be shooting wine
baby stand by me we gon have a good time
baby bare those teeth i might have to bare mine
no my heart dont beat but its me inside
sleeping thru the day then we feast in the night

died off once
i wont die off now
we all die one day
no grave no funeral
take a lie down
see u thru the blinds
wishin i lived life
a little less unusual
tie off
try to heal the bite
take a light
to the knife
cauterize
but it seems unuseful
bloodshot eyes
why u seem surprised
thought that u had surmised
that i'm nothing like you know

cannot wait another night
lemme take another bite
lemme take you to a new home
they wanna put me on a pike
well id like to see them try
getting blood all on my new clothes
do u notice what im like
and just say that u dont mind
do u rly think im pitiful?
i think that youll be my demise
but i know just what i like
and i know that u look beautiful

look at me
hard to tell that im deceased
but if u look beneath
youll see things u shouldnt see baby
lets keep it brief
im the only one u need
when i sink my teeth in
u will not believe it baby

bleed out love
count it as a win
lived a thousand lives 
that u wouldnt wanna live no
when i live like this
look me in the eyes
do u rly think that we could coexist?

died off once
i wont die off now
we all die one day
no grave no funeral
take a lie down
see u thru the blinds
wishin i lived life
a little less unusual
tie off
try to heal the bite
take a light
to the knife
cauterize
but it seems unuseful
bloodshot eyes
why u seem surprised
thought that u had surmised
that i'm nothing like you know

The Gift (sorrow bringer x tiedforsilver)

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birthday :D

if comfort was found within a soul
you gave it to me
3 years later it’s slipping away
that text i received

it’d been dragging out for a while
but not something i believed
i held onto hope you would find comfort in me
it’s so stupid now i see

still don’t know how you view me in your mind
i hope for you i was clear
you wrote me a letter i framed it with glass
to protect it from my tears

listen to my words
you are not a letdown
you didn’t need to leave
not one regret that i talked to you
your face is in my dreams



flow

raevyn